Hello Arvin!
The Heart that Shakes

Nara came home to the penthouse late enough. When he entered there he glanced at the clock in the hand which showed at 22:30. Usually Arvin would be busy calling her when she got home but Nara wasn't there. This time no calls came to his phone. Maybe Arvin doesn't care about him, either. Then choose Keysa who meets his love and needs.

Nara doesn't care.

Lies.

His heart was uneasy and disappointed when Arvin did not contact him. Especially when she remembered Keysa, and Arvin's attention to her. His heart suddenly hurt.

Maybe Arvin and Reza aren't the right people for Nara. It felt like he was not receiving the love he so desperately needed right now. Both disappeared seized by circumstances and other women.

Nara also does not want to know Arvin further to understand, because at that time she will sneeze. At risk once when his heart begins to sympathize with Arvin, he will easily fall on his own feelings. Nara has just decided to end it. Keep lying about his true feelings.

“Where? Why did the clock come home this early?”

Arvin sits on one of the living room sofas. Staring at Nara with an unhappy face. His work shirt looks crumpled and his hair is also disheveled. Until this hour Arvin is still wearing the same clothes as this morning when he left for work. Maybe he just arrived.

“Meet ex. Same as lo.” Nara then sat down on the sofa. Facing each other with Arvin.

“You want revenge, so?” Arvin was upset.

“Gue is too honorable for revenge by cheating as you sell.” Nara takes the invitation from Reza and keeps it on the table in front of her. “Gue just released the past with roomy chest.” Nara said with a bitter smile.

Arvin looked from afar at the invitation Nara had placed on the table. Apparently Nara's ex-fiance has chosen another woman to marry. Arvin's relieved, he won't bother Nara. Yes, even though all this time the man never harassed anything.

They remained silent for quite a while. Drown in each other's minds and choose what to say for each other.

“Gue wants it to be the same thing, Vin. You must answer honestly.” Nara's words broke the silence. “How do you feel about Keysa?” Continue to encourage me to ask.

“I still have the same feeling Keysa.”

Nara knows. Very know.

But why would listening to that phrase spoken straight from Arvin's lips make him hurt more? Is it true that Nara has been this heartbroken with Arvin? His hands trembled and his tears wanted to come down running from his place. As much as Nara's energy still trying to calm down.

“Keep the same me what? Why chase me and keep believing I let you live together? Because I feel guilty and can't kill a baby in my stomach?”

“I love you. It's not just about responsibility or guilt. I love you and everything I do is not pretend.”

“Keep lo what, Vin? You can't give me and Keysa hope at once. You have to choose one.”

Arvin nodded. He has chosen. It might hurt someone's heart. He is ready for the risk.

“Then don't pick me, Vin. Lepasin. Before I had the same feeling too far. Don't worry about the child. I'll take care of him myself. I can't kill our son.” Nara tried to strengthen her heart saying this. Her tears finally shed as well.

Reza says he'll find the love he needs. Arvin also proof he can't give it to her. Feeling loved and loved. Nara doesn't want much to expect to receive love from the person who says she still has feelings for her ex.

“Ngak. I choose you. Please give me a chance to prove it to you again if I really love you.”

“Why complicate yourself anyway, Vin? Lo still loves Keysa, and I'm sure he still loves lo.”

“How do you yourself go? How do you feel about me, Ra?”

“Gue is not that deep like lo. Split together you will not make me as broken as break up with Reza.”

Lies. Nara is devastated too now.

“Gue must be fine without lo. Don't worry about me or our son.”

Lies. Nara is not okay.

“Please don't make me anymore let me love you. You are not sincere about it. Don't choose me.”

Lies. Nara wants to be fought once again and chosen by Arvin.

Nara hates herself for the lies she tells, to protect her from feeling disappointed if Arvin actually chooses another woman and still has feelings for her. The more the day the more afraid face the fact that Arvin will return to Keysa. As soon as he left that night. Without words, say goodbye, or permission.

However, Nara was also unable to continue his relationship with Arvin. He wants to be chosen, and he wants to end the relationship. Because there was too much pain she was in until things got confusing.

All his fear of falling for Arvin was reasonable. The foreign feeling that Nara had been feeling was indeed a warning. Arvin's heart is not for himself. But it belongs to someone else too. His intuition was not wrong.

Arvin stood up from the sofa, walking towards Nara. Kneel in front and hold her hands tightly. He looked up directly at Nara's eyes that were still covered in tears.

“Dengerin me, Ra. I have never pretended to love you. I'm serious when I say I won't leave you, won't make you short, and give my heart to you.”

“But lo same Keysa—“

“I stopped connecting with him from now on. I will choose you and continue to choose you. Not just because you're pregnant with my son. But because I love you.”

“Gue can't believe you, Vin.”

“Gue not want. I'm scared, Vin. Please don't make me.” Nara's still sobbing.

Arvin touched Nara's nape, directed her to bend over and bring her face closer. Their lips meet. Wet and warm. Arvin traced Nara's lips with his tongue.

Soft and soothing. Nara hates her weak heart with all of Arvin's touch. Every second of his kiss made Nara's heart tremble. Though Nara sure will not let Arvin shake it. Every time the touch came, Nara was getting more and more eager to fight for it and try it again.

This is not true.

His heart is not to be played by men who have feelings for other women.

Nara pushed Arvin away. Removing her soft lips.

“Arvin, I can't—“

Without waiting, Arvin landed his kiss again. Not giving Nara a chance to reason. Arvin knows Nara wants him too. I don't want this relationship to end. All of this can still be repaired. They can start over.

Nara pushes back Arvin's body. Tired of all the feelings that hit his heart. Makes him sad and keeps on faltering.

“Please, don't trust gini, Vin—“

“I know you love me too, Ra. Give me a chance. Don't tell me you want to split up with me.”

“I can't trust you!” Nara said hysterically between her cries.

“Then you believe in your own feelings! Ask yourself, Ra. You are willing this relationship ended without having time to try to make this pathin in the right way?”

“Ga is right! You can't give your heart to me completely. You keep making me fall in love with you, but you can't, Vin!”

“I can! I fell in love with you first, Ra! So love me a chance to prove to you that all the things in my life are only for you.”

“How to do with Keysa, Vin?”

“I've ended my relationship with him. Will not contact, help, or care anymore with him. Just like you let go of your past.”

Nara shakes. He was afraid to start this relationship. Standing above doubt and unbelief. Everything will easily end and be destroyed. But Nara is also afraid to leave Arvin. He was afraid to face the world alone. Especially after all this time Arvin continued to protect her.

Arvin kissed Nara's lips back. Repeating it until Nara falls down and becomes overwhelmed with her own feelings. He won't stop. Do it again and again. Until Nara gives up and gives her a chance.

“Arvin!” Nara snapped away Arvin again.

“Say that you love me too, Ra!”

Nara's getting sobbing. Opposed to all the words and coercion of Arvin. His heart is really shaky.

“Ngak.” Nara shook her head and sobbed. Still strong with his lies. His heart was violently revolting.

He said he wouldn't give up. Arvin brought his face closer and clenched Nara's lips. Drown Nara at her touch. Arvin doesn't want to hear Nara's bragging and denial anymore. It's time they were honest and started this relationship again.

“I hate you!” Nara said as Arvin let go.

Arvin shook his head, “No. Try again.” He said not accept. Then landed her soft lips back on Nara.

“I'm scared. Please stop!” Pinta Nara pleads. He couldn't turn down Arvin.

Arvin shook his head again, “Then it's honest.”

Arvin continues his touch on Nara's lips. He did not want all his efforts to be in vain. He doesn't want his feelings unrequited. He didn't want to lose Nara. Because everything she feels for Keysa will not be comparable to what she feels for Nara. It's all obsolete and over. The love that Arvin needs is only from Nara.

“Iya. I love you, Vin. Please stop!” Nara finally said. Feeling lost at once relieved. He cupped both hands in his face. Crying really.

Arvin hugged Nara. He knows all that. But hearing it strengthened his heart. It gives new hope and new faith. Arvin will continue to choose Nara. On top of all his feelings for any woman in the world.

Today Arvin has decided to restart their relationship. Without lies.

“I know. That's why don't stay with me. We let go of the past, we started this relationship from the beginning, Ra. Without anyone other than the two of us and our son.” Arvin's whisper in Nara's ear.

“Please open your heart to me.” Further.

Nara did not answer and still sobbed.

“Thank you the chance I made to improve myself.”

Nara nodded. He's capitulating. All this is exhausting. His heart was also tired of constantly running and lying. This time only. He will fight, just like he fought. Giving like he received love from Arvin. And try to forgive. Although he did not know where all his forgiveness and forgiveness would lead to their relationship.

“I love you. Don't be afraid anymore.”