Deposits
- Sad, jealous, angry and disappointed

..."May I question the loyalty I will be obliged to obtain from a couple who has been with me all this time."...

...-keisha-...

Keish:

Geck...Geck...Geck...

"Assalamualaikum, Mommy...Ade???"

Geck...Geck...Geck...

I knocked on the door repeatedly and called out to Mom and Ade. I knocked it a long time ago. Are they not home? Why is it so long to open the door. Even I feel like this house is lonely or just my feelings?

“Mother, Ade?” call me again.

Cklek!

The door sounds open.

The first person I saw was Ade. The faint smile I saw adorned Ade's face. I returned that smile too.

“Waalaikumsalam Kak Kei, let's go first Brother! Sorry to open the door so long ago, I was in the kitchen.”

“It's okay De. Where are you?”

“Mother is in her room Sis, she is sick again.”

I'm surprised, “Sick? What sick mother? How come you don't know brother!” I rushed straight to my mother's room.

In the room, the mother was lying with her eyes closed. Is he sleeping? I approached him slowly and sat down on the bed. This lethargic and old face made my heart feel pain. I don't know why it's like this, I don't understand either.

I took her hand and held it. “Mother, it's Kei. Kei comes bu.” I felt the heat when I held my mother's hand. She feverish? Why did he suddenly become so sick?

Slowly mom opened both eyes, “Keisha? is that you son?” mother with a weak voice.

I shed tears, I felt I could not bear to see my mother sick like this. Why is mom suddenly sick like this and why Ade didn't tell me if she was sick.

“What's sick mom? Why is mom sick? And why don't you tell Kei.” My words on the sidelines of my cry. Tight-tasting. Why is this sick anyway?

What was?

Mom just smiled thinly. Ade who just went into the room saw me and mom. I just scolded him.

“You why don't you know brother the hell if mom is sick? If mom why-why how? At home, I always think of De's mother, afraid of something happening since my mother came home crying like that! Don't be like this De! Brother doesn't like it!” I scolded Ade.

My anger is out of control. Ade's face looks sorry and looks down. Whether it was because he was afraid or sorry because of his actions.

The more I clasped my hand, the more I turned to look at my mother. “Don't scold your sister Kei, she's not wrong. It should be the mother you blame. Because I forbid Ade to tell you you're afraid you're worried let alone you're on medication. I don't want to disturb your mind and instead add weight to your mind Kei. Don't get mad at your sister ya.”

I wiped my tears and said Istigfar. Now anger has taken hold of my mind. I'm confused about my emotions. I'm rattled. Why do problems keep haunting my mind in turn. After the other one finished, the other one came. I don't think and feel tired of all this.

“Pardon brother De, sister already emotion.”

“I should be the one apologizing to you, brother. Ade didn't tell sister about mom's health.”

I can only sigh.

“Mommy's already on the doctor? Already taking medication?”

“Already Kei, it's all.”

“What's sick mom? How could this be so sudden?” ask me again non-stop.

“Mother is just soybean. Maybe because the long journey has made you feel tired so sick like this. Mom is okay, son. Most moms only soybean doang.”

“Yang really bu?”

Mom smiles again, “Iya Kei.” I breathed a sigh of relief hearing it. Afraid that anything will happen to my mother. Only my mother-in-law still has. Besides, no one else will love me after mother even though mother-in-law is not a real mother.

“Mas Andri already tau bu?”

Instantaneous silence. Mom and Ade looked at each other, not knowing what the look was.

“Bu?” call me again.

“No Kei.”

“Why?”

“Mother does not want to bother it with the condition of the mother.already, the most important thing now there is Ade who takes care of the mother. I don't need Andri anymore, he must be very busy with his work. Also mom is sick.”

I could only shut up without returning my mother's words again. I don't know why I feel like I said that mom doesn't want Andri around her. Wh why? Is this just my feeling. I'm more trusting if there's something I don't know. But that's what? It's all like a puzzle I deserve to solve.

Canary:

I went straight into my room. Visible Vania who was waiting for me with a face that was a little curious. I immediately sat in the chair to decorate myself.

"Where are you? What did Mr. Andri say?"

"Call my makeup assistant! Make up me now!" My orders without answering Vania's questions.

"So you accept the contract?" Guess Vania.

I looked at Vania with a rather fierce gaze. "Call my makeup assistant Vania!" my bluff.

Vania was silent. He knows that right now I don't want to talk about Andri. She directly came out of my room to call my makeup assistant. I looked at the reflection of the glass and sighed tiredly. What is wrong with accepting this contract? Just because the model is a man? I don't care about that. Even if it was Andri who was jealous of it even though he had become my husband. I don't give a shit. Really don't care.

After a while my makeup assistant was grooming and started to make up for me. Vania just looked on without asking anything more. I don't want to talk about that either.

1 hour later....

My makeup is done. I look at the glass. Nothing interesting on my face. There was no sign of life on my face.

"Kan," call Vania.

"Hem?"

"In the meantime the partners you will be working with will come. Keep the same attitude with him. Because he's a darling in his company. You're fine with him. Don't make trouble with him, you know what's going to happen!"

"Just calm! Without you telling me to prepare it." Vania's eyebrows go up next to the sign not understanding my words.

Not long after the person referred to as Vania entered my room. I stayed down while playing the phone. No matter who it is.

"Kania," I kept my head down playing the phone without knowing who called me.

"Canja Aletha Qirani?!"

"Ck! What?!!" I looked up and was surprised.

"Lo????!" my screeches

"Lo is here? So you work in this company?" asked the person no less surprised.

"Lo himself will be my partner at work?!"

Vania approached and whispered, "Who is it? How do you think he knows so well!"

"Princely Hans!" I mentioned the full name in front of the guy.

Hans Pratama's. My classmate and she were both models and people who had expressed their love for me. Are his feelings the same as before?

...****...

Hans and I were in front of the office doing a photo shoot. Do not forget there are also other crews and teams who participate. There was also Vania who was accompanying me.

Just wait!!

Is there Andri too?

Why is he here too?

The tumbens. Is it because I'm going to do a photo shoot with another guy so he's here? Was watching me.

Never mind Kania, now do not think of him who has made you hurt and disappointed. It's time to refocus on your work.

The photographer asked Hans and I to get ready for the shoot. The theme of the shoot is city romance. Predictably me and Hans will do poses like a couple in general. Maybe this is what made Andri plead with me to refuse to sign the contract.

If our relationship is doing well maybe I will reject this contract. But I was already hurt with him. You could say I'm selfish because I asked Andri's confession to make me recognized by the crowd. How can I not ask that, because my relationship and Andri already known by his mother and sister.

The humiliation I got from his family is what made me become humiliated and want to stay away from Andri. Unless Andri does something that makes my heart melt then I can forgive him and come back to him as before.

“Photo session will begin!” the screams of one of the crew made my daydream instantly crumble.

Hans and I started the first pose, where Hans and I faced each other. Hans smiled sweetly at me. He looked at me with that handsome face. The gaze that Hans gave me was the same as the gaze he had once expressed to me. The look is still the same. Does he still have feelings for me?

I just smiled faintly as I glanced at Andri who was looking at me and Hans who started the pose. There was a jealous look on Andri's face. He was jealous to see me with Hans. I don't want to think about it, this time I'll be selfish. Tell him who he's selfish towards me too.

“Lo know him?” hans asked, which surprised me.

“Ha?”

“Lo know the same that lo glimpsed it?”

Turns out Hans knows where I'm going.

Hans looks shaken. Quite surprised.

How could Hans not know Andri. His face must have appeared everywhere. Published or social media.

“Don't say you kudet!”

“What is kudet?”

I was made gawk by Hans, how could this kid not know anything. “Lack of updates Hans! What about you this. What I saw was Mr. Andri Fortunio Bagaskara! He's the boss of this company and he's the one who accepted the cooperation with that lo company!” my clear.

“Oh yes? Oh my God, I just found out today. I rarely hold my phone, my schedule is super busy and very busy. Even if I hold a mobile phone maybe I will often contact lo.”

My eyebrows raised next door, “What does that have to do with me? It's not clear lo!”

“Because I still like lo!” hans said that surprised me. Hans just chuckled a little while blinking his eyes next door. Indeed this child is enough to make me gawk by his behavior and words. I don't know if it's serious or just kidding, I don't know.

I looked back at Andri who was still standing beside Vania. Now his face looks very angry, maybe he saw Hans's behavior to me. It's probable.

When I saw Andri, he immediately left the place. It looks like people are angry. I'm sure if he sees all that. He was jealous to see me with Hans. Why am I worried about Andri's jealousy? Though my ego was very high, why is it now even lost?

Is it because I really think of him as my husband that I worry about his feelings. Oh, my God, let alone this. Why do I not understand what I feel.

Keish:

“Hhhhhhaaaaaahh! Very tiring day!” I complained while sighing many times.

It was almost 12 noon, I had just finished my yoga. I was late for training because I was still feeding my mother and giving her medicine. At least I want to take care of him on the sidelines of my struggle. I don't want him to be sick. I want him to be healthy and see that I can fight this and fight for my status. That I could be a mother and could give her a grandchild even if it was late.

I was in the car on my way home. But from then on I only advanced my car a few miles. Because today it is so jammed out of control. Maybe because of the break hours, everyone is out to buy food and drinks. I chose the wrong clock. So like this, I was stuck in traffic.

I stopped my car at one of the cafes. If you wait like this until when. At least 1 hour the traffic will decrease, I may starve when in the car.

I went into the cafe and ordered and then I sat down by the window showing the activities of everyone out there. Suddenly I think of Andri. Has he had lunch? I was suspicious of anything I was with her but my affection and worry was greater towards her. Because from the beginning I was principled that I could be suspicious of anyone but I should not accuse him without proof. Because if the allegations were wrong, I would definitely be very sorry and sinful. I don't want to be too rash. Moreover, this is my husband, my sin is very great if I do it.

I grabbed my phone in my bag. When I got it, I called Andri. There is a continuous tone but not lifted. Many times I contacted him the results were the same. Maybe he's busy, I should send him a message.

Andri, don't forget to eat. I'm sorry I didn't make you stuff, because I was mad at you this morning. I hope you eat well outside. Tomorrow, I'll make you stock up with your favorite food, okay?

Sent up!

I smiled at my message. I hope Andri reads my message.

“Order brother,” I looked up to see my order was set on the table.

“Ah, yes sis. Thank you yes.”

“Sama-sama brother.” The waiter smiled and left.

The ice greentea and a piece of cheesecake on the table instantly made me taste it mercilessly. I was thirsty and hungry. Hahaha, it's like this traveler of mine.

The kling!

The sign of the incoming message reads on my phone. I immediately checked and my husband's name was on his screen. He returned my message.

Yes baby, sorry I didn't pick up your phone earlier I was in a meeting and it's just finished. You are not wrong if you are angry with me, because this is purely for my mistake because it has yelled at you. I should've apologized the same way you pissed you off and yelled at you. How about the ransom we have dinner? We eat where you want, no matter where. You get ready, I'll come home from our office and leave. Okay well? Assume you agree, dear. Then I'll have lunch first.

I smiled reading it feeling very happy and had started to imagine that later tonight Andri invited me to dinner. I've been with Andri not dinner for a long time. After the busyness and drama is quite tiring. This time I feel like it's paid off. If it's like this, my suspicion of Andri need not be thought of again. Because in my heart I felt sure that he would not waste me. I'm pretty sure of that.

Once again I read the message, everything was like a dream. I can only smile again. My smile expands, whether this taste is very flowery. Many times this happiness.

"Review kambet!"

I looked up, "Haikal?"

"Just happy, ma'am? That smile didn't go away?" Haikal's ejek to me.

I who realized that instantly changed my expression with an ordinary smile. Haikal who saw him laughed.

"Goddess!" exclaim me.

"Hahaha, sorry Keisha! Your expression is funny when I see you instantly change your expression that fast!"

I too was ashamed to hear Haikal's words, what was it? Ahh who is not happy if our husband invites us to walk and dinner after a full moon busy with his work. I'm sure it's every woman's dream.

Haikal who was standing was directly sitting in front of me. "You're stuck in traffic too Kal?" my many.

"Yes. I ran out to the nearest hospital here and suddenly came home and it was stuck like this,"

"Hahaha, same dong with me."

"Where are you out of?"

"I'm Kal yoga, I forgot?"

"Kok this sesiang home?"

"Hem, I'm late. I was still at my mother-in-law's house first. He's sick again."

"Mother Andri?" haikal asked and I nodded "What pain?"

"Just a normal fever kok Kal, maybe fatigue is also because he ran out of Paris attended the graduation of my sister-in-law." Haikal seemed to be understanding.

"Sometimes take me to your mother-in-law Kei's house, I'd like to see her."

I was surprised to hear that, why did Haikal meet Andri's mother?

"Hahaha, your surprised expression looks very Kei. I once met him, he was very kind and apologized to me because Andri was already berta'aruf with you and even your choice fell into the hands of his son. Though there was also me who lived ta'aruf with you."

My lips are round shape sign understand. I don't know if my mother-in-law did that to Haikal. Apologizing to Haikal because my choice fell on his son? Why is it like that?

"How's Kei? You want to take me to meet Andri's mother?" I can only nod stiffly.

"Oh yeah, there's a good development Kei. I went to the hospital to discuss your progress. Maybe tomorrow you can already be tested for the results of whether your disease is gone or still. If I still want to I will do something,"

"What action Kal?"

"Yes the action for the last treatment, if the last treatment does not work also inevitably you have been declared barren!"

I nodded, "Tomorrow? What time?"

"Morning! Don't forget to pray Kei, hope the results are good."

"Always Kal."

"I look forward to this day coming. I'm a doctor and your friend doesn't feel at ease as to what the outcome would be."

"I'm also Kal, but I'm trying to calm down so the results are good and I don't want that thought. I leave everything to God."

"Good Girl!" Haikal smiled steadily.

I also returned that smile. Oh my God, tomorrow I'll do the test. Hope the results are good. I would love to have a child. I want to be a mother. My only wish is that one O God, no more.

......******......

Evening has arrived...

It's still 7 and a half hours but Andri hasn't come home yet even though I was waiting since.

It might be stuck, I thought.

No matter what, I better get ready so that later Andri comes home and I'm ready and then we go to the restaurant I want.

I've been searching for a restaurant I wanted at the cafe with the help of Haikal. Because he knows a romantic place and good food for couples like me who are married.

"Happy be with your husband Kei. Because if you already have children, your time will definitely be divided for children. And you will have no time for both. Even busy babysitting day and night!"

I remembered Haikal's words at the cafe. It's true with what it says. I can't waste this opportunity with Andri.

I will use this togetherness well. A nice dinner with a romantic atmosphere makes me always imagine it. I can't wait for that.

I also polish the makeup tools to the face. Thin polish just looks simple but still stunning I do on my face. I have to look beautiful in front of Andri, my husband.

It didn't take long everything was done. When I finished this make up suddenly the door of the room opened, I was surprised that Andri had arrived.

I smiled as I approached her, "Mas. Let's make the ones who want to go. I'm ready, and I've chosen the place I want. And i-" my words were cut off by Andri's words.

"Sorry baby, we're not leaving."

Degh's!

My heart ached hearing it.

"I'm sorry, I'm tired. And sometime, baby." Andri stroked my cheek and then went to the bathroom.

I could only stand still.

Wh why?

Why is this sick?

I'm disappointed in Andri!