Hello Arvin!
Everyone Leaves
[Nara: Brother Amel, this is Nara's new number. How's birth? The baby is healthy, right? Amel is healthy too, right?]
[Nara: Sister Naufal, this is Nara. Amel is she born?]
[Nara: Mother, this is Nara. You still mad at Nara? Nara kangen mother]
[Nara: Father, this is Nara. How are you, father? Healthy, right? Nara can visit?]
Nara kept looking at her phone, each time checking only the disappointment. None of his family members responded to his message. Though he had sent her since 07.00 am. 3 hours without any reply, making Nara feel very sad.
Nara tried to think positively, maybe there they were bothered because they accompanied Amelia to give birth. There was no time to reply to Nara's message. Though the truth is, the pill cannot be hidden. Nara seemed to be floating in the vast ocean, alone. Staring at the sky continued to change from day to night, from night to day again. No one pulled him over, saying everything would be over. Everything's gonna be fine. Even his own family now ignored him.
One date on google calendar printed a green dot there, since Nara also looked at him. The warning he had put on his account that the date was a special day in his life. The day of his wedding with Reza, which had already passed a few days ago.
Currently all email accounts and social media Nara linked back. She opens one of them, finding pre-wedding photos with Reza that are still neatly stored on her social media account. All the photos were taken before the incident with Arvin and the problems that followed. Nara could not delete all the photos. Even in Reza's account, no trace of Nara's life was found there. For 5 years Nara filled her day, now the memories are not in her account.
It feels like now Nara is not able to cry, every day for a week she does it. There was only a huge void in his heart. An undescribable void. Looking back at the past is like an irregular piece of film.
In addition to busy viewing galleries on her social media, Nara also opened one by one messages sent to her. Many of them came from his former co-workers at Arvin's company. Asking Nara's whereabouts and reason for resigning. Someone suddenly contacted him when Nara was engrossed in a social media scroll.
‘Halo, Brother.’
‘How are you doing, Ra?’ Ask Naufal.
‘Good to.’ Nara replied lying, how could she be okay at the moment, ‘Kak Amel is already born?’
‘Udah. Alhamdulillah, fluent. Born at 6. Baby girl, healthy and complete.’
‘Congratulations yes sis.’ Nara said to be happy, ‘Kak Amel lahiran in which hospital? Later Nara want to jenguk.’
‘Emm..Ra’ said Naufal be careful ‘You should not first look at Amel, and do not first go home. My mom still calms herself. They also did not dare to go out and talk to neighbors. You know, don't you, Ra? They are still confused and sad about your incident, so not ready to meet you.’ Naufal said awkwardly.
Like cold water splashed on her head, Nara was aware of the reality. Her father and mother could not forget and forgive Nara. She's disappointing. He's stupid. He's a bad guy. Nara is what makes his father and mother can no longer face the gossip of neighbors around him. The child who shames the family.
‘I understand, sis.’ Nara was weak.
‘You are there take care of your health. Brother also may not be much communication with you because you will be busy taking care of the baby.’
Everybody's gone. Everyone ignored Nara. A feeling of sadness hit heavily onto Nara's chest. He cried bitterly, it turns out there are still the rest of his tears to cry over the misfortune of his life. Nara desperately wants to go home, apologizing for even prostrating at the feet of her parents. Hope their relationship improves as before.
But the reality is different, his parents have not been able to give space sorry in his heart. Either disappointed as much as what is borne by both. It must have been so hard, to ignore the only daughter they cared about so much.
Nara wanted to try to understand their feelings of disappointment and their actions, but she was also unable to deal with her own feelings. Everyone left and Nara floated alone in the sea without any edges. Loneliness hits his body like a wave in a storm.
***
“Lo sure? I'm not responsible if there's anything the same lo ya!” Atika said repeatedly to Nara, while walking down the narrow alleys in one corner of Jakarta City.
“Gue sure. 100%.” Nara replied firmly, following Atika's every footstep towards a place that Nara hoped would solve all her problems.
“Lo know ga gossip about lo sampe spread to the next village? They say that you are not really a girl. Really want to be married to a rich person, until willing to be dihamilin first.” Atika keeps babbling.
“Yaa succeeded but that's it, there's bleeding for days. Though anyway you do not need to fall lo content. His father wants responsibility. Where rich again, will not live hard. I don't think my friends are unemployed. Ah, it's just grim life.”
“Gue don't want to have children from him.”
“Why the hell? Your husband is that handsome. If I want to already have a child from him, itung-itung improve the offspring.”
“ya already if so you are on perk*sa with him! Don't bacot much, Tik. I'm kesel.”
“Iyee.”
“Lo need money right to make nebus adek lo imprisoned for nyopet? If you ask a lot I will not love you money.”
“Sabar atuh, neng. I was just curious. So you're the same he didn't want to? She the maksa?” ask Atika again. Nara glared at him to stop talking.
They arrive at a building similar to an alternative medicine clinic, inscribed with Mandarin that Nara does not understand. Many advertisements about massages, fertilizers, magnifiers and whether or not they are stuck on the wall. Nara strengthened her heart and entered with Atika.
Today Nara took the most bitter decision of her life. He will abort his womb, remove the imprint that Arvin planted in his body. Nara hates her pregnancy and everything Arvin has to do. Wanted to immediately erase his existence. If the fetus dies, Arvin is no longer a reason to tie it in marriage. And maybe her parents can take Nara back.
Arvin has been giving Nara his credit card for a while, saying he can buy anything. Clothes, jewelry, bags, go to the salon, and travel to relieve fatigue because of a day in the penthouse. But Nara was not interested. For the first time he used the credit card to withdraw cash, paying Atika and the doctor who could abort her.
The room was quite clean, Nara immediately registered at the registration place. Write down her name, age, place of residence, and gestational age. But until now he did not know, never thought to see a doctor. He doesn't want to.
After that Nara and Atika sat on a long bench, along with two other women with very menoran makeup and open clothes. Staring at Nara from top to bottom suspiciously.
“Mother Nara Danastri.” Panggi a woman from the room.
Nara immediately followed the direction of the voice, entering the doctor's room. There is a check bed and a table now filled with a man, whom Nara suspects is her doctor. Wearing glasses, a white coat, loose hair, and a slightly stocky body.
“How old is her pregnancy, Bu?” ask the doctor without further ado.
“I don't know, doc. But less than 3 months. I did it about 1.5 months ago.”
“Oh, still that little boy. Can take medicine.”
“Ga need to be taken?” Nara said she had been looking for information about the fetal retrieval process on the internet before.
“Ga. Here I give the medicine and herbs so that the contract. Drink 2 times a day. But be careful, the effect can be different for each person. Some come moon and have a mild pain, some are bleeding. If severe, go directly to the clinic ya.”
“But it worked, doc?”
“Can. Can.” The doctor assured.
The price that Nara had to pay for 6 pills and 3 bottles of potions amounted to 3 million rupiah. Pretty cheap it turns out. Nara thought she would have to give up at least 10 million to release her fetus.
Luckily, Nara came home before Arvin got home. He wouldn't know where Nara had gone this afternoon. After taking 1 pill and 1 bottle of potion as recommended by the doctor, Nara lay in a mattress. Waiting for what reaction will come. But after waiting 2 hours nothing happened. Lest Nara be tricked by the obscure clinic.
Nara continued to wait for a few dozen minutes later. Suddenly his stomach seemed to be pulled suddenly, the cramps and pain that Nara had never imagined before, the longer it became more intense. Nara also felt like vomiting. Soon she ran to the toilet, removing her entrails. The unbearable pain never went away, until Nara difficult to stand. Panic and fear attack him, will Nara die? It feels very uncomfortable. She continued to clutch her stomach while shedding tears, hoping that the pain would soon disappear, along with her fetus.