Dear Imamku
Sad Scars

Aisha finds Naufal on the balcony of the room sipping her warm tea while staring at dusk

"Mas, what are you doing there?" ask Aisha wonder

"Nothing, just staring at the sky" replied Naufal

"Oh, which twin is Debia?" naufal asked Aisha

"They had gone to bed just now, probably tired of playing" said Aisha he walked over to Naufal and sat next to her

"Mas" call Aisha

"Why?" ask Naufal

"I want something" said Aisha

"What?"

"Do you still like Azizah?" aisha's reflex question made Naufal who was sipping his tea instantly choke

"What do you mean Sha?" asked Naufal in surprise

"Do you still like Azizah?" this time Aisha's voice sounded more serious

"No." answered Naufal straightforwardly

"Lies." Aisha's inner

"If I still like her, why would I defend our marriage?" ask Naufal this time Aisha made a silence

"Mas, I don't know who you really love?" ask Aisha again

"I just love you Aisha" said Naufal, but this time Naufal's voice sounded different than before

"You can't lie to me anymore." Aisha's inner self again

He did not want to complicate this, so Aisha got up and was about to leave but Naufal immediately held her back

"Where are you going?" ask Naufal

"You come in" replied Aisha as she was

"Here in the past, friends of menaj see" said Naufal but Aisha shook her head

"Senja's good to leave, don't you think?" tanya Aisha made Naufal speechless

"Udah ah, let's enter already want maghrib is not good still outside at this hour especially while daydreaming of trance" said Aisha

Naufal assures Aisha's invitation to enter, especially the air is getting colder

"Mas, eat yuk I already masakin peper shrimp earlier," said Aisha made Naufal eyes sparkle

"Come." said Naufal then pulled Aisha's hand towards the dining table

Aisha took rice for Naufal and also do not forget the pepper shrimp as her husband's favorite side dish

"Still Sha." said Naufal to receive his plate

That night the dining table that was only occupied by two people felt even quieter than before

There's only the twang of the spoon and the plate clashing against each other

Aisha who was sitting across from Naufal just stared at her husband silently

Aisha knew Naufal was lying about his feelings for Azizah, just how long she would harbour them

Aisha is fed up with all of Naufal's masks, she wants to immediately dismantle Naufal's lies and remove the fake mask

Aisha just kept quiet, she knew Naufal was saddened at the sudden invitation of Azizah yesterday

There is no more Naufal who is baffled, cheerful or excited if with the twins and Debia

There was only the look of a sad face and also regret, that was all Aisha could read from Naufal's current face

He took a deep breath, before finally deciding to stop eating, bodo very with Naufal who thought yes strange

***

If in the past Azmi will come every day, now that brother yes it is increasingly rare to come he is busy with orders in his boutique that soared sharply

So he could not see Aisha every day, the woman was bathing the twins and also Debia and Naufal still carry out his duties as a doctor in medical Qurtuby

He put the three of them in the stroller, then fed them both

nothing special that morning, Aisha took Naufal for a walk to the park with her children

But along the way Naufal looks not excited even though Naufal responds to every question as well as always smiling as usual, Aisha knows this is not Naufal

"Mas, can you not forget Azizah?" ask Aisha in her heart

"Mas, have you seriously forgotten Azizah?" ask Aisha again

"Aisha, why do you keep doing that?" naufal asked annoyed. He was upset because Aisha always presented the question continuously

"Because you're so hard to tell" replied Aisha upset

"I know you're sad that Azizah is getting married!"

Naufal looked into Aisha's eyes deeply, Jiak Aisha continues like this her emotions will not be controlled

"If you want to know the answer, then the answer is no! I never liked Azizah again nor was I ever sad about her wedding!" naufal said annoyed then left Aisha who was still silent with the words of Naufal just now

Aisha let out a long sigh, "I know you're sad, even if you lie the same way I see your face can never lie mas,"

"There are only sad strokes and regrets of a Naufal" murmured Aisha

Naufal's soul was sad, so Aisha was much sadder when she found out that her husband was thinking about another woman

Aisha hated Naufal, so much so that she wanted to leave her husband but the children still needed Naufal, as a father figure

Aisha hates herself being hurt so many times but still can accept with her chest, She hates herself so much

On the other hand Naufal went from home to the rooftop, a place where he used to be aloof when he was sad

Naufal was bediam in the rooftop barrier, his quarrel with Aisha earlier complicated the existing problems

Naufal did not know how to react, he was too dizzy with his problems

The road below looks ramia vehicles passing by signs that people have finished working from their jobs

It was late at night and Naufal was still there, wanting to forget his burden for a moment and feel at peace with the atmosphere

"Sir Naufal" called someone to make Naufal turn his head

"Awllet?"

"Why are you here?" ask Naufal again

"It's not important that you know where I'm from, I just want to say one thing" Azizah said

"What?"

"Sorry."

"For?"

"All things." said Azizah

"I know you must understand what happened that day,"

"But sorry, please forget me and be happy with Aisha, she's my best friend so I'll leave Aisha with Naufal's sister" Azizah said with a smile

"I'm getting married soon, so forget I forget the memories that were created and forget the past that ever existed,"

"Message me, please don't make Aisha cry,"

"Zah" called Naufal as the figure of Azizah in front of him slowly disappeared

Naufal screamed for Azizah's name but unfortunately she was no longer in front of him

Naufal awoke with hunting breath, he had been asleep on the rooftop since last night and now the sunlight was hitting his face

Naufal reached into his cell phone which showed at 10 am, jeez during that time he fell asleep even Naufal left his duty as a Muslim

He rubbed his face with rage. Dozens of missed calls from Aisha since last night. Dreams and Azizah. Everything seemed to fill his mind

"Yes Rabb forgive your servant" said Naufal then he rushed home, surely Aisha was worried because she had not come home since last night

"Sorry," Naufal murmured softly