Hello Arvin!
Not Ready yet

He said the boy was carrying his own sustenance and destiny. Perhaps the existence of this small creature in her stomach, has brought and linked the fate of Nara to Arvin. The now busy figure chose fresh fish, squid, and crabs for their dinner this evening at one of the restaurants around Ancol.

A strange fate.

It was almost 8 months ago when I first met Arvin. I didn't think it would end with him. The man with the messy appearance he met was still asleep until noon in the penthouse, when his father bet his life on the operating table. He promises to be a good husband and a good parent.

Of course Nara did not immediately believe. Although wanted. Humans aren't that easy to change, are they? Bad behavior is not likely to go away. Nara is also not ready to give her heart to Arvin. Too fast, too rash. Arvin with all the ugly rumors and mistakes seemed to hold Nara. He won't be easy free-falling and falling in love with men anymore.

After talking to her mother, Nara also questions a lot about her feelings. Not just for Arvin, but for Reza. The relationship that they built almost 5 years, for men is meaningless when faced with difficulties that he cannot control. Dragging him to the most stupid decision by breaking ties with him.

Although there was still a vast place Nara lived in for the man. Nara doubts the form of the feeling is love, or just a comfortable familiar feeling. Because with Arvin everything is very foreign.

“You tired?” Arvin asked as he sat back in front of him. They wait for fresh seafood to be cooked by the seller.

“Ya according to lo? The streets all day kayak earlier for pregnant women will make healthy, so?”

“You're not feeling well?”

“Iya. My waist hurts. My feet are pegel. I want to sleep in bed.”

“Yes, we're home. Eat first huh?” Says Arvin feels guilty.

Today was fun for Nara. He hadn't been walking like that for a long time. But he did not want to lie, if now the condition of his body is no longer the same. Just walking around, seeing the attractions of dolphins, and the divers at the mermaid show have made it like running a marathon 1000 meters.

“Fish grilled, squid flour, same crab sauce pasture. This I love bonus boiled clams, said Masnya his wife again pregnant.” The seller said he served the food in a friendly manner.

“Lo why say I'm pregnant anyway?” Nara said as the seller had left their table. Her belly is still not visible. Moreover, Nara uses an oversize shirt that hides the curves of her body. Being 13 weeks pregnant has not changed Nara's appearance. Even though he felt his clothes were getting narrower and his fat started filling up everywhere.

“Why did you? Father asked you, thought you were my friend. His son who again grilled fish has a crush.” Arvin said scowling.

Nara immediately glanced at the person who was busy burning fish. The young man, who Nara estimated was in his late 20s, wore a green uniform, a sexy brown skin. She looks cute.

“Ngapain diliatin?” Arvin continues ferociously.

“Sweet is also his brother.” Whisper Nara with a smile.

“Not to centil to another guy. Look at me. I'm less handsome?”

“If you are not sane.”

Arvin grunts his head. He started to open the shell of the very tempting prairie sauce crab in front of them.

“Wait!” Nara said when Arvin would scoop food mouth, “Lo not seafood allergy, right? If you have food allergies other than peanuts, cepetan said. Later I'm bothered to take you to the hospital.” Further.

“I'm not allergic to seafood.”

Arvin continued eating. Continuing to look at Nara, afraid that she might secretly glance at the grilled fishmonger's son. But Nara was busy with her food. Trying to remove meat from crab claws. Arvin smiles. Then helped.

“If you have allergies it is not clear that my child will also get it. Nurun from her father." Said Nara who was worried that her son would suffer from the same allergies as Arvin.

Arvin smiled, “There's a possibility anyway. Try in the test aja food allergy what fit was born.”

“Awas aja ugly-ugly from lo down to my son.”

“Salahin the mustache. He nurunin ugly things are also the same me.”

“But Mr. Candra is good. His behavior is not as bad as yours. You're scandals everywhere.”

“Who said? The mustache is also a lot of scandals. But I never cheated like a mustache. I told you that I never had a relationship with several girls at one time. Even though I have many girlfriends.”

“Gue denger gossip, you never see your biological mother for the rest of your life, yes?” Nara said carefully.

“Who said? I lived with my real mother. So don't easily believe the gossip about me.”

“Serious?”

Arvin nodded, “I nemenin mama in her last months before dying. Abis that I was told to stay with grandma, do not go back with mom. The mustache yes-in aja, nurutin his wife.” He said smiling bitterly.

Whoaa. Nara never expected Arvin would tell her that casually in front of her. His coworkers used to always have a special lunch session to reveal information about Arvin's life that was confusing. About her and her real mother. Of course it's hard to get it. But now Nara heard directly from the man.

“You ate it already? Come home he said to rest.” Arvin said quickly ending the conversation. Though Nara was ready to open her mouth, mengedel with questions that disturbed her.

But Arvin doesn't seem ready to share his life with Nara. He was also being careful about his relationship with her. Not necessarily saying all the secret things that are kept neat, especially about their complicated relationship with parents.

Although Arvin said he would do anything for Nara and the baby. Not that he also automatically opened up about his past. Nara understands. He also asked out of curiosity. There was no other meaning than to sympathize with him. Too far. Too far-fetched.

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Along the way home Arvin regretted not being able to be honest about himself to Nara. He could see Nara ready to throw up a lot of questions and curious about her relationship with her parents, especially her birth mother.

Arvin can't yet. If necessary, he does not want to share stories about the annoying times in his life with anyone. Of course besides Keysa, who used to be very close and filled his days since High School. He's enough. Arvin will bury all the memories and stories about his birth mother just for himself.

Arvin loves Nara. Want to live with her raising their children. But he wants to live in the future. It is not the past that deserves to be forgotten.

“You want a massage? Said your waist and legs hurt.” Arvin said as they prepared for bed.

Nara is very tired right now. His body seemed to fall out ungodly. Receiving a massage has nothing to lose. He finally agreed.

Arvin sat behind Nara and began to gently massage her back. Then it widens towards the waist. Actually not a massage, more precisely stroking the body behind Nara. She did not want Nara to be in pain due to her strong hand massage.

The longer Arvin's happy to do it. Touching Nara was like activating these delinquent thoughts that she had been harboring. It felt like I wanted to tear apart the thin nightgown that Nara was wearing. Down his back that was as white as a marble and smooth. Accompany each inch with a kiss.

Goddamnit!

He's been getting harder to hold on lately. Especially after Nara didn't mind being touched. Makes Arvin want his needs met.

Nara is really dangerous for her sanity!

“Open her shirt, let me olesin oil wind.” Briefing Arvin at Nara from behind.

Nara was shocked. Steer clear of Arvin. Goosebumps all over his body hearing those words from Arvin. Obviously he doesn't want to. That kind of thing is the best way to feed yourself to a man who has no control like Arvin. She wants to raise her child together. But no one plans to do his job as wife for Arvin.

Nara did not want to. Wouldn't let Arvin do the deed to her, or give her a loophole.

“Do not take a chance yes lo!”

“What opportunity?” Arvin asked as if he had no ulterior motive.

“Not plain pretentious. Tell me to undress. I will be a mother to my son. But I won't be your wife!”

“What do you think? I just want to mijit you doang kok.”

“Do not mode. I know your mind is dirty. Do not need to be followed. I want to sleep.”

Nara immediately lay down, covered her body with a blanket, closed her eyes and turned her back to Arvin. He shouldn't have let Arvin touch his body. That man is unbelievable. Nara never clearly remembered what happened that night. But Nara knows she doesn't want to do that anymore with Arvin.