Deposits
- Forbidden Relationships

"Love makes everyone blind inside her, but I don't care while I'm with Andri. The man I have always loved and loved.

Promise me, I won't just let go."

- Canary

Canary:

I asked him for reassurance a few times, but he was always so. Though we have been in a relationship for 2 years but the answer is always the same. I could have let go, but I couldn't because I loved this man in front of me too much. Yes, Andri Fortunio Bagaskara the man I've always loved. Having a very strong body, a face that looks very firm does not forget his lips are very thin makes me want to always have it. I approached her and sat on her thighs, my hands around her neck.

"I'll always wait for you Mas, until whenever I'll always wait for you,"

"Because you know I love you so much, Mas." Andri stroked my hair slowly, for some reason I liked her so much that she gently touched my hair.

"I also love you Kania, but honestly Mas is also very heavy to release Keisha as well. Mas don't want to lose you and Keisha, Kania," Andri's gaze was very shady somehow it made me quickly miss seeing her.

"Mas, you know that I never told you to part with Keisha. But I just asked for clarity on our relationship. That's all I want Mas," honestly I'm not very jealous if Andri has a wife but I can't if I keep in touch without this direction.

"Yes be patient, Kania, I will definitely marry you, but please, just give me some more time because I haven't told Keisha about you yet. So please be patient?" both of Andri's eyes were pleading. But what I can do, I just nod and smile.I can't be angry too long with him.

Andri:

I love this woman sitting on my thigh. Both of her eyes were very large, her nose was tiny, her face was very pretty and her body was slender. I really like everything on kania, I want to have everything that Kania has. But I can't because I also have a wife who has accompanied me for many years.

Yes, Keisha Anandita Bagaskara, I also love my wife but I can't let go of Kania either. Indeed everyone will say I am greedy because I want to have it all but I can what because I do love them both and I cannot let go of them both.

"Can I sleep here again?" right now, I am lazy to go home. Working in the office until late at night made me unable to go home, because of the considerable distance. I saw Kania's eyes were round, I'm sure I'm guessing she must be really happy that I'm with her for tonight.

"Aren't you sleeping here?"

"Do you know Kei?" ask her again

Actually I haven't told Keisha that I didn't come home tonight but what reason should I give Keisha?

"Not yet."

"Why?" ask her

"I don't want to lie to Keisha all the time Kan" I saw Kania sigh and smile.

"Well if that's what you want, let's go to the room."

"Don't forget to change your clothes" I could only smile and then kiss her forehead. I see a red hue on both cheeks, he is very embarrassed if I act romantic to him even though I have been 2 years with him. I like Kania because she is indeed a moaning and unselfish woman, even though he knew I had a wife but he didn't tell me to part with my wife it was what made me feel at home with Kania. Whatever it is I'm not gonna let go.

Canary:

I pulled Andri's hand gently brought her into my room, yes this is the second time Andri will sleep with me. I can what? I don't want to waste this opportunity because Andri and I are not free to be in a relationship with Andri because Andri already has a wife. Keisha, she's Andri's wife and best friend of my High School until now.

I can't deny it if I'm in love with her husband. When I got in touch with Andri, when Keisha put me in Andri's company and made me a model. I didn't refuse, and then I worked there starting my career until I was quite famous in various magazine circles.

Andri always pay attention to me every time I work, yes indeed the boss of his duties like that, especially if not monitor his employees work. However, I was not ordinary with Andri's gaze, he seemed to like me. Then I don't know what the devil made us fall into the wrong abyss. I fell in love with Andri, the husband of my best friend.

At first I did not want this relationship but Andri always prevented me from leaving her life and it was enough to prove that we were meant to be together. Maybe some people will say that I am a hypocrite and stab my best friend in the back, but what else? Andri and I agreed to be together and love each other.

I gave you a shirt and shorts to use Andri, I did provide the clothes to my closet because I knew at any time Andri would stay in my apartment.

"Just change clothes first Kan." his permission on me, he looks cute when saying that. God, I have to love this man in front of me.

"Yes Mas." I smiled and then he passed to the bathroom in my room as well.

"Would you like to eat? Let Kania make it," I half-screamed while she was in the bathroom.

"Don't do it, I'm sleepy. Go straight to sleep." he said in the bathroom.

"Hem well." I drove to the kitchen to get a glass of water. Afraid of midnight I was suddenly thirsty, so there was no need to go into the kitchen anymore.

Andri:

I immediately threw my body on the bed, sighing many times to drive away my fatigue that happened today. At the moment I am very busy, a lot of meetings and meeting clients that I have to keep because this affects the company I live in today.

I took my phone, opened the gallery to see my photo with Keisha smiling sweetly in front of the camera. I slide the screen and look at the other photos as Keisha kisses me on the cheek and I laugh. What a sweet memory. Keisha is a very perfect woman in my eyes, has a motherly nature and she is very patient with my attitude.

Honestly, I can't just let her go. Early on I betrayed Keisha I also looked confused, do I have to let go of Keisha and live with Kania or vice versa? I always think over and over again but I don't find the answer.

To me, Keisha is the woman who has always been behind me in times of joy and sorrow. While Kania is a woman has many criteria that I have dreamed of.

I saw Kania enter the room and close the door. I deactivated my phone and saved it on the nightstand. I didn't want Keisha to call me while I was sleeping, so she might be suspicious of me.

Kania immediately slept next to me and hugged my waist, I replied. Yes, Kania is indeed a very spoiled woman when near me but she can be a very firm and serious woman when it comes to her work that makes me interested in her.

Kania stroked my cheek gently "Mas tired huh?" I just smiled and looked at him.

"Lumayan," Kania put her head to the chest of my field.

"Mass?" call Kania.

"Hem?" I was just mumbling too.

"In the meantime, our relationship will be 3 years, right?" asked Kania, yes indeed soon my relationship with Kania has been willing to reach 3 years. I don't feel like my relationship has come this far.

"Then?" ask me back to him while rubbing his hair that is very fragrant orange. It's a scent I love and I miss if I don't see it.

"What's that not planning?"

"What do you want?"

"Holiday?" ask her. Yes indeed, all this time Kania never asked the grandiose to me. Mostly he and I celebrated in his apartment with a cake that I had bought to celebrate our relationship.

This time he asked for a vacation, a request he never asked me for.

"Where are you going?"

"Paris?" his face immediately looked at me fixed, his eyes were rounded big like a cat who wanted to ask for food to his master. Very cute.

"Jude, we'll go to Paris. But wait, we're not busy just going there,"

"Asik, thank you Mas," she cheered the pleasure, I saw her happy too. Kania can always influence around her including my mood.

Canary:

"Hey, love you both." Andri stroked my hair softly. I really liked the caress he gave me. Andri, believe me right now I really love you so much that whenever I won't want to part with you.

"Jude, now sleep. Mas drowsiness this," Andri was seen yawning occasionally while closing his eyes many times. I think he's really tired today. I also fixed Andri's blanket to his chest.

"Good night Mas." I smiled and then gave a warm kiss on his cheek.

"Good night too Kania." Andri smiled and closed her eyes. I corrected my position to sleep beside her while hugging her large body. I really don't want to let go even in my sleep.

Andri, I want us to get married and live together. I want to live with you, so please don't ever leave me. This sounds like a joke because I forced God to unite with you who already have a wife. Am I wrong to ask like this?

I closed my eyes and it didn't take me very long to fall asleep. I wish I could dream a beautiful night with Andri beside me. It's been a really beautiful night.

Andri:

I opened my eyes which felt very heavy, occasionally I yawned. At the moment I'm not satisfied to sleep, I want to change the feeling today into a very long night and then sleep again. But I still remember that I still have a lot of work to do today. I rubbed my face and I saw a hand curled sweetly around my waist.

I remember last night sleeping with Kania. I saw her sweet sleeping face, so beautiful and calm as I looked. His eyes that were closed showed very pliable eyelashes, tiny lips, and a small nose pointed. I really like what Kania has. I gently stroked her face.

Forgive Mas ya Kania, if Mas has not been able to give seriousness to our relationship. I promise you, that I will give certainty to our relationship. Keep waiting for Mas ya, as soon as Mas will take care of everything

Kania's eyes opened slowly, I smiled at her. I saw both of her brown eyes, adding to the beauty on her face.

"Mas," called out with his hoarse voice.

"Yes Kan?" I said as I continued to stroke her hair.

"Just woke up?" ask her. I just smiled and put her in my arms.

"What's up, Mom?" ask her.

"Let it be like this first yes," I asked, somehow it felt like I was afraid of losing Kania or this was just my feeling.

"Work, but a minute. I still want to hug you, "i said, as I continued to stroke her hair gently.

I really miss the woman I'm hugging right now, because I haven't seen her in a few days. Because my busyness is very extraordinary and busy himself as well.

Suddenly I gasped in shock, as my mind suddenly flashed by the name of my wife Keisha. I can't be like this, I can't fall asleep this fast. I quickly broke out my embrace and got up from the bed and walked to the bathroom.

I turned on the shower, the water came down and flushed all over my body. I could only stand by and let the water continue to wet my entire body.

"How come? How's it?" I said I don't believe in myself.

"How am I supposed to have fun here? While I still have Keisha at home?"

"If I want to have a wife of 2, I should be fair. But I actually can't,"

"I can't share my love. When I was with Kania, I thought there was only Kania and there was no Keisha. If I'm with Keisha, my mind is only Kania? Wh why? Why is Kania poisoning my mind all the time?" I pulled my hair out strong.

Sometimes I get confused with myself, I really want to justify Kania but I can't be fair between Kania and Keisha. When I was with him it was as if I had forgotten my other obligations.

It turns out that this is the reason why I can't give Kania clarity of relationship, I can't be fair to my wife Keisha's feelings.

Canary:

 My forehead creased many times over, I saw astonishment when Andri entered the bathroom in a hurry. I was confused to see his unusual attitude. Maybe I think he's kebellet or something. I can only think positively of Andri.

I got up from the bed and walked to the kitchen, I opened the fridge some fresh ingredients inside. I took the ingredients and mixed them according to the recipe. I want to make breakfast for Andri in the morning.

After breakfast has been made, I set it on the table not forgetting with a glass of cold milk on top. I smiled with satisfaction at her. Strawberry jam pancakes look good.

"May Mas Andri like the breakfast," my smile expands and I walk back to the kitchen to clean the dirty cookware and wash it.

Shortly after I heard the sound of the door closing, I immediately rushed out of the kitchen room and saw Andri in her office suit.

"Will you leave?" ask me.

"Yes Kan, because I was in a hurry," he said he was about to leave but I immediately held his hand, he turned and turned his head.

"What's up, huh?" ask her, somehow her attitude so drastically changed like this.

"Mas, have breakfast first. I've made breakfast for Mas."

"But I want—"

I didn't care what he said, I immediately pulled him to sit down and offered him breakfast.

"I don't want to know, I have to eat. I've been working hard making this for Mas. Masa Masa doesn't appreciate my efforts anyway?" I pouted at him.

It looks like he's just silent, I grabbed his tie and tidied it up "Eat first Mas, I'll get ready first. We will go to the office together" I said and left him who was still silent.

Andri was always like this, I know that now he is worried about his feelings because he thinks about his wife at home. But I can what? We both have chosen this path and we have to choose this risk.

Sometimes I worry about what I do now, because I do it to my best friend's husband.

Andri:

 In the car I was unceasingly looking at Kania who was grasping my hand tightly. I felt a little guilty about him this morning for suddenly ignoring him.

"Kan." called me, he turned his head. Looks makeup adorned her beautiful face, yes because today's schedule Kania photo shoot and this is also a chance I can go together with her.

"Yes Mas?"

"I'm sorry about this morning," Kania just smiled, yes indeed how many times have I been like this with her. This always happens when Kania always asks for clarity on our relationship, to make me doubt and worry all night. But it can be dealt with immediately.

Kania looks smiling "No need to apologize, I know what I think. Promise not to repeat, okay?"

See how I was not infatuated with her, she was not even angry with me because of this morning but she gave me understanding instead. To be honest, this is how I'm not letting go and it's poisoning my mind.

I pulled Kania's hand and landed a kiss on the back of her hand, she smiled happily and then she leaned on my shoulder.

"The promise will not be so again, but if Mas is so again please remind Mas huh?" pinta, he looks nodding and I tighten my grip. I hope that he and I are always like this even though we sin every day.

Once at the office, I parked my car. I saw Kania, she was still smiling like that.

"Happy work baby, hope your work is smooth." he said.

I landed a warm kiss on his forehead and then I smiled.

"Thank you, happy work too. Don't be too hard, if you're tired of taking a break." he looks nodding.

Fortunately, my windshield was dark, so no one would be able to see what I was doing inside and I was calm about it. Yes, indeed I deliberately installed a model glass like that so that no one knows the relationship between me and Kania.

Even though he and I used to go together but I could have given an excuse between colleagues and workers.

I got out of the car and was about to open the door for Kania but a familiar voice in my ears made my heart beat so hard, I was shocked half to death, when my wife was in the lobby of my office.

"Mas Andri!" call her, I immediately fell silent and saw in the car whether Kania knew if Keisha was here or not.

I immediately approached Keisha whom she also saw approaching me, I didn't want her to know that I was with Kania now.

"Key?" call me who's starting to get scared.

"Where did you not go home last night?" his face held back in annoyance.

I rubbed the back of my neck which was getting cold hot because my guilt started to ambush me.

"I-I'm sorry Mas Kei, Mas s-every night i-tu a-nu –"

"Sleeping in the hotel again?" ask her. I just fell silent.

"Mas should have known I dong to Kei, if Mas didn't come home, I'd be worried,"

"Heeheh yes Kei, because Mas is tired so Mas did not have time to open the phone." maybe if people who heard would feel strange with my laughter that looks discordant.

"Jude, then let's go inside. Kei made Mas's favorite meal." he grabbed my arm and took me inside the office, sometimes I looked back to see if Kania was okay or not.

Canoe :

"Aw.aw's sick!" I said when someone pulled me into hiding in his car.

His two eyes glared sharply with a red face for sure he will soon scold me.

"Lo yes! Leisurely go to the same office Mr. Andri! If Mr. Andri's wife saw how you? Can do his business! Thankfully I arrived on time! If not? You can die, Kan!" Vania's name, a friend in my office. He was part of the team manager who handled all the clothes I would wear during the photo shoot. Yes, he did know my love scandal with Mas Andri.

But he could scold me like this if I had a late date outside with Mas Andri. He is a friend who can keep my secrets.

He always advised me not to get in touch with Andri because Andri was married but I never cared for his advice because I already loved him.

"Yes sorry," I said with regret so that he did not continue to be angry with me.

Vania is seen sighing violently and then rubbing her face.

"Kan, you should be careful about dealing with Mr. Andri. Do you know that Mr Andri already has a wife? My mouth until frothy ngasi tau to lo! I am this way because of pity on you Kan. Lo is beautiful, young, and accomplished. But you take a husband from your own best friend? Do you think how it would be if your best friend knew everything? Don't you feel sorry?"

Yes Vania does know all her stories besides she is close to me, Vania is also close to Keisha because Vania can be said to trust Andri in the office.

I also sighed and looked out where Andri had entered the office with Keisha. I was scared to death when I saw Keisha calling Andri in the lobby.

But I was saved when Vania pulled me out of Andri's car and forced me here.

"Vania, until any time I will never stop connecting with Mas Andri. I love to die with Mas Andri and I don't want to lose Mas Andri, Van," seen Vania twisting her eyes, if so she must be lazy to hear my words.

"Yes I know that Mas Andri already has a wife, but I can what Van? Let go of Mas Andri? No! Until whenever I won't let go of her, I'll continue to be with her and marry her even if I know that I'm going to be a second wife!" I said with a confident tone.

Vania looked at me with a look of disbelief, she clucked resentfully "As far as you are Kan, I've reminded you of this. I hope you never regret what you have done. But I'll tell you, Kan, any woman will not be willing to see her husband has another wife. He said he would if his husband married again. But his heart?" Vania pointed at her chest while shaking her head.

"Hati is not Kan, she is not willing, very unwilling if her husband is married. Do not be married, close to other women are not willing. I just hope you won't feel what Keisha feels when she finds out that her own best friend stabbed her in the back." Vania spoke in a earnest tone then she got out of the car.

I was just silent as I was ringing with the words of Vania that she had just said. His words today are different from his usual words.

I also thought, am I wrong? Am I wrong here? I used to try so hard not to have this forbidden relationship. But I enjoyed it instead, I fell into it and felt my status as a mistress of my married boss.