Deposits
- Cania asked for a break-up

“I'm just a human being who still wants what I want. And I still need what I need. Not wrong if I want something too much? Or is there anyone who does not allow?”

- Andri

Andri:

Highlight those eyes, that voice, she was angry, she was upset, and she hated me. I should have avoided meeting yesterday, I should have given a thousand reasons not to be like this. I can't, I can't.

I can't if I fight with Kania, miss me too much for that and I can't be selfish with her. I ruffled my hair in great frustration, today my work looks messy. Like my heart isn't necessarily where he's going.

This morning I saw her, met with Kania trying to solve the problem. But Kania seems to be avoiding me, she doesn't want to talk to me. I miss him so much, why doesn't he understand what I want? Am I the only one who misses him and he doesn't?

I let out a heavy sigh, then raised my head and threw my back against the body of the chair. I turned the chair that led to a very large window, I saw a view of a towering building from inside here. I think it makes me a little calm and not stressed.

People think that my life is happy, it is not. I've always been involved in things people don't know about. One wouldn't think that I have such a big secret that everyone wouldn't have to know if anyone knew, everyone wouldn't believe this secret.

How humiliating.

Tok.dok..

“Log in!”my orders, I don't know who's coming in, I keep seeing the sights out there.

There was no sound, only the sound of people throwing bodies onto the sofa. My forehead is wrinkled, who comes in and sits with his fingers? It's very disrespectful.

I immediately circled my chair and how surprised I was who was sitting on the sofa.

I also directly stand “K-Kania?” I approached her and sat down before her. Seeing her not believing that she was approaching me, I thought if she was still angry with me for too long. Apparently not, he approached me.

But her face looked very lethargic, her eyes were fragile and there was no bright smile that I used to see before her. Actually this is just my feeling or is this because the effects of Kania who is exhausted from shooting? Ahh already, I don't want to think about that. I'm just glad that Kania came here to see me. I'm sure that he misses me as much as he misses me, I'm so sure of that.

Canary:

Indeed, my intention after the photo shoot will go directly to his room. Yeah, whose room would it be if it wasn't for the man I love who already has a wife. My mind was constantly disturbed by him this morning, to be honest I did not have the heart but remember the events of yesterday that always made my heart hurt.

Without wasting my long time, I immediately closed the curtains of his room and then I locked the door so that no one would go straight into his room while I was still in his. Honestly, it was a waste of my time even if it was only a few seconds.

I saw Andri who was confused let him, right now I don't care, but he also doesn't care about my feelings. Then I sat back down on the sofa in front of me there was him, I sighed softly but very long.

“Kania? You why? You still mad at me?” her questions lined up, just look at her, why has she been insensitive lately? It made me feel like I was not appreciated by my lover. Of course I am still angry with him, even now my anger is back to his.

I ventured to look into both eyes, his gaze was still the same, but it only made me more injured “I'm sick Mas, I'm sick related like this. When are you going to marry me? When Mas?” I tried to hold back my tears that were ready to come out at any time. But I tried to hold it back, this time I tried to toughen up I had trained so as not to cry even Vania helped me to it.

Andri was silent, silent for a long time. Well, I know, this is the attitude he always shows me when I ask him that.

“Mas?” call me again, he looked up at me who was waiting for his answer.

“Kan, isn't this what we talked about? Wait a minute, Mas need time for this,” somehow the answer looks the same as 2 years ago. I'm tired and tired of hearing it.

“What time does it take Mas, it's been almost 3 years I gave you time to think! But you still need time. Do you just want to play around with me? Do you have no seriousness in our relationship?” my voice trembled as I said everything, I was already saturated waiting for something that had nothing to be certain about. All this always torments me and always haunts me.

Andri grabs my hand and grabs her “Kania, listen to Mas ya. Not that I'm not serious about you. Mas seriously really, even Mas also intends to build a household ark with you. But Mas need more time Kania, Mas need permission from Keisha.”

I let out a rough sigh, Keisha again. Why should Keisha? Why should everyone ask Keisha for permission? Can't he marry me without having to wait for his wife's permission.

I immediately let go of his hand that was holding my hand, this time I had to be firm even though it hurt me. I also stood up as well as Andri, I was angry, my mind this time has bounced everywhere. No need for what I'm saying now, I hope I don't regret it.

“Quite Mas, Kania is fed up with what Mas says that Kania keeps hearing over and over again. This is enough to prove, that Mas—“ I hang my sentence, Andri looks waiting.

“That Mas just played me and didn't really love me. Mas only loved Mas's wife and Mas never cared about my rights. All right, now it's up to all of you. But I can't, because I want to break up with Mas. We broke up mas!”

Yes, this is the choice I'm taking, which is to break up. Immediately I was about to leave her, Andri pulled my hand and I could only shake her hand.

“Please, Mas don't want to break up with you. We're talking about it?”

There are no good words anymore, everything is done and this story has ended like this. I ignored his words and left, without me noticing the tears that had gathered finally descended. Very heavy, and very painful.