Mr. HansH (Ishq Mein Marjawan)
Complicated

But I'm not backing out. I want to know the answer to my question.

"I beg you, huh? Please...? We're going to be brothers, I think I should know about your injuries, maybe... My bond with you will be stronger if I also feel your wounds, right?"

Nandini smiled bitterly, I knew she understood what my words meant. "I see, thanks for your intentions, other than your curiosity, I know that your intentions are good. So. I'll tell you."

"Well?"

He nodded, took a deep breath and began to tell stories. Tears continued to pool and flow throughout the story. Despite the pain and trembling voice, Nandini was willing to share her wounds with me.

"That's a really bad time I've been through. It happened when I got home from college. I was kidnapped and held for a few days, almost two weeks. And. I was raped. Not just once, many times. And. Not just one man, there were a few men who raped me. Yes, Brother HansH did various ways to find me, with the help of the police, detectives, even all parties, he finally managed to find me. I was kidnapped by a business competitor who didn't accept it because he was always defeated in the tender. He hated Kak HansH because Kak HansH always excelled at him. Sly people. He knows that Kak HansH's weakness and strength is his family. So he wants to destroy Brother HansH by making me his target. After the abduction, the seed of that bastard was already growing in my womb. I'm in a state of depression, maybe not. But the seed that grew was innocent, right? That's when Vikram put his hand on me. In order to preserve the honor of a girl who had been abused, who had been forcibly deprived of her honor, Vikram restored my honor by marrying me. In addition to his respect for a woman, he did so for the sake of Kak HansH, and for the sake of our family. He's a good guy. I'm so grateful that he's willing to save my life from destruction."

I am really moved. Although my tears also dripped hearing this bitter story, but I was happy because Nandini did not continue to fall in her life after the bad events that happened to her. And HansH, he also remained steadfast in accepting all the heavy burdens he had to bear.

You should take care of your brothers, brother. Despite everything that happened in the past, as an older brother, Kak Sanjeev should have as much responsibility as HansH. You must take care of your sisters, and their honor. If only you would soften your heart.

"Okay, enough for that sad story. I actually want to admit the same thing. I mean, I'm also experiencing the same thing you're feeling."

Hmm..my forehead shrinks. "O yeah? Why would that be?" many wonder. "I mean you're married. So what else are you confused about? You've run the household, and agreed to respect each other. Then?"

Ah, I'm too ambushing.

"alright. I guess I should just listen. Ii'm sorry. So, tell me what's confusing you?"

Nandini rubbed her face with her palm. "Alright, listen to my flattering. Look, my marriage to Vikram has indeed happened. The marriage that was done because it was forced to preserve honor and close the disgrace of the family, mainly to close my disgrace. We married in two ways, according to each other's beliefs. The first marriage was religiously consistent with Vikram's beliefs. And a second marriage with my trust. You know, right, our customs and traditions, weaving flowers, going around the holy fire, putting on the mangalsutra and wearing the insinuations on the forehead. But it used to happen not with the heart, it just happened. Our marriage is state-sanctioned, but at heart, we doubt it. Me and Vikram...."

Oh, the sentence stopped. What was he going to say?

I looked at him reassuringly that he had to tell me everything. "What's wrong?" my many. "You... and he...?"

Again, the words stopped. "But...? Don't hesitate, tell me. I'm not gonna tell anyone. Hmm?"

"We couldn't decide to divorce, even if I had a miscarriage. Vikram doesn't want to hurt my heart, nor does he want to hurt Brother HansH and the hearts of everyone in this family. We are not divorced, but we are not remarried either."

I-i understand. I closed my eyes for a moment and looked closely at his two eyes. "And all this is hard on you because you love her? You don't want a divorce either because you want you guys to always be attached to each other? Is this relationship using the heart? Am I right?"

Blushed. The red glow that adorned her cheeks, as well as her silence in a smile, told me what the answer was from inside her heart.

"Did he love you too?"

Nandini. "He said it once, and he also admitted, that's one of the reasons he didn't want to divorce me."

"God, the problems we face are just as complicated."

And trust is not a game we can change at will.

"I'm also looking for answers for myself. And, well, I haven't got that answer either. Emm... Vikram once told me that if I wanted to be with him, I meant being together in a full marriage, he wanted me to be his old faith. He is not following my beliefs. Because it's... Vikram, he's exactly Kak HansH, even though they're not really religious and can be said to be quite naughty and ignorant, I know they won't believe any other beliefs. They believe that God is only one. God is not born and does not give birth. God does not have a father, a mother, a son, or even a wife. God must not be manifested in the form of a statue that can be made and can also be destroyed. Moreover, it can be punished by humans and tied at the gallows. They believe that God is great and powerful. So, it is impossible for them to deny the teachings of Islam."

I froze. Nandini's answer made me think further about life. About God, he's the one I have to believe in.

"Then yourself, Nandini? Why don't you embrace Islam while your brother, your husband, even your aunt takes care of you, they all embrace Islam? And even Vikram has told you that condition. So, why?"

He smiled back. "You alone, why aren't you so easy to convert? Since birth, are you a Muslim? Hmm?"

It's hard to explain, Nandini. It's difficult. Complicated. Because I'm not Alisah.