Dear Imamku
Desperate Asa
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"Friend is not about who you have known for a long time, but about who comes to your life and never leaves you. May our friendship be dropped from boredom and begin to be lazy to play together."
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It's been a week since my birthday celebration was celebrated and today I have my first national exam at High School. Soon I will be separated from some friends and friends at once, this is not a separation but a pending union.
I looked at the smiling face of Brother Farzan after sitting down and driving the car, after this, he was going to Jakarta again to take care of something, either I'm lazy to ask if he's not the one to tell, he's gone again for three days, sucks.
Silence is back. Farzan was busy with his cell phone. You know, I don't like Farzan like this. Does Brother Farzan have an affair? God, why am I thinking about this? Naudzubillahimindzalik. May it not happen in my life and brother Farzan.
And Zahra? Is Farzan communicating with Zahra now? Oh my God, why am I running away like this? I'm tending to zoudzon with him for a week. Ah, my thinking is not zoudzon!
I blame the radio and look for music that I think is good to drive away my current turmoil, until the seventh song with the title yesterday that might describe my mood now.
Yesterday, you were still here.
With me enjoy this taste, please,
I wish it would never end
with you.
With you, with you,
yesterday the world looked so beautiful,
and with you feeling all this,
passing through this black and white life....
“I also like the song, got hit with the song,” said Kak Farzan.
“Call with Zahra? “ my. I don't know why I have to question this, when I know everything, not that I allow Brother Farzan to marry Zahra if I don't leave me, but right now I have to be honest, I really don't want it, I don't even really want it.
“Gee, why are you? “thanya brother Farzan who is still busy driving. Look, he didn't notice me!
“No, Adibah is okay. Why is Farzan? This week is more often busy with mobile phone kak Farzan than Adibah. “
“I'm busy because of my job, baby. Just taking care of you needs a big struggle for what to look for another.” He must be kidding!
“Honesty is usually at the end. Where would you like brother Farzan to be honest with me now,” ketusku.
“You need proof how? Would you like to come to Jakarta too? You are a test.”
“This is what brother Farzan likes. Just go it alone. “
“I promise after going home later, I will bring two large teddy bears and some small teddy bears so that Adibah is not lonely anymore. “
“No need. Brother Farzan is out of town every week and I am alone again, brother Farzan is not afraid that I will be kidnapped by bad people? Brother Farzan m-“
“This is why you are angry? You do not know at the door there is CCTV even when your friend tried to open the door of the apartment was also recorded there. And whoever did it will be found,“ said Farzan, occasionally looking at me.
“What if he does not know that there is CCTV?” I asked, with a look that never looked at him.
"Can be followed up, after that, Adibah, you have to hear this. Whatever is mine is impossible to let go of" said Farzan.
I shut up and then went back to talking, "Keep how did Zahra get away? Farzan's sister lied, right?"
"You're too sensitive to me. He's my past, what's the connection to all this for? I told you before, that I love you more now than Zahra!"
"When Zahra takes care of your son? " Skat now! She's quiet. Wait, why did Farzan's face change like that? Is he angry? "Sister Farzan, the same as Adibah? sorry brother," I said.
"It's okay. I'm still thinking about how this could happen. I've never seen that child, astagfirullah means my son."
"Sister Farzan? "
He was about to explain but I opened the car door and got out. Actually I want to hear his explanation but now is not the right time because soon the exam will begin and maybe at this time I have to play with Farzan.
He honked his car horn, I turned to look at him with a flat face like Adibah, instead of getting angry he chuckled at me. She why? He turned his car around and left. Shit, no apologies! Was he never sensitive!!
While in class, I saw some of my friends who were still studying, he was diligent in my opinion. I learned last night, helped not help Farzan, I don't think need to be told when Farzan began to interfere with my concentration while studying, once again annoying!
Unintentionally my view captured the figure of Fauzi who was playing a game that was on the rise in Indonesia at this time, he was indeed typical of the most relaxed man I had ever known. During school at MAN 1, I had never once seen him study for an exam, and oddly enough he could always take classes, he was good at cheating. It's free to take care of other people's lives.
Waitaminute! Why is Fauzi looking at me? It's not like I told him to stay away from me for a while. Oh, Adibah pretended not to see him and returned to your place where Jihan and Dani were sitting, hurry up.
After arriving at my place Nurpika smiled at me, why is she sitting there? I mean, sit in my place.
“Why sit in my place? “ my question sounds annoyed, they are used to this tone.
Nurpika shook her head. “Please will start soon. Quickly learn. “
“Continue I sit where? “ my question while looking around me that can already be said there is no empty place.
Actually our exam place is not here, but in the computer Laf only the exam hours have not started so we have to study in class first, when the new exam time can be to laf.
“Sit here. “ A man from behind is talking-he is Fauzi, why is he? I turned to look at him. “Come, sit here. We learn together.” Can I be honest now? A Fauzi wants to learn? It is truly a wonder of the world.
I turned around smiling in response to Fauzi's words without a word and returned to my original position. I'm trying to forget him now, uh wrong, not forget but eliminate the feeling of ah errat now there is no feeling I have towards Fauzi.
Allah is the One who turns over his servant's heart. Someone I didn't love at first now I love and someone I originally love now has no feelings for her anymore, meaning I no longer love her.
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The apartment looks very sepih, every day is always quiet. It's still working time for Farzan, he won't call now, usually he calls at 15:00 and now it's 14:50 means five more minutes he'll call.
I'm trying to cook to treat my boredom, you know, there's been a little bit of progress in me now, I've been good at cooking rice and some sea like beef-eye eggs, fried tempeh and many more that I can not explain all. And now I have to cook instant noodles, foods that don't take much time to cook.
The clock is showing at 15:02 but Farzan hasn't called me yet, is he too busy now? Farzan Dibah misses! Come on call now.
Or should I start now? Yes it is not bad for me to try, especially he has also been my husband now and forever, amen. But when I call”, what will I ask? Did I say I missed? Ah he can make fun of me later! Before he left, I was mad at him, so let him start. No, I need to start now!
I almost called Farzan, he called me first. Excellent inner bond.
“Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi. What was? “ my question, pretend not to care about him.
“Wa’alaikumsalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. How are you doing? “ he turned around asking! You old doctor!
“When did Farzan come home? “
“If asked yes answered not asked back. “ What? If asked, don't ask back? Oye! What was she? Tipping back? Obviously, he didn't answer my question and instead asked back! He's still two heads but he's senile! “You've eaten? “ he asked again.
“Adibah, I AM SERIOUS, “ he said, deliberately pressing the word SERIOUS.
“Not yet, Dibah not hungry.”
“What is the mi supply up? May I ask Mahesa to bring you martabak? Or fried rice is the thick left mustache mas?” it was her tanya that made me chuckle to hear it. Turns out he still remembers my outpouring in his car.
“That was a lie. Dibah already cooked noodles, later want to eat.” I dropped my ass on the floor to sit down, I'm currently on cape.
“Ya already, you eat first, later continue the phone again. “ Kak Farzan to turn off his phone.
“Later in the past, Dibah still want to talk to brother Farzan while eating, today just-ah wrong, he meant when kak Farzan out of town, let Dibah not alone.”
“OK, mi you have not cooked yes?”
“Udah almost cook, do not turn off the phone, yes.” I got up from my seat and put the phone on the dining table and took care of the noodles in the kitchen.
When I finished, I went back to the dinner table to talk to Farzan's brother - the man who is now and then my husband. “Assalamualaikum,” I said when the phone was stuck to my left cheek. A few minutes waiting, I could hear Farzan's voice. “From anywhere? “
“Sorry, there was a patient,” he said. It sounds around so rame. Is he bringing his cell phone? Usually when he arrived at the hospital, he always put his phone in his room not to take it as it is now.
“Sister Farzan is now right in the hospital? “ my question ensures. I think I found an awkwardness with Brother Farzan.
“Iya I'm in the hospital. Again want to order this food, I happen to be lazy to eat hospital-style food. Suddenly I miss your cooking Adibah. “
I smiled hearing it. “Makanya do not go out of town, so you can eat Adibah cuisine. “
“You've eaten now? “
“Again want to eat this, brother Farzan know, this is the first time I cook noodles not to be exposed to hot water again,” I said, maybe he's laughing now - I can hear his voice laughing through my phone.
"Great." one word that could make me smile to hear it. "Other times masakin me mi too yes, so I can eat together. "
Half an hour was quick when there was so much talk between me and Farzan today, which means so much. I don't want to lose him, I mean disconnect the phone and want to call him on.
Astagfirullah, I almost forgot to pray asar today. His intention was after eating directly salat but had to be delayed because Farzan kak this error because I myself asked Farzan to continue talking with him, until half-four.
Just the day he left I missed him so much. Hopefully, when the teddy bear comes home later also so that the number of dolls I more, right now there are ten large dolls and five small dolls are worrisome, so that later more and more.
Remembering when Farzan was upset with the doll he bought himself, it was all because I always put the teddy bear in our middle instead of where it meant above us. Remember also when he had to sleep on the sofa just because it was not part of the bed.
The first time, Brother Farzan came out of town, Aqilah did not come to take me, ah instead she almost miscarried because Zahra came back! I hated that woman - Zahra, the ex-wife of Farzan, I was sick of hearing or saying her name!
Can love grow with money? I wonder at those who are willing to marry people he does not love just because of money. For as long as I lived, I never dreamed of marrying a rich man, I only dreamed of being able to marry the man I love first - the man Fauzi I once loved, not love but a taboo feeling that I consider love, very silly.
O God, I thank you for the destiny that You have written for me, this fate that I can say is so perfect, meet a man who can love me with all the flaws I have. The man who always patiently accepts the childish nature I have, I don't know, how patient he is to face a woman like me.
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Jihan held my hand tightly. After school, she told me about her wedding which will be celebrated after graduation, Jihan only got to know her - Abdul Wahib, a man devoted to being a lieutenant general.
Who wouldn't want to marry a soldier? But for Jihan, it is now very different that she is married because of an arranged marriage and without the slightest love.
“In shaa Allah he is best for you Ji. I was also originally like that same brother Farzan, not having the slightest feeling but what? Look now, I've loved him so much why can I love him? I always pray that God will give us love. The best is not always in the beginning, in shaa Allah is also at the end.”
Jihan lowered her head while rubbing the tear marks on both her cheeks. Fortunately when we returned home from school musolah very quiet, otherwise, maybe many have seen us.
“I don't know, if I can like to him later, Dibah. I never dreamed of being able to get married after the end, this is my father's will Dibah, he asked me to marry him. he said I was quite mature,” said Jihan, he looks very sad about this incident. As a friend I can feel this way especially I have been in the position of Jihan.
“Your father is right Jihan. You are an adult, you always give me solutions when I almost give up, you are my encouragement, With this height of 149 cm you already have a mature nature, believe me. Dad once said, a woman's maturity can be seen when she has problems, and I always see your maturity at that time, Ji. “ I rubbed the stage Jihan started hugging me. “Trust me, God has a beautiful groove for his patient servant,”.
In the Jihan family, a woman who graduated from High School is indeed obliged to be married immediately, otherwise she will be very difficult to marry in the future somehow where they concluded it, but I don't think that's true.
“At the time I met yesterday. He's handsome Dibah,” he said, taking off his embrace from me. “That's perfect, and another one, she's got a roll, I love to see when she laughs, her teeth look so much. Kak Farzan's got dimples and Abdu's got shakes. Shortcomings that are targeted by many people,” he said, laughing.
“And now say goodbye to your dream of marrying Aliando Syarif, because soon it will be a dream,” I said with a sad tone.
Jihan chuckles at my words. “Please say goodbye to Reza Rahardian. Because now your dream will not be realized again.”
“Oh. No! Do you know the movie My stupid boss? Which Kirani is you know? “ I asked back in a nod by Jihan, “Actually the main cast is me, not what is his name? Kirani's real name I forgot. “
“Eriska Rein? “ answer.
I'm silent, is Kinani's real name, Eriska Rein? Ah I don't know, I really don't know, tomorrow when Farzan's brother comes home I will ask, he will now in Jakarta must have met a famous artist.
“Maybe, but I'm not sure either. Later, if Brother Farzan has come home, I will ask him what the name of the real Kirani. “
“But by the way, what happened to Kirani? “ asked Jihan, making me realize that this is not so important right now. As stupid as Jihan was, she still wouldn't believe that I was being serious.
“Yes too yes, "
At the end of our conversation, Jihan and I laughed at how when we were all separated, maybe I couldn't get on like my best friends now.
Friends are not about who you have known for a long time, but about who comes to your life and never leaves you. May our friendship be dropped from boredom and start lazy to play together.
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Yesterday, you were still here.
With me enjoy this taste, please,
I wish it would never end
with you.
With you, with you,
yesterday the world looked so beautiful,
and with you feeling all this,
passing through this black and white life....
Dhuha.
The one who istiqomahs doing dhuha prayers will later enter heaven through a special door, namely the dhuha door ^_^
The warning!!
The world is a jewel, and the finest jewel of the world is the woman of prayer.
Hrs. Muslims