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Failures

His quarrel with Reza yesterday became the start of the little sparks in their relationship. More and more days there are those who make them misunderstand and argue. Nara really can't stand all Reza's low self-esteem, as well as her comments about her work and her salary.

Though their marriage is less than 1.5 months away but Nara's feelings are getting worse. He was really afraid that until later Reza would still behave like that. Every day Nara prayed for her relationship with Reza to improve. Her feelings do not change, Nara still loves the man and wants to spend her whole life with him. Sometimes she thinks Reza is just going through a tough time after losing her job.

Today Reza invited him to meet at a cafe. A few days ago they had a dispute because of the MUA cost for their wedding later. Reza said the price was too expensive and asked Nara to look for another MUA. But Nara was already in love with the results of the MUA he chose. Her boyfriend instead blamed her taste too high, telling her that the show also only lasted a few hours, no need to make up too fancy. Nara wants to look beautiful on the most special day of her life. It made Nara angry and sad.

It had already been 15 minutes passed from the hour of meeting they had agreed upon. But Reza still hasn't shown up at the cafe. Usually Nara will be picked up and they go together if a deal is made somewhere. But not this time. Reza rarely picks him up or drives him. Even when I go home and go to work.

“Sorry I'm leaving school, taking care of administration for accreditation.” Reza said when he arrived at the cafe.

“Sunday gini?” Ask Nara wonder.

“Ya.iya.” Reza seemed to be in doubt with his own answer. But Nara doesn't talk about it anymore.

“What do you want to do? About MUA yesterday?” Tanya Nara changed the topic.

Reza took a heavy breath, before starting to speak. “Ra, do you feel like we don't understand anymore?”

“Means?”

“We don't like it anymore, Ra. I'm not connected, every day fighting and always not one thought. You feel that too, right? I'm afraid that if this relationship continues we're both destroyed.”

Unpleasant feelings run through Nara's heart. He knows all that. Very know. But what makes all these relationships difficult is Reza's own attitude.

“Za, don't you feel like this all started with you? You've been emotional lately, always inferior, and always accused me of being a macem. You always see me as a high-hearted, consumptive, extravagant girl. I never thought so. I am always there and want to help you if your financial situation is no longer good, but you even think I insult and demean you.”

“Yes, I know that. That's why I can't see my future with you who are higher level than me. We can't agree anymore, Ra. I can't make myself comfortable with all the help from you.”

“What does that mean? You want to break up, right? After we get this far and another 1.5 months of marriage, Za?”

“Iya. I want us to break up. I can't continue our relationship until marriage.”

“Reza! You are really crazy! Just because you feel insecure as you are now you can not think long with our relationship!” Nara said in a high tone.

“Then you should improve your mind, Za! Have I ever let you down? Have I ever sued you? I always support you and accept you for who you are. Why can't you accept me for who I am? Do I have to resign from my job so you feel I'm equal to you?” Tears melt on Nara's cheeks.

“I work for us it's okay. I never mind taking care of all our financial needs later. But you don't want to, do you? You and your high self-esteem always feel defeated.” Nara is getting more emotional.

Those words were very precise, piercing Reza's heart. He hates himself so much that he looks weak and useless in front of Nara because his income is not as big as it used to be. Letting Nara be their financial backer would hurt her self-esteem. She doesn't want to let Nara keep working.

“Then do you want to say what our parents are like? Huh huh? You dare to say to our parents who have prepared and sacrificed a lot for our marriage if we break up?” Nara Cecar.

“I'll tell you, Ra.” Reply Reza calmly.

“Za, don't want to break up from you! You why the hell?” Raung Nara hysterical “You don't understand that I love you so much? For just this reason you want to break up with me?” Nara could not stop her crying now.

“There are many reasons you don't know. But this is one of them. I'm really sorry, Ra. The feeling I told you to stop here aja.” Reza tried to calm Nara down. Clasping his hand.

“Please, Yes. You can't believe it's the same as me.” Pinta Nara is desperate.

“I want you to be happy. But you wouldn't be able to if I was the same.”

“I resign if you feel I am not equal to you. I want to do anything, Za.”

“You don't waste your work for me, Ra. I'm really sorry for not being able to continue our relationship. I can't. My heart cannot. I'll go to your house tonight to explain everything to your parents.”

Reza left him alone at the cafe. There was nothing more Nara could do to convince Reza to stay by her side. It was as easy as it was that she decided to go and cancel their wedding. There were so many questions Nara wanted to ask her. Wh why? How could?

The relationship he had for 5 years was lost, Nara's world collapsed that day. Her cries could not be dammed, she no longer cared who saw her sobbing on one of the cafe's benches. I don't know what people think of him.

Only Reza had Nara's mind all along. No other man was in her heart. No matter what form it takes, her feelings for Reza can't just disappear. Why is Reza so easy to get away from him? Does she love Nara anymore?

Love alone is not enough to make a man live beside him. What else does Nara need? How else to keep her lover from leaving her? Does he need a mountain of luck to maintain his relationship? If only Nara had. If only there was luck. Anything. Nara finds her love again.