Dear Imamku
Gathering

"The taqdir was enjoyed not changed"

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Incidentally in this room there is already a school uniform so I can go straight to school without going home again. First day without dad. Don't be weak Daddy must be happy to see you now, he's sure you must be strong.

In this room is complete with everything, even things that I do not need will already be here such as makeup tools even to school I never use those tools. Father said, my face is still very easy for such tools.

I don't know how rich the doctor was up to the room had to be this grand. Even my room is not like this, if I expect my room to be three times this, so the extent of the class can live in this room.

So wide it makes me unable to sleep well. Maybe because it's still new usually dad always comes in to cheer me up, telling me an angel I haven't seen in all this time, a very perfect angel in my eyes. Yes my mother said my father and mother's faces were almost similar so if I wanted to see my mother just look at my face. Dad always told me that until I fell asleep.

Once everything is ready I don't know what else to do. It's my first time here, the way to school I don't know, not even a penny. How about school? Hp is there, the pulse is not there.

Geck! Geck! Geck!

Someone is knocking on the door. I step my foot towards the source of the sound to display the figure of the doctor standing.

She smiles. Is my cheek not flushed at the moment? I hope not.

"You want to go to school? " it's stupid to see me in my school uniform.

"Yes wants. It's already seven o'clock now that class has started, "I said scowling.

"But... How yes? " He was silent if he wanted to say something. "Today's our wedding, right? "

Deg.

I forgot about that. If I was with him I could have heart disease. It's okay at least I can see you as soon as possible.

"T... But," I said nervously.

"Why? "

It feels like something is whispering. 'You must be damned! It's because of your father. Marry her. Yesterday you promised the doctor. ' O God, what fate have you written for me?

I smiled, Bismillah. "No, forget it, sir, now right? Sorry I forgot so don't get ready first, "my words normalize facial nosebleeds.

I accidentally caught the happiness in him. Is she happy to marry me? Or is he smiling just for something else? "Jaudah we just order clothes and then the meeting will begin. "

"So Be changed first or wear this only Doctor? "

He's nodding. "It's time to go to the boutique in uniform. Let's say I kidnapped you." She laughs.

"But, Mr Doctor if it goes to the clothing store directly so? I guess I have to wait."

"We buy the first one. Entar if the recipe has just been sewn. Now the marriage contract so it does not have to be too grand. "

I nodded ."Yaudah, Mr. Doctor comes out first, Adibah wants to change his clothes." As requested, the doctor came out.

Just like the first one met. I haven't seen the doctor's face in a long time. I haven't been able to draw any conclusions if it's good-looking or not, all I've seen is his nose and dimples. The doctor had a sharp nose and had a dimple on his left cheek.

If the matter is ready or not to marry the doctor I can not answer. Sometimes there are times when I accept fully and sometimes there are times when it is the other way around. And may Allah give a beautiful destiny after this for me and the doctor as well.

I hope one day I will love the doctor directly and hopefully he is a good priest for me. The priest will lead me to Jannah. A soul mate is a reflection of morals and I know my character is still not perfect, I hope he is my role model later.

I was in my room for ten minutes until I got out. I saw the doctor reading one of the Koran's letters. He was so solemn that he didn't notice my arrival. Can I be honest? I love it when I read the Quran, it looks different from him now. He looks very handsome. O Allah, I looked over at him. He's not legal for me yet.

"Sodakallahul. " The doctor closed the Koran. Maybe he realized my arrival or he was going to stop, either. "Is he ready?"

I nodded, "The reading of the holy verse is over, doctor? If not. Nothing Dibah wait until the doctor read sir kelar."

"Yes, it's finished reading. Come onl. " He passed out leaving me . It's always like this.

Dear organs called the heart please walk too much motion well inside me uncomfortable because. Hopefully, the doctor will not hear your voice.If he hears it he will know I am uncomfortable and the event becomes void. Eh wait! Why am I like this? As if I was very reminded of this happening, ah I am not like this because I just know the doctor and do not want to make him wait too long, what if he considers me not good? Ugly right?

Just this time the temperature in the doctor's car became very cold, my body felt shivering here. "Sir Doctor, "call me.

I always called him doctor because I didn't know his name. Strange, no, our marriage is just waiting for the hour but I don't know his name yet. Don't blame me for all this because he didn't introduce his name. It's not that I don't want to give up but it's a fact.

The doctor turned to look at me. I who was looking at him now bow my head back. "Yes what's wrong? " sanyanya.

"The temperature can be reduced a little bit? It's cold for you." I started to shiver.

"When the air temperature is so low why can it still be cold? And if it's turned off the air must still be cold, "he said.

I'm silent. No longer able to speak. Though I have been very used to the temperature of AC but again somehow I can be cold like this.

It sounded faintly he said "have waited." I don't know what the doctor's words mean. Until something warm stuck in my body. I looked up to see his presence next to me.

I was silent, unable to move. He put his suit on my body, I'm stiff in this position. Heart this time alone do not show your habits, not until he hears your voice.

Our views meet. He looks at me, so do I. It was as if we were cursed to be statues in this position.

I realized one thing. "Stop! " my yell started to back off a few inches with him until the jacket attached to my body just fell off. And take my eyes off her.

O God what sin am I doing now? Why do I always forget this when I'm with the doctor? Like I was drugged by it.

"No! Not that, I just wanted to give this suit to you. " He started getting out of his car and got back into his place.

"Why not just turn off the AC? " I got back in her suit.

"This has turned off the AC. It was raining outside, just look at my shirt until it was alkaline because the rain, "he said, never looked at me. "Is this your phobia?"

I'm nodding. "Maybe. Because every rain I shiver like this. Wait, I remember my father saying when I shivered in the cold he once said that mother also has a habit like Dibah always cold when it rains, our endurance may be weak, " I obviously held the cold.

She's quiet. Maybe he felt awkward being close to me. Is it true that the doctor is awkward? Fortunately I am the type of person who is awkward not often, if there is a drought maybe I will like a doctor sir.

"The baby is near." He drove his car into the parking lot. Eventually he stopped his car. "This is my aunt's boutique."

I'm nodding. Is he from a rich family? Just look at the button until it's this big. I just saw it from the outside like this. The building in the world alone is this grand, and what about your jannah, O Allah?

"Why shut up? " he asked when he opened the door for me.

"It's still raining" I sniffled.

"Udah no, look it's just a drizzle, "he said waving his hand to the sky.

I finally had to go down. As early as I met, he always preceded me on the road. Did he forget that I was cold now? What if I suddenly fainted and he just passed by without realizing I was being kidnapped, how? Is he capable of looking for me? Let's hope someone kidnaps me now! Let him know the taste and not leave the girls behind him!

"Why are you staying there? Wait, is anyone gonna kidnap you? " he shouted as if he knew my thoughts.

Quickly I ran. Let no one kidnap me on my heart, O God. "Sir Doctor," called me when my position was at his side. I think I'm walking with my brother. I'm only up to his shoulder. Is he too tall or am I too short?

"Why? Anyone want to kidnap you? Or are you still cold? " he's like a journalist. Too many questions.

I shook my head, "No! But Dibah is afraid of the Doctor."

"What are you afraid of? I'm coming with you no one will dare with you" he said. "And wait, just this once don't call me doctor sir inside, how about someone hear that my candidate still calls me doctor."

"I'm sorry, Dibah don't know the name of Mr. Doctor, "I'm back down.

"My name is Farzan Rayhaan Shakeil. Just call Farzan, "teach him like teaching a Elementary school boy mention the word.

"That's long, Farzan Herman-"

"Edd! Why is there a Herman? " she patted her jidat in frustration. "Farzan Rayhaan Shakeil's. Is this your phobia too? " he laughed at me. Fuck up!

"Sir Doctor is called an extension! " whistled.

"Wait, isn't your name three words? Adibah Sakhila Atmarini, right? But I have already memorized your name. "

"That's because the Doctor is old." What did you say Adibah? You said he was old? Finish riwatatmu!

She laughs. It's weird he should be mad because I called old. Did he know I was just talking? How would he be offended that he might still be twenty.

"Pak-" I shut my mouth spontaneously. "eh means Kak Farzan Her. It's so hard!" Mumbles.

"Call Kak Farzan, "he whispered. There are so many people here that he does not whisper that everyone can hear.

He stopped right in front of a woman. I dare not look at her, I am ashamed if I should see her.

"Eh you are Zan, " said the woman in the long hijab while hugging Kak Farzan. The hijab is the same as the one I wear is just a different color I am purple while she is blue. And who is he? "said you want to get married? Aunty joined the happy aunt's nephew finally married too, and undo his intention to marry at the age of twenty-seven years."

"Hehehe... Thank goodness aunt."

"Is this your candidate? " He pointed at me.

"Yes she's aunty, her name is Adibah Sakhila Atmarini. This adibah is my aunt, Jumiati. "he said introducing us.

"Beautiful as well." With great courage I smiled in response to Aunt Jumiati's words. To be honest, I'm awkward to be in this position. "because a aunt's niece wants to marry whatever she likes is free for both of you." He patted Farzan's shoulder.

"It's just a aunt's marriage contract, so not too festive. Let's say the recipe is new. " Brother Farzan laughed.

"Oh, is it Umi and Abi you haven't returned yet? " The woman was sitting on the sofa that was already there. "Let's sit down."

"Umi and abi will be home in three months. Today her marriage contract so aunty show a dress that is suitable for Farzan candidates. Aunt is present too, right? "

"Just be clear. When the aunt's niece who married even a aunt did not go." He said while chuckling. "If the matter of reverberation is calm, aunt has prepared it for." Aunt Jumiati is silent, probably forgetting my name.

"Was he? "

"Yes it's Dibah." He laughed with Kak Farzan. "a aunt who takes care of your candidate and who takes care of your clothes let Beti."

"Why should a auntie? " ask Kak Farzan in wonder.

"Not a girl but a sissy," whispered aunt Jumiati. I was surprised when I heard Beti said I thought women turned out to be sissy.

"Well God's aunt is there nothing else? Farzan is disgusted about aunty." I smiled seeing his face. He was afraid of the creature too.

"There's a girl." Farzan looked at me as if asking me for permission. Why did he ask permission to me was not legal for him but if honestly I was jealous anyway. He meant jealousy because I was going to marry him, not because I liked him.

I looked at him pouting. I said I was jealous so I definitely didn't like it. Even if I didn't tell him directly.

"Jaudah, it's okay aunt. Let Beti take care of Farzan, "he said resignedly. He looks worried like that. I was staring at him again? I am ashamed, O God.

"Is this because of Adibah? " Aunte Jumiati looked at me while raising her eyebrows.

"Well, will she be Farzan's aunt's wife, what if Farzan falls in love with aunty's staff? "

Uhuk!. Uhuk!. Uhukk!

Farzan. "You why? Still chilly? You mending rest first, let me choose the clothes," he asked enthusiastically. It could be that my guess was right that Kak Farzan was a journalist!

Until Aunt Jumiati came to bring me some water. Since when did he go to fetch water? Why didn't I realize? It's all because of Brother Farzan!

"Drink first baby, "the word of Aunt Jumiati who gave me a glass of water. "Why were you? "

"It's okay to let the girl take care of Kak Farzan. It's okay to be broken. "

"It's okay, but the sentence is like this. Aunty jealousy began to look de Farzan, see his cheeks now reddened," said aunt Jumiati while pinching both cheeks.

"Instead of this, I don't go mending long enough to choose his clothes." He passed away. Maybe he was also awkward with this kind of situation.

"Wait on! " Brother Farzan stop. "Sister Farzan wants to go to Beti's place, right? " It's not that I'm jealous, but it's just that he went with a sinful woman, too, right for her? So this is my way to keep him from sin.

He nodded, "You want to come? " savour.

"Yes Adibah wants to come, "I said starting to approach Farzan.

"Wait, if Beti takes care of you two what about Faradillah? Jennah's? And my other staff? "

I'm back in silence. I don't want to be alone, what if Kak Farzan really fell in love with aunty Jumiati employee? O God of what mind is this! Don't let that happen.

"It's okay, Adibah goes with Farzan alone aunt. The clothes must also be a deal both, rather than the Beti tired of being here and there to show clothes. Although Beti is used to it but this time different aunt. " Boyang Farzan looked at me. "Come," call him.

Seen aunt Jumiati smiling looking at us both.

"So you were jealous? " ask Brother Farzan when I'm next to him.

It's true he's too tall. I'm 150cm tall maybe he's 160cm. "How many cm tall? " sanyanya.

"175 cm why? Am I too tall? It's not me who's too tall but you who's too short." She laughs. I want to chop up that body and I'll go down to the piranha fish pond!

Patience, patience. You have to get used to this attitude. My guess is wrong, I guess he's grown up it turns out to be like this!

"Wait for my question to be answered. You're jealous that I'm both with Beti? Relax Adibah I will not fall in love with Beti I am still normal in that, I am also disgusted if the same hick." She laughs.

"Ihh! No, she's not jealous! " ketusku's. Wait, I'm really not jealous but just because he's soon to be my husband.

"You if you don't want to be honest." He passed back leaving me. This habit of her! This is not a lonely place, here many people ranging from teenagers to old age there. What if God granted my word? What if I get kidnapped? Human beings are not human! It means having no pity.

It feels like this time our conversation really feels formal since then and hopefully next like this. He and I talked as if everyone had known each other for a long time.

"Mrs Farzan and Adibah, right? "What's? Mrs Farzan? You weird wanker! Farzan is not like you! Pake call the mistress of all!

It looks like Brother Farzan just agreed to the words of that son of a bitch. Not without reason he is like that but because Kak Farzan is lazy to talk to a creature called a sissy, he said he is a human who does not have gratitude. Even when viewed from the face of the pansy he looks handsome, too redundant!

"Eyke has a beautiful dress for you two, shakes deh embak, gold that shakes the package really, mas have a twin? If you know dong same eyke mrs Beti." The sissy touched Kak Farzan's chin at a glance. Disgust know not!

I shook my head while being privileged. Basic human beings are events! Want it feels to bite the sissy's hand so that he does not arch his hand exactly the person suffering from stroke. Naudzubillahimindzalik.

During a walk down the place that the sissy wants to go to finally we stop in front of a simple but magnificent dress. He said it's just a reception why does his shirt have to be this beautiful? The hijab is complete with a white crown with gray beads and a long shirt maybe if I could pass through my legs.

"Well this, make her shoot, pretty right? It's a decoration of e Shoot." The so-called e shot is aunty Jumiati. Wait, decorations? This hick is really crazy."you know, no, shoot e it has good instinctive power, it's, for example, this was made last week he said for the wedding of his handsome nephew mala now wants to be used." He chuckles.

I just saw Farzan laughing this time because of that sissy. But honestly this sounds strange me and brother Farzan just knew and aunt Jumiati already made this shirt last week.

"Turns can be used first inside and the gold is the same as eyke here waiting." Beti almost hugged Farzan's body if only she had not been indignant. You're a fucking little prank!

"No ah! My clothes are also there for what I'm waiting for Adibah to come out."

"Mas e, shoot Beti. No problem."

It's not you that doesn't matter but Brother Farzan!

"Can't you stop? And you are Beti, here you are told to make clothes not for insignificance! Taqdir is enjoyed not changed! Guys are like girls, "get upset.

I never liked people who changed God's creation like this Mas. .

"Have shot sensi so much! His golden yaudah also entered the dressing room next to him. "

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I see my reflection reflected. It's really too weird, sultry, heavy. Why not just custom clothing? It doesn't seem to make me feel confident getting out of this locker room. Beti knocked on the door. I was cold right now and it was hot! If I go out, they can laugh at me.

"Assalamualaikum, "call Kak Farzan. "It's finished yet? "

What am I supposed to say? Bismillah, you must be able to be broken. Vim.

I stepped out of the room with sweat that had soaked my forehead. I saw Kak Farzan and Beti staring at me. I told you they must be laughing at me!

"Hot, "I said to melt the atmosphere.

Brother Farzan shook his head. "You're done? " Stupid, already seeing me standing in front of him, it must be done. Is the doctor like this too? It means to be forgetful.

"Oh my God, ask me this weird question." Beti laughs. "Have you seen her wearing a wedding dress now, tempted to see her mom? Still looking forward to Beti times."

"Secure the same clothes? " his question ignores the words of Beti.

I'm nodding. "Yes, but it's a bit heavy. Can't wear custom clothes, can they? "

She smiles. Please tell him not to smile this time. "His customary clothes are a little if you've already prescribed them."

"Judek. Can you change her clothes now? It was in the sultry, "

"Wait, " he said as he put his hand in his pocket. "Photoin used to bang Beti, "

Beti picked up the phone given by Kak Farzan earlier. "Help bang beti. Beti dong's mom, "it's bad. I chuckled at the look on the face of Beti, as did Farzan. "By the way would you like to ask whatsapp number Beti not?"

Farzan nyegir. "No, I told you to take a picture of us." I looked at Farzan. "Make it sent to umi, "she smiled, smiled awkwardly. Seen from the look on his face.

"Yeah, if you're hit by lope-lope nih gini, it feels like the world belongs to both of you unconsciously eyke is also here. " I chuckle at him. "Quickly eyke want your photos when eyke just a little bit yeah."

Our distance was very close, I was still glued to my place. Is this real? I always keep my head down lest he see my red cheeks at this time.

Czechoslovak. Czechoslovak. Czechoslovak.

"Udah this." He gave Farzan's phone." Eyke fotoin three times, do not thank you. " He passed away leaving us. Does he have this habit? I like to leave people!

"Judah Dibah change clothes first yes," I went into the dressing room again, as if I had just come out now have entered again.

After going out later we will go straight to the house, said brother Farzan the ring is already there so everything is ready to wait at one hour for preparation and then just a deal.

I thought back to Aqilah, who is it? Is she really Farzan's wife? As long as he knew Brother Farzan he had not said who Aqilah was, though I never asked him at least he was sensitive to it.

I opened the door of the room again. There was Farzan waiting. Make what try?

"Come, "take the one I answered nod. "May I ask? "

"Don't tell me if I'm hungry or not, obviously Dibah hungry sir doctor, uh wrong." I smiled and she was him. "Sister Farzan. "

"No, but how are you feeling right now? "

"When hungry, you don't eat all day" I complained.

He chuckles. "Judah, we go to the restaurant first."

"No ah brother, said the father if you want to buy do not need to be in a luxurious place if the seller of five feet is good." I gulped hard, it felt like I was already very hungry at the moment.

"As far as you are, come on. " He passed away leaving me, his habit.

I looked around, there was something strange why was everyone looking at me? Ahh, this is just my thinking! Wait, doctor where? Is he dead to me now? Why is this place so foreign? Where's Beti where's aunt Jumiati? Don't tell me I'm lost now! Where is your doctor?

My eyes started to glaze over. It's his fault that he always left me alone, just look if I get him I'll hit him just look! Humans are inhuman!

My steps began to stop when I got out of the boutique. I'm so tired now. Where's she? "I hope he's looking for me now, otherwise I'll just pinch him! " murmurm.

Suddenly, a heavy hand blocked my vision. "You want to pinch me, right? " sister Farzan put both hands together. "Pinch as much as you can, so you won't be angry with me anymore. "

I take my eyes off her. I'm so annoyed to see it!

"sorry. I bought you coconut ice, "he said, giving me coconut ice. Wait, this is so magical that he held nothing why all of a sudden there was coconut ice? "Eh after I got back there were none. Trus me to the place of aunt Jum but still nothing, I'm looking for you know not."

"Where did you put the coconut ice? "

"After me." He pointed at the chair behind him. "You're hausan? It's."

And it turns out that my hunger has taken hold of me now, so I'm still angry.

"Are you not angry now?"

I'm shaking.

"Yes or not? Answer using mouth not movement. " It feels like we're married now, look even he's been sitting close to me.

I'm rising. "Not mahram, do not need to be near Dibah first!"

"Judah, we're going home now."

Different from before he told me to walk first, has he been sensitive? Good then.

"But wait brother. " And back, we stopped again. "Night said he wanted to go to the mall but he went to the girl's house. "

He scrunched his forehead. "Ohh, it's ten o'clock, the mall is closed, so we go to Aqilah's house first. Coincidentally at that time the Aqilah did not exist. "

"Where? "

"Who? "

"Aqilahs. "

"Oh that, she's in her husband's house again. He's my only brother." It turns out my guess was wrong! I thought it was his wife. This sin again! You are Adibah!

I nodded in a sign of understanding. Understanding my stupidity, very stupid even I think Aqilah is his wife turned out to be his sister. Believing things that are not yet clear.

"Are we going to eat first or go straight home? " he asked while driving a car.

"Give me hungry but don't want to stay lazy, I'll just say, '" I said with a focused look ahead.

"We just went to my apartment, it just so happened that there was already food just cooked."

"But Dibah is not good at cooking, " lamented. It's seventeen years old now but I've never learned to cook. All I do is learn about school. Even cooking rice I don't know.

"What's? You can't cook? " Look at him laughing. "Astagfirullah, I teach you a lot" he said in between laughter. This feeling is not funny.

"Laughing at people is not good!"

I saw from the mirror he was still laughing. Until finally we stop in a building that supports the height. Where is the aperment?

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Pinch as much as you let you no longer be angry with me.

Thank you for taking the time to read my work. Sorry if the words are still bad and many teypo/error words. Perfection belongs only to God. ^_^

Lessons.

Sunnah before going to sleep.

Wudu

Clean the bed

Reading ayatul kursi

Blowing the palms

Read the letters of Al Ikhlas, Al Falaq and An nas.

Rubbing the head, body and face.

Dhikr.

Sleeping position tilted to the right.

If on your back, the right foot is above the left foot.

Reading prayers.