My Boss, My (Ex) Boyfriend
82. There's No Sorry
"What the fuck!" He wanted to get up but Davin's strong arm suddenly pulled him into his arms, embracing him as warm as those beautiful years.
"Rein, do you hate me?"
Silently, Rein instantly remained silent when he heard this 'strange' question coming out of Davin's mouth, from the mouth of the heartless man who had once broken his heart.
"Do you.. hate me, baby?" Davin asked again with both obsidians coldly glued to the top of Rein's head.
He stroked the top of Rein's head with his cheek, feeling the soft, fragrant strands he had longed for for years but could only feel through endless dreams.
"Darling?" Davin is drunk and Rein is convinced that Davin is unaware of what he is saying right now.
Bringing Rein to sleep in the same bed and hugging her as tightly as possible like their warm years.
"Davin," Rein closed his eyes withstanding the tightness and longing.
"I really hate you so much." Rein said venting the annoyance of his heart.
"You were the first person to make me this hateful and angry." Rein continued to make Davin increasingly tighten his embrace to Rein.
"I'm sorry, honey. I'm wrong.I'm wrong but please don't leave me, please don't let me be lonely in that house again." Davin pleaded with a small sobbing sound.
He was like a child who was persecuted, unable to sleep without being with his parents.
"Davin," Rein was speechless.
Honestly, he was very surprised to hear Davin's confession but his heart refused to believe even though he knew very well when drunk people tended to be more honest and trustworthy.
"I will never forgive you even if you cry like this because the pain you give is too painful. I would be so unfair to Tio and myself if I forgave you."
Although he still loves Davin, even though the feeling is still the same even though it has been through painful years, and even though the man who still occupies the highest throne in his heart is Davin, he was still reluctant to give up all his bitter experiences.
He hates Davin, right, but his tender feelings of sadness cannot be lied to. He is still stuck in the past so his heart is difficult to apologize to Davin.
It felt really unfair to Tio as well as to himself.
"Darling.don't go.." Please Davin with a voice that is getting smaller and quieter.
"Basic drunk!" Said Rein exasperatedly holding back grudgingly while breaking away from Davin who had entered the dreamland.
Standing up, he looked at Davin wrathfully before turning out of Davin's room with large strides. Leaving Davin in a room with a silence that had existed for many years. But this time it was a little different because there was a warm ray coming back to light up his house, shining faintly like those years.
"I know this isn't fair to you and Tio, I know baby..." Davin said suddenly after opening his eyes.
He was drunk but not really drunk. He was still able to maintain his consciousness and was also still able to remember well what Rein said earlier.
For the painful years that Rein went through because of him, he would pay for them even if he had to beg for Rein's apology.
Since the year he made the decision he already knew if this day was going to happen, he had to fight back to build Rein's trust in him again and be willing to forgive him back for starting their relationship from scratch.
"And I also know that your first impression of meeting me after those years must have been very painful, I'm really sorry for that..." His sigh re-remembered the unexpected day when he first met Rein after a long separation.
It felt so happy, as if all the waiting was over. But the most unexpected thing was that he could not control his sharp speech when talking to Rein, and this only got worse when he knew Rein had been living with Dimas during their separation.
Davin was angry and he was jealous. His head never stopped thinking that the two of them had ever combined love?
Or establish a relationship?
Davin wondered and he almost went crazy every time he thought.
"But I promised Rein" he said, taking something from the drawer.
Taking a sweet photo of Rein laughing happily in his arms - that time of year.
"I will treat you very well from now on, reliving our warm days with Tio, our son." His fingers rubbed against Rein's soft face, he longed to see that Rein could laugh after this.
Looking at the sumringah smile on her red lips, the gentle gazes from both of her peach eyes, and the heartfelt feeling she would never get from any woman, she said,
Davin misses him a lot.
"I promise," His whisper was determined.
"That's why I'm coming back to see you so that this injustice you feel I can eliminate, Rein."