
“Lo thought that all your attention to Keysa was unnatural, Vin?”
Aldi put his cigarette dregs in the ashtray, before taking a deep sip back. White smoke rises high into the air. Disappear between the light of the cafe hanging lights are yellow and bright.
“Gue don't know. I myself am also confused why it can be like that.” Arvin said.
Nara had been quieting it for a week. Arvin has begged, tried to reconcile and promised him. None of his attempts succeeded. Now it feels like Nara is getting more and more unattainable.
Though Arvin was happy to see the reaction of Nara who showed feelings of jealousy at that time. But suddenly it backfired that hit him again. Nara's anger is not to be celebrated. It was a danger alarm that turned out to ruin all his struggles over the past few months to convince Nara that Arvin was a man worthy of love.
Nara is so afraid to rely on her feelings for Arvin. He found a gap when he accidentally told him all the difficulties in the office without realizing it. Sharing and being honest about everything that happened to her turned out to make Nara sympathize. Lose a little vigilance and feelings of hatred for Arvin.
Stupidly Arvin ruined it back.
This is even worse than abandonment when they are early married. A high wall of resentment, disappointment, and anger Nara wakes up. Stacks of can't afford Arvin to collapse.
“Lo actually still love Keysa?”
“Ngak.”
“Jangan bohong sama gue, Vin. Meskipun bentuknya beda sama perasaan lo ke Nara, tapi lo masih terus merasa perlu bertanggung jawab dan melindungi Keysa, kan? Kalau bukan sayang terus itu apa?”
Arvin leaned his back and head against the chair. Looking up at the ceiling of the cafe filled with chandeliers. What did he feel for Keysa? Love, huh? Every girl is having trouble, Arvin always feels the need to help her. Without asking himself it is natural or not.
When he found out his father died a few years ago and left behind a lot of debts his efforts failed, Arvin came like a hero. Draining the contents of his ATM and blackmailing Candra, in order to help pay off Keysa's family debt. Making Lena instantly angry and disapproving of their relationship.
Since then Arvin has begun to doubt his feelings. He continued to avoid the topic of marriage with Keysa, until finally breaking up. But strangely Arvin still always cared for him and also his mother. To this day.
Arvin thinks, after realizing his feelings for Nara, he can finally let go of his past and love for Keysa. Maybe it wasn't. The girl still occupies one of the special corners of her heart.
“Lo don't want to kayak bokap lo right, Vin? Can not be assertive with his own feelings and can not choose which should be prioritized. Sampe finally hurt a lot of people.”
“Gue is not like a mustache.”
“Lo is now like bokap lo, Vin. Unconsciously it is. Lo says love Nara, chase her, and make her live with you. Because he has started to melt, you even show the same to him if your feelings turn out to be branching out to other girls. Original is so evil, Vin.” Aldi breathed more white smoke from his nose.
“Gue also feels really bad with Nara. Only now do I seem to realize that my feelings are the same he's just a runaway doang. I love him, but pas faced Keysa situation like yesterday even I do not want Nara at all.” Arvin said honestly.
Aldi smiled, “Then you can't divorce Nara?”
Arvin shocked. He looked at Aldi with an angry look. “Ngak.”
“Egois lo, Vin! If you can't divorce Nara, it means you have to start closing your eyes, mouth, and ears for Keysa. No matter what circumstances he wants, it is not your duty to nolongin. Can you kayak that?”
Arvin shakes. It's also hard. He could not ignore Keysa. Especially now that he's alone. Her father and mother are dead. Although he would never marry Keysa, but he just wanted the girl to be close. Be within reach when you need help.
“Vin, if you say this the same Eka. He might be looking for an ideal solution. But since you say this is the same to me. I want a realistic view of people who are married. You have to survive with Nara. Not just for him, but for your son. Although it is difficult to release the past you same Key. Lo should. The ones playing here aren't just about the feeling. But your morality and responsibility as a father-to-be. You are able to see your child know that his father is love for many girls? You seem to have been in that position before, right?” Pungkas Aldi's.
After searching for Arvin with a lot of advice, Aldi went home. Leaving Arvin alone in a cafe that began to be deserted by visitors. The night is getting late, between the cafe windows looks like the moon is getting higher. Arvin still refuses to leave that place. His body is heavy and tired. Sad and confused.
Everything Aldi talks about is true. Arvin tried to take it one by one all his advice.
In fact, for several months, Arvin was sure to love Nara very much. Pursuing him like that was something he really wanted. But Keysa reappears, shaking his heart and seizing his attention.
Arvin believes himself to be a good man by rejecting all Keysa requests to marry him. He thinks he's a good guy by telling Keysa that Arvin can't leave Nara. Apparently not. For that long his heart lied. Arvin wants Keysa too. It was only because of his sanity that he kept himself from doing so.
A hypocrite!
Truly hypocritical and low men!
Aldi's right. Now is the time for Arvin to choose which relationship to continue. With whom his heart will be calmly anchored, with whom his life should be spent. The most rational choice he had to make. So that everyone can be happy and move on with their lives.
Maybe this is also the right time to redefine his love and feelings for the two women present in his heart. Two people whose positions are equally strong and grab Arvin's attention. But only one person should be next to him. Only one person can meet her needs and give her love.
He repeatedly asked himself. What kind of love he needs. Who could give her that love. Now Arvin has set his heart and chosen a name that he will fight for forever.
Arvin pulled his phone out of his blazer. Then start looking for a name among his thousands of contacts. He started to push the call button. A few seconds later a voice called out before someone across the street raised it.
“Halo Key, how are you, how are you feeling?”