Self Healing
Episode 10 First Examination

Time is limited to three times, the past that has gone, the present that is lived, and the tomorrow that is still a mystery. 

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"Ka... Sick! Leasin ka." her voice was almost inaudible.

"It's a punishment for the man who has made a mess!"

Suddenly, everything felt dark. Only someone called his name screaming. 

"Naziyaa…" 

"Nadila, what are you doing with your sister? Haa?" rough jolt. 

"Why did Mom come back? Wasn't he the one who had made my father go away, and he who had always put you in trouble!"

"You know nothing. Do not be pretentious about anything, you do not teach you to be a bad person. Nadila" Now the tone of his speech began to low. 

"Then?... He always gets everything he wants, but what am I. Mah's? He's always been my dearest father, and then I'm just a figure?" she screamed with tears that had already seeped on her cheeks. 

"Bi, please take Naziya to the room, cure him." 

"Look baby, you are an adult do not need to be bargained let alone envious of the small. Dad must be sad to see you, he loves you. Please help mama, don't get confused by everything." Bans 

"He's pissing, my stuff. It's Nadila's figura so gini because of her." His brother by showing the figura with his cry that had begun to subside. 

"Can still be replaced, no need to grab your sister's hair until she faints. Didn't you know? He has a weakness in his head.'' Insinuations. 

"That's what mecahin is ka, not teteh." A person chimed in with his peculiarities like a person waking up. 

 Mayassah shook her head. Nadila widened her eyes in disbelief.

"Not extended, my dear! You get settled in instead and tomorrow you'll replace it with a new one." 

"His-Non, Ziya muttered the pain continuously and slowly her temperature started to heat up." Bi Inah ran away with a feeling of worry that was clearly printed on his face. 

"Auntie wants to take it to the doctor or I'll call the doctor?" Mayassah asked back.

 Bi Inah got a response like that was not strange anymore, his heart was a little pity to see the state of the Nazis, but now he felt confused, because the state of the Nazis was really not okay. 

"It's up to the mistress." finally the answer that Bi Inah could say. 

"Yes have not been brought or called by a doctor, later also healed yourself. He's from a small one like that."

"But, New!" 

"There's no buts. Isn't it up to me." 

  Nadila was silent, she saw the behavior of her mother at that time. There was a feeling of regret and heartlessness that had made the Nazis sprawled. Immediately he rushed away, seeing the state of Naziya. 

  The Nazis were lying with their eyes closed. Near closer, the corner of his eyes continued to shed tears and his whole body was sweating and hot after Nadila put her hand on the forehead Naziya. Nadila drifted away, she felt that there was an awkwardness in her heart, she did not oppress her sister so cruelly that she had to lie limp, but from her red head and pillow. 

  "Mama." he shouted 

"What's the matter la-.." answered Mayassah approaching with a small run. 

"Get out of you, Nadila! Close door!" Mayassah said rudely, she snapped at Nadila. 

 Nadila who got a jolt Mayassah inevitably she cried again, she was really surprised by the attitude of her mother. 

"Well what's up? Adek bled his head but mamah instead…''

"Quite Nadila, you're out!" shouted again. 

"Grand-"

"Nadila you love mamah just as good, right?" cut Mayassah. 

  Nadila relented, she closed the door and afterwards had no idea what had happened. From that day on, the frost between him and the Nazis and his mother's attitude was no longer inevitable. And the connoisseur in him of all those stories, Nazwa. 

"Doctor, hello." Nadila listened behind the door. Not long after the door to Naziya's room opened, Mayassah carried it and did not know where to take it. Nadila remembered, her mother said. "Sorry dear mama, mamah is too afraid to hurt you. Now mama's confused." 

"Will you? The office is in trouble, you feel overwhelmed to control it. All this is due to the negligence of mamah, who is too focused on finding your bundle. Mamah hurt you. Sorry mamah, please wake up do not stay mama. " Naziya groaned in pain.

"Aww akattt-- " still with eyes closed.

"Doctor," cried Mayassah. The person wearing the white suit ran around two people immediately met them. Throughout the Naziya handled Mayassah himself pacing around in front of the room. The crying has not dried up.

"I'm sorry, I failed to take care of Naziya, and I haven't found Shakila yet, even though the time has been running for almost 5 more years, it feels the same. It was dark and still painful, mas, "gluffy and he sat down. Remembering Haris, he several times called him failed. There is no other way than to send an email message that was given after two years back he managed to find traces of his missing. 

To : Haris 

    "How are you doing there? It's aunt. His head was bleeding. Auntie feels like a failure, you can help."

sent but until Naziya siuman there was never an answer.

"It's okay, miracle. His memory nerves will most likely be able to recall after a complete recovery."

The doctor came out with a smile. Two days in the hospital, alone. Hearing the news, Mayassah was delighted.

"Mamah" said Nadila and Najwa and Bi Inah who were there.

"Why didn't Mom say it?" Nadila bowed.

Excuse the doctor came out, Mayassah did not dare to look at Nadila and Najwa his eyes continued to look at Naziya.

"Madam I brought you a change of clothes and food," Bi Inah offered the goods.

"Aa-yahh. "Naziya opened her eyes, her tears came out.

"Dad just came, Naziya wanted to go with dad but he forbade. I left Naziya alone. He said he was waiting for Naziya," he said stammering. Mayassah heard that it immediately grabbed her body.

"Yes baby, Mom is waiting for you. Brother Nadila also came this." pointed at him while bringing Nadila closer. The goods offered by Bi Inah until it fell. Naziya looked at everything, she smiled faintly. 

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   The cloudy sky that would rain but suddenly brighten again, that's when Naziya thought it was dark after the rain would disappear turned out to come a more concentrated night. Two things are likely predicted by different humans. He returns home, his Naziya smile continuing to get hold of Mayassah.

"Well, we'll go to the zoo" he asked. Nadila was indifferent and Najwa was silent.

"You can't, same Auntie?" Naziya let go of that grip. He ran himself into his room, a full day locked himself up.

Mayassah could not beat her heart, and there were many prejudices that left her unable to do anything but let her.

"Na-" he said weakly. Nadila went down to lead Najwa, Bi Inah tidied up the things that were in the trunk.

It was cold, quiet, alone until the divine light came. Bi Inah taught him about religion, which Mayassah had forgotten, because of Nadila and Najwa whatever he always put together about religion.

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Days passed, the clock kept ticking nonstop, time never stood still, everything looked the same. For the Nazis, he was just a prankster who did not know ethics. After the incident, Naziya became a very unpredictable girl about her, as if there had never been anything she wanted in her life, learn to follow the flow and try to be the best according to him himself without thinking what to do, why and how to live this, as well as this wound.

When Naziya entered class VIII in junior high school, he was once tempted to run away after his obscure anger until the sentence was not allowed to go out for one week, other than school.

"Where are you going? Night-night" Nadila's intrusion stops the Nazis.

"Like me, brother, do you care what my brother is?" taunted.

When Naziya was about to open the door, Nadila locked it, when he had stepped on the high school bench.

"Lock the room!" word's cold.

Naziya sculpted, as Nadila looked at him, Naziya who was holding a small bag.

"You running away?" tanyakanya.

The Nazi heart just slipped out of it, when the fuzzy word was heard. It was clear he did not know where else to go, but all this time he could not fight back, finally just turning towards his room. Crying in a pillow roll. Nadila peeked behind the door just grieving without knowing why. No one else could hear the Nazi's grief other than Bi Inah.

Ever since Bi Inah stopped working, her life was lost, often causing trouble. Skipping school has become commonplace, ngerjain children parents until his parents passed to BK he was called. Escape to attract attention, but not succeed, Mayassah was not interested. Especially lately Mayassah likes to go home at night.

Nadila who was a teenager quite mature, although the sense of tension is still given distance by the Nazis, now more concerned with the sense of regret has grown as a sister.

"Dek until when do you make trouble anyway," walking along Nadila opened her conversation by asking.

The Nazis did not answer, they ignored him. Nadila understood, until in the parking lot the question was not answered. Nadila hugged him.

"That's what you feel, brother, always ignored and not considered. I just want one, which is mama." Nadila breathed.

The whole way home was still dominated by cold. Suddenly Naziya remembered the words of Bi Inah.

"Darling aunt will be home, you're good huh. Aunty believes you can get through it all, break the ice after your father died, and one thing you should never leave your prayers and your salary. The Creator is always with you, believing it. Don't keep making trouble." she smiled, she knew she had been disappointed unintentionally.

"Adek miss Bi Inah, ajarin adek njai Kak."

A good start half the time in a third of the problems. Nadila nodded steadily.