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Wedding Dresses

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بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

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"In every relationship there should always be someone who can give up even if you're not wrong. And the relationship should also be said Sipakatau¹, Sipakalebbi.², and Sipakainge."

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     I have slammed the steering wheel a few times, it feels like I want to destroy everything that is in front of my eyes. My world feels so broken right now. I know the law of a wife who asks for divorce from her husband, Shahi from Rasulullah sallallahu alaihi wasallam, that she said, "any woman who asks for divorce from her husband is haram for him the smell of heaven." HR. Abu Dawud: 2226, Darimi: 2270, Ibn Majah 2055, Amad: 5/283, with sanad hasan. And when I realized what happened back then, it really made my life so meaningless right now. I do not want Adibah to be thrown into hell just because of this problem.

     Adibah, I don't know what's going on with her, I don't know how she wants this relationship. He put his ego forward more than appreciating me. By Allah, the chronological shadow of the incident just came back.

     When I get to the orphanage, I'll be right down. Hopefully I can be more mature to deal with this problem. By Allah, I do not want to lose Adibah in my life, even very unwilling.

     Unintentionally, someone had started the charity event, and at the same time I could hear word for word that I could define that I was the one he called in his sentence. “Tellu ronna sitinro’,Cinna-e udaani-e , napassengereng.” (Inseparable between Love, longing and good memories.)

     “Newly arrived? “ asked Riska with her trademark smile.

     I just smiled in response to Riska's words. My mood is completely ruined today and I hope no one knows about this.

      “Where to go? He said he wanted to come? “ He still asks.

     I was silent for a moment, “There is at home, again not feeling well, “ my excuses.

    Riska just nodded her head, then told me to immediately join the event.

     Arriving there, I could see some children who were smiling happily, as if they had no problems in their lives. I have been in his position, even I can also be happy even though several years without the affection of father, and mother.

     Being there made me forget what happened at home. The laughter of the children can make me a little calmer. They were very lucky, in his childhood, he could feel the life of the Prophet, and so was I. We are not as lucky as others, nor are others as lucky as us.

     “Why smile like that, Zan? “ asked the Sultan, as I was already sitting behind him.

     “If you see a child like this, bring him a happy pengengeng yes, Sultan. “

     Sultan patted my shoulder, then laughed. “I think it's a positive sign, Zan. “ Instantly at that time I was reminded again with Adibah.

     “What do you mean?”

     “What is Adibah pregnant? “

     “Pray only. “

     “Lah, not only prayer, Zan, but also effort from you,” he said while chuckling.

     I tried to answer her words by trying to smile. “You should also be able to try to get him. “ He I mean is Qamariah, the woman I told you about first.

     “Yes, thank God you have received a positive response, yes stay positive, “ he said. I know he must be kidding right now, because at the end of his words he laughed.

    “Halalin first lah.”

     Before continuing his words, the Sultan laughed until the sound of his laughter disappeared. “Bugis women are difficult to get married, the panai money is expensive. Moreover, Qamariah doctor, surely his panai is expensive. “

     “Astagfirullah, yesterday you presented him your car does not count.” When Qamariah found out, he had given a gift to the girl, even before he had also given a diamond necklace. Sultan is like this, if it is about love, he does not care about logic anymore.

     “Who knows his ambo (or can be interpreted as father in raw Indonesian) ask for up to five hundred million, it is dangerous,” complained Sultan. Come to think of it with that kind of money, he could even earn with just one day, coincidentally his father was a well-known company owner in Indonesia.

     “Yes already then, you just wait in advance of others. I am not sure if after this everything will go smoothly.”

     “Kok so goosebumps yes, “ he said with a laugh. “I'll ask you to help my father propose to him.”

     I could see clearly the surprised face of the Sultan. “Why is that? “

      “So you said, Yasudah later I ask my father to propose to him, you say as if your father would propose instead of you, “ I said, with a focused look looking forward, looking at Riska who was talking in front of the children.

     “Well, you're Zan. You know me how? Talk sometimes advantages sometimes also lack.” I almost laughed when I heard his words.

     Talking to the Sultan. Someone called me to sit nearby, who else if not Ustaz Andi, ustaz who once financed all the needs of my pesantren, ustaz who already considered me as his son.

     Before approaching Ustaz Andi, I first say goodbye to the Sultan. “Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, Ustaz,” I said as I got closer to him.

     “Wa’alaikumsalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. Thank goodness, are you alone? “

     “Alhamdulillah good also ustaz “

     “Alhamdulillah then. “

     “What is ustaz to call me? “ my question goes straight to the point.

    “Abviously it can't be if ustaz calls you? “ ask ustaz Andi astonished.

     I smiled stiffly. “Not like that Ustaz, just that I just saw ustaz busy with wife Ustaz.”

     “No problem. I just miss you,”, he said, then hit me on the shoulder.

     If I used to live up to his elbow, now I'm a few inches taller than him. It's just that I was a little uncomfortable being around him, he wasn't easy anymore but his face still looked so easy on me, as if I was the old one here.

     “How's your problem? “ ask ustaz Andi. He still remembered my curses back then, ustaz Andi was indeed a typical person who was not forgetful, much different from me.

     “Alhamdulillah good ustaz. “

     “But if ustaz look from your face lost what it is. Like someone who's nervous. “ Astagfirullah, don't tell me that I look clumsy in front of people. “But westaz think only ustaz can see the awkwardness in you at this time. Small living with me can help me guess your situation, Farzan, “ he said as if he knew the contents of my mind earlier.

     “That's ustaz, there is no smooth marriage, there must be problems in it, whether it be material, physical, or economic, and or something else. I think at this time to reach, sakinah, mawahddah, wa-rahmah is very difficult.”

     Ustaz Andi laughed again at my words. “You are acting like you just know love, “ he said with a voice of laughter still remaining. “Sakinah, or can be interpreted as peace, tranquility, or happiness. Mawaddah wa rahmah is love. It can be concluded that to achieve a relationship that is sadinah, mawahddah, wa-rahmah, it does not have to be without quarrel, but in every quarrel there is always the word sakinah, mawahddah, wa-rahmah, peace, peace, and affection,” clear ustaz Andi. “You understand what ustaz is talking about? “

     I nodded in understanding. “There are always things that can make our emotions overflow, whether it is because of ego or something else.”

    “That's why, in every relationship there should always be someone who can give up even if you're not wrong. And the relationship is also necessary there are said Sipakatau¹, Sipakalebbi.², and Sipakainge. It means relationship in husband, wife.

     I fell silent, nodding back to understand. Hopefully the problems between me and Adibah will stop soon, even though after that I have no more relationship with him.

     Shahi of the Prophet sallallahu alaihi wasallam said, "any woman who asks for divorce from her husband is haram for him the smell of heaven." HR. Abu Dawud: 2226, Darimi: 2270, Ibn Majah 2055, Amad: 5/283, with sanad hasan. I don't want Adibah to say it back, maybe it's time for me to end it all. Let this be my business with the Creator.

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Sipakatau¹'s chat. Humanizing each other, respecting/respecting the dignity and dignity of one's humanity as a creature of GOD without distinguishing – distinguish, anyone must obey and obey the norms of custom/laws that apply.

Sipakalebbi²'s chat. Mutually glorify each other's position and function in the structure of society and government, always behave well in accordance with the customs and culture that prevail in the community.

Sipakainge³. Remind each other, respect the advice, opinions of others.

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I have felt all the bitterness in life, and the most bitter thing is to hope in man. " (Ali bin Abi Talib)

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