Dear Imamku
A Reason?

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

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   “Don't hate someone innocent just because he's with the wrong person. “

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     At three o'clock, Aqilah contacted me that the condition of the umi was deteriorating, his heart disease returned. This is all because of abi, abi who should be in charge of all this! Abi is secretly remarried.

      How painful it is for me to know this reality. I know a husband can be married, one, two, or four times, as in the QS hadith. An-nisa 3 ‘And if you are worried that you will not be able to be fair to (rights) orphaned women (when you marry her), then marry the woman (other) you like: two, three, three,  or four. But if you are afraid that you will not be able to be fair, then (marry) only one, or the female servant that you have. That one is closer so that you do not commit zhalim.’ By Allah, I have not been able to accept it completely.

     And Adibah? I haven't been able to tell her about this incident, I'm still angry with her, why she's still close to that man! Why does my world have to be like this?

     “Did Adibah call me,” call Aqilah.

     I was silent, staring at the face of Umi who was lying on the bed of the hospital. His hands felt very cold. The man I thought was a hero turned out to be so cowardly now! I was never angry that Abi was getting married, only that he had never told us before, and now he came with his fifteen-year-old son. Abi said his second wife had died in the Malaysian-abi country of marrying a Malaysian woman.

     “Will. I called no nyaut why? Have I eaten? “ asked Adibah to surprise me.

     “Where's Mahesa? “ my question, no matter the question.

     “She is taking Ainun for a walk, there is a rule that toddlers are prohibited from entering the patient's room. “ I interfere with understanding. “Will, Adibah want to come here. He said I didn't say anything. Absolutely right? It is not good lo kak if you go ngak say wife first“ he said.

     “I forgot,” my word. “Where is Syahila? “ Syahila is the name of my step-sister. I can accept his presence, he was not the cause of this problem, nor did he ever want to be born in a position like this.

     “There she is outside, “ Catus Aqilah. He sounded very resentful of the presence of the woman.

     “Don't hate someone innocent just because he's with the wrong person. “

     Aqilah looks silent. Worry about my words. “But he's not my sibling, Akah! I will not be able to accept his presence! “

     “He is not wrong Aqilah. “

     “He was wrong! He was wrong for being present in our lives Akah! “ snapped Aqilah. Suddenly he hugged me and cried. I drowned her face in my chest. I know how things are right now, Aqiah loves abi more than umi, and now she must be devastated this time. “I hate abi akah! I hate! “ stuffing.

     “Trust me, he also definitely does not want to be born in this world with circumstances like this,” I said.

     She's quiet. In between our talks, Shahila came in. I looked at her from foot to head, about fifteen years old, her face was almost similar to Aqilah's. Fearfully, he walked in and approached us. I tried to take Aqilah's embrace away from me, then approached my other sister.

     “Have eaten? “ my.

     Shahila suddenly looked at me. There was fear in his eyes, as our eyes met each other. Without even expecting her to hug me, it felt so comfortable when she hugged me, why? She's just my step-sister, ahh there's no difference between step-sister and half-sister, I have to mature to this!

     I rubbed his back and head. My mouth feels stiff to talk to him, but I always try to start a conversation. “God is more dear to your mother. “ That's what I chose to say.

    He just nodded. I didn't realize that she was crying, if her tears hadn't absorbed my skin. “What's up? “

     “He's mute Nak!” firmly abi. I turned to look at him. I swear, I can't define my feelings right now when I see Abi's whereabouts, nor Aqilah, I think she's out or somewhere to stay away for a while. “When he was one year old, he was diagnosed deaf and we tried to get him to hear back, God finally granted that, but His test came again at the age of twelve, after recovering from deafness he could not speak back.” Abi looks very sad about what he told me.

     “Abi, Shahila may be hungry. I brought him to eat first, “ I said. Actually I don't like this, but it's time I got to be an adult.

     “Adibah is outside, “ said Abi later. I've just taken a few steps away. “He waited outside while holding back the cold, his shirt looked so thin. I told him to come in, but he didn't want to, he said, not bothering. Abi has told this incident to him, “ explained Abi.

      Why is Adibah coming? Isn't it four o'clock? Is he here on foot? Allahu akbar Adibah! He's too careless! “I go first Abi, assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. “ said, then stay away from abi.

     And it is true that Adibah was sitting in a waiting chair while holding the cold temperature at dawn this time, let alone the rain just finished. “Why come here? “ my.

     He lifted his head to look at me, errat, not me but Shahila. He looked at Shahila as if there was something strange about her. Adibah is like this, she more often researches someone she just knew.

     “Syali... Sihaa... “

     “Syahila! “Adibah sounds very difficult to say the name Syahila.

     “Nahh. Just inget his name, “ he said while laughing widely. Not forgetting, but it is hard to mention! This woman of this one! “Where are you going? “ ask Adibah back. He was still trying to hold back the cold.

     I opened the jacket I was wearing and gave it to Adibah. “Wear this. “

     “Pakai’in. Let it be rich on those soap operas,” he said with a smile, is he imagining?

     “I'm still mad at you huh! “ pissed.

     Without guessing Adibah sat back in the chair and did not look at me. “Then let Dibah be cold,” upset. O Allah, why is Adibah suddenly spoiled like this?

     The end of my shirt feels like it's pulled. I looked at the culprit, he was Shahila. The boy smiled at me, gesturing for me to approach Adibah immediately. Waitaminute! Is Adibah trying to test me in front of the kids? Allahu akbar!

     Instead of wasting time, I immediately put the jacket on Adibah's body, not long after that she stood up and was about to hug me. The new adibah will hold me, suddenly his body collapses.

     “Astagfirullah! “ scream. I immediately carried Adibah's body, and brought her into my room. With Syahila.

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"And if you are afraid that you will not be able to be fair to the (rights) of the orphan woman (if you marry her), then marry the woman (other) you like: two, three, or four. But if you are afraid that you will not be able to be fair, then (marry) only one, or the female servant that you have. That is closer so that you do not commit wrong."

-Q. An-nisa 3

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Syukron katsiatan

Jazzakumullah and Khair

Warm regards

Riskaafriani💜