Mr. HansH (Ishq Mein Marjawan)
Still Okay!

Even with a cup of hot coffee in my hand and a blanket wrapped around my shoulders, I couldn't stop shivering. Not that I am cold because I fell into the water, but because of the fact that I realized that since I became an Alisah, I have twice almost died because of the actions that other people deliberately did to me. Not one week bearing the identity of Alisah, I have twice almost moved. What if I live with this identity? I will truly be a deceased like the real Alisah.

Ouw. Alisah's life is horrible. Not to mention the moment I realized that I had accidentally made a mistake, I shouldn't have blatantly said that I couldn't swim which ended up being a big question, the difference in contrast between me and the late Alisah. I could have given another reason, for example, telling HansH that when my feet were covered in cramps, I couldn't swim. That would make more sense.

Now that I was confused, HansH's silence after driving me to the pavilion left me perplexed as to what was in his mind. I knew he wouldn't suspect that I wasn't Alisah. But what if he thinks like Sheveni that I'm just pretending that I can't swim so that his relationship with Sheveni is divided? And it could be that this will spark a spark between the past and the present, what Alisah used to experience due to the cursed stimulant drug, he said, maybe it will make others think that Alisah used to only pretend to blame others, even though he himself really teased his girlfriend Sheveni.

Oh, Zia. Rest assured, HansH must believe you. Sure.

But the little devil in my head whispered another: But Sheveni is his real sister, oi! And you're accusing him so badly in front of his brother. You lost your mind, Zia? Really too!

Argha!

I got the blanket tighter around my shoulder, then held the coffee cup against my chest while recalling the scene: HansH carried me to the pavilion, he took a towel, dried my hair and told me to change clothes. He said nothing but that. Then, when I came out of the dressing room, he was no longer in the pavilion I occupied. He just left. And strangely this time I didn't catch a signal I could understand from his eyes.

I sipped my coffee, but the liquid didn't help warm the cold I felt in my chest. Why am I so scared?

No. gabe. What Sheveni said earlier would not affect HansH's confidence in me. It won't! Absolutely not!

"Alice."

My heart jumped. That's HansH's voice. He's coming again? He's not mad at me?

"Alice."

I took my foot off the bed and put the coffee cup on the table and I went to the door. Open it. "Yes?"

HansH brought lunch, complete with side dishes and vegetables, plus a sandwich and a large glass of melon juice and a large glass of cold water. I'm gawking.

"I'm gonna be a bride, you want to make me fat?"

She grinned. "Then we'll eat both. Can you let me in? I beg?"

"certain." I opened the door wider and he came in and sat down on the sofa. "Is everything good?" I asked, I sat next to him and took over the tray from his hand. "I mean. I'm not helping in the kitchen. I also felt bad to go out. and. I really feel guilty because of my words, I accuse Sheveni of being a no-no. I'm mistaken. She must have been just upset with me, so she pushed me. Not that he meant to kill me. I'm sorry, My HansH. I've been too much to accuse him."

HansH smiled. Both of his hands cupped the curves of my neck and looked at me with sparkling eyes. "I understand," he said. "And I'm glad you're saying this, like my old Alisah. Like this, it's my Alisah."

Oh, it turns out the Alisah who used to be so gentle. It's not barbarians like me who scream blame on others.

"Listen, honey, maybe things are getting more complicated now, but believe me, I trust you more than myself. Everything Sheveni said was not true. You didn't mean to break our relationship. You're just reacting. You've escaped death three times, so it's only natural that you're so scared. I-i understand. Okay?"

I'm nodding.

"Listen to me" he continued. "In my eyes you are a very good girl, both past and present, you are my same Alisah, you never have bad intentions towards anyone. And I'll never misjudge you. Right, right, Alisah?"

I nodded back in silence. Not touched or flattered. Because in reality, I came into HansH's life with bad intentions, even though now my intentions have changed. And what he believed in was Alisah, not me. Not Zia. If he finds out about my lies, about who I am, he'll never believe me at all. Only Alisah did he believe, not Zia.

"Now let's eat." HansH took the tray out of my hand and placed it on the table. "You want fish?"

"Oh yeah, honey, I've asked Vikram for help to buy you a new phone. He'll stop by the store after he gets out of the office."

I shake my head and thank you. "But if it's not a hassle, could you please buy me a new simcard?"

"New simcard? Why do you want a new simcard? What happened to your old simcard?"

Ughhhh! Turns out he's a pretty chatty guy.

"Really, you want to know?"

"Yes?"

"Alright, here's Mr. Dear HansH, your lover is beautiful, isn't he? There were a lot of young men out of nowhere they could get my phone number and they were bothering me a lot. So, do you want this to keep happening? You want those boys to keep bothering your future wife? Hmm?"

HansH nodded. He needed to swallow a spoonful of rice that had already entered his mouth before replying. "Then so good. You're right, you need to change your phone number. No one can disturb my future wife."

"Mmm-hmm.it's good that you understand. So, don't forget the new phone and the new simcard for me. That way I'll be very grateful to you."

HansH smiled mischievously. "How?"

"What do you want? Huuuuuh.." I blow my breath in his face.

Chuckles. She shuffled back from me and said, "Don't do that again before we get married. That's hazardous. You understand what I mean, dangerous?"

"Unfortunately I don't understand" I said -- just meant to joke.

Equally holding back a laugh, HansH instead pinched hard on my right cheek. Then he broke down hard and then cut me off. "Hold on, Bride Candidate. That beautiful day is coming soon. And you'll be all mine. Be patient."

Uuuuh. It was as if I was the only one who could not wait for it.

"alright. We better talk about something else."

HansH nodded back. "Surely," he said. He picked up a glass and finished half a glass of water and burped. "What are you talking about, my love?"

I cleared my throat slowly, a little scared. "Emm.. about. swimming."

"Oh, about that, I think. I think you might have forgotten how."

"Em." I'm nodding. "Maybe," I said, I lied again. "Will you teach me to swim?"

"For what, dear? You're already proficient. You've even plumbed my heart to the bottom. Isn't that right, Madam?"

Wwwwww...! He is the most dreadful creature of God! But I like it. Really like!