Deposits
- Keisha's Happiness and Kania-Suffering

“Male loyalty will be tested when he has everything. Maybe it's not just words but it really happens.”

- Andri

Keish:

I flinched from my sleep when I heard the alarm on my phone several times. Immediately I turned it off and gently rubbed my face to resuscitate me back to the real world.

I still feel very sleepy, but because today I will welcome my husband. Be this drowsiness disappears even if only for a moment.

Take the whole body and sit down. Not forgetting I pinched my hair which felt so messy after sleeping. As I focused on my hair, I suddenly heard the sound of footsteps approaching towards the room. I looked over and saw someone I wanted to see.

Someone I missed a few weeks. Someone I pray for every day to be okay when he's not by my side.

Now, he was in front of me with a very lethargic face. His unkempt clothes, hair that looks disheveled but does not reduce the good looks he has on his face. In his right hand he was holding a large suitcase.

When I saw her my heart was beating so fast that I could hear her from the outside. Cold sweat soaked my palms. It was so bad that I hugged her, but what a power if I could only call her beautiful name.

“Mas Andri,” call me in a voice that almost nobody hears. I felt my lips twitch to say a word.

Andri could only smile looking at me, I returned her smile. Both my eyes felt very hot holding back the tears that wanted to spill so swiftly. Not tears of sorrow but tears of longing that are so deep. Missing a lover who was long enough to leave and not give any news at all to make me worry half to death with him.

Andri left her suitcase lying around and walked up to me. I can just stay where I am. My legs could not go any further, they felt very heavy when I lifted them up. So, I could only sit in a place waiting for him who was approaching me.

Without the cue Andri immediately hugged me so very tightly, I returned his embrace as well. The tears I had sustained earlier finally spilled out as well. It was so hard I couldn't control my own tears.

My sobbing voice also led the silent voice in this room. Andri stroked my back trying to calm me down who was completely unable to calm down. I miss him so much. I miss my husband very much. The husband I've been waiting for the last few days.

“Already, don't cry Kei. Mas is already here,” he said while releasing his embrace. He looked at both of my eyes full of depth. Very sad. That's the look I've missed all along. The look I want to see every time.

“I don't like to see you cry like this,” he rubbed my cheek that fell by tears. I could only smile but these tears still flowed on their own. I couldn't even stop my own tears.

“Kei misses you a lot Mas,” I said on the sidelines sobs my tears.

Andri smiled and then she grabbed me, stroking my shoulder slowly. “Mas also miss you dear. I'm sorry, I didn't tell you when I was there. Mas already made you worried and Mas already made you wait.” I could only nod at his words.

Because after all, I had understood from the beginning of that activity. It's a risk that he as the company leader, his busyness will run rampant and I won't demand that he's not busy.

“It's okay Mas, but it's true said person.” I looked up at her face and her forehead looked wrinkled not understanding what I meant.

“What?”

“If longing is heavy, for example I can't resist missing you.”

Andri chuckled softly at the light joke I gave her. I haven't seen him laugh in a long time and I haven't heard his laughter. The thing I like the most than anything else.

Andri mengoel my nose slowly makes my heart again increased beating very quickly. “It's smart dreadlocks my wife now. Learn from whom hem?” ask her. I could only chuckle then hug her waist very spoiled.

“Don't learn from anyone. It is true that longing is heavy, for example I am now up to nangisin you right.”

“Hahaha, yes. I believe it,” Andri smiled.

“Ah yaudah, you take a shower first. After that rest you must be tired. Let me finish the shirt in your suitcase,”

“Tomorrow machines, baby. I want to go straight to sleep, it's so sleepy. And also Mas longed not to sleep with my beloved wife this one,” Andri stroked my cheeks slowly.

“Hahaha, pity. Tell anyone not to take me to Paris. Let his sleep not alone will be good there is me who nemenin you sleep,” Andri can only scratch his head while smiling at me.

“Yaudah, we sleep. Must be tired, right?”

“Hehe Yes,”

“Yaudah, come.” I pulled Andri's hand and carried him out of bed.

Before that I turned off the room lights and turned them on with the sleeping lights. I pulled the blanket while Andri pulled and hugged me. My lips were not constantly raised. It feels like this happiness I want to share with anyone. That today my husband hugged me so tightly and so lovingly.

While me? I'm very happy. The scent of Andri that I hadn't kissed in a long time, I finally kissed her. The aroma that makes my mood happy every day. Now, I will not waste the time that Andri has given me. Before he gets back busy and pays attention to his work compared to mine.

I have to use this time as best I can. I rolled my hands around his waist, I saw his eyes closed. It feels like his trip from Paris here makes it this tired. No problem, tired it became a blessing for me later. Tired because he was already working on a trip to Paris.

May your tired this be a reward for you huh Mas. For my sake, you gave up all your time just to make me happy. You have done your duty as a husband by working and taking your time for me. God will never sleep. God will always accompany you, accompany you, and always give you health where you are. Because one of the spirits I live in is you. There is no one else but you.

You were always by my side when I had no family. May we always be like this, God, until we both die. I love you my husband of the hereafter.

Canary:

Brakes...

I closed the apartment door very tightly. It doesn't matter if this door is okay or broken. I really don't care. Let this door be broken as my heart is today. Just the day after yesterday I was happy for my marriage but yesterday also my heart was broken because of my own marriage.

Dry are the tears that have soaked my cheeks. I really don't care about makeup that has been messy somewhere. What I care about now is where my body is tired and can't stand anymore.

I pressed the light switch and turned on the lights in the living room very brightly made me blink my eyes a few times. The suitcase I was holding earlier, I threw it somewhere. Then I walked to the couch and threw my body away.

It feels so exhausting. I want to rest myself forever. But what is power. God still gave me a long life to experience all this. But I was no longer able to live a life that always tormented me slowly.

I can't take it anymore. I don't know how many tears I've shed just for this trouble that always kills me. I just want to be happy. From childhood I have suffered now when I have grown up do I have to experience endless suffering? It really made me suffer endlessly.

I closed both my eyes and blew my breath so violently. Although both eyes are closed very tightly. Why the shadow of trouble in Paris even became in my memory now. Where my relationship with Andri was perfectly exposed. A broken marriage. The humiliation I got from my husband's family.

All these shadows made me unable to sleep. It became a real nightmare I've had all my life.

My heart was sliced back when the shadow appeared. I decided to open both eyes again. It feels like these two eyes are very hot, this heart feels very tight thinking about it just makes me no longer careless.

She didn't know my marriage to Andri had happened. Although he's my friend but I don't intend to tell him. Because he has decided not to know what my relationship with Andri is like. On the other hand he also became a friend of Keisha and it made him feel guilty even though he did not do it.

Really, what friend am I making another friend suffer.

I picked up my phone and put it in my ear. “Halo Kan,” the voice of the woman began to be heard across there. I smiled at him, I haven't heard my friend's voice in a long time. I miss him so much.

“Van,”

“Hey, why do you sound? How weak?”

“Hehehe, it's okay. I'm just tired because I just arrived at the apartment.”

“New to the apartment? Don't you come home from Paris?’

“Yes so,”

“Ahh, syurllaahh. I'm glad you're finally back safely. I miss you anyway. I haven't heard this sound in a long time,”

I smiled at her words, and she missed me too. Although we both decided not to be as close as before, communication remains number one.

“Gue also misses lo Van.”

“Gratitude if you have arrived. You better rest there, you must be tired.”

“Hem, but why did you call me?”

“Ohh, can still be discussed tomorrow anyway. Just about work. After you enter work later, the task of shooting is waiting for you. And it was so booming!”

“Hem so.”

“Iya, yaudah deh I close first ya phone,”

“Eh, Van!” myrag.

“What?”

“Can you come here?”

“Why?”

“Hem, yes just need friends only.”

“Now?”

“Iya.”

“Isn't it too late, right? Why not tomorrow?” his question sounded doubtful.

“Gue wants now Van.”

“What's the problem?”

“Hehe, yes so.”

“Hem, well then, I'll be there.”

“If you want to come here, please buy me a beer ya.”

“Should ya?”

“What?”

“Should be yes any drinking problem like that?”

I can only sigh violently, right now all I need is that drink. Who knows makes me relieved even though the alcohol level is not too high. But I'm a terrible drinker. Drink a little I'm drunk.

“Hem, okay. It seems like your problem is so heavy that your breath sounds here. I only bought 2. And the others I buy a snack, how?”

“Thank’s, Van. I need to change lo.”

“Okey. Yaudah, I'm getting ready first. Wait there and do nothing! Wait me!”

“Iya-iyaa.” Vania decided to call it over there.

I could only see the screen of my phone that was already displaying the wallpaper where Andri and I were getting dressed when we got married. He and I smiled very happily displaying our rings together which were very beautiful in our sweet day.

That's when I picked up my little bag and reached for what I saw. A red box to store this ring. Both rings are inside. It is intentional that we both do not use it, yes because it could be a question for people who see this ring.

I took my ring and put it on my sweet right. I stretched this hand up and saw it with my lips raised up.

It's beautiful, I thought.

It feels like when I use the ring given by my beloved lover is the most beautiful gift that has ever existed throughout my life. And this will never exist as long as I live. Even though the lover I have belongs to someone else. But it doesn't matter to me, as long as I can have it and he loves me with all his heart.

Kurogoh again my bag and I pulled out two books that all women dream of. Desired by all women. This book is not just any book that can be owned by everyone. This book is a book of struggle that requires passion and prayer in it.

Without this everyone would not know that we have a real status.

Marriage book. In my hands are two books. Mine and Andri's. Kuelus cover and I smile again endlessly. The shadow in Paris just disappeared when I saw this book. When I opened the wedding book, there were two photos that smiled at each other and stood side by side. That's my picture and Andri's picture.

This photo shows that we were happy in his time and our faces were radiant with great beauty. But this photo is inversely proportional to everything. We were unhappy and our faces were bleak. We are suffering from the marriage that just happened. And that's for the first time in my life.