Deposits
- Strange Feelings

“Meeting, approaching, getting married, having children, and aging together is an end that every woman would love to have. No need to say what the end of life is like. I think all women would want that. Although sometimes the desire is always inversely proportional to the real reality.”

-keisha

Canary:

Ting...Kegs...

Ting...Kegs...

Ting...Kegs...

Ting...Kegs...

Ccleks...

The old smile I had seen and the plastic that was tote up made me smile immediately. The person I've been waiting for since finally came along with the item I ordered earlier.

“Vania, come on in!” take me.

He nodded and entered the apartment. At least tonight I'm not alone with a mind that goes somewhere.

Vania looked at my suitcase that was still lying in the living room as well as other items that I had not cleared. “Yes for God's sake, what a mess. So, this lo new nyampe in Indonesia and directly ask me here?” I can only grin while scratching my back head.

“Ckckckck, don't tell me you miss me. So just nyampe, you immediately ask me here. Aren't you? Just a few weeks in Paris, I missed you ah!”

“Ah, what the hell lo! Ge-er. Where is my drink,” I snatch the plastic that is still in his hands. I took out the drink inside the plastic and immediately gulped it down.

“Hadehh nih son, very habit lo.”

“Ahhhhhhhhh, soon,” I let out a long sigh after drinking that beer.

Vania had leaned against the sofa in front of me while snacking on snacks that had been purchased along with this beer. “Looks like you're getting fatter, you eat anything in Paris?” asked Vania while observing my face. I can only hold my cheek. Ahh, am I getting fat? Just a mediocre feeling.

“Ah, at most this effect you never met me so you say I'm fat right?”

“Hahaha, seriously I. Cman was there a few weeks. But your cheeks are getting stronger. Don't you be happy there?”

Be happy? At first I was happy Van. But after that everything became very chaotic. My originally increased appetite has now become lost already. Now everything is gone because of that problem. Where the Andri family knows this relationship.

“Hei!” I also flinched from my daydreams. “Idih ni child even dumbfounded. What's the problem?” I only reviewed a thin smile while shaking slowly. I've agreed with Vania that if there's a problem with Andri I won't tell him about Andri in front of him. Because this is a deal from both of us.

I sipped my drink again, but was surprised by Vania's screeches. “Waaaww! What ring is it? How do I see it now?” Vania pulled my hand and looked at my ring finger. The ring with the first one on it made a sweet impression when I used it.

“Hehehe, what the hell. I never saw Van!” I pulled my hand trying to avoid his words, because this is still included in Andri's topic.

“Eh, I've never seen. Just see now. By the way what's the ring Kan?”

I looked at him and he looked at my face very seriously. I can only be silent not answering that question. “Eng—anu,” I scratched my non-itchy head.

That's when my phone became my savior. There was a message coming in on my screen. But at that time the phone was not my savior, but the beginning of all the secrets that I had to keep instead had to be open with that ease.

My phone lit up and showed me my wedding photo in a pose where Andri and I showed each other the wedding book to the camera. It was at that moment that Vania looked with her astonished face. He didn't blink at all looking at the picture on my phone.

I quickly grabbed my phone and turned off the screen. My heart was beating very fast. Even the surrounding air that initially felt cold became very hot. I flicked my hands to my neck.

I occasionally glanced at Vania who was still silent with a gaze that was still like that.

Deheman's voice came out from Vania's mouth, I let out a long sigh. I don't know where I am at the moment, I don't know either.

“Hemm, s— I'd better go home first. G—gue must set your shooting schedule when you are back at work. And remember, there will be many photoshoots that you must follow,” said Vania after a few minutes of silence.

I can only laugh, “Heheh, i-iya Van.” Vania quickly stood up from her seat while picking up her bag sling in a hurry. I know he wants to get out of my apartment.

It's all because of the wedding photos on my phone screen. I think I should change the wallpaper so that no one else can see it.

“Gue go home first huh Kan,”

“I-iya Van's. Careful.” I saw Vania walking out of my apartment. I could only stand up from my seat without driving her to the door.

When my apartment door was closed. I also sat back on the couch. Rubbing both my faces very slowly. I am very lonely tonight. The incident a few minutes ago shattered the atmosphere I had not felt with Vania for a long time. Long time no see and laugh together with Vania, now just because the photos alone everything was destroyed back to what it was.

Why does something happen to me always. Why is everything slowly ruining my life. I am becoming less and less able to face it. Because I alone bear it. There was no one beside me to accompany me.

Vania:

I walked to my parked car. My mind went nowhere. What I saw earlier in the Kania apartment, was something I had never seen before.

I don't know, what I saw earlier, or just a photo that Kania took from Google. I don't understand either. But I believed more and more when I saw a very beautiful ring of jewels curled with a very sweet dijarinya, making me unite all that I had seen.

From Kania's nervousness, Kania's fear, Kania's shock. I thought very carefully and understood why he became like that. And I conclude that Kania is now, “She has become Andri's second wife. She has taken people's husbands,” I said slowly with a gaze still leading to the front with great disbelief.

When I was in front of my car, I did not go in but still leaned back. My shock and unexpected feelings are still in my mind.

In the end, all this happened.

The fear that had been haunting me had finally happened as well. The thing that made me want to get away from this problem even made me know more. That I, the one who got the job from Keisha instantly knew of her husband's marriage to her own best friend.

I knew everything and I just kept quiet there was no intention to tell Keisha. If it's like this, what should I do? What am I supposed to do? Do I have to tell Keisha that her husband has another wife or do I just keep quiet and let this run its course.

I nodded slowly with a gaze that was still pointing forward. “Yes, I'd better shut up, I can't tell Keisha about this. Let Keisha know by herself that her husband has another wife. And I also agreed with Kania, that I did not want to get involved in this matter. Yeah, I don't want to get involved. Enough is enough, I don't want to stress myself out because of this. Well, I'd better just watch what it ends up like.”

Keish:

The morning sun poked very spoiled into the room. I rubbed my eyes slowly. I felt sideways and I opened my eyes slowly. There is no Andri beside me. Where's she?

Then I got out of bed and heard a noise coming from the kitchen. That's when I saw a sight I hadn't seen in a long time. Andri was busy preparing breakfast for the two of us.

Andri, who was aware of my existence, smiled. “Available?” ask her very gently. I just nodded slowly and walked up to him.

“You didn't wake me up anyway Mas? Let me do all this,”

Andri softened my nose, making me a little surprised by his attitude just now. “Ihh, Mas's wife just woke up not saying good morning even directly ngomel it.”

My heart rippled with her sweet words.

Geez, I think I'll be drunk in a minute.

“Heheh, yes sorry. Good morning Mas.”

“Good morning also dear,”

Cup...

Andri peed my forehead. I was immediately surprised by his treatment. Both my cheeks were very hot. Oh, my God, why is this. Why am I suddenly like this?

“Hahaha, straight red that's his cheek.” Andri menoel my cheek.

“Ahh, Mas!” my grunts were upset while looking down to hide my already red face.

“Hahah, jaudah. Let's have breakfast first. This is so hungry.”

I smile, “Iya Mas.” He pulled out a chair for me and I sat down. His extremely sweet attitude this morning made my heart seem to explode right now.

I haven't been treated like this for a long time. And now I feel back to the times I hadn't done with her in a long time.

“Still Mas,”

“Sama-sama.” He also sat in front of me. “Oh yes, you still have time to make your favorite food Mas ya?” I looked up when I was busy pouring the rice.

“Iya Mas, why? Not good huh?” manyworry.

Andri just smiled, making my chest swish very warm. “Enak really dear, as always. Because the food is cold, Mas panasin again.”

Thankfully, his taste never changed at all. He always appreciated food and never complained at all.

“Hehehe, yes Mas. You see, last night I made it because Mas is coming at midnight. Just because soy sauce is not possible to eat.”

“Iya is not papa kok dear. After all, the important thing now is that the food is not stale and can still be eaten.”

I smiled hearing it. “Still yes 'already made your favorite food Mas.” I nodded, “Iya Mas, equally.”

“Yaudah, let's eat,”

We both ended up eating together. It was a beautiful morning that day. We enjoyed the food very happily. It feels like some bribes just feel filling especially when eating together with loved ones.

Now, that happiness has multiplied in my life. Hopefully soon we will not eat both again, but three with a baby that we have long desired. Hopefully what is being done will be done. Amens.

After I finished breakfast, I helped Andri wash the dishes. It seems because since he served in Paris, the longing that was on us both just overflowed to want more intimacy.

I was not constantly smiling at my husband. His hair that was still wet by the water made the aura of good looks he out many times over. Really, I don't want Andri to be owned by anyone else. Only I can have it, I won't give it to another woman. The world and its contents will not be happy to see Andri with others.

Isn't it natural for a woman to have such fears as I feel? I'm just scared if Andri's like that. Even though I was sure, he wouldn't do that to me. The love and affection she gave me, I never felt lacking. That's why I believe in the love she gave me.

I gasped as well, when Andri put my nose so that the foam from the dishwasher stuck to my sharp nose.

“You why worry about Mas continue, hem?” god, I've been caught red-handed by him.

I quickly went back to washing the utensils while looking at him and returned a smile again by him. I don't know why he always smiles like that to me. Maybe because he was so happy to be with me. Maybe, hahaha.

“Heheh, no papa kok Mas.” I try to avoid what I just thought.

“You lied to me. Same. There must be something you think about Mas.”

“Iya,” I replied quickly while looking at both of his eyes seriously.

He stopped his hands washing. His facial expression immediately turned very serious. “A—apa?” I asked a little nervous. Why does it sound like there is fear or is it just my feeling?

“I think about Mas, whether Mas since in Paris missed me or not,” I immediately smiled changing the tension that had just happened a few minutes.

Andri's laughter immediately broke, he laughed nonstop until the corner of his eyes let out a tear. He breathed a sigh of relief from his mouth. I don't know why he behaved like this.

Andri cupped both of my cheeks and I just looked at her with an astonished look. “Geez baby, I thought you thought about Mas. It turned out that was just that. Yes, it is that I miss you. Masa Masa does not miss this cute wife of Mas. You have-there is aja ah, make Mas think like-maca aja,” he said.

Then again continuing to wash the dishes, I just kept flinching to see his attitude just now. I don't think this is like Andri usually.

“Emang Mas kira, I thought what?”

“Hahah, no papa dear. Yaudah, go ahead and say hi ya.” The answer.

I keep looking at Andri, why I feel like there's something different about him. What exactly is this feeling? Why is there such a sudden discomfort that I have never felt before.