H.U.R.T
First Mission Failed

unfortunately how many times the dance calls me, I still honga lift the dance phone, until the end of the dance fell asleep with the phone next to him.

right at 1 am I went out of the room to get a drink, when I came down there was a sound that I understood what it was.

I didn't want to care at all because the sound came from my mother's room.

I continued walking towards the kitchen and immediately took a drink, for some reason I sat down and faced my mother's room whose door was slightly open, curious about the sound that was heard again I immediately kept the glass I was holding and walked slowly closer to my mother's room.

the voice was getting clearer, the voice turned out to be from Aunt Riska who was whimpering, either feeling pain or.

I don't know, I just saw Aunt Riska without a piece of cloth covering her body sitting right on top of the father who was sleeping on his back while closing his eyes, but I knew that father was not asleep.

my legs began to tremble, my face was hot and my chest was pounding incoherently, I was angry, sad and upset.

my eyes are now getting wet, the only memory I can see clearly is your face.

how painful the mother if only the mother sees this, in the room that usually mother and father mutually vent all emotions this time the father uses her with other women besides the mother.

the tears had now reached each of my cheeks, without realizing the end I ran out and did not know where to go.

I came out without closing the door or the gate, I kept running with tears.

after a long walk I sat on a park chair in the middle of the city, here still very crowded even though it was past midnight.

I reached into my pants pocket and started counting the money I accidentally took with me, without a second thought I walked back to the stop and started riding the angkot that had just stopped right in front of me.

this time I walked into a small gank alone, this alley to Alfin's house, although on each right and left there is a house but in fact tonight the alley feels lonely.

my steps stopped right in front of Alfin's house, a simple house that looked more comfortable than mine.

although a little hesitant, I continued my steps to meet with Alfin, the one person that I really wanted to meet at the time I was like this.

but even though I was at Alfin's doorstep, I undo my intention to knock on Alfin's door, my mind started to become confused.

suddenly a man stood right behind me and patted me on the shoulder, it surprised me and turned to face the man.

" what are you doing here ???? "

Alfin whispered while gesturing for me to not be too loud to make a sound, Alfin also looked shocked and awkward with my current existence in front of his house, that's because he's not used to being with women in the middle of the night like this.

" Fin ....... "

I sobbed at Alfin hoping to get some calm from Alfin at this time.

" Ri, do you know what time it is?? it's good to see the neighbors "

I rubbed my tears violently and looked at Alfin's face, for some reason not his calmness but this time I felt disappointed by Alfin's reply.

" so you want me to go ??? "

" morning we can see you again "

" i don't want to go home "

" why???? I don't think I might take you to the rich gini RI's midnight house "

I was silent for a moment, the feeling was strange, my chest felt tight to hear Alfin's reply at this moment.

Alfin grabbed my hand and led me away from his house, I could not resist Alfin and followed him walking right behind Alfin who was still holding my hand.

during the walk Alfin and I fell silent, even alfin several times bowed his head while continuing to cover him with the hat he was wearing.

at the end of my life, Alfin and I arrived in front of the alley and many people passed by, Alfin invited me to one of the mini markets that are always open 24 hours every day.

" you drink first "

Alfin put the bottle that had opened the lid on me, but this time I did not see Alfin warm and attentive, it's like it's not Alfin I know I thought as I gulped down Alfin's drink.

" you don't like me here, do you, Fin??? "

" i don't like you running around in the middle of the night "

" i have no intention of getting rich in Gini Fin, but....... "

" whatever the reason I still don't like "

I was silent for a moment and came back crying, Alfin clasped my hand and looked at me at this moment.

" i'll take you home "

" i want to be here alone, if you want to go home, go home "

this time I really feel devastated, disappointed even I feel wrong to have made Alfin my goal of leaving home.

" i have no responsibility if there's anything about you if I go home "

I don't care what Alfin's saying right now, I think I hate Alfin tonight.

" yes I've come home, but you don't need to take me "

" why ??? "

" because I want to be alone "

I got up from my seat and started walking towards the stop that was too far away with the mini market where Alfin and I were sitting.

" the ri, "

Alfin held my hand as I began to step away from Alfin.

" i have no intention of.......... "

" i understand ko Fin, I've come home "

I started walking towards the stop and followed Alfin from behind, maybe Alfin also felt good about his sikaf on me.

a few minutes waiting at the stop without saying anything, even I could not turn to Alfin since I left the mini market.

a taxi stopped at the stop, someone got off the taxi, without a second thought and without saying anything to Alfin I quickly boarded the taxi.

" where is neng ?? "

" the way first sir, I'll tell you later "

" how ya go where is this neng ??? "

" straight, sir "

with a confused face the taxi driver was his final run his car and left the stop.

Alfin only took a deep breath as the taxi left the stop.

his phone rang before he left the stop.