Hello Arvin!
Strange Feelings
Nara had a strange dream last night. It's a crazy dream. Until when he woke up his feelings also felt strange and foreign. Nara doesn't even want to remember that dream anymore. It felt so real, he kept remembering it. Continue to feel it as if experiencing it yourself.
He dreams of kissing Arvin.
Crazy one!
It's grim!
It's disgusting!
But strangely, there was a tickling feeling in his stomach. Arvin's soft, wet lips touched it. Slowly. It was warm and made her heart flower.
The citrus and woody fragrance of the Versace eau fraiche perfume that Arvin often wears fills his smell. Nara dared to swear, smelling this male fragrance made her goosebump. Maybe because all night he hugged Arvin while crying.
Damnit damnit!
Ja. She hugged Arvin while crying. How foolish and shameful his life was. Maybe that's why Nara had a strange dream and now feels very confused when she sees Arvin.
“Lo yesterday why? Sick? Want to check with the doctor ga?” Tanya Arvin was worried.
The man was already wearing a shirt, neat, ready for the office and fragrant. Why is his nose suddenly so sensitive to odors. Especially the pleasant Arvin aroma.
This time it looks like she's wearing her Jo Malone perfume collection. No, it looks like it's from Byredo.
STOP OUT! NARA FOCUS!
“Gue not feeling well. Dizziness.” Answer Nara ketus. He poured cereal into the bowl and added cold milk.
“Gue has made you breakfast.”
“Gue don't want to eat rice. Smells make nausea.”
Nara was hungry this morning. But when imagining having to eat rice, she felt the aroma make her stomach churn. Makes her nauseous and wants to vomit. Today Nara just wants to smell the pleasant aroma of Arvin's body.
No. gabe. His brain is not sane!
“Ya has eaten the side dish doang. Don't eat that cereal. High sugar. Nutrition dikit.”
“Iyaa bauble. I'll eat later. You have already left for work!”
“Lo really ain't nothing, is it? Yesterday the malem lo lemes really and dry continues. Later in the afternoon I can go home first if you want to see a doctor.”
Nara stared fiercely at Arvin. “Gue says it's okay. I'll go later.”
“Where to go? Same who?”
“Ke Starbucks, same name SD.”
“What's his name? Girl or guy? What time is it?”
“Arvin! What kind of onion are you? Want me to go with anyone yes it is up to me.”
“Ga can do that. You want to hate how I like your husband. Must know who you play with, where, and until when.”
“Gue want to meet Atika, my SD friend, at Starbucks GI.” Shouted Nara annoyed.
“Sampe what time? At 5pm we should go home. If you haven't come home I'll take it by force. I'll chat lo. Don't be mistreated. Bales.”
Nara hears Arvin's orders. Powerful. Luckily, Arvin is gone. Go to the office. Otherwise, Nara had already thrown him with a cereal box.
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Nara had been sitting for half an hour at Starbucks, ordering a green tea frappuccino with an additional caramel like her favorite.
His days are very bleak now. A little bit of caffeinated drinks and chatting friends will make her feel better.
Arvin would have commented if he knew he was consuming caffeine. But obviously Nara doesn't care about that shitty guy. Although he felt very strange all day because he wanted to hug Arvin, wrapped his arms around the man's neck while smelling the faint aroma of the perfume he was wearing.
The figure Nara was waiting for came. Standing awkwardly at the entrance, her eyes wander around to find Nara waving.
“Gue ain't used to hanging out in places like gini. Regular also drink coffee liong have abah.” Said Atika whispering while sitting in front of Nara. “lo the cool ah.”
Nara laughed at Atika's words. Then move from its place. Ordering Caramel Macchiato, very basic. Nara keeps the drink in front of Atika. I saw him drinking carefully. His facial water instantly turned instantly bright.
“Pantes expensive. Delicious also turned out.” His comments.
“Udah out. Encing me the redeemed. Now he's helping out at Priok with encing. That's why I want to turn money lo kemaren.”
“Ga. Create lo aja.”
“This is big money, Ra. Time for me anyway. Ga ah.”
“Create lo. Make open business or what cake.”
“Serious right lo?”
Nara nodded. Besides, it's not the money. But Arvin's money, and perhaps Arvin's, doesn't care at all about the 5 million he lost without realizing it. He even spent a dozen million just to buy his acoustic guitar. Just that kind of money means nothing to Arvin.
“Life is so good, Ra. Sampe purse money this way like to buy poci tea.”
“Gue is not as happy as you think, Tik.”
“Why the hell? Your life is guaranteed. You will not lack, until nyopet like my sister.” Atika said “Because you do not like your husband? You are not at peace yet with him?” Continues probing.
“Gue would never like him.” Nara replied upset.
“Pamali. He's already a lo.” husband
“Dih. Males.”
“So how, you don't fall into lo content? I'm worried that you might not be able to be contacted. Kirain lo died. You see, I just got word that someone died while again having an abortion there, the clinic is closed now.”
“Gue in care 4 days. But no miscarriage really, until now I am still pregnant.”
“Good dong. Strong means orok lo. He wants to live to meet his father's mother.”
“Can I not, ga talking about my pregnancy continues?”
“Ga can. Your pregnancy is still a hot news in the village.”
Nara's heart melos. He may remain in talks for another year. Surely what those people said about him was not much different from what the group of women in the Groove Bar toilet said. His heart hurt again.
“How am I? They can meet neighbors, right?” Nara said sadly.
“Bapak lo have started participating in activities with neighbors, filial work, still diligent to the mosque, and follow yasinan every Friday mall. But your mother rarely goes to school now. My mother said it.”
Nara felt very guilty hearing that. His mother and father must be very embarrassed. He was a really disappointing kid. He wanted to go home prostrated on the legs of his parents. But until now he was really afraid to show his face in front of them.
The messages that Nara sent with routine were never replies until now. Settles. I don't know until when. Maybe wait for their hearts to melt. Apologize to him.
“But good, there are some who are motivated by the same lo. Let college, educated, enter big companies. Let anyone know later can dapetnya boss handsome, rich, macem husband lo.”
“Ya have taken my husband.”
“Hush.. If your husband really taken another girl how? Nangis dah lo ntar.”
“Ga. Take aja. He also has a girlfriend. Most abis this child was born he married his girlfriend, or maybe he is also dating now the same girl.”
Keysas. If it's not wrong that's the name Nara heard yesterday. Arvin's girlfriend, whom Nara sees taking a friendly photo on Arvin's phone, whom Nara sees in Arvin's arms, whom Nara sees as very happy with Arvin. All Arvin's sweet treatment on him, it's getting sicker. In fact, he already has another special person behind all his attention and responsibility towards Nara. You female player!
“Hah does that mean? Husband until now still dating his old girlfriend?”
“Ga tau ah. Bodo amat.”
“Yes who know the same marriage. He cut out his girlfriend, right?”
“Gue says bodo supremely!”
“Eh talking about a girlfriend, I want your boyfriend who is not married to you. What's-her-name? Yes reza? I think he moved on from Lo deh, Ra.”
Hearing that name, sadness suddenly struck. I feel like crying. Until now his heart is still folded neatly for Reza. He could not move to another heart. Imagine, the man had accompanied him for 5 years. Fill each day with warm feelings and love.
“Gue is now working to keep a wholesale store. The sturdy boy where I work at school in SMK where your boyfriend ngajar. I often pick him up, keep seeing your girlfriend's bonceng temen work. Chick. His son said he was a strong English teacher. Often digosipin with students if they become so because of very deket.” Atika is very good at talking about the hottest gossip.
Hearing this, Nara's jealousy ignited. How could Reza forget about it so quickly? While Nara still could not open her heart to others.
Throughout the meeting Nara became unfocused. Atika keeps raving about a lot of things. But all Nara thought in her mind was Reza. Until now the photos of Reza still he posted on his social media account. None of it erased the man's existence. In places both visible and distant based on his soul that no one ever knew.