Dear Imamku
Gita, the Prospective Sister
بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم
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"When your heart has too much hope in a person, God has placed on you the pain of hope, that you may know that God is very jealous of those who wish besides Him. And Allah has prevented you from doing this, that you may return to hope for Him.."
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At about 03:20 I woke up from my sleep. I looked up to see Farzan's face, our current position was very close. I asked for a position like this, somehow I was so cold last night, and thank God now my situation has improved somewhat.
Farzan was still sleeping soundly, his embrace had not changed at all. I heard yesterday that Mr. Farzan was on the phone with someone that today he is taking two days off, so today is not too crowded. I am very comfortable in a position like this. My hands began to move to tidy up Farzan's hair that looked a little messy, there was a little movement from Farzan's sister, but went back to sleep again. Slackers.
But for some reason, Farzan was so handsome while he was asleep, as now, even though his dimples were invisible. There was a slight frown on his face, but it did not reduce the good looks he had on him.
For some reason, today I am so enjoying the beauty of God that is near me now. I don't know how many people would be envious because I have a man like him.
I remembered the prayer like three nights. I tried to let go of Farzan's arm around my waist very slowly so that he wouldn't disturb his sleep. But no, she instead tightened her embrace back.
Is he awake?
"Sister Farzan is awake? " many of you don't get answers. I'm still not sure if he's sleeping right now. "Sir Farzan, Dibah want to pray tahajud," I asked.
"Five more minutes." I understand what that means, if he wants me to wait another five minutes.
Okay, as a wife I have to make a husband happy first.
But then again, to be honest I really like being in the position now. The hug feels very warm even in this room equipped with a cooler. I like to linger with him. Sorry God, maybe today I left the sunnah prayer first, is not happy husband is also an important point? So for now I miss the tahajud prayer first, but I promise I will return the tahajud prayer tomorrow.
A moment later, I felt Farzan's hand loosen. I opened my eyes to make sure, and it was true that he had woken up and looked at me. I smiled to melt the current atmosphere.
"Why look at me like that? " Lahh, insist on him!
As a woman who is good and appreciative of her husband, you must be able to be patient with the mood of your husband who sometimes changes at any time, such as PMS Adibah girl.
I shook my head while smiling. "Sister Farzan likes to be angry not so good, I never get angry at Adibah" I said, while drowning my face in the chest of Farzan's field.
My head feels in elus-elus, and it is true that Farzan did it. "I'm not angry, I'm just asking Adibah. Distinguish where angry and not," he said.
I looked up again. "But Farzan's tone is like angry fathers." And what recompense do I get? Brother Farzan pulled my nose, I swear it was a fairy but I love it when he does his habits like that.
"sick! " grouch. You know how women, he said sick when he wanted it back done, well like me now.
And this time, he hugged me first. "I'm sorry, I'm not that old either. " I swear I almost laughed when I heard his words, if not what fathers? The mothers? Allahu akbar, my husband. "I got info, if registration for college is open? " So Farzan changed the subject.
"Jihan also said that," I replied.
"So? "
"So why? Brother Farzan wants to go to college? "
"Not me but you."
"I don't want to go to college, "I said lightly. It's true that I have no intention of going to college at this time, I want to focus on taking care of my household now. Maybe I'm against my opinion first.
"You should go to college! " strictly, Brother Farzan.
"No brother. Me and... " I paused my words. I hope Farzan understands what I want to do. "Me and Fauzi had promised to continue school until college together, I was afraid that until there was a misunderstanding about me and her brother. "
Brother Farzan is silent. This is what I've been avoiding but now it's happening, bitch!
"Honest answer. Do you have feelings for him? " I almost laughed when I heard Farzan's question.
"I used to love him so much, even loved him so much. Brother Farzan once said to the imam shafii that it sounds like this, When your heart is too hopeful for someone then God imposes upon you the pain of hope, when your heart is too hopeful, that ye may know that Allah is full of hope besides Him. Allah prevents you from doing this, so that you may return to His hope.
And yes, all of that happened to me. And somehow, you came into my life and made me love the Creator more than you made me realize that I always walked the right path, "obviously.
I do not know how Farzan responded, because I am currently in the arms of Farzan.
"Now how do you feel? " this guy is cheating on me, no?
"My feelings for Fauzi are now non-existent, "so I said, taking a look back. "what I felt was for Farzan not Fauzi." At the end of my words I smiled. And what did I get? Brother Farzan pulled my nose back, bitch. He should have kissed me!
"May you be the one chosen by God who will complete and perfect my religion and be a good woman among the best."
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"Where are you going?" I am still sitting on the sofa. Though I just rested my body from activities that drain calm.
"To the bookstore, "ask jak Farzan who is still loyal to pull my hand to get up from my seat immediately. Husband is not understanding.
"What did Farzan do? "
"Buy onde-onde. " Is he joking?
"Sister Farzan, buy onde-onde must go to the bookstore huh? To Fatimah's mother outside is also there. Don't go far. " My eyes are closed.
"Come on Adibah, don't joke. " Astagfirullah, what's wrong with my husband, God? He was obviously the one kidding! "We want to buy books for charity. " Hearing the charity event, I got up immediately. I swear, I like it best when it comes to charity events like this.
"Seriously? " i asked, who was immediately nodding by him. "Let's go now. " Kak Farzan immediately pulled my hand, a moment later I was already nearby.
"Come, "he said.
Then my hand was held by Brother Farzan. Farzan is like this, when he wants to travel he always holds my hand, maybe this has become his new hobby.
"Normally what do children love with books? " ask Brother Farzan.
"Fiction books are possible, especially when it comes to religion. Such is the story of the prophet Ayyub who is very patient," I suggested.
"You will decide the title of the book later. " I agree to Farzan's request. "And I'll sit there waiting and meet with his employees. "
"Before Farzan did, I would never let go of Farzan's hand! " camme.
"How come? You will forget Adibah, " said Farzan.
I'm silent. The story is here, I'm angry so let there be no topic of conversation between us. Not long after, Farzan chuckled, whispering in my ear. "I wouldn't do that there. "
I'm looking. "Wallahi? "
Brother Farzan nodded. "But I don't know tomorrow. " I immediately pinched her waist.
"Sister Farzan is evil! " grouch.
The sound of Farzan's laughter is growing. "sorry. I was joking Adibah," he said with a still-living laugh.
Walking with him is really bad. Farzan's brother is too tall, I'm still up to his shoulder, so if you want to talk to him I should always look up to see his face. And he pinched my cheek, pulled my nose, put his arm around my neck, but his arm was heavy.
Once upon a time, people thought we were sisters, brothers not husband and wife. Though there is no resemblance on our face, or maybe there is a little? I don't know, only people can judge our cover.
After arriving at the bookstore. Farzan always held my hand, but I told him that I would hold his hand so as not to tempt others, or did he forget? Might as well.
I'm not angry when Farzan holds my hand like this, at least one can believe that we have a married couple, not a sister.
"How many books should we buy? I also forgot to ask Dr. Riska about the amount. Actually the charity event was a few months ago, only there were obstacles that came, " explained Farzan.
"Buy a lot, Brother Farzan. There are promos, so we can buy a lot at a cheap price and also an interesting story, how? " tanyaku.
"Can. Would you like to join me at a charity event later? "
"Would you come? " i asked who was immediately nodding by him. "Now. Want. Want. There must be a lot of children, right, Brother Farzan? "
"A lot. Some are even a few days old. " At the end of Farzan's words, there was a sad tone there. I know, Brother Farzan must be very sad, because kak Farzan has also been in a position like them.
"I can't do there's such an evil old man! " grouch.
"We also should not blame everything to his parents, there may be some parents of babies who are forced to keep their children there just because of the usual economy is thinning, or because of other things. It's better he did than he killed his son." A smile on my lips. I cannot speak anymore, Brother Farzan understands this better than I do.
Thank you God for giving me an understanding husband like Farzan.
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From Abu Said al-Khudri Radhiyallahu 'anhu, Prophet Shallallah 'alaihi wa sallam bersabda,
مَنْ قَرَأَ سُورَةَ الْكَهْفِ لَيْلَةَ الْجُمُعَةِ أَضَاءَ لَهُ مِنَ النُّورِ فِيمَا بَيْنَهُ وَبَيْنَ الْبَيْتِ الْعَتِيقِ
"Whoever reads al-Kahfi's letter on Friday night, he will be illuminated by the light between himself and the Kaaba." (HR. ad-Darimi 3470 and al-Albani in Shahihul Jami', 6471)
In another account, he said,
مَنْ قَرَأَ سُورَةَ الْكَهْفِ فِى يَوْمِ الْجُمُعَةِ أَضَاءَ لَهُ مِنَ النُّورِ مَا بَيْنَ الْجُمُعَتَيْنِ
"Whoever reads al-Kahfi's letter on Friday, he will be shone in the light between the two Fridays." (CHR. Judges 6169, Baihaqi 635, and al-Albani is set aside in Shahihul Jami', no. 6470)
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