Deposits
- Canary Crying

“Sometimes I don't understand how love works. Sometimes love makes a person happy in him and sometimes love can make someone hurt if run it. The definition of happy because of love is, to have had someone we have long desired, while the definition of hurt because of love is, namely, when we see him with others who can take his heart from us. We do not realize it, but we can feel it through his behavior and his daily life with us.”

- Keisha

Canary:

Ting.mong..

Ting.mong..

Ting.mong..

The sound of the bell in my apartment rang continuously from earlier, I who was hugging my legs with laziness was finally I chose to get up and walk to the apartment door. I opened the door slowly, the face I saw was the face of the person I loved. That face looks worried when I see it.

“Kan.” call her.

I just lowered my head, my heartache instantly lingering all over my body. I can't see it, I can't see it my loved ones belong to someone else.

“Hey, why you?” Andri held both of my cheeks.

I didn't answer, I just kept quiet and looked at the marble floor I was on.

“Yaudah, we go in first yuk. We talked inside,” Andri pulled my hand, before that he closed his door first and led me to walk towards the room.

He and I sat facing each other, and Andri's eyes never looked at me. My tears had welled up on my petals, I felt like I wanted to cry right now but I was afraid to make Andri worry.

Andri held both of my cheeks and said in a very subtle tone that made my chest tight“Kan, if you want to cry, cry. Don't hold it, I'm here with you, there I'll hug you when you cry.”

I who heard that couldn't hold it anymore, so I just let it go. My tears flowed slowly to slowly wet my cheeks.

“Just take everything out Kan, so it can make you relieved.” I also let out the pain that has been buried in my heart. I sobbed, the sound of my crying echoed throughout my room.

I kept crying, until Andri pulled my body into his arms. Very comfortable, her masculine scent gushed into my nose. I miss this scent so much, the scent that always makes me miss it. And the smell calms me.

Andri stroked my back trying to calm my tears and once kissed the tip of my head.

“Mas,” call me on the sidelines of my cry with my hoarse voice.

“Iya Kan, why?”

I let go of his embrace “I thought Vania said, honestly what she said made my heart hurt Mas. I don't want to lose you, I love you so much Mas,” I said in tears.

Andri grabbed my body again and hugged tightly “Don't think of those words Kania, let people say what's important we're always together. We always loved each other. Don't think about it again okay.” Andri's orders gently.

I replied to Andri's hug “I'm afraid of losing you Mas.” I said while I was still pleased.

The shirt that Andri wore was wet by my tears, it turned out like this feeling of crying. I haven't cried like this for a long time, now I'm crying in the company of my loved ones. If and if he were always on the sidelines of my time.

“Mas, promise me, never leave me,” said I tried to make sure that he would not leave me when my feelings were very great towards him. Andri did not answer, he just sighed. I let go of his embrace again then put on a pouting face, tears kept flowing even now that there was a lot that was welling up in my eyes as if exploding at any moment.

“Mas won't promise me? Means all this time Mas didn't fully love me, Mas just pretend? I shouldn't have let Mas into my life if I knew it was like this. This all makes me sick myself withstanding my unrequited feelings. I know Mas, that your heart is not just me but Keisha, right? There's Keisha in your heart too, I know that. I know you're hard to promise me. If you can't promise me, we'd better deal with all of this. I can't hold it.” I cried again, but this time my cry was louder.

Andri grabbed my body again and hugged me “Kania, what are you talking hem? There is no intention to leave you. Mas dear and love the same you Kan, how can Mas leave you like this when the love of Mas to you is getting bigger, Mas can not be like that. Calm down, baby, don't think negatively like this. I promise I won't leave you. I promise.”

“M-False Mas, thanks.”

I don't know what I'm feeling right now, whether happy or sad I don't know. It all feels mixed into one. On the other hand I am sad because of the words of Vania on the other side also I feel happy because I get the certainty that Andri will not leave me as whole. Yeah, even though I don't know how to go ahead. Only God knows all of this. Believe me not believe I am very sure that Andri will keep his promise until we can be together on the wedding promise.

Maybe for now I look selfish, but if others know that I want to be like everyone else, loved and loved by the person we dream of. Like this time, Vania said words that made me feel inferior to my love as if I did not deserve to love Andri when I was the same as him. I am like everyone else, loving the man who has entered my heart and giving love and affection every day. The question is, am I wrong now? Wrong in loving Andri? Why does everyone like her forbid my romance with Andri while the universe approves of her.

Love can make a person blind when involved in it, that's when I am, blinded by love!