Self Healing
Episode 53 Healing but Hurting

During my treatment, my brothers and sisters alternately visited me in the hospital. They also took the time to visit the home of Tyo's parents, in addition to berilaturahmi also to visit my three daughters who stayed there.

"So then Hana came, bring toys for Zalfa the same story books for Icha and Ara," said Tyo who had just arrived after returning home for several hours.

"Children must be very happy, brought the same toys storybook," I said while imagining the joy of children who get gifts from their buds.

"Yes, thank God they are happy. Honey, now it has to be more excited to be able to join Lebaran at home."

"Fighting !"

Three days before Eid al-Fitr, I was allowed to go home even though my condition was still not bad, because of the vertigo I experienced. This condition makes me nauseous all day and it really drains my energy to fight nausea.

Meanwhile, Tyo's extended family had gathered at his parents' home in Rawamangun to welcome Eid al-Fitr, a cheerful and warm atmosphere filled with joking jest made me forget the nausea I felt.

"Lin, are you praying on Id tomorrow?" ask Tyo's mom.

"If you can't, neither can papa" continued Cahya, the first daughter-in-law.

"Mbak Intan wants to minjemin electric bike for tomorrow, so tomorrow we ride the bike to the field, how?" ask Tyo.

"May," I replied.

"Yowes, so I'm praying tomorrow?" ask Tyo's mother who I answered with a nod of the head.

The next day, I went to the field to attend a service that was only held twice a year, by riding a bicycle. I can also follow the Id prayer until it is finished without any problems.

As usual, after that neighbors and relatives were not stopping to arrive.

"Who, rest in the room, the guests are justin. They know really, if you just finished head surgery, papa did not just rest in the room," said Tyo who understands my situation.

"Thank You."

Hearing the happiness of the family gathered with her joking, made me slightly forget my vertigo. That same day, Verdi and Ewing's family came to visit before they left for Jogja to meet my parents.

"Lina's check-up schedule, when?" ask Verdi.

"Still 2 weeks away, after which once a month for three months. If there are no complaints, it is over. But here there is a reference to check with an immunologist, because from the results of yesterday's examination, there are autoimmune indications," replied Tyo.

"Lina's got an autoimmune condition?" ask Verdi.

"Not yet to know, my. But there's suspicion in that direction, because the blockage is recurring with no known cause" Tyo replied.

"Hopefully there will be a bright spot for Lina's pain. I can't imagine what it's like to head back and forth in surgery, where I lost my memory too, right?"

"Not to be overshadowed, Mom. Just look at it, then," I replied casually.

"Lin, you can still be that relaxed huh?"

"Capek if taken seriously continue, anyways I auto can rides ontang-anting the same kora-kora all day, so yes enjoy a privilege that I get from God," I replied casually.

"I salute you, you are strong. May this pain be a sinner."

"Aamiiin, thank you, ma'am."

A few moments later, the Verdi family also say goodbye because it will go directly to Jogja.

"Greetings to the fathers, Mas," I said before Verdi said goodbye.

"In the Lord, do not wear, rest. We'll call ya."

A few days later, the Tyo family had planned to stay together at the top by renting two villas, I informed the plan to mother.

"The plan was two nights, anyway" I replied.

"If according to the fathers, you should not follow. Your condition is still not strong, if soy sauce is even dangerous. Let the children come, there will be pakde-budenya, yes you stay at home with Tyo."

"I want it too, Mom. But mas Tyo said, let's not squish, let's get his body."

"For what? La wong you still have to bedrest. Remember, you used to bedrest for a whole month, it also does not count hospitalization. Laa has just two weeks finished the operation kok already want to go for a walk. If you will refuse the invitation, but yes it is up to you. You know how good it is."

"I also want to be at home, but I think Tyo wants me to come," I replied.

"It's up to you, if there's anything, he's a doctor, let him take responsibility."

All that mother said was true and I myself also really did not want to go on vacation with the condition of my body that still feels on the ship. But what to say, if everything says this is also good for my recovery.

Until the time came we all went to the top using four private vehicles. We set off at eight in the morning with the hope of arriving before dzuhur. But no matter what Deni thought the front, he chose an alternative route because he wanted to avoid the system of open and close enforced by Polantas.

Tyo and the others followed behind. At the beginning of the journey was still safe, until we passed through a muddy road, hollow and rocks.

"Where the hell's this goin? This way of Ancur was chosen?" grouse Tyo.

Want me to answer it with, "Can't have to convoy, kayak want to stray where. Choose through the usual path just can, open the lid how long anyway?"

But I chose to be quiet, because my head was starting to fall apart.

We continued walking until we finally arrived at a large villa when it was dark. We arrived at the villa at almost eight p.m., which means the journey from Rawamangun to Puncak, taken for twelve hours. This is as long as the journey to Central Java!

Angry and upset should I soak away so as not to damage the holiday atmosphere that should be fun. Moreover, all the family members looked happy and cheerful.

The next morning, I opened the window of my room and I saw a beautiful green landscape covered with fog and houses.

"Where did Lin, last night get a good rest ?" ask mbak Nur.

"Alhamdulillah, Ma'am."

"Come, breakfast first, then free to do. The children are already on the streets with the abi," he added.

On that day, I chose to rest in the villa. Although everyone invited me to join a walk to enjoy the fresh air and scenery. I just wondered in my heart why they didn't ask me what I was feeling, two weeks ago I had just had a head operation, not a dental surgery, a week is fine too!

Why would they argue that this holiday makes me better and recover faster? What about that emotionally draining twelve-hour trip?

But then again, all this happened because I just kept quiet. I didn't fight back and protest, just because I didn't want to ruin the holiday mood.

My mother called to know my condition, after I sent a message when we arrived at the villa.

"That's twelve hours, Lin?! You how? Trus Tyo?"

"Alhamdulillah is still on board. Mas Tyo again take the children for a walk," I replied.

"Not that, I mean, how did she react to you ?"

"Of course, check the blood pressure. Never mind Mom, I'm lazy to talk about it. This vacation is for them, not for me."

"Trus are you left alone in the villa?"

"No, there is the same Mbak Nur mbak Leni, kok," I replied.

"Alhamdulillah, if you are left alone, his name is ngawur!"

I understand my mother's concern for my health. There is no parent who may not worry about the condition of his child, especially if his health condition is not fine.