Dear Imamku
Prologues

بسم الله الرحمن الر حيم

Nothing is impossible, God has a beautiful groove for his steadfast servant

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Farzan entered the ICU room trying to check on Abdul Haliq, Adibah's father. Farzan had no idea that the girl he was among was the son of the man he was examining now.

When Farzan came out, Adibah and Dani quickly stood up to him. "Doctor, how's my dad doing? My dad is okay, right? Where's dad? I wanna see? " Maybe because it was too panicked to make Adibah did not know the doctor who stood upright in front of him was the man who had been.

Doctor Farzan was silent. He was a little surprised to see Adibah, the girl he had heard confiding in his car. He could not bear to give this news to the woman in front of him, that his father's situation was now deteriorating. The burden that Adibah has experienced is very much he has lost his mother and if he tells this again, no matter how difficult the girl's life.

"Doctor, would you please tell me how my father is doing? " tanyanya Adibah who started sobbing . "Please tell me the good news this time. Like dad's getting better. Please doctor has my father improved? "

Farzan quiet. It feels heavy to say things that might be commonly said to other patients' families. But it's hard with this girl in front of him, "Sorry. The situation of Abdul Haliq's brother. He has Ischemic Heart Disease or Coronary Heart."

Adibah mute with a facial expression that is difficult to define. "please say that this is just a lie. O Allah strengthen my father," Adibah rose up, "Look, father will be fine, dear father Dibah, father would not want Dibah alone," said Adibah sobbing. He dropped his body back in a sitting state. The girl started crying with sadness.

"Pray Adibah don't want to lose your spirit, " said Dani who aligned her body with Adibah's body.

And Farzan? He doesn't know what's wrong with him. Usually he will leave his patient's family after giving news about the state of the patient. But now Farzan was even sad about things happening in front of him. Farzan bowed in alignment with the two girls "Nothing is impossible, God has a beautiful plot for his steadfast servant."

Adibah shook her head, as if not believing what she heard, "Why is this happening Doc? , " asked Adibah sobbing.

"We will try to operate, but we cannot be completely sure and this will lead to risks" Farzan assured Adibah. He knew that the girl right now must be very sad.

A moment's silence, "whatever the risk is as long as my father survived, "

"We can't be too sure about that, but we will work on it. Pray, "A few seconds later a nurse called Farzan.

"Dok, Abdul Haliq's condition worsened, "Farzan stood up and entered Adibah's father's room.

Farzan appeared to bring the defibrillator closer to Abdul Halik's heart and then checked Abdul Haliq's eyes using a small flashlight and checked his pulse. Involved from the small screen it shows a straight line. Yes, Abdul Halik is gone, gone for good.

"Abdul Halik, the patient who was pronounced dead at 9:43. As a result of hypertension and Ischemic heart," Farzan told the nurse who was with him.

"Innalillahi wa innailahi raji'un" said the sister.

Farzan stepped out with his foreground and mind out of nowhere.

Adibah who saw the arrival of the doctor is now approaching him and hoping to get the good news back. "Dad say-"

"I'm sorry we did everything possible, but Abdul Halik's brother could not be saved anymore" Farzan said.

Adibah ran into her father's room, ascertaining if this was all true. Adibah's eyes blankly looked at the face of the father who was now covered in cloth. "Why did you leave? Why did everyone leave Adibah alone? Who will be with you? Why did God take away all the precious things in my life? Why don't you guys take Dibah too? Why should dad? Does Adibah live just to feel this? What should adibah? Get yourself now! " isak Adibah.

Farzan didn't know what to do. As a doctor this may have been common but now it feels different, Farzan seemed to be carried away by the atmosphere of what happened in front of his eyes. Farzan seemed to want to hug Adibah let the girl sob in his arms, but he was nobody even he just knew the girl.

Sri Ramadhani approached her best friend while drowning Adibah's face in her arms. "God loves your father more than Adibah. "

"And don't love Adibah? And let Adibah alone? Wh why? Why should dad? Why not just Adibah? " shouted Adibah while sobbing.

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I was sitting limp in the last room of my father's house which is now clean with no one but me. I never imagined you would leave so soon, leave me alone in this world. I tightly embraced my curse. What am I supposed to do? I'm really alone now. Even everyone has left. It is true that nothing is true in this world, everything will be lost either because of its time or because of its ego.

"Have you ever heard of the prophet Ayyub?" Said someone starting the conversation.

He dropped his body next to me. I looked at him starting to see from his shirt folded up to his elbow up to his face. He was the doctor who examined my father earlier. Why is he here? "The Prophet was famous for his patience. The prophet Ayyub tested the disease that befell his body, also suffered a calamity that befell his property and his son, all at a loss. He also suffered from skin diseases, namely judzam, leprosy or leprosy. The only survivor of him was the heart and the words he used to think a lot about God until he was awake. Everyone then moved away from the prophet Ayyub until he was secluded somewhere, "he looked at me with a smile.

I rubbed my eyes which were now dropping water just like that. "Why is the doctor here? " i asked but didn't look at her, I didn't want her to see me crying.

"Either, I don't know why I'm here either" he said with a focused look ahead. I don't know what he was thinking.

"You know, everyone is leaving me, I'm alone." I sobbed back.

"No! There's still me here, "strictly speaking.

"And after you're gone I'll come back alone. Does my destiny have to be this superstragic? Does God think I'm strong enough to get through this? I'm not that strong, "murm with a blank look.

I heard a long breath of him. Like first, I dare not look him in the eye. . I don't want to implicate my father for the sins I committed. There has even been a hadith about subjugating the view if meeting someone who is not a mahram .

Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta'ala said, "Tell the believing woman "Must they hold her sight, and keep her genitals, and let them not show her jewels, except that which (ordinary) Seen from her. And let them put the veil over his chest." (Qs. An-nuur (24):31).

"You can stay a while with me, "he said flatly. I don't know what he's thinking.

"I don't like being pitied. I can live independently, don't look at me for pity!" I went away from him, to calm myself.

"If you are grateful, We will surely add (merciful) to you, and if you deny (my mercy), then My punishment is painful. Ibrahim:7" he alluded.

I'm silent. Something's stuck in my brain. "Give me time to think."

"No! I'm waiting for your answer now." Rigorously.

"I just got to know you. I'm afraid bad things will happen in my life" I didn't mean to offend him but just to get him out of here.

"I won't do anything disgusting to you, I won't even touch you. If I wanted to do it, I might have done it by now! It's just you and me! I know the sin of a man who is not a mahram."

Why is he still here? Aren't we both alone?

"Ak-" she cut my words.

"I swear I've never acted like this to anyone else, but either now, it feels weird to me, "He's looking down while twirling the ring on his finger. Is he married?

My cheeks suddenly warmed up. Oh God, what should I do? If I go to his house, it is the same as approaching sin, with someone who is not my mahram. Show me one answer.

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Something fell on the inside of my house. I walked to the place followed by the doctor. I see the atmosphere inside my house is now destroyed. Why is this happening? Since when? All the valuables in this house have vanished somewhere.

"I completely lost everything, "my legs started to stiffen to the point of falling. Vaguely as the doctor approached me, I began to become unconscious. There is nothing left in my life except suffering. Destiny what will happen next. I hope it's over and I'm lost in this world, to be with my mom and dad there.

It never crossed my mind about this. Right, taqdir no one knows.

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Farzan carried Adibah's body and laid it on the sofa in his living room. Somehow his determination was too unanimous to bring his patient's child to his home. This is only the first time this has happened in his life, bringing a girl who is not his mahram to his apartment.

What's up with all this? Farzan almost missed his prayer just because of the girl. His head was filled with the face of Adibah. I don't know what God's planning for Farzan going forward.

He stepped away into his room for the magrib prayer. He had to be willing to miss the prayer in the mosque just because of the girl. I don't know if he sinned by taking the girl to his house or not.

During the magrib prayer, Adibah is now conscious. He looked around the room very strange according to him, The girl did not know that she was in the house of Doctor Farzan. Until the sound of the chanting of the holy verse is now heard in the ears of Adibah.

Waitaminute! This is a sound he's heard before. Adibah was transfixed to hear the recitation of the yasin letter, he shed tears until the voice disappeared again but not with Adibah's cry. He remembered his father back.

"Assalamualaikum, "Hail Farzan after seeing the girl who was conscious.

Adibah. He was too late in his grief.

Farzan tried to approach Adibah dressed while performing the prayer. "deed the corpse will be tormented in his grave because of the cries of some of his family."

Adibah turned to look at Farzan with a look of pity, his face looked pale. "I'm sorry," he said briefly then wiped the tears on his cheek. His gaze focused forward, his mind out of nowhere.

"You don't pray? Just a moment later, a little behind," Farzan bargained.

"Adibah wants to go home, doctor, " said Adibah as he stepped away towards the exit.

"Stop! You can't go home, you want to starve to death in your house? Your house is stolen, everything is lost, even the certificate of land and your house is also lost, "Farzan approached Adibah, wanting to feel like he grasped the girl's hand and hugged her, he said, but none of that will happen.

"I don't want to burden my father because together with a man who is not my mahram, Adibah does not want to involve my father in the sins I have committed."

"I'll marry you tomorrow." Farzan said spontaneously. Farzan did not want to lose the girl.

"Wedding is not a joke. Only because the Doctor pityed Adibah to dare to invite marriage. He doesn't like to be looked at by pity."

Farzan quiet. He had no pity on the girl, but the words of Adibah could silence his mouth, he was at a loss for words as to what the real reason Farzan wanted to marry Adibah.

"Thank you for everything, Assalamualaikum." Adibah continued her steps.

"Stop! "he said, "It's all because of your father, your father asked me to marry you after he left. He knows you'll live alone, "

No more movement, Adibah silently heard the words of Farzan. "It's all because of dad? Dad told the Doctor to marry Adibah?" adibah Gumam.

"Sorry, I just said it, "

Adibah looked at Farzan then lowered her gaze again. He remained silent for a long time, and finally decided to speak again. "I accept the father's proposal, I am ready to marry the father, said the commandment that Adibah must follow, "

"Your school? " many Farzan, he just remembered that Adibah was still in high school even he had met there during a visit and gave materials to students. Students who sleep when they explain.

"I'll stay in school. And keep marrying the father without the knowledge of others, and his guardian I leave to the father, "The girl muttered but still heard clearly by Farzan.

"Wait for me there, "command Farzan.

In silence, Adibah's phone rang. Showing the name of Sri Wahyuni there, maybe Adibah's friends just found out that his father died.

"Assalamualaikum, where are you? We go to your house, there are no people here, "Tanya Sri when the phone is connected.

"Yes I am now in this family home, "The answer lies.

"I'm sorry we didn't go to your father's funeral. You didn't tell us, if not Dani who said we wouldn't have known this news until now Dibah, "This is how Adibah, he never wanted to involve others in his grief, he said, he doesn't like to be looked at by pity.

"yes, I didn't have time, sorry, "

Farzan came wearing black pants and a white shirt folded up to twice his trademark fold. He silently watched the black-hijabed girl who was calling in front of him.

"Well, are we there, Dad? "

"Don't go first, I'm out of town because, " Adibah told a lie. Until he realized that behind him there was Mr. Farzan, "Jaudah, it was already well, Adibah wanted to pray about it. Assalamualaikum, "

Silence enveloped them back.

"Come with me, "Take Farzan who has passed out to go somewhere.

"Where? " he asked while following Farzan.

Instead of answering Farzan mala continued his steps. Where might he tell Adibah that he is going to the house of Mahesa Farzan's friend or his sister's wife.

After arriving at the car, Farzan opened the door that was behind for Adibah. He knew that Adibah would not want to sit next to him before he was legal for the girl.

Indeed, as long as he met Adibah, he did not know the name of the girl and stupidly Farzan immediately wanted to propose her. He should have found another time to get to know more about his nature.

"Adibah Sakhila Atmarini" he answered flatly.

Upon reaching the destination, Farzan went down by himself. Adibah wanted to come, but Farzan forbade him first.

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"Why is it sudden like this Zan? Didn't you ever say her marriage was after twenty? Who is the woman who can make you change your mind? " Say Mahesa said as she opened the suit attached to her body.

"What the hell are you Esa, not you who told me to get married quickly. Why is it that after I want to get married you even ask like this?"

"No. That's not it. But it's kind of weird, too. "

"I just knew him,"

"What's!? You just know him and immediately want to propose, is it not too fast Zan? "

"In sha Allah is not Sa."Answer's flat.

"When do you want to get married?"

"You're like a reporter knows. Nanya mulu, "Ketus Farzan.

Mahesa grinned, "Jawab napa."

"Tomorrow," he said while sipping coffee served Mahesa earlier.

"Tomorrow!? Not too sudden? " ask Mahesa.

"O Allah Sa! I was outside waiting for myself. Do you want to help or not? Love or not depends on my heart and my heart says yes, "he said frankly.

Mahesa smiles. "I'm not dreaming, am I? A Farzan doctor is in love and soon marries her. I am very happy Farzan. Waitaminute! You're not jealous of me, are you? Because I got married to you first?"

"The nature of envy is not my nature Sa" said Farzan.

Mahesh laughed as if his best friend was funny, "Keep Umi and Abimu how?, "

"Umi has a lot of affairs in Arabia with Abi, he can only go home after the next six months. This is just the wedding date has not been a reception ater if the new reception deh Umi and Abi come"

"this oath is not sudden, right? I just met you tomorrow. Drama is not Zan. "

Farzan. "In sha Allah, no. Where is Aqilah, by the way?" tanya Farzan changed the subject.

"I've only been married six months to your sister, I've missed you." Mahesa laughs.

"Clearly she's my only sister. " Farzan laughed.

"Farzan better you go home first and take care of your wedding tomorrow, my beloved wife has come home?" is not he alone that prevents Farzan from coming home with questions?

"Yes Allah. He is also alone outside. I'm first well, "

"Bareng, "Take Mahesa. Notya get the answer Farzan mala keep walking out leaving Mahesa.

It is true that love can defeat everything.

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From the moment I waited here, there was also no sign of the doctor coming. Does he not know that I have not prayed? Though the time is very close, want to get out also can not, this car is locked and the temperature in this car is very cold. My stomach was even very rumbling to ask to be filled immediately from earlier I was hungry.

The doctor was intent on leaving me alone. Astagfirullah, Adibah don't zoudzon just yet! I have to wait patiently for him here. Everything would be wonderful if we were always patient . Wait, or did he forget I existed? He'll just get to know me. I hope it doesn't.

Waiting was not good but I had to do it until he who was waiting for me finally came to step closer to the car. Where the hell has he been? Doesn't he know that I'm here alone? Or did my killer's nature move on to him? It sucks!

"Sorry, you didn't realize you were waiting here, "Said as he drove his car.

It's true he's forgetful! You old doctor!

I was silent not responding to the doctor's remark, I was really upset with him. Until the car again stopped right in front of the mosque Nurul Asiah. The doctor stepped out like before the difference this time he told me to come with him.

Without being told I will still go down a few minutes into the prayer time isya and I must immediately pray magrib, "His place of ablution there," he pointed to the left of the mosque. He first entered the mosque. What is not ablution first? Or is he praying? I don't know.

After I finished my ablution I stepped into the mosque. I saw the doctor chanting the holy verse but the volume of his voice was not so loud that only the people inside the mosque could hear it.

Hopefully after this I can make the departure of my father quickly so that I do not add to the burden later.

May the doctor be the right choice for me to come to Your wind, O God, although I know that the doctor proposed to me just because of the will of my father, but I hope that someday there will be love between us. I'm the same, I don't have any more feelings for that Doctor. But let's hope that one day everything will turn into love.

After the prayer I looked back. The doctor looked at me with a faint smile towards me. Please tell me that my cheek is not blushing right now. I turned my head back forward. And clean up everything. My heart seemed to want to escape from its place.

I got up from my seat and stepped out until we were in line, I never looked at him directly. He's not legal for me yet. I feel like yelling to stop at this heart, is he staring at me? I am not comfortable in a position like this.

"Come on, "take her with me when I stop right in front of her.

I nodded, "Sir Doctor" called me..

The doctor turned around and once again I didn't know if he was looking at me because I had lowered my head. "What's? " sanyanya.

My heart is not calm. Oh my God why this? Why did I have to call you earlier? What am I supposed to say? "Where am I staying tonight? " stupid! Why is this what I ask! Have you put your brain where all day?

He was laughing, "It's better in my apartment first, "he said, I said, nodding, "But we have to go to the mall first to shop for your clothes, "

Do my clothes smell? So I told you to buy clothes? I smell the clothes I'm wearing now, it's true the smell is a bit pungent, "My clothes smell well? " my question made him stop right in front of his car. I always looked down not knowing how to look at his face. He started to approach me until we got closer to "Stop! Not mahram! " call.

"Indeed, he stinks, "he laughs and then gets into his car.

Me? I stayed there, I think I want to take a shower now because of the words of the doctor.

Pip's!

Farzan honks his car horn, "Well? " bring.

I kept quiet, I swear I was embarrassed by what he said earlier, afraid that my body odor would make him uncomfortable in his car. Farzan got out of his car.

"why not go up? Want me to carry? " tawar Farzan.

"Mother Doctor can't lie this time if my body doesn't smell? Embarrassed because it's in for Mr. Doctor uncomfortable"

"But if I'm lying you don't stink and I'm not comfortable in the car how? " sanyanya.

"Yes at least I don't feel, " said I who was still down.

"Jude, you don't smell, you smell. Come on up,"He said resigned.

I smilingly agreed to the doctor's invitation to go up. While in the car I always dhikr dad always told me to always dhikr. Until the doctor's car stopped again in front of a shopping place.

"You want to come down? " he asked after coming out and opening the car door for me.

I shook my head, "No. "

He opened the car door. Seen from his shoes he remained silent, why? Is he unconscious because of my body odor? Stupid that he was unconscious it was certain that he fell instead of standing still like this. Ah somehow!

Some time later he finally opened the voice "It's already midnight if you're here by yourself and I'm definitely inside not for a while. If anything happens don't blame me."

"old? What is the doctor doing inside? Wanna shop? Make what? We just eat first Mr. Doctor, Dibah hungry because," said trus terang.

Farzan smiles. Why these? Why is this heart like this? When I see it, it feels different to me. I think I know the doctor I just met. Is it because he's gonna be my husband soon? Could be.

"Assynogaal?" his greetings, made me aware of my daydream. "Where? "

I nodded, it felt like I was a fool to be in this position. I always lose my mind when I talk to him.

"Wait, "I said as I stepped out of the car, "my body stinks Doctor, "

"There is the house of Aqilah" he said, almost pulling my hand but it did not. Perhaps he remembered the limitations of women and men who were not mahrams.

Waitaminute! Aquah who is it? What wife? And the ring that was used at the time? I never dreamed of marrying someone's husband. Why do I feel jealous of him. My chest feels tight. You idiot! He married you just because your father wasn't out of love. So even if he had a wife he would still marry me because of my father's will. Dad why should he? Why not someone else?

"Come, "take him back who I nod.

He was five meters in front of me. The road looks very crowded, only this time I walk in this crowded place. Usually you just take me for a walk to the park, rame anyway but not as crowded now! It is amazing, from the Prophet Adam until now can be this much.

We finally arrived at a very beautiful house. Bigger than my father's house. I don't know how long this process took until the house.

"Come in, "He smiled at me holding the door. I'm in. Inside is no less magnificent than outside. Can I ask what this house is? Or palace? "You just go in there," he pointed it to a room on the right.

I'm nodding. He stayed away from me until I became aware of the clothes I was wearing. "Sir Doctor! " call me.

"What's? Is there anything less? Or can't you open the door? The door was not locked just calm down, "on returning to continue his steps.

"Ihh, "my annoyance made him turn back, it was visible from his feet that he was turning around. "How's my shirt? "

"Inside there are Aquilah clothes that you can wear, "he said softly. O God, should I be happy because of his gentle nature or should I be sad at this time, who is Aqilah? You are Adibah! What right do you have to be jealous!

I nodded and immediately left him standing stiff there. Am I still jealous? Allah is even more jealous that I love his people more than he does. Some of you are still not legal for him to make jealous, everything will be beautiful, even though I do not know when it is.

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"Well, love or not depends on my heart and my heart says yes"

Sorry Teypo scattered.

Lesson :

3 prayer should not be missed in prostration,

O Allah, I ask You, Hushnul khotimah

allah has given me the provision of repentance (or repentance) before death,

o Allah, O heart-reverser, set my heart on Your religion