Self Healing
Episode 3 of Moon Face

          Every second of life is haunted by fear. Whoever succeeds in conquering it, it's the same as ruling the world. 

     Anonymous

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"Hafidz. "the resolute voice stopped the young man's steps who looked with a very chaotic look. The hair is limp, sultry holding anger and the tattered clothes are opened buttons on it.

  "Ay--." stunt like someone who is cheating. The rhythm of his heart was very racing, the feeling of all the flavors had stopped. Upset with a life that has always never been as privileged as any other sister, tired of the drama of obedience, the question mark of the meaning of divinity, and, and the new problem that caused him to mess up to dare to go home from school is not his hour, after a small commotion that happened yesterday with an unknown woman.  

   Cowering lethargic, and resigned to everything that would happen. His heart is painful. If only my mother were alive. Will this happen to me, wandering around like crazy. 

   "Sit you!" word is rude

Hafidz according to ogah\-ogahan. His buttocks he landed on the chair, the head that had previously been bowed, was now lifted. After neutralizing the heart that feels pain like being pierced by thousands of needles. He tries to go against the tide, taking responsibility for his confusion even though the beginning of his realization is wrong. The eyes of the eagle that still looks red because it is holding back the cry is now staring at the father. Her smile she showed, signifying she was fine\-all. "Yes dad, what's wrong?" tanyakanya. 

"After what you've done, you still ask me why? Haa.." she jolted.

"Plakk." "the slap, hitting his left cheek, the spotlight was disappointed as soon as it appeared. An angry outburst had come to the surface. Hafidz was still smiling. Merely, the eagle's eyes that were staring intently at the owner of the spotlight were disappointed it was slightly watery. In fact, it flows to the tip of the base where the speck falls and hits the cheek-exposed slap. Of course, but Hafidz now strengthens the heart. He will not submit to anyone, he has believed the only one who is entitled and submits to whom he is is alone. That temperament he got from the courage of a woman who had slapped him yesterday. She was so graceful, but she was a repellent of elegance on the basis of the limelight. He's a tomboy, but he prevents comboiness for styles that aren't allowed.

"You're a child who doesn't know how good it is, what can you do?" he said it was burning\-flare, like there was a blaze ready to hit anyone. Hafidz who continues to put on a smile, but is strengthening the heart and holding the tone of voice so as not to be raucous. Now say a few sentences

"Dad, Hafidz can only act like Kak Firman or Kak Faisal. Are they the ones you've always been proud of? If you're fed up with my existence, I'm ready to be banished from being a person but like dead. Existing but not considered, visible but never appreciated. Always considered small and small. I used to obey for fear that it was my fault, but it wasn't? You who have taken away the happiness of a woman so holy and made her give birth to a child and then you ignore, then you torture her for your lust until she dies. But the world is too blind, you cover it all by taking good care of the child YOUR OWN BIOLOGICAL CHILD in public only. For your family is the same, theatrical only for personal. What's my fault?" Hafidz emphasized the word biological child and changed the word father into you. He passed by, running up the stairs without waiting for the father's next answer. Hafidz's father looked flabbergasted.

Thirty minutes less, Hafidz had gone out of his room and down the stairs with a medium-sized bag. "One more thing, you don't have to set a time with that foundation school to sue women just because your famous dear family, my school problems are blurred not because whatever this is purely I'm fed up with, to prove you're a real man find my mother's family and where her body is." 

     Hafizd's father was sculpting, his jaw was hardened and his red face tinge was extinguished. His hands were clenched, his breath hunted and in the end his legs stiffened to chase after Hafidz who had disappeared from his sight. 

     Should... ?"

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    "Ibuuu.". "bluh Hafidz pilu, the road is not necessarily the direction across the pavement which is now filled with pedestrians, splitting the noise of the city center, but for him, all seems empty no one. Like a void of space covered in darkness. 

Sunlight is still sparkling, highlighting the curves of his body with a tall stature, skin that is yellow, nose that looks like a footballer Christian Ronaldo, and his symmetrical face like betel leaves plus a thin mouth carving round eyes was seen pouring sweat from the face that looked exhausted.

     Before long, someone accidentally bumped into him, when Hafidz's bow of steps led to the end of the sidewalk. He hit Hafidz half-slammed and elbowed him roughly. The run was flushed like a death chase which he did not accept at that time. It was not until a minute that a crowd of people ran after him, shouting "Copett...Copett" Hafidz was silent for a moment, his soul consciousness still lingering in a valley called the test. His age, which has stepped on the phase of maturity, is trying to understand and find new meaning.

"Buuggghh.." Hafidz nudged, this time until his body bounced and fell to the side of the sidewalk. 

The Nazis continued to monologue "Not really well, that guy. The same guy! But wait, ko he his face looks lethargic and gloomy bangett sih. Uh bodoamat." The whisper of his heart almost deflected that step. But the veins are chiming in"But wait, when I stay. Get her, please"

  "I think his life is more ruined than porridge." 

     "Hi, let's get up.. Why are you?" Naziya greeted after being right in front of him. Hafidz who was still down now his head was looking up, the tip of his eyes following the direction of the voice. For a second Hafidz was shocked, but then returned as usual.

He got up and brushed off the dirty clothes in the dust. "Lu the girl from yesterday, right? Cave is sorry. Sorry... " Hafidz smiled imposingly, turning his lips slightly and his voice barely sounded because it was so raucous.

The Nazis weren't surprised, he just cleared his throat."Eemmm... Then?" Naziya hung his words.

Hafidz was silent for a moment, pecking at what words he was going to put out next. "If we talk in the park, yes, the cave again needs a backrest, and about yesterday the cave will be clear." Suddenly the word was taken out of the mulu Hafidz just like that, like a rocket that will fly waiting on cue but after flying at high speed that is no less cool. His Nazi heart was a little confused, although the aura of his coldness still dominated.

"Haaa backup. Meanin?" Naziya replied to his words by slightly linking his eyebrows because he was a little confused.

"Ehhh-No, I mean... " Hafidz scratched his non-itchy nape.

"That's it then, come on." take Naziya to the point.

"Where?" Hafidz asked as if it was true that he was not aware of his words. Naziya let out a little sigh, then spoke again with a little emphasis. "It's not that you go to the park, and you again need a backrest, and the cave look, you seem to have exhausted the frustration of fear of being attacked by the adzab.... Hahaha" Naziya laughed with satisfaction at Hafidz's expression that had not been read.

"Lu. "the snapping of Hafidz's teeth seemed happy for the Nazis. 

  "Elo.. Buruan," Naziya invited with a little way that had gone away. The streets this afternoon Nazi realized, there was something else among the desolate that dominated the two. Naziya realized that the attitude just now was not Nazi as usual, about revenge indeed Nazis did not have all that. It's just that, heartache always he silenced by a dream fantasy. The two went hand in hand after Hafidz managed to align his steps.

"Whose name, for yesterday I'm sorry. I know, at school now you must have a problem and called the teacher BK to arrange a meeting schedule with my family, and the cave is currently telling you, elo, don't be taken and never go see me." Hafidz spoke with a straight gaze not one bit he turned his face, seeing how the Nazis reacted.

"My chain is stupid, and I'm not very familiar with it. Can it be? Why do you look so screwed up?" Naziya replied after the two of them arrived at the city park. 

     "Eemm.. Hahahahaa, my life is ruined and ruined hahaha. Confound and if I may ask, I would never be in the world." Hafidz cried out with a discordant laugh because now his cries broke, and his body collapsed on the ground. Naziya, who had just landed his butt in one of the chairs, heard Hafidz's reply, making him flabbergasted, and quickly turned his body with Hafidz who had been standing on his knees under the grass. The condition of the park is crowded, some people looked towards the two but all returned to their respective affairs. Hafidz looked at the situation, and when he would wake up his eyes straight, the conscious Nazi immediately threw away his gaze, helping Hafidz to wake up.

     Naziya was confused as to what to comment. But again one shadow flashed unexpectedly, making the Nazi head ache. He held his head, then muttered "Awww.Sick," he lamented. 

"my life is ruined and confused, I want to die this time. But please don't get in my way, I want to go catch up with mom there. Dad doesn't love me anymore. He was always yelling at me" a little boy raved at an adult who was on par with his body. The adult was seen crying, she was trying to grab hold of him. But many times he brushed aside, until the girls approached them. 

    "Ba-yangan. Hafidz glanced at Naziya half-snickering his eyes. He was confused, but one look the eyes met again and the carving of his face left Hafidz stunned. 

 "You, why? Are you the same girl." asked Hafidz, her eyes seemed to radiate hope. His face that had originally looked pale was now as if it was flowing with blood again."Aw.. aww.. Arrggghh." The Nazis complained more, his voice was stuck wanting to cry. "So far away from you, away from you. "The Nazis said softly half their strength almost lost restraining the overflow of emotions within. 

   "Mother.." She screamed as she ran away from the boy. At the same time, the crowd blocked him. She also cried while hugging her knees. 

Hafidz, who saw the Nazis holding his head covered in a veil of pain, hugged him tightly without a word, speaking to his heart. "I know it's wrong, I'm sorry, but I feel like this is the beginning of a new problem that I'm going to have, proving a true life. I am no longer afraid of you, the world. Just look at my axiom."