Deposits
- Vania Best Friend

“Love? Is that love? Why I suddenly don't know what love is. All I know is that love is based on if you already have it all the way, which I know love has each other. But me? I'm not like the others, I don't have that love. I can only take the love that others already have. My question is, am I wrong to take the love that someone else already has? Can't I have it completely?”

- Canary

Canary:

Aghhh!

Sshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I groan...

I held my head that was very painful, both of my bodies felt very crumpled, I opened my two eyes that were very heavy. I got up from my sleep and changed my position to sit, I blinked my eyes trying to see where I was. My eyes are still blurred, not clearly visible. I still hold my head.

“Ugh! Why is it so sick?” wait, why don't I remember anything that happened to me. I tried to remember her, when I tried to remember her my head became very sick. I shook my head, so that my dizziness would subside.

“Udah wake up?” that voice surprised me, whose voice was it? Why does it sound familiar to my ears? Do I know her? Did Andri come here? But I don't think it's because of her voice, a woman's voice.

I saw the shadow, then a long time later I saw clearly the shadow.

“Vania?”

Vania sitting on the edge of the bed “Where? Okay better? Or still dizzy?” her questions are lined up even I haven't answered a single one. Waitaminute! Why is he here?

“Lo how can there be here Van?” I asked back by looking at her in wonder.

He smiled knot “Wuaah, I offended you like that Kan. Lo himself called me to come here and you even did that? Wuah.wuaah, I swear to be offended now,” I frowned. Me? Call her? When's? When did I call her? God, why don't I remember anything right now.

“Gue? Call lo?” ask me again while pointing at myself trying to convince her what she really called.

Vania nods “Ahh, don't you remember? Here's how if people are drunk must forget the same what he has done,”

“Gue? Drunken up? Wh why? Why am I drunk?” okay, Fine! I'm starting amnesia now. Since when did a Kania become such a drunken handyman? Okay, I really don't remember what happened.

“Loh? How do you ask me? Obviously I was followed to the club because you called me with an unclear talk. As a result I have lo where and you say, you are again in the club,”

Vania who understands my confused face, she also fixed her sitting position “Kan, no matter how heavy your problem, do not choose a shortcut with drinks like that. Take care of your body, pity your body must receive the unhealthy drink. I know by drinking can forget the problems that are afflicting you, let alone the problems with Andri. Don't forget to drink!”

Andri's? Why did Vania suddenly mention Andri's name?

Waitaminute! My memories suddenly became swirling in my head. After coming home from the supermarket, I ran straight to my room, expressing my annoyance towards Andri. All the stuff in my apartment was scattered everywhere, I was hysterical. I was heartbroken at the supermarket, then my mind was gone, I decided to go to the club not far from my apartment. I blew it all up there, the pain, the anger, the resentment, the hate and the heartbreak, I spilled it there.

I don't know how many glasses I've been drinking, after that I don't remember anything. I also don't remember what happened at the club I was completely out of my control.

Aghs!

I shouldn't have drunk, I could've messed it up.

Vania holds both my shoulders, she looks at me concerned “Kan, if you need someone, you want to vaporize everything in your heart. Call me, tell me to come. I'll definitely come Kan, I'll be ready to listen to all of it, I'll hear the outpouring of your heart as long as you don't drink kayak earlier,”

My eyes are heating up again, ahh, what the hell am I. Why have I become so whiny lately and more sensitive?

I sighed then ventured to look into the eyes of Vania “What do I tell you to come and listen to my heartache Van? While at that time you did not agree with my relationship with Andri, you even said words that made my heart hurt. What I can confide in with people who don't even agree my relationship with Andri.”

Vania fell silent. Yeah, I know for sure he doesn't know what he's gonna talk about because I told him there's a truth. I could only take my eyes off, my chest came back rumbling I felt like I was going to cry again.

Vania grabbed my hands and grasped them tightly, I turned and looked at her.

“Honestly, I don't like having contact with Andri because he belongs to Keisha. Yeah, I don't agree. But I also realize, because I am not in your position, I do not know what you are feeling and what you want. I can only speak without feeling in your position. I know you're just stuck in this situation but I also don't want you to linger in this circle. I'm just afraid, my best friend this one is tormented in this difficult situation,”

I was only bothered to hear Vania's explanation, not the explanation of a fellow woman but the explanation to a friend.

“This is all because I love Lo Kan, dear to my best friend. Which friend wants another friend to suffer? There is no Kan! I just want you to be happy, I want you to be completely happy without feeling the slightest pain. Look now, you've suffered, you've felt the wound. Are you happy with all that? Don't you? So, my words should not be entered in the heart of Kan, but entered in the mind. I advise you not because I hate but because I care. So, what now you still hate with my word?”

I was still silent, I could not help but feel powerless in my chest. Both my eyes had accumulated tears that could not be contained anymore. I lowered my head and took it all out, I couldn't.

Vania grabbed my body then hugged me tightly, she stroked my back and me? I cried as hard as I could. This time I cried again, pulling out another wound embedded in the chest.