Deposits
- Scoresan Heart

“Every relationship is very necessary with its name, loyalty and honesty. When there is no relationship between these two. Then get ready for a relationship based on beauty will be destroyed so easily.”

-keisha

Canary:

“Wait!” my scream in the hospital hall flicked the steps of Andika who was walking while holding the paper in her hand. I know he's done taking care of his mother's administration.

Andika who heard the screams stopped her steps and turned around. When he found out if I called him, he walked back to make me quickly run and then block his steps so that he did not walk again.

“Andika, stop. Please, stop first.” Andika stopped her steps and looked at me with a dislike look. I guess, I should get used to being stared at like that by him.

I looked at Andika with gasping breath. I took a breath and stood firmly staring at Andika who was looking the other way.

“Andika, I want to talk to you,”

Andika did not answer. “About this issue,”.

Andika looks at me with a sharp gaze, “Lo want to say what else is the same me?” This time it was my turn to be quiet. Andika was completely different from the one I knew before. He even said with the words ‘lo-gue’ which previously looked polite ‘aku-you’.

I think he hates me so much for this. None of the Bagaskara family would welcome me. Somehow if Keisha knew, if she would hate me like her mother and Andika do now.

“I want to talk to you, we go to the hospital canteen. Let me buy it, how? Come,” I pulled Andika's hand but Andika immediately brushed it off so strongly that I staggered to the side.

I saw Andika who was still looking at me with that hateful look. “Listen to your ears fine. Because you did the same to my brother, okay, I err. Because of your actions with Andri, my nyokap disease that should not have come back even again.” A disease? Andri's mother has a disease? What disease?

“What disease?”

“Heart,” I shut my mouth with both hands. I didn't expect him to have a deadly disease like this.

“Do not be shocked! I lost my life because of both of you. Look, you're not going to live quietly. Especially regarding the life of my nyokap and brother-in-law,”

I could only shut up and listen to Andika's words coming out of her mouth. I deserve to be loved by him. Because I chose this path. Things like this will happen in my life.

“Kania,” call Andika. I also looked up to see him who was sharing his slanted smile. “Gue kira lo good, friendly and generous same person. It turns out lo cover is doang yes,”

Jamb...

Andika's words just hit my heart, she just told me? Oh my God, only this time did someone say such a word to me. “Lo's bad nature is covered with a lo cover that you print very neatly. I feel sorry for my sister-in-law. Have a friend of your cake, whose dignity is pretentious, good-ass, and considerate. In fact, he stabbed his best friend in the back. With so neat and smooth,” both my eyes began to heat up, it seemed like tears would seep out so swiftly.

No, Kania! You have to hold him back so as not to look hurt in front of Andika who is giving spicy words to you. You can take it. Youcan.

“Listen ya Kania, until whenever I only have a sister-in-law that is Keisha. I don't have a sister-in-law besides her, remember that! I don't want brother-in-law kek lo who results in having people. For now you are happy because you have snatched my sister-in-law's husband. But for later, your happiness will be ruined little by little torturing your life!”

I turned my eyes in another direction. It felt like every word that Andika uttered made my heart feel very sick. All my life, I've never had a word like this. And in the end these spicy words entered my ears and pierced my heart so deeply.

Andika also approached me. I only saw him with two teary eyes. My body can only stand still not moving at all. I don't know why all of a sudden I can't move my body like this. Andika's face approached my face which left only a few inches. I guess I really can't breathe because of that hateful look.

“Congratulation, Canada. Now, you have been branded as a actor in the Bagaskara family and in the community. Hope you enjoy it,” so Andika said like that. It passed from before me leaving me alone in the hospital.

When Andika was not in front of me. My feet could not stand up anymore. I sat down on the floor with tears that had seeped so hard. I cried sobbing with the face I had covered with both hands. It felt like the last words from Andika made my heart feel like it was being hit by such a huge rock.

I didn't expect that I would be called an actor by Andika. And for the first time there are people who say I'm like this. It feels like this marriage that is happening is not giving happiness to me but instead torturing my feelings.

I don't have any self-esteem anymore. So that the word actor has been mentioned in front of me by my husband's sister. It was as if I had already snatched the husband from my own friend. But I also think, here is it only me who is wrong for having the courage to have a partner who turns out that the couple is also owned by my friend.

Is it only the woman who is guilty? Is Andri innocent here too? Because he wants to have me too. My pride as a woman is gone because of the actor said.

Me? Not as Kania who is admired by people anymore.

But, me?

I'm pelakor.

Man grabber.

That guy was my friend.

Keish:

Time shows at 12 p.m. Not without reason I woke up in the middle of the night like this. I don't know why I feel such incredible anxiety. Unsettled anxiety that never happened in my life. And this is the first time I have felt this anxiety.

However, it didn't last long because my phone was ringing. I picked it up without seeing who called me in the middle of the night.

“Halo?”

“Not sleeping Kei?” I raised my brow confused. Then I saw the name on the screen.

Haikal. Why did that guy call me in the middle of the night? Can't he call me tomorrow? Doesn't that look disrespectful. He is my little friend. But in retrospect this is disrespectful.

“Building Kal. Why are you calling me these nights?” I asked him a little bit of a fuss. Ever since he became my consulting doctor, we have become more and more familiar like this. Not that I don't like the closeness of the two of us. It's just that the past that's on both of us isn't fun. Moreover, Haikal status is still alone. If he already has a partner maybe I'll calm down a little.

It's not that I don't like him. It's just that I keep watch on keeping close to my male friends, let alone my status who has become a wife. It is possible for Satan to plunge me down the wrong path. And I don't want that to happen.

So, before that happens I better keep my distance. “Look, I'm sorry I called you these nights. Maybe it's kind of sassy 'cause I called you like this. Like we talked about this afternoon at the cafe. I'll recognize you as a yoga instructor. After this I will send his contact to you. I told him there would be new students for him. So, you just called him. He's waiting for your call,” obviously pretty long.

“Why don't you call me tomorrow Kal? Why do we have to go out at night like this?” I asked what sounded so dislike. It is intentional that I show my dislike this way so that he does not repeat it again in the future.

To be honest, it bothers me a little, even if it's just my friend.

“Actually I want it so Kei. It's just that tomorrow I'll be busy all day. My schedule for the next 2 days is very tight, and you have to take that yoga class from tomorrow,”

My forehead shriveled not understanding with the word 2 days, “Not tomorrow I have a consultation schedule with you huh Kal?”

“Yes, so that was this afternoon I asked you to meet. That's in exchange for tomorrow's schedule we meet. I have some business to do with some doctors. Probably 2 days is my schedule is very tight. If I don't call you right now, you'll be waiting for me to hear about that yoga instructor. That's why I'm calling you right now, even if it looks like it's rude. Hehehe,” obviously again makes me immediately wipe my face while istigfar.

Oh my God, what have I done? What have I thought of Haikal? I can think negatively of him. About the meeting last afternoon until he called me in the middle of the night like this, he did it all because he was professional with the doctor. Not acting as a man to a woman. What I had thought about was making Haikal uncomfortable with me.

I'm sorry to you Kal. I feel so ashamed to apologize to you. It's been a non-non-conceived thought. Ahh, what happened. Why did I become like this?

“Keisha? You're still there, right?”

I also snapped out of my daydream for a moment. “Hah? Yes?”

“So, later I will send the same yoga instructor contact you yes. Starting tomorrow, you can start taking yoga classes. Classes usually start around 7 a.m. You'd better contact the instructor soon, yes,”

“Hem, i—iya Kal. Thank you yes,”

“Iya, equally. Once again I'm sorry I've been calling you these nights,”

“Ah, it's okay Kal.”

“Alright, I close the phone first. Good night Kei,”

“Goodnight also Kal,”

Our conversation is over. Haikal cut his call across there. I lowered my phone slowly and placed it on the nightstand. There is guilt in my heart towards Haikal. It's all because of the negative assumptions that started in my brain first.

I sighed softly and then went from the bed to the kitchen to get some water. Come on, Keisha, no need to think about it. Tomorrow, your husband will be home. Why do your feelings get mixed up like this. What's the matter with you?

Andea:

Still in the hospital. I went into my mother's room after taking care of my administration. Before I entered the room, I first set my emotions first. My meeting with Kania made my emotions so high. The words I spoke to him might feel very heart-piercing.

I admit if my words feel so spicy like that. Not because I dare to be a woman. It's just that if there are things related to hurting my mother, I don't hesitate to make her die of lice.

When she is a woman, I use only words. But if he was a man I would use my life for my mother's sake.

To be honest, I feel so ashamed. I don't know why, I feel ashamed even if I don't do anything. I am ashamed of my father who was in heaven. I can't take good care of my brother. Today, for the first time in my life, my brother has hurt a mother.

Deeds that have never been done by Andri make the mother's disease that should be declared cured should instead recur. It was he who fought desperately to cure the mother's illness. But in just a moment he made the mother's illness come back.

As a sister, I am very ashamed to consider him as my own brother. Even to see it, I was lazy. The person I considered a role model, now that person I've considered an outcast.

When I entered my mother's room, I heard the sound of her little sobs. Today is the day we are happy. My graduation day was supposed to be full of happy cries. Even today, that graduation day became a cry full of wounds.

Why should it be today? Why should it be my happy day? Why should it be my special day? It makes me reluctant to remember. This made my graduation day tarnished by my own brother's deeds. A deed I never suspected he would do.

I slowly walked to my mother's bed. That's when she stopped her crying. Maybe he listened to my footsteps and didn't want to know that he was crying right now. Crying for the disgusting deeds of his eldest son.

“De,” call mom with her hoarse voice not to forget her two very puffy eyes. He still gave me a small smile.

Now, I see for myself that the woman can still smile very beautifully even though her heart is currently storing thousands of wounds. And now I believe that women are weak, but their hearts can be as strong as steel for problems.

“Bu,” I grabbed his hand and held it.

I felt sorry for my mother, her face and this incident made me even less heartless to my mother. “How can this happen to our family, De? Why would Andri do something like that to your mother and sister-in-law? Why would he dare to do that? Actually who educated him so he could do that?” questions came out of my lips. Tears flowed on his cheeks. I rubbed it gently.

“Bu, Ade believes that mother and alm father educated Andri well. But what else would you do if he did? He himself did it. He himself wants it. So, mom don't abuse yourself mom yeah.”

“How can you not harm yourself mother, De? What is the fate of the mother's daughter, Keisha. She is a strong woman, always accompany Andri from hard to as successful as now. But what Andri has done to him. He could have married another woman behind his back. Especially the woman is a friend of his own wife. I don't know how she would feel if she knew that her husband did this to her. I am very sure that she is very broken. The mother-in-law and the mother of her husband were very embarrassed to see Keisha's face, De. She must have assumed that this mother approved of Andri's marriage because she could not have children. I don't want him to think that way to my mom. Because all this time only Keisha is the mother's favorite daughter-in-law,” mother's cries become more and more when she says that.

I know how much he loves his brother-in-law like his own son. Because I feel very guilty to my sister-in-law with this incident. I also looked confused by the situation, I really could not do anything. My life abroad left me with no idea of the initial problems.

“So, what should we do ma'am? Do we know brother-in-law that Andri is married again and has a wife other than him?”

“Do not, De!” say mom fast.

“Why, mom?”

“Don't tell him, mother please.”

“If we don't know brother-in-law. How long do we hide this matter, ma'am? This will make us feel even more guilty towards sister-in-law,”

“Not mom want to hide this, De. It's just that I don't have the heart to face Keisha. Even now mother felt she had no face to face with him. I feel ashamed because of what Andri has done to him.”

I also only fell silent occasionally to wipe away the tears of my mother who was still flowing. “Mother has told Andri to say it herself, because she herself has chosen this deed. So, we'll just wait for him to say it. What would he say to Keisha. Does he still have a face when he stares at Keisha directly?” my mind floated far away listening to my mother's words.

Imagine where Andri told him that he already had another lover in his heart. True said the mother, did he still have the courage to look at his wife's face to say this. I think Andri no longer has a heart. He must have casually said that without having the slightest guilt in his heart.

After all, love based on sheer lust makes his heart die. He does not think about the feelings of others, he only thinks about the satisfaction of his passions.

People like this will be hard-pressed to be fair for the next day. At first, he was fair to two wives. But for the next he will not be able to do it, because I am very sure one of his wives will ask for more rights to her husband. In fact, one can also have the envious nature of the other wife because her husband is more attentive to another wife than her.

Only a patient wife can continue to live that way. Even God alone will give any heaven to a wife who can be polygamous even though the wife herself is willing to be hurt by her own husband.

Canary:

Andri and I are now home from the hospital. Now we were both at the hotel and in one room. On the way back to the hotel, there was no sound between us. Neither from my side nor from Andri's side. We didn't ask each other about this. Our minds have drifted somewhere.

Even in the room I sat in front of the dresser, seeing my face reflected in glass. How beautiful my face was after crying in the hospital hallway. There was no more burning spirit in my heart. Everything just vanished.I don't know, then this relationship will be taken anywhere by the two of us. I'm totally resigned to all this. I'm really tired of thinking about it. Is it just here my journey of love? Or there's something that I don't know about.

Breath came out of my mouth, that's when another shadow in the mirror was hugging me from behind. He hugged my neck and propped his chin over my head. I saw his face as frustrated as mine.

He could still give me a hug while we both almost got dizzy thinking about this matter. Indeed, we have agreed to be together when this happens.

Andri sighed softly, it was very clear from my ears.

“I'm sorry, Kan.” Said slowly. I frowned, why did he even apologize to me?

He let go of his embrace and I immediately turned to look at his face very clearly. Then he crouched down in front of me with a hand that had grasped very tightly my hand.

“I'm sorry,” he said again.

“Why are you sorry Mas?” my question does not understand.

“Because of me, you are experiencing all of this. I should be the one to blame, not you. I heard all your conversations with Andika. His words were heart-piercing,” so he was there? Why didn't he come to me? Why doesn't he calm me down when I cry?

Why didn't she defend me when Andika said it all? Why is Andri just silent? And why am I so disappointed in Andri's attitude.

“Once again forgive Mas Kei. That man couldn't do anything. I'm not approaching you, I can't bear to see you cry. I am also confused as to how. Mas was also dizzy thinking, because my mother—“ I immediately looked at him when he called his mother.

“My mom no longer thinks of me as her son.”

Degh's....

“My mother has considered me dead Kan, I have been considered dead in the Bagaskara family. So loathe's mom for me?” Andri looked at me with both eyes that were already very red. Both of his hands clenched very firmly making his hands look very red.

I immediately squatted down and hugged Andri. My tears just flowed, I knew he was more fragile and hurt than I was. “Mas, if Mas wants to cry. Just cry. There I am here who accompanies Mas. There is me who always cool Mas, do not bear the sadness Mas. Take it out,”

That was when, for the first time I heard the sound of stuffed stuffing coming out of Andri's lips. And for the first time I saw Andri shed his sorrow on my own shoulder. I thought he looked really strong. But he is just like any other human being. Who can cry too, just that he can't express it because he's a man.

I also could not believe that he could bear the burden of so much work but he could not bear the burden of this kind of problem let alone this concern his own mother. Even his own mother thought he was dead in his life. That's a very painful thing.

I who do not feel it feel the pain.

“Kania, how much does my mother hate me? Until he doesn't see me as his son anymore? Is it because of this problem that he said things that I shouldn't have heard? Is it because of all this, he's willing to tell me I'm dead? Tell Kania, how disgusted was she to see me through a mistake for the first time I did?”

his tananya lined up on the sidelines of his cries.

I can only be quiet while stroking his back trying to keep him calm. I know he was hurt by his mother's words. I don't know if her mother's words were as hurtful as Andika's in the hospital.

I could only cry as I looked up at the sky roof of our hotel room. Asking, should this be the course of our love story? There should be many challenges and obstacles that we have to face every day. Can't we run it so smoothly and easily? Why would anyone not like this relationship.

Is not this relationship the same as the relationship that is run like other people? Why are we the only two experiencing this? Can't we live a love so beautiful and so colorful. Why does it all have to start with this kind of gloom and bitterness. I really don't understand or it's our fault that we're running a love that the crowd doesn't like.

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I saw Andri who had slept very soundly on the bed. I stroked her hair slowly so she wouldn't wake up from her sleep. For a moment I felt pain in my head. I'm just looking for a cure in my trunk. After I found out how many pills I took out and I immediately took a sip.

The pain in my head subsided on its own. I do have a history of disease, if too thoughtful with a very severe problem makes my belly relapse again and one of them that can eliminate my navel feeling is a drug. My childhood made me have a great trauma. Until I decided to take the drug.

Indeed, fully the pain will not disappear by itself, just can relieve even if only for a moment.

I breathe oxygen slowly and then I exhale so roughly. The moaning of heart as if screaming why should this be my love story with Andri? Can't my love story end happily like everyone else?

And am I wrong if I wish to ask for a journey of love that is very beautiful even though it belongs to others? Because somehow I want it even though many are against it.

Andea:

Ccleks...

The hotel room door was open. I let my mother into the room slowly and carefully and led her to the bed and laid her down. I looked at Mom while sighing many times. I shook my head not understanding what you're doing now. The mother who heard my breath turned her head. He took my hand and held my hand so gently.

“De, do not put such a face to mother,” he said limp. Because he has not fully recovered and instead asked to go home directly from the hospital. Of course I disagree and reject it outright but because of the coercion of mother would not want me to agree.

And this is now, it feels my frustration is increasing with the coercion of the mother who continues to want to go home even though she still holds pain in her heart. I'm just afraid my mom's illness is coming back all of a sudden. And I don't want that to happen. Just now I was scared to death let alone repeated again.

I closed my eyes trying to hold back my anger so as not to explode at mother. I sat down on the bed and returned my hand. “Bu, Ade already said. Please, stay for a few more days. But I asked to go home. If the mother's disease relapses again how?”

“Do not say like that De, just pray that the mother's disease does not recur again so that we can return tomorrow to Indonesia,”

“Mother, please. Don't think about going back to Indonesia. Think first about the health of the new mother we think about going home. If mom's not well how do we get her home?”

“De, I will not be healthy if I do not immediately go back to Indonesia and immediately meet Keisha. Because Keisha is the only mother drug, De. He's the only one on my mind. If you don't see her soon, you can always think of Keisha and make you sicker. I just wanted to see him so that I wouldn't be minded about this problem. Because after all I feel guilty to Keisha for the actions of Andri himself.”

I could only quietly listen to my mother's words, then nodded slowly a few times to understand what she meant to me.

“Alright, if according to mother meeting with sister-in-law makes mother to be healed. We will continue our return tomorrow to Indonesia,”

She pulled the corner of her lips into a smile. Yes, although the smile was not as wide as usual but it made me a little calm to see it.

“Yaudah, mom rest first yes. Let Ade pack our clothes. I have to rest a lot,” mom nodded slowly.

I pulled out the blanket and covered part of her body. Then I kissed mom's forehead as a good night's sleep for her.

I turned off the main light and turned on the night light so that mom would sleep well and the next day she was as fit as ever.

After my mother closed her eyes I went from the bed to the closet. I took my suitcase and my mother's suitcase and started putting clothes into it. Tomorrow at 3 pm I and my mother will leave for Indonesia. It is likely to take 16 hours to get there.

I just hope that once I get there, I don't get my mind on this. Mother is not getting burdened because of the other wife Andri. And hopefully, I will not be more guilty when I meet with my sister-in-law later. Anyway, I know what kind of mother she is. Although he threw this problem to Andri but still mother also bear it.

Because after all this concerns the Bagaskara family. This concerns Bagaskara's self-esteem. And the edges are not Andri who will be blamed. But mother.

I will definitely be blamed for making Bagaskara's son-in-law useless. Already loyal, always together from the bottom to success like this. But Bagaskara's son betrayed him and remarried without his wife's knowledge.

And I, wouldn't know what it would be like if my sister-in-law found out about all this. Whether he chose to stay together or decided to separate. No one will know what answer the sister-in-law chose. I just have to wait for time to answer all this.

Andri:

I squirm to the right. I felt the hand that was hugging my waist. I saw Kania sleeping beside me. Very slumbering. I reviewed a thin smile and stroked her cheeks slowly.

“I'm sorry Kan, I've got you in trouble like this. You are not guilty, but our love is wrong. We must live it however, because this is the destiny that God gave us. Weight or not let's live together hem,” I said slowly.

Then I lowered his hand on my side. I slowly walked out of the bed and headed out of the room. I saw the clock on the wall still showing at 2 am. Maybe going out for a while to get some fresh air makes me a little calm.

Moreover, the shadow of the words of the mother from earlier continued to fill my mind. Who knows, coming out makes me a little forget.

Ting...

The elevator is open.

But I didn't get into that elevator. The look we meet at this moment. This was not a warm gaze but rather a murderous gaze. Kill thoughts and feelings.

Right now in the elevator I met Andika who was standing putting both hands in her pants pocket exactly what I am doing now. It is like my other shadow. I stood there not flinching. Neither forward nor backward. The two of us just stared at each other without taking a single word out.

The elevator was closed again, that's when Andika's hand blocked it and the elevator was opened wide again. His eyes never looked at me. He got out of the elevator very casually and stood in front of me which left a distance of only a few inches.

Now, in the hallway of this hotel there are only two of us. I stared at him silently and he looked at me fiercely. Today also I was really no longer considered a sister by him until he looked at me so hatefully.

“Interested?” Andika made a sound after a few minutes of silence and just looked at me.

“What?”

“It turns out here, where you live with your other wife?” i'm speechless. “Same place, my mother and I live in the same place as my brother with his new wife? Wedding held here?”

I immediately turned my other eyes. I don't know why I can't look at him like this. Is it because I'm scared? Hate it? Getting angry? Or because I'm ashamed to have done something I shouldn't have done all this time.

Andika laughs. Laughing so hard that it made me look back. I don't know why he laughed like that. Is there anything funny or is he laughing at me? I deserve to be laughed at by him.

“Wuah, crazy! I swear by what? I didn't expect to find a place with people who hurt my mother. She could have done this wedding in a place where my mom and I slept well. Why did God not find me with you? Why should I go with Kania? If God finds you, maybe this marriage won't happen?”

“This is all fate, De. This marriage that happened is fate,”

“Destiny? Is marriage destiny? I don't think so. Yes, maybe it's destiny. But actually this is a trial,”

I was silent, not understanding what it meant. “The marriage you have with another woman is not destiny. Except trials. Whose attempt? Trial for sister-in-law,”

Keisha's? what did he mean Keisha?

“Trials for sister-in-law in living life. And this is not destiny, but God wants to show it to brother-in-law. That her husband she was proud of, her husband whom she loved and loved wholeheartedly. In fact, he betrayed behind him. In fact love and unfortunately fake to his own brother-in-law. God will show himself how depraved Andri is in his eyes.”

“Jaga your mouth Andika!!” bentakku emotions.

“Why? Isn't that right?” ask her defiantly.

Both of my hands were clenching very firmly, holding back the intense emotions in the heart. “I'm very sure that his heart is full of you Andri. With this, this marriage happened. God wants to show that all this time her own husband has not been Keisha alone, but there are other women who fill her own heart. And all this will be when she knows that she can't get pregnant. Didn't you break her heart many times over but casually you call this marriage fate? Wuaah, I don't know what your mind is like right now. Means the sin you've committed against this mother, that means destiny too?”

My emotions were getting high, I just grabbed the collar of Andika's shirt. I looked fiercely at him too. But he could only laugh at me.

“Emotions? Are you emotional for me? Emotions with such disgusting deeds? Ckckck, I think you've been on the wrong path. Your greed for women drives you crazy like this!!”

“Close your mouth Andika, or I'll—“

“What will? What do you want? Do it! I'm not afraid of you that's.” Andika took off the grip of my hand on her shirt. Then he tidied it up and looked back at me sharper. Our distance is only with eyes so close.

“I just have to wait for Andri. I just have to wait whether brother-in-law chooses to be together or choose to part with you. Because I know you love her so much that you can't divorce her, can you?”

Right, I love Keisha so much that I can't divorce her. That's right Andika said. My greed for women makes me like this. I didn't realize myself, I was stupid.

“You want to know what I hope Ndri? I just wish that brother-in-law would choose to divorce you. So he can get a better man than you!” andika said very spicy to make my heart pound for the umpteenth time.

It was then that the elevator opened and Andika entered it. I went to the nearly closed elevator and hit the door.

“Keisha won't divorce me! You should know it's Andika. Keisha loves me so much, she can't possibly divorce me!! You hear that? ANDIKAA!!!” my yelling.

I don't know why hearing Keisha choose a divorce frustrates me like this. I messed up my hair in frustration.

“Agggghhhhh!!! Fck!”

“Yes, I'm sure. Sure enough, Keisha won't divorce me. I'm pretty sure of that. Because I'm the only man Keisha loves. Just me,” I nodded a few times and immediately turned around. From the opposite direction, I saw Kania who was standing looking at me with a gaze that I did not understand. So, he was there since? Listening to my conversation with Andika? No way!

“Kania,” call me.

Kania just looked and went into the room. I could only ruffle my hair again, she heard everything.

Agh! Why is it like this?

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Charles De Gaulle Airport. We were both at the airport waiting for our departure. Every now and then I glanced at Kania who looked silent without a sound. Ever since we were at the hotel he didn't say anything to me. I told him to talk but he just smiled at me.

I feel like there's something different about him. Is it because of the conversation I had with Andika and she heard it all and made it like this? I think it is.

I took his hand and held it very tightly. He just looked at me without returning this hand as well. Yeah, I'm pretty sure it's that he's in a bad mood because of the conversation I had with Andika. Especially now that Kania has branded as my legal wife. Of course he will be hurt by what he has heard.

Kania stood up and let go of her hand. “Come, soon the plane has landed.” Kania pulled her suitcase and left me who was still sitting. I could only sigh slowly at seeing him like this.

As she left and I walked after her, my phone suddenly shook and I saw Keisha calling me.

“Halo, Kei.” I while looking at Kania who stopped walking without turning around in the slightest.

“Halo, Mas, where are you?”

“This is me again in the airport.”

“Ohh, about when did you nyampe it?”

“Near midnight Kei,”

“Ohh, okay. Be careful on the road, hopefully until the destination. I love you Mas,”

“Iya,” I also quickly turn off my phone and see Kania who is still standing in his place.

Canary:

Wh why?

Why do I feel this way?

Is it wrong for Andri to contact his other wife?

Wouldn't it be if she called my own husband?

Wh why?

Why do I feel the heat wandering in my heart?

Is this what you call jealousy?

I jealous?

A Kania, a model in Bagaskara Group?

Jealous of my husband because his legal wife called my own husband.

What's the matter?

Why did I suddenly become so selfish?

Why am I being so selfish that my husband is only mine even though I know that he has another wife. I am just his young wife.

Wh why?

I flinched from my mind flying somewhere. I saw my hand that had been grasped quite tightly by Andri.

I saw his face and he smiled at me. Want to not want me to return his smile even though it is only thin. My heart is still burning with the heat of the flames of jealousy.

Yesterday morning I said nothing to him. Honestly, I don't actually want to admit this to him afraid I'm presumptuous. That I was his young wife who had been married only a few days by him was jealous of his old wife who was longer with him than me.

I should be prepared for this risk. I agreed to be his second wife because I was ready when my husband was alone with the other wife and shared his affection with the old one. Although my age with the age of Keisha is not far adrift but if based on genealogy in the relationship of course Keisha is the older.

“Come on the road, why stay here?” ask Andri.

“Heuh?” I nodded and walked in the direction of the pull.

Our trip to Paris is over. But not just finished, we will come back again by carving a story that is no less beautiful than today. Now our story ends in injury. But I'm pretty sure if we come back here our story will end with a happy laugh.

It is not just the two of me but there is a baby coming with us.

Liver fruit?

I want a baby?

From an Andri?

I want a child from marriage with Andri?

Is it possible that it can?

Can I be the mother of Andri's child?

Isn't that a very high expectation?

His family did not accept me one bit. I don't get the blessing of a mother. Even this marriage even makes a mother's heart hurt. Is this not a very bad thing in the eyes of God?

I stopped my steps as well. Andri turned around and saw me. He wondered why I suddenly stopped like this.

“Mas,” call me who finally made a sound after a long time just silence.

“What's up?” tanyanya gently.

“To Indonesia, hide this from Keisha until you are ready to tell Keisha.” everything yourself

Andri sighed softly then clasped my hands tightly together.

“Why are you talking about this anyway baby? I told you, we think about this later and we'll just tell him. I'll figure out how to tell Keisha,” I nodded slowly I understood her words.

“Sorry Mas, I was just thinking about what happened. I'm confused how else.”

Andri grabbed my body and hugged me very tightly, “It's okay baby, don't think you can get sick later. I'm sorry, too, because of me, you're bearing all this. Because after all this is my fault that has made you like this,” does not feel my tears just drip.

The makeup that I had used even faded immediately on Andri's shirt. These tears come out easily. Even the pain just comes along. Maybe because this pain makes my tears come out by themselves.

Maybe a hug makes me a little quiet compared to a pointless saying. Hugs can make a person's heartache can come out even if not completely.

Andri:

I let go of my embrace and looked at Kania who was already soaked by tears. Even I felt my clothes wet with tears. I hugged her back even tighter, “Kania, Please don't cry. We can get through it all, baby. You are strong yes, please don't cry,” Kania let go of her embrace.

“Mas, why did our relationship become like this? Why can't I get the slightest happiness with you? Why Mas? Why?”

“Kania, our relationship is like this because we tested dear. To where we survive, to where we can get through it together. It is because God wants to see the limits of our patience, the limits of our faithfulness. You don't cry yeah, spirit dong. Because if you cry, you are not excited. I don't know how anymore,”

Slowly Kania stopped her sobs. “Well, that's dong. Udah ya do not cry,” Kania looked at me with a gaze that makes me not have the heart to see it.

“Mas,”

“Why baby?”

“Promise don't leave me?”

“Promise Kan,”

“Yang really?”

“Iya darling, really. I promise I won't leave you. We will be together until the end of life.”

A little but surely he showed me his smile. I saw him a little calmed down.

“Well, so. Smile, yaudah let's get there.”

“Iya Mas.”

I took her hand again and held it. This time it was tighter than before. Then we walked. We finished our trip in Paris. We will continue this journey in India. And I'm ready to face the problems that will happen later. This relationship was broken in front of my mother. Next thing I'll tell Keisha.

Before that happens, I have to do something first so that she can accept Kania as my second wife. I have to think about it from now on.

Andea:

“Everything has cleared De?” ask mom next to me.

“It's already ma'am, everything is in order. Nothing left,”

“Good,” he said with a smile.

“Mom won't stop by ketoko first? What are you buying for sister-in-law?”

“Hem, can.”

“Oke, we'll stop by first ma'am. But I wait in the car only yes, let Ade aja who buy.”

“Iya, I leave it to you yes son yes,”

I smile, “Iya bu.” I grabbed my mother's hand while grasping it tightly.

“Yang strong yes ma'am, soon we will meet with brother-in-law kok. Don't think about what Andri did but think about how later when he met with sister-in-law.” Mother nodded in understanding.

“Iya De's. I thought about that too. I don't know how to behave in front of Keisha. While mom alone is embarrassed to meet face to face with him,”

“Be as usual ma'am, don't make sister-in-law also think that something happened while in Paris. Make us happy with Ade's graduation. Poor sister-in-law later can be stressed especially now that she is running a program to recover from her infertile right?” mother nodded.

“Well, don't stress him out because of this. Poor him, the program was in vain because of the thought of this problem. At least we also hide it first until there is development if she can get pregnant. After all, Ade was sure that later Andri would not tell his sister-in-law directly if he already had a new wife. So, we try to be okay even though we ourselves are very burdened to hide all this. Ade sure mom can certainly,” continued me again at length.

Mom nodded and smiled. His face was still pale but he could still give me a smile. “Thank you yes De. You can still be with mom, you are always there beside mom even though mom is like this. I am so grateful that I have a child who is still thinking about her mother's feelings. Thanks yes De, mom is very grateful to you.” Both my eyes were very hot to hear. Both my eyes wanted to shed tears. Immediately I turned my eyes so that mother would not notice this change in my expression.

“Ahhh, mom. Why do you even thank Ade. Ade did nothing. In fact, Ade should be grateful to mother because mother has educated Ade to be a better person.” I felt a light in my head. Mom stroked my head even though I didn't see it. Because my cheek has shed tears so quickly that no one will see it.

Although I am a male soul but I have a heart that is easily fragile when it comes to mother matters. Because my mother is everything to me. And because of my mother's prayer I was able to succeed as I am today. Mother was the wingless angel that God sent me.

Keish:

“Fiuhh,” I rubbed my forehead full of sweat sweat. After yoga, I immediately decided to go to the supermarket to buy some groceries that I will make later and prepare for Andri.

I saw my groceries full on the table. I smiled happy to see it. I finally did not cook for him for a few days. And when he comes back, I'll make his favorite meal. Maybe he'll be happy.

Then I decided to sit on the couch against my crumpled back because for the first time in my life I was following yoga. Of course my body felt stiff as I followed him.

No wonder my body hurts so much now. Maybe I'll get used to this. However, I have to be passionate for my future and Andri for her name has children. Yeah, I got to be excited.

“Hem, how is mom? Since that day I called, I do not know news mom.” I took my bag and reached into the contents of it. When the phone was in my hands, I immediately contacted my mother.

I waited long enough, only the sound of the tone was connected across the street but there was no sign of picking up my phone. I shut it down and I'll call you back.

“Aisshh, ck!” hisisku's upset.

Neither his mother nor Andika raised him at all. Their numbers can be contacted. I just wanted to hear the news but no one picked it up at all. It's okay, preferably from now on I have to prepare beef soup for Andri.

It takes a long time to cook it. I think I can start now. My hands are also itching to cook.

I went from the couch to the kitchen with a happy heart. I take an apron and I wear my clothes so they don't get dirty.

Then I started it all by peeling the onion and then slicing it thinly. That's when it all happened. I don't know what because I'm too happy or I'm not careful in working until my index finger is sliced too.

“Aw!!” my screams.

I immediately stopped my steps and saw the blood on the index finger had come out. I walked to the sink to clean up the blood. I think it's pretty painful let alone I slice it pretty deep.

Suddenly my heart felt a terrible taste that was incredible. I don't know what it is, I don't understand it either. The water in the room I let flow and my mind drifted somewhere. What I am thinking now I do not know. I thought about my unclear feelings.

The pleasure that I just felt suddenly turned into confusion and doubt that appeared in my heart. I wanted to avoid that thought but still it kept haunting me.

Why since Andri there's no feeling I'm getting worse. From my wedding photo that broke by itself until now my hand is sliced. I think it's all because of accident. Could be.

Go Keisha. Don't think anymore. I don't want to think about what I did to Haikal anymore. Of course this would make me ashamed by itself.

Be aware, you have to think clearly.

Don't think ugly just because of something. That's not very good.

Remember, nothing will happen. It's all just a coincidence nothing's really going to happen. Don't assume that there's no point. Yeah, I'm sure of that and I'm pretty sure.