Deposits
- Haikal Fathan Ghazawan

“Destiny always toying with someone's life. Today we will meet with A, then tomorrow we will part with A and then will meet with B to Z. But life always has its own way so that we can meet with the A, no matter what the way of the meeting. No one will know how.”

- Haikal

Haikal:

Haikal Fathan Ghazawan, that's my real name.

Most people recognize me as Haikal, and most of my patients call me a handsome doctor.

Not because I feel that I am perfect because I say handsome, but most of my own patients say that. While I only think of it as the wind then, I really do not want to be arrogant if it is called handsome.

Today, the hospital decided to transfer my work to a hospital that was a good distance from my residence. It took a long time, almost half an hour to the hospital. Almost an hour if the road is crowded by other motorists.

Being an obstetrician was actually my dream long ago, strange not if a man like me even became an obstetrician. Usually the men will choose careers such as business, architecture, captains, pilots and others. But I chose instead as a doctor where obstetricians as well.

Actually I like about how to develop a man from the unseen until he was born into the world called a baby. I want to always be grateful for the substance that God proved to man, I want to always see where God created a man only from semen.

Fortunately God made all my wishes easier until I became a gynecologist. Until now I have overcome hundreds of patients from young to old age. I went through it with all my soul, but I always had obstacles when running examinations of patients.

Often my cheeks are suddenly rubbed by pregnant women because they want their children handsome like me, of course I immediately avoid the physical touch of a woman who is not a mahram from me.

Yeah, I really don't want to do any touch if it's not my mahram. Religion clearly forbids him to do so, even when there are in campus assemblies the preacher always carries the topic.

To make me Istiqomah so that I always stay away from the adultery even if only touching.

My current age is considered very mature for the name of marriage. Stepping on for almost 35 years, I haven't even found the woman I've been coveting for a long time. And even at this moment my overwhelming preoccupation did not allow me to get acquainted with any woman. Just to relax, I don't have time for that.

In the past, I was attracted to one woman who always stole my attention. He always came to the assembly at one of the campuses, I came to the assembly because of my friend's invitation. Until one day I saw it and made my heart instantly become pounding unbecoming.

At first I thought she was a woman who was easy to be friendly with others, but she even kept her distance from men. It could be called that he wanted to obey religion, and it made me even more interested in him.

Every day I find out about him from his college friends. Usually I also dare to talk to him every assembly is finished. And it worked, we asked each other.

Until one day I decided to say to her that she would live out her name ta’aruf with her. We both agreed to that.

Honestly, when he said that he agreed with this, my heart was very happy. Every third of my night, I pray for him to be my soul mate, my soul mate and my next life.

But it was not long because after 2 months he decided ta’aruf because he received a proposal from a man one on the same campus.

My heart was sliced to hear it all, even though I had prepared a proposal for him after ta’aruf was finished. But in fact, God wants something else for it all. Moreover, he had received another man's proposal.

I could only give up and smile at his decision. Maybe this is best for him and maybe with this make him happy. I gave it up and I accepted it with someone else even though it wasn't mine.

That's also one of the factors why I can't accept other women, because for me only she's the one who interests me. She is the only woman I pray to be my companion.

Even all of my closest friends introduced many women so that I could open my heart to other women.

I accepted their offer, but when I ran it all, I couldn't. I felt that my heart was closed very tightly. When I opened it by force even made me tormented myself, until then I decided to leave for up to a week.

It was at that moment that I realized I did not want to force the will that God decided for me. I cannot open my heart wide unless God allows me to open it. Only God can turn the heart of man back. Today hate can be tomorrow love and can also today love tomorrow instead be hate. Isn't that usually like that?

Usually this happens not usually but this often happens among humans. It's just that humans are not aware of it.

Today I saw it all, I saw destiny coming to me on its own without me asking. God wants to prove that everything is not over yet, God wants to prove that this journey has not ended just like that even there is a continuation of it that has not been known by me.

This is a destiny I don't know yet, and it's a destiny I don't understand. Where is the woman who made me fall in love for the first time and where is the woman who broke my heart for the last time. Now he's in front of me as my consulting patient.

He was Keisha Anandita Bagaskara, wife of my assembly mate while on campus.

The woman I had lost from my mind was now in front of me. The woman I had brought to God so that I would never meet again and now I am found again.

Will the old story repeat itself? Or am I here hoping to be like before? I don't think it's possible! Because she already has a husband. The man who had proposed to him before me has now become his companion to the Jannah of God.