Deposits
andri will not give up

“My ambition since the past is, want to build a household with a man who always loves me as is up to His Jannah. Now I have that goal, may eternal life be until death do part and meet him again in heaven later.”

- Keisha

Vania:

I heard those heavy long breaths, I turned my head and saw Kania closing her eyes. I think he's having a really tough problem, so that breath sounds clearly in my ears. His physique and heart were also tired along with the problems he faced. Just now he finished his work and he went to his girlfriend's room, I don't know what he was doing.

Until now I was waiting for him he told me, but until this he has not yet made a sound as well. I really wanted to know what had happened to him until he was like this.

I also approached her “Kan, eat first yuk. Lo has not eaten since this morning,” Kania opened her eyes, she looked at me with a sad look. God, what exactly is going on? Kania's gaze shone like the gaze of a wounded person.

I just saw her feel an incredible tightness. Or it's just my feeling because there's still guilt about him.

I grabbed his hand “Kan, let's eat. If you don't eat, you will get sick. Yuk, I pay, how?” bargain me.

Kania pondered, he also stood up from his sitting “Gue not laper, I just want to drink coffee.” Kania went out of the dressing room.

“Where are you?” ask me while walking after her. He did not answer, I began to grow angry with his attitude. I pulled his hand to stop walking.

“Kan, what's the matter exactly? Lo suddenly strange like this know not his attitude!"

Okay, I'm starting to get upset with her, at least she told me what happened so I could figure out the problem. This alone he did not speak in the slightest, it was just as necessary.

“Kania, bi—“ my sentence was cut by Kania

“Ke cafe!” kania replied without turning her head at all, I just kept quiet and let out a long sigh. Then I could only follow him from behind without wondering what else.

Maybe the mood is very bad today, that's it. This time I will obey him.

Andri:

Araaaakkk!!

The sound of falling goods deafened me, I didn't care, I couldn't think clearly. I can only destroy everything on the table. My emotions are out of control, my mind is bouncing everywhere.

I could only shuffle my hair in frustration, my chest rumbling as well as fervently wanting to vent all my irritation, I let out a rough sigh a few times. I was standing in the middle of my stuff falling apart. Then I sat down to see what I had done.

Frustrating? Not anymore, even I've gone crazy this second as well. Imagine, the woman I love broke up with me. That means he'll leave me forever and won't come back to me, should it end so soon? Should it end like this? Honestly, I don't want this farewell. It's very painful.

Even he did not want to solve the problem well, he instead wanted to break up from me and it was just one-sided. Sure enough I disagree, I don't accept. I was cut off when my love grew for him.

Yes, it is, if all this is my fault. It's my fault that I didn't give her assurance, but couldn't she be patient about it? I just need more time, just for whom? Just for him and me.

I knew that Keisha would not share my love with another woman, it was obvious when she was jealous and always asked me what made me flirt on my own. And it's really a very difficult situation, I'm confused and I don't know what to do in a situation like this.

I don't know what else to do, I can only look down at the marble floor. Should like? Should now? Should I lose Kania? I lost a woman I loved and loved. Even that woman who has filled my days every day, is always there in my joy and sorrow and always makes me smile endlessly wherever and whenever.

I clenched both my hands “Akhhh...” I grimaced, feeling pain in my right hand. I also raised my hand that had a big enough wound and blood that poured out so much that it made the floor get a droplet of my blood.

Even my hands are hurting like my heart right now. I immediately undressed my suit and tied it to the injured palm so that the blood would not come out.

“Kan, if you knew even I would be hurt for being separated from you. But are you not aware of that? I have to how Kan. I have to how?” i'm down.

Right now my brain and heart are so out of sync, they told me to chase after Kania and ask her back to me. But there was a little doubt behind my heart, did Kania want to? Is Kania willing to be with someone like me who can't give her certainty with her.

Maybe it's my fault, I shouldn't have hung him long enough. Especially for almost 3 years, if I was in the position of Kania maybe I would behave the same as Kania. Whoever it is, it's gonna be like Kania.

It turned out that Kania had always been patient with me, and Kania had always been patient in waiting for me all this time. Just yeah, I'm the only one who can't appreciate it.

I stood up very lethargic, my hair was very disheveled, my eyes were already very red. I opened my coat which I tied to my hand, as if her blood had stopped coming out. I immediately threw my suit into the trash, then I walked out of the room with a firm heart.

Yeah, this is what I should have done. That is, chasing after Kania and convincing Kania that she deserves to be my companion. I had to bring her back to me, be the lover of my heart until the end of my life.

Although I know, he will be the second no matter if he is happy and gets his rights. All this time she's appreciated my position, this time I'll appreciate her deserving queen.