Deposits
- Catastrophe

“What a woman needs to her partner is not treasure and good looks but loyalty. Can everyone have a good physique, but be loyal? Not everyone has it. Because faithful can only be owned by a classy person.”

- Haikal

Andea:

“So, the husband you were referring to yesterday was my brother?” I asked Kania with an incredulous look. Mom saw me not understanding.

“What are you saying, De? Husband? Whose husband?” ask mother.

I can only see my mother. It seems that both eyes look disappointed, angry, and mixed into one.

I didn't think this person in front of me was. People I just met. A person I value well, smiles easily and wants to recognize me as a company leader. It turns out that that guy was my brother's wife, Andri. Second wife after Keisha.

So it can be said that Andri did polygamy to Keisha behind her. Means the busyness he had all this time only elements of lies. How did this happen?

“De, say the same mom! Husband? Whose husband is De?!” mother shouted with her trembling voice holding back the anger while shaking my body. I can't stand it, my tears have been reminiscing in my eyes. I think this is alive, one day something like this will happen to every person's life.

I can only look down, “I'm sorry Ade bu, sorry Ade,” the tight grip on my mother's body loosened in my body. I saw mother sighing violently while rubbing her face that had been soaked by tears. Now he is moving to Andri.

“Andri, mom asked alright you. What's right, you—“ mom hangs her words. I know you can't continue this word. While Andri and Kania can only look down without seeing mother at all. I know for a fact that they are very scared of Mom right now.

Means my guess all along wasn't wrong. The man I saw the other day at the hotel restaurant was no one else, but Andri himself.

Oh my God, why did this happen. How will my sister-in-law be? What if she knew that her husband had a new wife. Of course his heart would be very broken knowing this all. Even the Bagaskara family will be ashamed to face Keisha whose dignity is the wife in the Bagaskara family.

“Are you really marrying Kania? You remarried Ndri? You did polygamy?” ask mom slowly. The sound of her small sobs began to be heard by me. Today, the happiness I gave to my mother was in vain because of my brother who did not know himself.

“Andri? My mother replied, if you are not married to Kania, I will bow down in gratitude to you. Since mother only wants Keisha to be mother-in-law instead of the other,” still no answer comes out of Andri's lips.

When I said I only wanted Keisha to be my daughter-in-law, I saw Kania look up to see my mother. It is clear that Kania has really become Andri's wife. The second wife. Where is Kania's instinct? He wanted to introduce me to a businessman who turned out to be my own brother.

Doesn't he know if Andri already has a wife? If he knew why he still did his wedding with Andri. It's only fitting that while in the salon, I felt strange towards him. He said he was getting married but he didn't mince words to invite me to his wedding. Turns out he was doing a serial wedding behind his back. Gosh, why did that bad feeling really happen.

“Andri! Answer mom!!!” shouted the hysterical mother while pulling both collars of Andri's shirt firmly.

Mother's shrill voice made me and Kania look up straight away. Andri looked up too. Both of his eyes were very red, tears wanted to seep out but I guess he could still hold it.

“Kania wife Andri bu,” replied Andri.

I immediately averted my eyes feeling disappointed by his careless actions. The person I've been a role model all this time can do actions that I think are very disgusting.

Is it not enough with one woman and instead add another woman? Even one woman could not take care of him properly.

Mom's hand grip on Andri's shirt loosened as well. He looked at his eldest son in disbelief. Her tears flowed down her cheeks. These are not happy tears but rather these hurt tears from a mother. Be careful if a child makes his mother cry like this especially to make his heart hurt.

There will be no heaven for her but rather there is a hell wide open for her.

I saw my mother staggering a few steps back. Me and Andri were quick to catch mom's body and me first. “Mother, mom is not papa?” mom just shook her head slowly.

I think he was very shocked by this incident.

“Yaudah, we just go home yuk bu, later mom even fainted here,” mom immediately stood up straight. He took a breath and slowly breathed it out. He walked over to Kania, I think mom would say something to him.

“Kania, I did not expect if you were like this. Where are your feelings Kania? Whereabouts? With his heart you snatched the husband from your own friend?”

Degh's...

Own friends? Mean mother?

“Keisha, your friend Kania. Could you snatch her husband to make your husband? Where is your consciousness?!”

O Allah, it turns out Kania is a friend of my sister-in-law? That means Kania stabbed Keisha in the back? I didn't think something like this would actually happen. And this happened right in front of me. Really, I'm like this very embarrassed of my own sister-in-law when I meet her later.

How depraved Andri has another wife who turns out the other wife is his own friend. Isn't this embarrassing or is this a commonplace thing that happens in this world?

Kania took both of mother's hands with both cheeks that had been soaked by tears, her makeup that I had seen in the elevator faded instantly. I think the meeting between the two of them in the Effiel Tower was completely destroyed because of an incident like this.

“Bu,”

“DON'T CALL ME MOM!!!” snapped the mother while pulling the handle from Kania's hand.

Of course it made Kania and I surprised. Kania's cry became more and more. Andri tried to calm the mother, but the mother pushed Andri a few steps back.

At this time we have become a spectacle by some people who may look curious because there is a crying scene in it. Fortunately we are in Paris, if there is in Indonesia, we are either as viral as we are because it was recorded by some people who are watching at this time.

“Don't you ever call me mother! I don't want to hear the word mom coming out of your mouth Kania!!”

“Bu, relax lah” I tried to calm mom while stroking her shoulder. But mother even brushed my hand away with both very pitiful gazes. I really can't see it like this.

“How can mom calm down De? Look at your brother! Look her! He remarried to his wife's friend. How embarrassing he is. He had no idea how worried Keisha was there because there was no news at all. And know-tau he's here with his other wife, he immediately went to Paris not to tell his mother or to his wife. Apparently he had his wedding in Paris. What a disgust, cih!!” mother spit in front of Andri and Kania making them unable to say anything more. And I could only listen to my mother.

“Kania, listen to me.” Kania looked up and dared to look at mother even though her face was currently swollen with tears. Somehow he even cried like that when the one who was hurt was not him but our family except Andri.

“ Even though you are currently the wife of Andri. I would not consider you to be my daughter-in-law. I would not give Bagaskara the name behind your name! You know what you. You're so disgusting because you've taken a married husband. Are your eyes not open? You don't see that Andri is your friend's husband, why can you still snatch him? You are not aware, right? Did your parents not teach you about wanting to have something?” said the mother who I thought was very spicy and piercing.

“Mother can say like that to me mom. But please do not bring my parents in this case, my parents are innocent in this.”

“If not your parents, who will be blamed Kan?!” ask mom with her voice up.

“Mother, it's already ma'am. It's not Kania's fault Andri bu. Andri who started all these problems, please do not get me wrong Kania,” bela Andri.

Mother looked at Andri while wiping away her tears. Mom gave a slanted smile to Andri. “Still can-can his you defend women who do not know this lucky!” show mom to Kania.

“Listen Kania!! If it wasn't Keisha, you wouldn't be a very famous model. You won't have a very high paying job. Actually I don't want you to work in Andri's company. But because Keisha pleaded with me because you were her friend. I don't want to let it. And look what his friend's reply was. Her friend even snatched her husband, is this what her name is called heart asking for brains?!”

“Mother, stop.” I pulled mom away from Kania's face. Otherwise, the mother will say outside her consciousness. And I don't want that to happen. A mother's words will happen at that moment. I don't want you to regret what she said. Especially now that Kania has legally become Andri's wife. And that means Kania has become Bagaskara's son-in-law even though she disapproves of him. It's just that this is all from Andri himself. Even if he were to restrain his lust from another woman, this might not happen.

“Ade, please tell me this is a dream son. Tell mom this is a dream, I can't handle De. Mom couldn't bear it,” mom cried sobbing to me.

I rubbed my tears that flowed, I immediately embraced the mother's body tightly providing calm even though not completely. “Mother, please don't cry ma'am. No cry. There is Ade here, there is Ade.” I looked at Andri who was still down. Even he similarly did not dare to look at his own sister.

At that moment, I saw my mother's breath gasping while holding her left chest tightly. “Mother!!!” call me to panic.

“Ibuuu!!” yell also Andri.

Mom just squeezed down below. Me and Andri embrace each other mother, but I immediately push Andri just like that.

“Do not touch mother Mas, let Ade alone touch mother. Because Mas, mom is like this.”

“De,” call her slowly.

“Mother, beware. Buu, realize lahh” I patted both cheeks mom panicked. I didn't think that mom was like this. My mind started going nowhere, I don't know what to do now. Everything is empty just like that.

Oh God, please don't take my mother's life so soon. I don't want to lose my mother, I haven't had a chance to make her happy. Let me hold on for a little while for me. Don't take my mother. Even if mother is taken, to the end of my life I will not forgive this troublemaker. Even if he's my own brother. I don't give a shit.

“Mother, wake up mom. Kumohoon,” I shook mom's body. I guess I really can't hold back my tears from coming out. My tears just came out looking at my mother's pale face, her hands were so cold. Oh my God, I haven't seen mom in years. When meeting even have to see a mother like this.

I looked up to see Andri was calling someone. I think he called an ambulance. Right now, I don't care about him. Really don't care.

We were surrounded by people, calling each other. I could only hug mother feeling her heartbeat still beating. I don't want my bad thoughts to be real.

“De, another ambulance is coming. Please calm down for the sake of mother De,”

I looked up at Andri Nyalang. I don't know why I hate him now. Right now I see him not as my brother but as my enemy. The enemy for the first time I met and I just hated him. Hates him so much.

“Mas Satisfaction? Satisfied with mom like this?! Satisfied huh?!”

“Let down your tone De, Mas this is your brother!”

I smiled cynically, “Abang? I don't have a brother who has this kind of jerk!!”

“Jaga talk you De!!” snapped it and I don't think I'm afraid of it.

Both of my hands clenched me very strongly restraining the anger from just coming out. “From now on, don't ever consider us brothers! And I, as Andika said I had no brother named Andri. Because he's dead. In my heart or in my mother's heart!” my words made Andri perhaps surprised by my words. I don't care, this is my hate. Because of her, mother is like this. For me, anyone who has made a mother like this will be his enemy. Trust that.

Andri:

We are both in a hospital in Paris. We were both outside and Andika was inside. My legs moved many times because I couldn't wait to see if mom was okay.

Crushed already.

Done already.

Finished already.

Everything just unfolds by itself. I didn't expect that the secret I'd been covering for 3 years was discovered so quickly. The thing that confused me the most was why my mom was here and that was with Ade.

Shouldn't you be in Indonesia with Keisha? Did you follow me from Indonesia to Paris? But it was impossible, because there was Andika next to him. Andika alone may not know the problem from the beginning. Could be.

I don't know what's happening anymore. My mind just went blank. I don't know if my mind is going anywhere. I can no longer think clearly. Most importantly for now, I want to meet mom. Want to talk to him alone. But Andika had not come out of the mother's room at all. I know she hates me so much now that I'm not allowed to meet her.

My daydream gasped as Kania clasped my hand, I turned to look at her with her anxious face. I forced my smile up even though it was not sincere. It's just that it gives him peace even though I'm not calm.

“Mas, you don't papa right?” ask her.

“Gak papa Kan, don't worry about Mas ya.”

He sighed softly, “How is this Mas? your mother and sister already know. What if your mother told Keisha about this? What are we going to do Mas?” ask her line up. I also returned the grip of his hand trying to calm each other.

“We will see later on Kan, we finished this problem with mom. Just think about the problem with Keisha.”

“Mas,”

“Hem?”

“Mas not cool me, right?” I was silent to hear his question.

“Mas doesn't mind me, right? I won't stay here, will I?” the question is again lined up.

Both of his eyes were already teary-eyed wanting to cry right now. I can't bear to see it. I don't understand why he talks like that either.

“What are you talking about anyway? Why do you have to break up? Why do you have to stay? We are married. We've chosen this path, and why should we just end this?”

“Circuit only Mas. Because our relationship has been discovered by your mother and sister. You want to finish this all,”

I stroked Kania's head, “You think I'm a boy, right? I can't run away from all this just because I got caught. We face this problem together. We hold each other's hands tightly. Strengthening each other and being on each other's sides,” Kania's tears just came out. I wiped those tears as well.

I know, he's very fragile especially with what happened in the Effiel Tower just like me. “Makasih, Mas,” said while as much as he pleased.

“Iya, Kan. Don't cry yet. He will always be here, beside you. Hem?” he nodded small and sighed softly trying to remove the cry.

That's when I heard the door open, Kania and I immediately stood up and wanted to approach Andika who was coming out while holding the paper. But I prevent Kania from staying seated, let me face this moment alone. I don't want to burden Kania.

“De,” call me.

Ade turned around and saw me and turned his eyes the other way, I knew he really didn't want to see me. Indeed, I should be embarrassed because I still dare to want to meet my own family. But anyway I have to face this problem rather than let the matter drag on.

“De, Mas want to meet mom,”

He looked and looked at me. The gaze felt very sharp and cold, “It just so happened. Big madam Bagaskara wants to talk to you,” Andika while smiling cynically to me. I can only frown I don't understand her intentions. Why did my mother call him ‘nyonya Bagaskara?’

“You mean De?”

“Isn't it true that my mother is Mrs Bagaskara?”

I could only stare at him, I guess he really didn't think of me as his sibling. I want to feel angry, but I also think that it is not because of this forbidden relationship that it is not possible that everything will happen like this and this is my fault. I don't deserve to be angry.

“Please talk to my mom. I will take care of Mrs Bagaskara's administration first. When I come back, you hope you are outside this room. Because I, as her child will take care of Mrs Bagaskara well,” said Andika very piercing in my heart. He also emphasized the word child in his words.

Calm down Andri, you must be strong to live every word that will be thrown every word of your family. You have to accept it. Because of your actions you have to bear it yourself.

After Andika said that, she left in front of me. I let out a rough sigh then looked at the closed doorway. I turned the door knob slowly, it was clear that the mother was lying down with the infusion on her right hand. He looked up to see me enter his room and looked the other way. Just like what Andika did to me. How much do they hate me so they don't want to see me?

Slowly I approached my mother's bed and sat down beside her. He remained unmoved and kept looking the other way.

I grabbed the hand mom wanted to hold her but she brushed it off very quickly. I saw my hands that seemed to mean nothing to my mother. It used to be this hand that was always wanted by the mother and wanted to always be held by the mother. But now, this hand is no longer wanted by anyone. Even I don't want to touch her for a second.

“Bu,” call me because he doesn't talk at all.

“How long have you been in a relationship with Kania, Ndri?”

I'm speechless. Trying to find another reason to answer the question. I don't think I need to give a reason based on a lie. Because in the end, everything has been revealed so wide.

“It's been 3 years bu,”

Mom immediately turned her head to look at me in great disbelief, “3 years old? Have you been in a relationship with Kania for 3 years? That long?” I nodded slowly.

“But Andri just married her a few days ago mom,”

There was a cynical laugh coming out of mom's mouth, “Mom didn't expect if you did something disgusting like this Ndri. For 3 years you betrayed your wife very beautifully and neatly. Your wife is even willing to always be beside you undergoing difficult fun with you. But what are you doing ha? What have you been paying for his loyalty all this time? Are you not aware? Where is your common sense! Where did it disappear?”

“Sorry Andri bu,”

“About you have been successful. Have abundant possessions, and you are looking for another companion. But have you never thought of Ndri? That the success you get is because of your wife. Your wife's prayers, her support and her loyalty. But you have gone so easily and with your innocent face!”

I could only listen to my mother's words. My head kept down, it felt as if I was ashamed to look at my mother. He was disappointed and hurt by my actions.

“If you want to remarry Ndri, you should go to mother and Keisha well. Ask for blessing from both of us instead of getting married behind like this. Isn't that the heinous thing you did to your wife's love for you? If you get married like this, I'm sure. You do it not because based on religion, but based on your mere lust,” heard the words of my mother immediately looked up.

“Not mom wants to curse you, but trust me. You will be destroyed so easily. Not because of your mother's prayer, but because of the wife's hurt towards you,”

Jamb...

Mother's words made my heart instantly beat out for a moment. It felt so painful and painful to hear it. It felt like my heart did not accept my mother's words. Wanting to refute her but my mouth felt like it was a joke to get out a single word.

“Trust me that, this will happen to you gradually. Not now, but later when your wife's heartache can no longer be contained,”

“Keisha could not be hurt by Andri ma'am, she even allowed Andri to marry again. Now that Andri is married, surely he will strongly agree with this marriage.”

“Allowing you to marry? But that's when? Wasn't that a few years ago? And it was you who promised him that you would never marry another woman. Now, you're married by not asking for her blessing, when Keisha won't see you with another woman. So sure you are Keisha not hurt to hear all this? So confident are you?” my mouth shuts again, not answering my mother's words.

“Remember the words of this mother Andri. Keisha will definitely say, it's okay with you. But you don't know how his heart is. Because what? You only attach more importance to your feelings than to their feelings. You attach greater importance to your own happiness and satisfaction than to his happiness. Because basically your concern for Keisha's feelings is dead. You no longer care how and what Keisha feels!”

I looked the other way. It felt like every word of my mother made my heart feel so claustrophobic. I couldn't stay here any longer, so I decided to leave my mother's room. When I turn around and walk to the door. My steps stopped when I heard my mother say, “Mom will not tell this incident to Keisha, you should have told her. I've decided you're the one who solved the problem. I've been very confident that Keisha will be devastated by your confession,”

I kept quiet and went back because my mother said nothing more, but she continued.

“If your heart asks, who does mother defend. Of course I defended Keisha. If you and your new wife are hurting Keisha, it will be the mother who will be in front of defending Keisha. And don't expect me to accept Kania. Because until mom dies, she'll never be considered at all. Is it mother's sin? Of course not! however you yourself are the sinner and take this step,”

“And one more, from now on don't call me mother. Because I don't want to be called mother by you. And my son, Andri, died of his selfishness. My son is only named Andika. If people ask about Andri, of course I don't know him.” Mother's last words managed to make my heart repeatedly painful.

Both of my hands clenched very tightly. Both of my eyes were so red that they held back the anger, tears wanting to just come out of their place. It was very difficult for oxygen to get into my lungs. I took a breath and threw it away very roughly.

Then I turned to look at the mother who had turned her back on me. I can't be here anymore I'm out of the room. I saw that there was no one outside. Kania was not in place. I don't know where he is. I don't think about her whereabouts right now. Because right now my heart feels very hurt by every word of mother.

Tighten my ass to the chair. I leaned my back against the back of the chair. Feels very comfortable. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down with the current situation. Breath continues to come out of my mouth. For years I lived with my mother. Just this time the mother issued a statement that I was no longer considered as her child.

Mom thought I was dead. How broken my heart was when he said it. The words that come out of a mother are not just words. There is a lot of prayer in it. I don't know why when Mom said that, it scared me so much.

Now I can only rub my face harshly. It felt so painful and stifling that my tears came out so hard. Because my actions are all just destroyed. I lost the family that had accompanied me. I lost the love and affection I had all this time. And I've lost the trust I've been keeping all my life.

It's all because of my actions. I have to endure it and run it. Isn't that what I wanted a long time ago?