Dear Imamku
Meet Again
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I don't know how lucky I was when God told me to be with him.
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The sound of dawn woke me from sleep. With sad eyes while holding Adibah's hand, this was the first week Adibah was unconscious. If the accident did not happen maybe at this time our wedding reception has been held.
With a thought out of nowhere, I stepped away from the room, and headed towards the musollah. I went back to thinking, if Adibah were conscious, would she accept this ordeal? Yes, ordeal, Adibah suffered blindness due to a hard impact on his head. After the CT scan, Adibah Brain can not translate the information sent by the eye.The part of the brain that serves to translate the information is in the back, the brain is in the back, and if this part can not translate this can cause blindness is all because of the accident Adibah experienced.
And ask for help (To Allah) By patience and prayer, and the prayer is certainly heavy, except for those who are solemn. QS.Al-Baqara; 45.
There is no power or effort except with the help of Allah. The love that Allah placed on Prophet Abraham when he tested him with fire, the love that Allah once portrayed in the heart of the prophet Ayyub with the test of sickness, the love that Allah once blasphemed on the Prophet Muhammad .with the trials of the disbelievers, the same love that God once instilled in the hearts of the Prophets through trials. Although not the same, but it is part of the love of God.
After the dawn prayer, I returned to Adibah's room. As long as Adibah is sick, the habit of continuing memorization I no longer do, O Allah forgive me if my love for your creation is too excessive.
When I saw her face, I missed her smile. Her onion, which sometimes asks me to smile all the time for wanting to see my dimples, is strange, but I miss that strange trait. Oh God, I can't describe how I miss him right now, the point is I miss him so much.
I pulled out a chair to sit by her bed, then held her hand that felt so warm. When did this hand hold my hand, like I was holding her hand? When did I see the smile on his face come back? Well Robbi, give me the best path.
Without being able to hold back, a drop of tears flowed down my cheek, I tightly held Adibah's hand while kissing the back of her hand. I put her hand on my left cheek, and prayed that it would move. My prayers every day have never been different, just want the state of Adibah to be better.
“If tomorrow or the day after, you are conscious, I hope I am the first human being near you, always encouraging you. Woe, you know, when I evaded a few months from you, believe me that's the stupidest thing I've ever done, in a time when a lot of time I made free just because of my ego!
“And now, I really miss your presence. Arise, Adibah! I miss! Don't make me feel guilty about this! Come on, don't be like this, I promise, if you wake up, I'll give you a teddy bear, I promise, whatever you ask.
“Even ten will I buy, or twenty? Thirty? Forty? A hundred? Come on Adibah say! Don't make me feel guilty like this! “ my word while sobbing.
His face looks very pale, usually I always see cheeks that are like boiled crab and now? Ahh, I can't help explaining that!
Unknowingly, umi and abi came.
“Eat first son, “ peeka umi, while putting the food bushel on the table.
I smiled at the words of Umi. I swear, my mood does not support this moment to speak.
“How about your cut, son? Suggestion abi, you better just work first, if like this continues, can-can be sick even you too,” advice abi.
“If I work, Abi. What about Adibah? Who's taking care of him? Umi is also busy with homework, and Aqilah is also busy with her lectures. How can I continue Abi's work? "
“It's okay, umi is ready to come here every day after cooking for your brother. Umi pity your situation, see your face looks so pale not much different from your wife. Can you stress osmotically,” said umi who has rubbed my hair. Osmotic stress is stress that occurs in the brain because the body lacks fluid intake.
“In shaa Allah not umi. I'd rather look at Adibah's face than go, umi. “
“That's your decision. You haven't eaten since last night, have you? Umi bring this food, “ says umi.
“As Adibah makes every day right Umi? “ my question and in response to a nod by him.
“Abi doesn't eat Umi? “
Umi looked at Abi who was still busy with her laptop. “Abi, eat together first, after a new meal to the laptop back. “
I tried to smile to see Abi who always obeyed what Abi said. Wait, for you ladies, when you don't want to be hurt because of your partner, never always ask your partner to do what you want because, once they don't do what you want, they don't do what you want, believe me it hurts so much.
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Keesekon! Yesterday the results remained the same, Adibah was not yet conscious. I suddenly remembered Q. S. Al-Baqarah 153, O you who believe, ask Allah for help with patience and prayer. Verily, Allah is with the patient.
I am now moving back to this hospital. O Allah, I hope that Adibah will wake up after this. Adibah once said like this, “Kak Farzan sound good, one day Adibah will miss the sound of kak Farzan. Next time if you want to go, brother Farzan record first yes voice, so Adibah does not miss hard. Hehehe”
Smile aside as I remember that, I miss you Adibah.
After arriving at Musollah, I immediately followed the prayer movement, until the last rakaat of dawn prayer I did.
“Yes Allah, my prayers remain the same. Make my wife aware under any circumstances, I miss her dearly, O God. How precious he is in my life. After I met her, I thought I was back to my first love story. I think I just found love with him.
“I don't know how lucky I was when God predestined me to be with him, I don't know how much a man would envy seeing me for having him, a sweet and innocent woman,
“A woman I love, though I don't know if she loves me the same, ah! I don't care about that! Let it be that he has no feelings for me, most importantly I love him, and I have feelings for him.
“I swear, that's enough for a human like me. O Allah, this time, grant my request.
Robbana aatiina fiddunya khasanah, waa fil'a khiroti khasanah, waa qiinaa adzaabannar, "
After the prayer, I did not leave Musollah. Maybe it's time I continue my memorization, at the age of me who almost stepped on the head of these three will just memorize? Ah, it doesn't matter, isn't it too late for those who really want to be knowledgeable? While in college, I didn't have much time to memorize, because there were enough things about the treatment of the disease that I had to know.
My memorization is still not how much, still twenty-one juz, unlike Adibah, memorization has reached the twenty-third juz, a very far difference. If at the time of boarding school, I had never been naughty, maybe memorized like others, only at that time I was thirteen years old so it was natural that a child of that age was still naughty, there's a little regret.
Verse by verse I had read, until I had returned to Adibah's room. Bismillah.
For some reason, my feet are rare, as friendly as my heart beat. Never forgotten to recite during my journey, until I finally arrived in front of Adibah's room.
"Ma shaa Allah!!"
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And ask for help (To Allah) By patience and prayer, and the prayer is certainly heavy, except for those who are solemn. QS.Al-Baqara; 45.
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