Hello Arvin!
A Mother

Throughout the night Arvin continued to hug Nara until he fell asleep from exhaustion after crying. And now Nara feels very awkward facing Arvin. Maybe because his feelings are also still not because of Arvin's words yesterday.

He was worried about his own heart. Strange things popped up there. However, Nara says that feeling is love. Too far to go.

It was hard for his heart to accept a new person, let alone that it was Arvin. One of the main characters who makes his feelings disappear due to injuries. But Nara felt so safe and comfortable to be in Arvin's arms like last night. It was as if hope had first grown after such a long time.

For the first time since all these bad things happened to her, Nara has a friend to lean on. Because Arvin was on the same ship. Oscillating fears about the future, about their child, about the feelings between the two.

Arvin was acting normal this morning, like nothing happened between them last night. Now he is busy checking documents while sitting on the sofa before leaving for work. While Nara misbehaves herself against Arvin.

“Today a guest came here. You don't go anywhere.” Arvin stood up and prepared to leave.

“Who?”

“Later you also tau.” Reply with a smile.

Arvin's hand pulled Nara's waist, until she got close to him. They make their bodies embrace each other. Arvin brings his face closer, but Nara immediately restrains Arvin's intention to land a kiss on his lips.

Nara wasn't ready to do something like that with Arvin. But this time Arvin still considers it progress. Nara did not grab or pinch her with emotion because she did not want Arvin to touch. He's quiet now. Did the strategy work yesterday? Arvin will still be waiting.

“I leave first.” His whisper was in Nara's ear, then a brief peek at her cheek.

After Arvin leaves, Nara drops herself onto the sofa. His heart is not broken. His heart was surging and racing. Just a little touch from Arvin made him feel strange. Very quaint.

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At about 11:00 the bell rang. Nara who was watching the movie in the living room was shocked to hear it. Then I remembered Arvin's message this morning about the guests coming today. Maybe Audrey came to visit him again. Or maybe Lena? Obviously impossible, why would he visit her? They have no business or things to talk about at all.

Nara looked at the intercom screen before opening the door. It only took him a second when he saw the figure on the screen before running to open the door. He walked out and hugged her while crying.

“Assalamualaikum, beautiful.” Said gently. But Nara could not return her greeting. Only tears and tears greeted him.

I don't know how long Nara hugged her, which was obviously so long that her mother's veil was now wet with her tears. But her mother let her only daughter shed all her feelings of longing and sadness. Because the same thing he felt.

Nara still hasn't seen enough, hugged her, touched her, smelled her mother's distinctive scent. Almost every day his life is filled by a gentle woman in front of him. Without pause. His loss made his life that was not okay become more complete.

“You're healthy, deck?” Mother asked, wiping away the tears that were still running down Nara's cheeks. Only a nod could Nara give. He did not know where to start, he was speechless. “Your contact is also healthy, right?” She looked calm as Nara nodded her head hinting she was fine.

“Mother. sorryin..Nara.” Nara's speech stamped. It felt like the tongue had united with the palate of his mouth. It is difficult to say a full sentence without hysterical crying.

Mother sighed. Relieved, bitter, longed, disappointed and all the feelings piled up in him.

“Mommy already sorry you. Do not torture yourself with guilt. Everything has happened. Everyone has ever made a mistake. Some of his faults are closed to God, so that other humans do not know. Some of his mistakes are shown, let him be stronger and let others learn. The important thing is that Nara is now responsible and improving herself. Do not be desperate, do not run away from problems, and do not punish yourself excessively by constantly sad. After this life continues. I want Nara to be happy with the things she has now. Prospective baby, husband, place of residence, and ga life is lacking.”.

“Mother don't go anywhere.”

“Mom's not going anywhere. Sorry mom, too, deck. Mom doesn't have a chance that you need guidance. Mother is busy with her own feelings, because it turns out that after decades of parenthood, mothers still have to learn to be sincere and accepting. Mother raises ordinary humans, which can be not as expected and you also have a mother of an ordinary human who sometimes makes you disappointed. Nara want to apologize mom too?”

Nara nodded. She did not know when her tears would stop coming out. Crying like this makes him very dizzy.

They stared at each other without speaking. Head on the sofa. Misses release. Trying to understand each other and forgive long-gone mistakes.

“Now you are also a mother. Even though your baby is not born yet, you are a mother. You will understand. Our love is greater than disappointment. I will love Nara. You'll be fine.”

Mother's hand caressed Nara's head, making her comfortable and calm. All this time he needed this. His mother said everything would be fine. Nara was so lost, sad and angry. To himself and also to Arvin, who had been knocking on his feelings and asking him to keep going forward.

Mother's right. The first thing Nara felt when she first heard her fetal heartbeat was affection. Makes his heart sure to keep it until birth. But her fear was still too great of affection at the time, so she easily said she would leave the baby at birth and leave all the responsibility of raising Arvin.

Nara was so lost without her mother. Now she is foolishly thinking of leaving her baby without him. What will he feel later? Is it hurt and lost like Nara was yesterday?

His stomach feels tight. Maybe the baby understands what Nara is feeling. What Nara was worried about. He stroked his stomach gently. Apologizing to her growing baby, she has not been a good mother. Her journey to becoming a mother is long and will last her entire life.

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Only 1000 words. This is one of the hardest chapters I have ever written. Somehow 🥲