Deposits
- Vania Surrender
“Sick not if people have problems but we feel guilty. Other people are happy above their problems but we suffer above their happiness. Is that really what life is like?”
- Vania
Canary:
I carried Vania into my room. I immediately lay her body on the mattress, I just give the oil of the wind under her nose. To be honest I was very surprised, because Vania suddenly came and fainted in front of me. I don't know why she fainted like this, but like she was fine. He even had time to eat, drink and rest. But why did he faint like this?
I kept giving her the wind oil so she would wake up from her stupor. As far as I was concerned, Vania fainted when she was stressed out and thinking too much. And it immediately makes him drop instantly, even though his physical is fine. I don't know what he's thinking right now, so it makes him faint like this. Right now, I've been so panicked to see him pass out.
Actually I kept asking, what did Vania think until she could be like this. Is it because of my problems today to make him stress himself or is there another problem? I don't know that either, I hope he wakes up quickly from his stings. Because I want to ask him a lot.
Vania:
I opened my eyes slowly I looked around, everything felt cloudy. My head hurts, hurts and is very painful. My stomach as if it were rinsed wanting to take out all the contents within, I could not see clearly what was before me this. But all I remember is that I went to Kania's apartment and I pressed the bell a few times. I feel my body getting bad.
After that I didn't know what was going on, everything became blurry, dark and light. It turns out that right now I'm fainting because I think too much to make me depressed myself.
“Vaniaaa, Vania you are awake?” kania's voice made me sit down slowly.
“Pelan-pelan Van!” her decree. I smiled thinly, my head still feels dizzy maybe this is the effect of fainting.
“Vania, how come you fainted anyway? Lo why? Try my same story,”
“Kan.” call me slowly, my body feels weak until the sound I make feels very slow, but it can be heard by Kania.
“Iya, why Van?” his question was very impatient, visible from his face that he was impatient.
“Gue met Keisha,”
“He was chatting as usual with me, but honestly I can't. Every time I look at Keisha and look into the eyes of the hijab-wearing woman, it makes me feel guilty about the condition. I'm thinking, I'm confused as to how. That's why I came here and knew I wasn't even aware,” obviously me to him.
When I say it all, my heart feels very light. The burden that was stacked finally came out, this made oxygen freely enter my lungs. Good, than I feel claustrophobic about a problem I didn't make.
I grabbed Kania's hand and clasped her tightly “Gue was afraid of Kan, I was always afraid to face Keisha. I always think about your relationship with Andri, I'm afraid that if all of it comes out and Keisha abuses me about this. I'm afraid Kan, I'm afraid,”
Kania returned my hand “Sorry Van, sorry you got into this situation. I don't mean to make you like this Van, if you can't handle this situation. You can get out of this circle,”
“How can I get out of this circle Kan, lo my best friend. Whatever is with me, I can't ignore our friendship. From the beginning I have received any problems lo Kan,”
“Not so Van, if you feel burdened not papa really. I can handle it myself, besides this is also my fault with Andri because it has made a problem like this. You have nothing to do with this, so don't think about me. Okay?” say Kania steadily.
God, I don't feel burdened. Even though I have come out of the circle that Kania made with Andri but still I can not ignore what I have seen so far. Almost 3 years I was with Kania there is no way I can forget that easily.
“Vania, I'm sorry for getting you into this difficult situation. I'm so sorry, you've asked me some advice but I don't want to follow it because I already like to the situation I've made. But if you can't, you can get out the van. If Keisha offends you, calm down. I'll handle all that Van. I will be responsible for you. So that you are not wronged by Keisha. I know you like this because Keisha has borne a lot of lo from all your work, and Keisha has helped you a lot from your lowest point to you can have a permanent job that you really like. I want you not to go back into this situation Van, if you feel guilty with Keisha,”
Even I who heard it could only be silent, Kania's words made me unable to say anything more. Is Kania okay if I don't help her anymore? Doesn't he mind if I'm not around him when he's in a difficult situation.
Kania tightened her grip, she smiled at me. Very beautiful and sincere I see makes me so envious of her. Women who are tough and very authoritative do not attach importance to his selfishness “Lo still be my best friend really, but for this problem you do not enter again. I don't want to stress myself Van. I know it's hard for you because you think you betrayed Keisha. Stay my best friend but do not my problem, because I have made this problem so let me bear it. Okay?”
I shed tears, my friend this one turned out to be very understanding only I was too burdened with all this. Ahh, I'm so moved by it. I hugged Kania tightly, she returned my embrace while stroking my back. While I could only cry sobbing letting all my burdens go out by themselves.
“Sorry I'm Van, sorry I made you into my problem. Sorry.” Kania said softly. I can only cry because of it.
While my conscience also said, I have forgiven you Kan before you apologized to me. Because you are only a human being who has been trapped in this situation.