H.U.R.T
Worth Death

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"Free me up."

The two sentences were able to make Steve's heart seem to stop beating. Has Lexi been so tormented all this time? If you're free from the snare of Steven Percy's love, then what will he do? Open your heart to other men and get married and live happily by having cute and adorable children? That thought made Steve uncomfortable. The girl hugged him tighter. Not to calm Lexi down, but to herself. He felt like he wanted to explode. It will explode with a very uncomfortable taste.

"The colonizer deserves to die then."

Lexi parsed their arms, her pretty eyes filled with crystal clear squeaking dislikes hearing Steven's statement. "He's not an invader and he's dead!"

"You're enslaved, it's called invaders!" Steve knew what they were talking about was himself. But while Lexi was still defending her version of Steven Percy, she was upset. Weird right? Steve even felt himself to be ridiculous.

"It wasn't him who colonized, but I chose him."

"Then you're the fool!"

"I'm not stupid! There is nothing stupid, there is nothing wrong in love! Why don't you understand how I feel!"

Steve was stunned to see the girl's rampage. The eyes are now flooded with tears. Hey, he's not seriously saying Lexi's stupid.

"I'm..."

"Shut up! Don't talk to me! I was angry. I'm mad at you. I'm angry at everything. Darren, he also often mocked me, the girl who gave up his lunch just so that the young man could have lunch. Darren will give me his provisions. Darren says I don't deserve that geeky..."

Steve chokes. He had not heard the word geeky for a long time. Yes, he was always said to be geeky and poor.

"I don't know why I'm not worthy? Is it because I am Willson who lives with luxury while he is a commoner. Or because I'm a stupid girl while she's a very smart young man. I really don't know which of the two reasons is the most appropriate." Lexi wiped her nose water roughly. Steve who saw that, pulled Lexi's chin to face towards her. He took a tissue and then he wiped the trail of tears and the girl's nose water.

"If caste is the reason. Why would Jasmine and Aladdin be able to live happily? If the rich have to be with the rich, why Romeo and Juliet have such a tragic ending. Every night I think about it. I don't think I'm so ugly, I'm so pretty, at least that's what my family said. Why did he refuse to look at me? Does he also see that love must be equal. That's why he prefers Olive. God, why should I talk to you about this. You don't even know who Olive is."

"Continue. I'll listen."

Lexi shook her head, "It hurts."

"Don't be arrested."

"I feel ashamed."

"Why?" Steve was confused.

"I was rejected a few times."

"You didn't find out why?"

"You didn't hear what I just said?" Lexi snatched the tissue from Steve's hand and firmly stuck out her nose. There is no sweetness at all. "He chose Olive. They're in a relationship."

"Because they're both smart?"

Lexi shook her head, "I thought so at first. Actuallyno. It's because I'm not worthy." Lexi smiled bitterly. "I was born from the womb of a woman who was so obsessed with my father, Pax Willson. All the ways he did to get my father. The obsession that he thought love was, in fact, creating havoc for him. He lived a lot of suffering. Obsession is different from love. Love cannot be forced. Until the end of his life, he never got my father's heart. My father pityed her. Choosing to stay by my mother's side because there was me. In fact, I couldn't be the reason for my father to give my mother a chance. Again, love cannot be forced. I thought I was just born from a woman's obsession with men, in fact I was also born from a man's obsession with women. My biological father loved Alena's mother so much that he did crazy things to get her whole mother. In fact, his madness made Alena's mother more distant and even hate him. Love is beautiful but terrible. I don't want to be like them. Mommy and Daddy didn't want me to end up so miserable. Akh...." His voice was stuck in his throat. Both of his hands re-emaassed his chest firmly. Lexi looks so tormented. "They love me, they love me. They want me to live happily. They were victims of my parents. But they love me sincerely. Ha-just, their love is too excessive. Just because I didn't want anything bad to happen to me who loved that young man so much, my father sent him to a horrible place. A place that took his life. I am the cause. I am the cause. I don't deserve anyone's love. It's petaka. It's curse. Everyone cursed me and I deserved even the worst curse."

"Lexy..." Steve's hand was outstretched, intending to pull the woman into his arms. However, Lexi's reaction was beyond belief. The girl jumped up and moved away. His eyes were staring, full of emotion and suffering.

"Don't touch me! Get away from me!" Lexi's suddenly hysterical. "Darren doesn't like you, which means you're a dangerous man. You pointed a gun at my father, you're not a good man. You asked me to be your lover, but you dared to make trouble in my house. You have a purpose, right? You must want to use me? All those close to me must have some ulterior intent. Lily said I wasn't a good friend. Are there bad friends? Isla haunted even after she died. The girl always used my card to have fun during her life, I don't mind if she's happy. I don't like to be hated. And then Olivia, she said I was netting when I supported her relationship with the geeky. I have no intention of taking it! I'm just saying my feelings aren't asking the geeky to return it. Then why did the man throw a sick look at me like I was so disgusting. He even threw away my gift gift when I visited him to that horrible place. Not appreciating my efforts. I got some wounds on my body. His heart was so hard, not full at all. He deserves to die, everyone deserves to die, everyone has to die! I hate everything. You all must die! Arggghhh....."

Steve nodded, petrified on the spot. It was like he was running, grabbing the girl, but in front of him it was like there was a huge wall so thick and high, it was hard to reach Lexi.

"But I deserve to die too. I'm the cause of everything." Lirih Lexi with a voice that sounded very heartbreaking. Lexi dragged her body to the corner of the room. Bending her knees, hugging her tightly then burying her face on her knees. "I deserve to die."