Dear Imamku
Graduations

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"Please don't involve God in the lies you make! "

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My eyes focused on the phone I put on the table. I was reluctant to look at the woman in front of me, she was Zahra, the woman who had filled my heart, the woman I thought was an angel, but the good woman I thought was perfect, was too cunning to say perfect. When I decided to marry her, but things I never imagined should happen, I had to split up and I don't know what the next story is.

Actually I went to Jakarta not only want to work but also solve the problem between me and him, he meant Zahra. To be honest, I would never set foot in this place again, a place where I had to leave Zahra. I regret it all, everything has happened and I already have a beautiful destiny with other women.

"Mas, "Call Zahra. Like the first time I never looked at his face. "Sniff went to school again, why did you come here? " Nisam is the name of Zahra's son, I don't know if that child is my son.

"I want a DNA test with the kid."

This time, I looked directly at Zahra's face. Suddenly his face stiffened, he was definitely lying. "Say, you're married again? " it's bullshit! He deliberately diverted the conversation.

"How much do you need for all this drama? " My insinuation, which might make him hurt, doesn't matter.

"What do you mean, Mom? I don't need that, if Nisam isn't your son, by Allah"

"Please don't involve God in the lies you make! You've changed so much now, that's why I'm never sure about you again. Look, where's the hijab you used to wear? " my words were furious.

"Mas, I'm like this, it's all because of you. Since you left me, I let go of everything."

"What's? I'm the one who left? You got Zahra wrong, you forgot when you left without my permission? At that time, I was your husband!."

Astagfirullah. Why am I like this! I can't control myself when I talk to him.

Wait, Zahra is crying. "Mas. I didn't understand at the time that I didn't mean to leave him, but-" Zahra's words suddenly came to a halt with a voice from her phone. After staring at the name plastered on his phone, whether the mimic of his face is difficult to define. He stood up and went into his room to talk to the caller.

I got up from my seat and left the house. You know, after the incident between me and Zahra happened, I never wanted to break my heart to another woman but somehow after meeting Adibah, my wife, there was something different about me, I was in too much of a hurry to decide to marry her and I guess, I'm not wrong now. With her childish nature, with her forgetful nature, and with her humble nature that made me not want to let go of her.

Suddenly I miss Adibah, how is she? I hope that when cooking, his careless nature does not come again, he may get hurt again. The day after, I just got home, I hope this thing is over soon.

One more thing about Adibah, she cares more about teddy bears than me. When I go home later, I have to bring a teddy bear for him, but his teddy bear is already very much. Hopefully, when I go home later I can sleep close to him, not with his dolls.

The clock shows at 13:24 so an hour more, I have to call him-Adibah.

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Brother Farzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, I miss you! He said he wanted to go home yesterday why not now! Call me too never to be picked up! Kak Farzan in Jakarta has been four days, I'm afraid, every day there is always someone knocking on the door, I think mass Esa was not lucky not yet wide open when it arrived, if it arrived, don't know if I'm alive till tomorrow or not.

I also want to say that my hands know hot water earlier when cooking noodles and my hands also freckles not know what the name is, but yesterday check with the doctor he said the same allergy noodles, he said, brother Farzan I also want to say that the one between Dibah was Fauzi, sorry about it was dibah drowning because of these spots, he said, kak Farzan do not have to worry about the doctor already gave me medicine to drink, it tastes so bitter Farzan, for all my life I have never taken such a bitter medicine.

Yesterday Umi came, bring fried rice with fruits, kak Farzan know, umi food is not good. Brother Fazan once said my cooking was second best after mom, I just understood! But earlier umi told me, he said 'When will it come out like Aqilah? ' still school should get pregnant anyway? There's-there's umi. Keep me and umi yesterday to father's funeral, sometimes both are the same Kak Farzan.

I just remembered, Fauzi said to me like this, 'My story is like this, I love someone who doesn't know whose heart it is for, who I'm waiting for, although I do not know who exactly he wants to meet, and I still raise his name, even though I do not know whose name he has always set, he always skipped, I want to give up but already in love' What does that mean? I don't get it.

Jihan continued, she wanted to marry an army, if honestly Jihan did not want to, but because this was the will of her father, yes should not be canceled. Though married to the army is the ideals of Jihan from a long time ago but the current situation is different. But I hope, hopefully, their story is like our story, yes, initially had no feelings at all and now, I love Farzan very much. May you be the true soul mate that Allah has laid down for me. Ana Uhibbuka Fileh sir doctor.

Already yes brother Farzan, Dibah want to cook noodles first. Dear brother Farzan

Love blossoms not because of beauty, but two hearts that are intertwined. - Ibn Qayyim Al-Jauziyyah

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You're not the first, before you I've been in love with others, before meeting you I've felt how to have then lost, all of that I can get through pretty well, but for the first time, I really can't be ordinary, falling in love with you is just a feeling of wanting to be together without ever wanting a breakup, just imagine I can't and you're the first person who can make me feel loved without having me be someone else, you can accept my bad and fix it, he said, you can accept my more without demanding what I can't give.

May I be your last love in the world and in the hereafter. Later in heaven may we be found by Him. And therefore I love Brother Farzan because of him.

The happiness of a woman, when met with a man who values her, loves her woman very beautifully, and feels lucky to have a woman like her now. And I believe Farzan's brother is in those traits. I love Brother Farzan.

Kak Farzan in Jakarta has been a week, brother Farzan does not miss? If I miss Farzan very much, because Farzan never contacted me again, never returned my message. My head has been in a lot of pain lately, maybe because I cry a lot, because I always go to Farzan myself where the hell? You know, I was afraid that Brother Farzan left when I loved Farzan very much, when the presence of Farzan was very meaningful, as it is now. Please reply to my message this time, at least say 'Yes' only, I'm already very happy.

I love Brother Farzan very much. It was a long time ago, I was sleepy. Brother Farzan reply yes.

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I was so happy to look at the afternoon sky. Even though it was raining, even though it was not yellow, I always imagined what kind of twilight you saw in the distance.

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Why hasn't Farzan come home yet? Is it because of the teddy bear? It's okay if the doll is not there, as long as Farzan goes home. Farzan has been there for a month and there is no news, I miss and hopefully Farzan will miss me too.

Farzan knows, today I have a fever, a high fever. Only Aqilah and Jihan come sometimes. Wait, Aqilah also often asked the news of Farzan. Go home quickly.

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Brother Farzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! Dibah pass, yeahhhhh. Thank God finally graduated also with satisfactory grades, brother Farzan when to come here? Thank you for my graduation. Fast yes 😘😘😘😘

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I doubt now Brother Farzan. Every message I send is read only, why? Brother Farzan does not like me anymore? Huh! If yes, say yes! Now I know that Farzan is not what he used to be! I hate Farzan!!!!

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The most painful thing, when someone made you so special yesterday, then made you so unwanted now.

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Brother Farzan why the hell? Farzan's sister is almost three months in Jakarta! Brother Farzan why not go home? Huh! Farzan knew, I asked God to send me a man who loves me like a father loves a daughter, and God finally granted my request, but baby, it was all for a moment! Where's Farzan going? At least reply to my message!

Yesterday the man came again, I was almost doomed that Fauzi didn't come! When I needed Farzan but you didn't come, I was really disappointed!

If I said I love you, now I take back my words. I don't love you anymore! Really, don't come again!

I will not call you Farzan again, you are not Farzan's brother I know, why call you this name! The message I send every day is never a reply! This time, I no longer say why, I am bored and maybe you are tired of reading it too. Look, this is the last message I sent!

And wait! Fauzi once said, 'If he's okay with losing you, then he never really cared about you.' I think that's right!

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I want to tell you, if I've been working at the night market, the salary is enough for my daily expenses, and you don't have to send it to my account anymore, I no longer need it. In shaa Allah, this apartment I will pay all the rent! Thank you for this place, and thank you for the comfort in the meantime.

I haven't told you this, if I don't go to college anymore. You said I was going to college, it wasn't necessary.

Pray that I will forget you soon.

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You've been gone for ten months, how much does it cost to rent your apartment for me to use all this time? If you are not willing to return it, ask Aqilah only! I'll send the money to your account. If it's not enough, say, let me find another job, even if I work almost twenty-four hours now. I thank you for your departure, I learned a lot of things, such as giving someone in our lives quickly.

I leave all decisions to you, what do you want in the future for this relationship, in shaa Allah I will accept everything.

Father once said 'The world is jewelry, and the best jewelry in the world is the woman of prayer. Hrs. Muslim' May I be included in that.

And congratulations on the birth of Aqilah, the baby is cute.

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This man's hands started shaking as he read the message from Adibah back. His lips trembled, "I'm sorry, Adibah. " That's what he chose to say.

He again scrolled his phone screen reading the message his wife sent, today. It felt so hard when the doctor said that the child was his biological child. He could not take sides between them, which is why, Farzan chose to go from all this, leaving the city of Parepare and Jakarta, going to other countries to try to calm down for a while, errata is not temporary, he's been gone for ten months and two more months a year.

"I love you, Adibah. Why does this fate happen to us? You are the love that God sent me, and I hope that all will soon come soon. For some reason, it feels like I don't have the slightest inner bond for the child" Farzan murmured.

"How long will you leave your wife? I got word from Aqilah, that Adibah will soon move out of that apartment, Zan," Mahesa said, holding Farzan's shoulder.

In that white room, it felt so white. Farzan sat on the sofa while occasionally watching his phone and getting the news from Adibah back, but it seemed like it would not be able to come back, previously Adibah had sent a message to Farzan that the contents will not live again in Farzan's apartment.

"When I go home, I don't know what to say to Adibah! It's all my fault, I made that woman suffer, since living with me, Adibah has always suffered. And when we're together our happiness never lasts long." A drop of water ran down Farzan's cheek. "I give up all responsibility to keep Adibah there, Esa. And who is the man who always bothers Adibah? I don't want anyone to hurt him, Esa."

Mahesh approached his friend, stroking Farzan's shoulders. "Don't overdo it like this, Zan. Mind of your wife, meaning Adibah who still has the nature of her childish. And that man, he's been secured at the police station."

"Thank you, "said Farzan briefly, without noticing Mahesa's face directly.

"Don't thank me, but Fauzi. That guy almost came to your apartment every day, ever since you made this ridiculous decision, and I think he's taken your place now. "

Farzan quiet. Can no longer say what, when the problem does not end, obviously, the problem is faced not enjoyed, unlike Farzan.

"Tap me to Indonesia, maybe this is the last time I offer you a ride. I miss my little princess so much." Mahesa cried. The man got up from his seat, then stepped away to change his clothes. "The plane will land at 22:13 your time to think about staying two hours from now. Take care of yourself, I'm out first to get some fresh air in the country. "

Farzan's mood seems to be deteriorating now, daily errata are always like this. The water again managed to slide free from his eyes.

Allah will not test a servant unless there is a way out, all you have to do is be patient, wise and steadfast in dealing with him. God must have a beautiful groove for his patient servant. And if it is time, God will stop the problems you face, then be patient.

The chanting of the holy verse is now again heard from the mosque behind the hotel in Farzan at this time, showing the time of prayer asar soon come.

"Maybe my every step in the curse of the angels at this time, "he muttered, slowly stepping his feet.

If a woman cries because she is hurt by a man, then every step of the man is cursed by angels.Ali bin Abi Talib RA.

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"If I used to say I love you, now I'm taking back my words."

Sorry yes if the storyline is getting down v_vv_v, in shaa Allah if the mood improves, everything will be fixed.