Mr. HansH (Ishq Mein Marjawan)
Past Times

"You need anything? Wanna eat? Drink?"

I shook my head and deliberately showed it to him as if my current situation was very weak. Actually it's true, I was indeed in a weak state because I had only eaten a little. But right now I have no appetite. Not tasteful at all.

"All I need right now is to know what happened in the past" I said slowly. "About the story you kept secret from me. I want to hear everything."

Equally, HansH shook his head. "We had a deal, honey. You can't dig-"

"I want to hear it."

"These are...."

"Your honesty will let me know if I deserve to be by your side, or not. I will decide to leave or stay if I already know everything that happened in the past. So please, tell me. I beg?"

HansH ruffled his hair and turned his face. Frustrating. "We have a deal, Alisah. Why are you even...? Oh my God.. Why is it like this? I thought your amnesia.I thought everything would be fine. Why even...? Goddamn it!" He punched his palms while cursing. "Sheveni, I've asked him to forget the past. He said yes, but. in fact...."

"I need an answer. Truths. That'sallthatis. I wonder, what makes Sheveni hate me so much?"

HansH looked at me for a long time without saying anything, his eyes widened and glazed. Then he leaned over and kissed me on my forehead. "I'll tell you everything. But one thing you have to believe, that I really believe in you. Whatever has happened in the past, I do not trust anyone, or anyone, other than you and the truth you told me. I trust you completely. Okay?"

I held out my hand and held her hand. "I trust you too" I said. "And somehow, I'm sure everything will be fine between us. So, please, tell me everything."

HansH smiled, but his eyes shone with sadness. His eyes were red and his voice was trembling. "Someone set you up in the past."

"stuck me? What kind of trap? Who?"

"Of course."

"Lo's? How come? Why would that be?"

HansH puts his shoulders. "Come," he said. "Maybe her ex-boyfriend Sheveni, or someone else. It's not clear, don't know who's behind it. Sheveni's birthday, the party is celebrated with great fanfare in this house. All his friends and all our relatives were invited, including his dickhead ex-girlfriend. They were still dating."

I think I already know where this story is going, how it ends. And I must be ready to accept that fire is burning me. Burning Zia. It's a risk to me because I became the Alisah Sheveni hated.

"Continue, please...?"

"Someone gave you medicine...."

"Medicine...?"

"Em, stimulant."

"How did that happen?"

Boost. HansH turned his eyes away. "No idea" he said. "Eitherway. I don't understand either. Don't know how exactly. All you know about that time, it was Sheveni's friends who choked you with booze, and you were drunk. The influence of alcohol makes your stomach nauseous and you go to the kitchen, yourself. That's when the asshole took you to the barn. She. she intends to harass you."

As I thought! Has that happened yet? If yes, how? I'm still a virgin....

Confusion plagued me at the time, as if I thought that HansH and I were getting married soon and we were having a husband-wife relationship, and I'd be caught if I wasn't Alisah because I thought Alisah must have been harassed and she wasn't a virgin. As for me, I was a virgin and she must have been surprised when she touched me the first time. Strange, at once natural thought.

"Fortunately that hasn't happened yet."

"Oh? Haven't you? Didn't happen?"

"No."

Really, I'm relieved. I took a deep breath and I smiled cheerfully. But strangely, Hansh did not give the same response.

"What's wrong?" my many.

She shook her head.

Something's. There must be something. "What happens next? Why are you still moody? Isn't that bad thing not happening? Aye, right? Oh yeah, then why does Sheveni still hate Alisah? Emm... hate me? Everything that happens is just slander, right?"

"Because the son of a bitch said you were the one who teased him."

Goddamn bum! Instantly my eyes closed. Sheveni really hates Alisah. Of course he would deny the truth when he found out his girlfriend did that to another girl.

"But I believe you, Alisah."

"Why do you trust me so much? Sheveni, you... you guys.. you see me...?"

"You were not aware of that time. You're under the influence of alcohol. The guy took a chance when you were drunk. I took you away from the barn myself. Even after you came to your senses, we went to the hospital to do a visa and a blood check. As a result, not only alcohol, but also found stimulants in your blood, and the results of the visa show that you are still holy. How can a girl as good as you be willing to give up chastity for such an asshole, right? Thats impossible. It doesn't make sense. Besides, I trust all your explanations. You were in the kitchen and someone attacked you from behind. You're also drunk. You don't know anything that happened in the barn. You're drunk, and you're. You don't realize what you're doing there. Even if Sheveni thinks you're flirting with her boyfriend and sees him touching you in front of his own eyes, I still believe in you. So, please, just ignore Sheveni and all his hatred for you. I beg?"

Hufth. "I may be able to ignore Sheveni's hatred. I-i understand. That's natural. He deserves to hate me so much. But...."

"The story, please don't let this destroy the love between us. I beg?"

I'm nodding. "My love for you is huge. It will not break easily. But the truth is your sister hates me so much and she can't accept me. How can our relationship-"

"I knew. But that's-"

"Shhh...."

"Please...?"

"My HansH, listen to me. I don't want our relationship to be a fraternity of yours."

She shook her head. Too bad. I can't bear to see it. In front of others he could look so strong. But I know, he's fragile inside. His heart was filled with wounds that were hard to heal.

"Can you make him accept me? Do you want to try for that? You want to, right? Please don't make myself a destroyer of your brotherly relations. I know how valuable fraternal relations are. Because I don't have any siblings. I don't want your relationship ruined because of me. Would help?"

Again, HansH smiled, but his eyes still shone with sadness - as if my request was an impossible one for him to do.

Really, if I could, I would like to erase the sadness that is there. He disappeared and never came back. If could....

"We'll try. I'll do anything to take care of my family. I pledge. Now sleep. I'll stay here when you wake up."

What a sweet man....

I nodded and closed my eyes. My body goosebumps hearing him whisper in the ear, "I love you, Alisah. Forgive me for being so often negligent to take care of you. But I promise you, I won't let any more trouble come to you. I promise."

"I believe you, My HansH," I murmured. "I love you too."

I spread my left hand on the blanket, my palm facing upwards, warm in a greyed-out grip.

Thank you for this opportunity, Lord. If I could always be happy. Give me a way....