Hello Arvin!
"Hello, Love!"

Nara has been in the hospital for 4 days. During the treatment Arvin is always ready to be on standby to keep and help Nara whose condition has not improved. Now that Nara was even more often seen sick, she did not stop feeling nauseous and vomiting. Makes Arvin panic when facing him. Arvin did not see any such symptoms during Nara's pregnancy. But doctors say the condition is still normal and nothing to worry about.

“Bu Nara, now what's the complaint? Still no flek?” Said a nurse who came for the morning check. The nurse quickly took out a tensimeter, thermometer, and oximeter to check Nara's condition.

“Udah no. When will I get home?” Nara is tired of being in this room. Actually, even in Arvin's place, Nara will just lie down and watch TV all day. He is often too tired and dizzy to move.

“Later consult with Doctor Yustia yes. His blood pressure is normal and there are no spots. Chances are if the condition is okay can go home soon.” Answer the nurse kindly, then leave the room.

For several days Arvin never discussed the problem again about Nara's experiment to abort the content. He doesn't talk much either. Of course Nara was happy to see him like that. He hates that Arvin's talking too much. Nara did not like to chat with him, making her anger always ignited suddenly.

Bi Marni also diligently visited and accompanied him when Arvin had to go to the office for work. If only Arvin had gone to the office this Saturday, but definitely not. The office is off and since morning Nara only sees Arvin's face milling about in the room. While Bi Marni is not coming to work today.

Super sucks!

The nurse who checked Nara went back into the room. Pushing an empty wheelchair and smiling kindly at Nara and Arvin.

“I've consulted with Doctor Yustia. After this there is an ultrasound examination to see the condition of the fetus after treatment.”

Arvin helps Nara sit in a wheelchair, pushing her along the hospital aisle following a nurse who told her to check in Doctor Yustia's practice room. Arvin's feelings were a little anxious, with Nara's condition looking unhealthy due to constant vomiting, she was afraid that her baby's condition would worsen. There is still a desire in Arvin's heart so that the baby continues to grow and survive in Nara's stomach. Even though the mother now hated her presence.

Doctor Yustia's room looks comfortable, clean, with a typical hospital carbolic smell when entering. There are a lot of posters about the health of pregnant and breastfeeding women on the wall. They were greeted kindly by Doctor Yustia, a woman in her early 50s with a very motherly style and aura. Her assistant helped Nara lie on the examination bed.

Nara felt a cold gel applied to her stomach, then on a screen as big as a TV in front of her appeared a black and white picture that Nara did not know the meaning. Doctor Yustia kept moving her stomach tool many times. Check it more thoroughly.

The doctor explained about the results of the examination, there was no damage to the fetus due to yesterday's bleeding. The fetal pouch is already visible, age 7 weeks, DDJ 110 per minute, size of 1.27 cm and still as big as a blueberry. Arvin was very happy to hear the explanation of the doctor who said the condition of the baby is fine, with the spirit of Arvin asked about the development of his wife's pregnancy.

However Nara just put on an expressionless face, staring at that indistinct black and white pictorial monitor with a strange feeling. During this time her pregnancy felt unreal because she also never had the desire to check it. After seeing a small black circle on the screen that the doctor had explained to him, making his heart unkillful. He's real and he's in Nara's body.

“You want his heartbeat? This age has begun to be detected and astonished. Even though it will be clearer if his age is above 12 weeks.” Said Doctor Yustia. Arvin agreed with passion.

There was a quick but regular sound. Blood rippled in Nara's head, fear, guilt, feelings of haru mixed with indeterminate direction. For the first time Nara heard the sound of her baby's heartbeat. She's real. He's in his stomach. Of course he's alive. All this time Nara who is stupid and never wants to care about what is in her always believes that there is only meat full of emptiness. Without a single ticking signifying his life.

Nara's hand clutched the iron edge of her bed. Dropped, and afraid of falling. He is lying down now. Guilt always hit his heart. Her chest feels tight. Her eyes were hot, eager to cry there. But as hard as he could, he held it.

Experts say the limbic system is one of the most primitive parts of the human brain where the creation of one of the most powerful feelings on earth, love. The part of the brain in the limbic system that is very responsible is the hypothalamus, which will increase its activity when feeling the existence of someone special.

This is the first time in her life, Nara meets that person. Preferential. Although he does not know the shape and form, especially how to explain it. His heart seemed to just link to a small black circle that looked monitored. Maybe the hypothalamus is full of dopamine and oxytocin. Makes that feeling grow. Someone who inhabited the narrow space in Nara's body, immediately took over all his attention.

Through the brief beat that the doctor listened to, someone who was suddenly very special said “Halo!” to him. Her name is Love, which grows strong in Nara's stomach.

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Nara was allowed to go home in the afternoon. There are so many restrictions and doctors' advice for the next week. Nara had to rest completely at home, not to do heavy work, feeling stressed, and had to eat nutritious food. Arvin has taken care of his return, he is even more concerned about what drugs Nara should take later.

Since the examination with Doctor Yustia, Nara has been quiet. I don't know what she should have felt, after hearing the baby's heartbeat in her stomach.

Though this morning when his stomach feels nauseous to not stop vomiting, Nara is very sure to hate whatever is growing in him. But now the feeling is gone, changing with deep fear and guilt. How could Nara hate him? He lived, grew up, and was innocent.

Confused, does Nara have to continue her pregnancy? His feelings for Arvin have not changed, he still hates the man wholeheartedly. But the baby in her stomach is innocent, even though she's like an invisible bridge connecting Arvin to her.

“Lo is okay? If still not healthy, I say the same doctor to be treated again.” Said Arvin who just got into the car and sat behind the wheel. Seeing Nara so weak, she drooped helplessly in her side chair. Arvin is worried that Nara will suddenly collapse when she gets home.

“Nothing. Just a headache. I don't want to be treated anymore.” Nara replied weakly, leaning her head completely on the chair.

“Ya is sleeping, so don't be dizzy. I'll wake up later if it's nyampe.”

Nara immediately closed her eyes. The first thing he saw was only faint flashes, probably from the car lights that hit his eyes. For a long time his consciousness began to be pulled away from reality, displaying strange dreams that were not clear in shape. Dark, bright, faint, pale, tall, colorful. All the forms that made his heart riled up. The noise then filled his ears, the sound of horn, the sound of rain, the sound of conversation and music in the distance. A small voice kept calling out to him. Nara sharpened her hearing, getting longer and clearer. The voice called her “Mother.” Now Nara desperately wants the voice to stay and continues to call out to her even as she awakens from a dream.