Hello Arvin!
Bad Thoughts

Little by little Nara tried to chew her food. It feels amazingly good, of course. The food was cooked by a five-star hotel-class chef who Nara had never tried before.

Even so his heart was riled up. He wants to go home quickly. Nope. He wanted to escape from Arvin. Anywhere if it's with Arvin all the results will be the same. Nara will be trapped again just like that.

Actually, Nara some days feel Arvin more emotional and easily annoyed. Just because of Nara's small refusal when she touched him, Arvin would snort his head and put on an unhappy face.

Maybe the guess is right. Arvin wants to be satisfied. As Bi Marni told him. Men tend to be more emotional when they are not met.

Nara shuddered herself imagining the events she had done in Bandung. When Arvin stripped off his clothes and touched every inch of his body. Nara doesn't want to repeat it. He's not ready for that anymore.

“You sick?” Arvin asked when Nara suddenly became very silent and avoided his gaze.

“Ngga. I just want to go home.”

“I told you we're here tonight.”

“Gue already said you want to go home using a taxi online aja.”

“Nara, don't make me sprain! Can you do it once?” Jerky Arvin.

Nara shrunk her chair. Hating Arvin who increasingly more easily ignited his emotions. Especially now that Arvin seems to be half drunk. The red wine bottle was almost empty. The steak on the plate is also clean.

After finishing the chocolate cake dessert, they left the restaurant and took the elevator to the 31st floor. Nara's legs felt heavy, as they entered the spacious hotel room.

Room type One Bedroom Sky Suite consists of kitchenette, dining area, living area, and bedroom. Arvin immediately lay on the mattress after removing the blazer and throwing it in any place. Forced Nara to pick it up and store it in a hanger in a closet.

For more than 10 minutes Nara sat on the dresser chair, watching only Arvin lying on his back on a mattress. He didn't want to check if Arvin was asleep or not. He doesn't want to get close to Arvin who's drunk enough, and endangers himself.

Despite not staggering, Arvin's face looked flushed red, speaking slowly and unfocused. Now he's crashing in bed. But Nara didn't believe it. It could be that Arvin is just pretending and will launch his evil actions when Nara approaches. He should always be vigilant. Do not want to end like when staying in Bandung first.

“You want to sit there? Not going to sleep?” Tanya Arvin rolled to the side then looked at Nara.

“Let's aja. I don't want to sleep.”

“Oke.” Arvin got up and sat on the edge of the bed. “You took a shower together ga?” Arvin smiled mischievously.

Nara just stared fiercely at Arvin who was now chuckling and moved to the bathroom. Take off all his clothes carelessly to the floor of the room. Nara had to tidy up Arvin's clothes again. This guy is really very untidy and slovenly.

Arvin exited the bathroom using only a bathrob, walked to the kitchenette and brought a bottle of wine from a row of drinks there into the room. He poured it a little into the glass, kept the bottle near the table near where Nara sat.

Arvin bowed to look at Nara who was paying attention to all his movements. The smell of alcohol was strong when Arvin brought the face closer. Nara flinched away from Arvin.

“You are so beautiful. I'm not even sure I saw it. Especially if you don't wear clothes. Add beautiful.”

“By the way you've been struggling. Can you stop drinking? I don't want ya until you do brash with me because mabok.”

“Bad? How am I the insolent? I asked permission first. Keep agreeing. Yes, right?” Arvin tilted his head and smiled. “I know. You were hor again, right? I also often like that every time you see you sleep. It feels like I want to play like you're unconscious first. You don't want what it was like at that time?”

“Lo really br*hgsek guy!”

Nara pushed Arvin away, stood up and walked away from the man. But Arvin stopped it immediately. Hugging the writhing Nara tried to break away.

“Lo wants to do this stuff again right now, right? That's why I came here? And drinking let you have a reason if you are no longer sane abis ngelakuin same dirty thing me. I hate you!” Nara's hysterical jerk releases Arvin's hand.

Arvin let go of his embrace. Sitting on the edge of the bed, looking up and massaging his forehead. Confused as to why Nara could come to such bad thoughts towards him. Perhaps his words have been poorly controlled since. The influence of the wine he drank made him talk bouncy. Nara was misunderstood as she is now.

“I'm making dinner here because you want to try the steak. You also want to be taught fine dining, and I drink wine so I can sleep. It's just tipsy, and sleepy. I'll crash if maksa comes home while driving.” Arvin said it explained. He put his back in the mattress.

“I have a lot of thoughts, a lot of problems in the office because the mustache entered the Ivan. They are testing my patience. I'm tired. Can I have a hug?”

Nara just stood there. Listening to all of Arvin's half-conscious and half-asleep talk. It seems Arvin was speaking honestly because he was drunk. Nara also learns that Arvin has been having a lot of trouble in the office for some time now from Adam.

Even though up until now Arvin never talked about anything to her. Is it possible because Arvin doesn't want Nara to worry? Or because Arvin's not the one who likes to tell stories about his difficulties? The same is true of the secret feelings that Arvin shared for her, about her past and her mother.

Nara was lying next to Arvin. Look at that man who is now being closed. Arvin is nasty, perverted, annoying. But there was a part of her that Nara secretly liked as well, as time went on. He is warm, attentive, and pleasant. With Arvin he never lost a topic to talk about. He had a million strange pieces of knowledge in his brain, along with obscure jokes and stale chatter.

“Lo what's the problem in the office?” Nara's voice was soft.

“Many. I got a lot of pressure because of our scandal, some left company directors, including some shareholders. The moustache so I kept on. Always meddling in my decisions. Especially now that he's getting into Ivan's company. Reserve player if I fail. Some of the business decisions of the mustache trust him. I'm not free.”

Nara only found out about this, Adam did not tell about the details of Arvin's problem in the company. Just a few short things about the difficulty so far. But Arvin always looks calm and does not care about office business when it comes to home. Not once did he show the strange problems he faced at work.

Has Arvin been so tormented all this time? Until finally he chose to drink wine tonight so that his mind more calm?

“Kok you never told me anyway, Vin?”

“You don't need to know these kinds of things. It's my business. You just need to be healthy and happy just let the lahiran smoothly. I sometimes forget to have problems at the office when I go home. Look at your belly getting bloated I became seneng, eager to meet our baby.”

Nara was stunned to hear it. Adjust his breath so as not to cry hearing Arvin's words earlier. Nara stroked Arvin's hair gently.

“Lo so dear same baby stomached me?”

“Hmm... More love to him than myself.”

Arvin has been talking since. Sleeping on the bed facing each other. The room light that was left dim made a dark silhouette on Arvin's face. He looks sad and exhausted.

“Nara, sorry I.” Arvin said suddenly in silence.

Nara did not answer.

“Everything because of my fault. Keep you away from the people you love. Maybe from birth I always make trouble for girls. I kept mom away from me, made me mentally ill, made grandma hate me. Now I make your life suffer.”

Nara still quietly listened to all the chatter Arvin unconsciously told. His heart suddenly softened to see Arvin so guilty and feel responsible for the pain of those around him.

“Don't hate me huh. Every day it feels like dying because of guilt with you.”

Nara sobbed for a moment. Looking at the other side of Arvin who turned out to be as fragile as he was. At all times Nara also hates Arvin and the bad luck that befalls her. As if ready to die at any time because of the hatred that is in his heart.

Arvin pulls Nara closer, hugging her. The smell of wine smelled with his breath. Even so, Nara also did not want to let go of Arvin's embrace.

“Do not cry. You have to stay happy. I love you so much.”

The tears kept coming down uncontrollably. Nara just cried without a sound. The silence of the room swallowed all his sadness. I don't know for how long they get closer to each other's bodies, stick each other's eyebrows together. Until Nara realized, Arvin was completely asleep. He did not utter any more words, other than the sound of his gentle and regular breathing.

“I'm sorry you, Vin.” Nara's whisper in Arvin's ear.