FIZAH (Female Kolong Garbage)
PART 103 "Mother's Excavators"

*Hafizah Palace

Three days later the reply arrived. Ufi ma'am who received a letter delivered by the postman. He instantly gave it to me as I rested in the room after washing the clothes of Bu Nyai Ridhaa and Kiai Bahar. The letter has now moved into my hands. I always imagined the answer of my mother who was in line with my mind.

Assalamu’alaikum, Fizah.

Healthy to, Nduk? My mom is very healthy. My mother's children turned out to be many who like to turn to Gusti. Ibuk until confused to answer piye (how). Before I answered, did the opo (what) do you like the man? When I read his letter, I praise him a lot. It was as if he was a good man. Nduk, but if Ibuk is told to be honest, Ibuk kok still srek (suitable) with Mas Nizam. Soale Ibuk knows him well. Yo at least I understand a little of her background, the way she communicates and treats others. The actions of a man's horn (criminal order) are commendable. He is enthusiastic about helping our family. Knowledgeable, godly, handsome, simple, and well-established. Gusti, sewu siji (one thousand), Nduk. Ibuk said this does not mean that sampeyan must be endowed. Ibuk just expressed an opinion like sing until asked. About that Yazeed...I can only judge from what you tell me. Equally good, but different status and life experience. Now Ibuk asked, which is more risky to live with Mas Nizam or Yazeed? How many problems might be possible until adepi (faced)? Well, I can take that into consideration. Sasane Ibuk remained as usual, Ibuk leave the final decision to the sideyan. Ibuk manut as long as sampeyan steady atine, parents, and family ndalem cottage - no one objected. Yesterday Mas Nizam helped Ibuk sell in the market, Nduk. Mugo-mugo tansah pinaringan healthy inner birth (may always be given healthy inner birth). Titip salam kanggo (for) ndalem family. Assalamualaikum."

There is no definite decision. Half upset because my mother still praised Mr. Nizam. But, it was also natural that my mother did not directly approve. It would feel strange if my mother immediately agreed. Because approval indicates that mother is ready to resign. My mother had never known Yazeed. Even though my mother gave me some leeway to choose, but there was desire. I'm gamang.

Am I ready? Am I ready to accept all the things about Yazeed and his past? Didn't Yazeed have a very hard and struggling background? Also a bad marriage. Question after question came up shortly after my mother told me to think about it again. Then, is marriage also the one thing I fight for after I get out of the trash? Didn't I have many dreams like Gus Fakhar said? Am I not seventeen years old? It's too early to think about marriage even though I'm about two human relationships. But, I welcomed with all my heart when Yazeed came to propose.

"Mister, seriously? Must have thought about yesterday's proposal, right?"

"He.em."

"I give you advice, yes. You were a kid. Seventeen is out of High School. After all, reproductive health is vulnerable for young married people, the baby immediately has children. Santri here many lo who are your age. But, they are still focused on the mole. Search sciences. Mending gini, Ma'am Iz. You challenge Gus Yazeed. If he is serious, he will wait for you. Gus Yazeed lo is not old. Still young too. In the past he said Gus Fakhar married at the age of two to two if not two three. Uh, two two two. Not deng. Two three. Hmm.forget me. Anyway that range. Mosok waiting for three and four years is not impatient. How's it? My advice is no one comes in? Sory, Iz. Just let you accompany me in a match. No, uh. Singleillah." He laughed softly.

Ma'am Iza has a point.

"But I'd like to ask Gus Yazeed to wait."

"Testing the seriousness of the man. Hehe. Even if tested kiai child. Prenuptial loyalty test."

"What should I say?"

"Easy. By the way, focus on rote and focus on ngabdi. Nor has there been two months. Memorization is still early. It's good to do."

I'm mangosteen.

"Eh, but I think you really have the intention to accept Gus Yazeed, huh? If I see, kayane is."

Ufi ma'am smiled. "You've got Gus Yazeed. I got Mr. Lecturer. Kan, they are rich twins. Is there a chance that they're twins apart?"

"Love gus to. It's polite to call your name directly."

"Sorry habit."

"Hayo ever tell me what the hell, Ma'am Iz? That's pretty close, huh, to Gus Yazeed?"

"No. Notwithstanding. It's just that if it's not wrong he doesn't have a twin."

"If he doesn't know what?"

"But, cook yes, Miss Fi?"

She laughs. "No need to be serious, Ma'am Iz. Joking doang. Sometimes we ask this to Gus Fakhar. I understand that well."

"You are the one who is nanyain."

"Yes yes. You don't dare the most, do you?"

I'm just smiling.

"But, in hindsight, yes, it was Gus Yazeed who often met such rich women. If he is his wife, he should be jealous all the time. I'm not ready, ma'am. They are all beautiful." He laughed again. He continued speaking, "The Yazeed Gus is unique. Gus who does not look rich gus. I salute also with all the life stories he set up the lodge even though I heard first it felt strange. I also salute his desire to keep looking for a life partner after one failure and two deaths. If it is not a typical man who is persistent in fighting for something, Kayane Gus Yazeed will not propose to you, Ma'am Iz. Allahumma nularlah want rich you, Ma'am Iz. Know how to apply."

"It feels confusing."

"Bingung if many considerations. Yes, if everything is clear, go straight. You are confused, that's a sign you are told to really think about it with sa-ngat ma-tang. This whole life thing. It can't be used as a toy. Therefore, Gus Fakhar also if asked to marry with Ummik innate weight. He knew the consequences after that. Gus also understand that the burden after marriage is not small. Although raised together. Gus Fakhar originally wanted to focus on science first. Soale, right, he has not thought of marriage as well. I want to go to college with that bus. Rich you, Ma'am Iz. But, you want to go to college far away. To Netherlands. Deeeh, the distance between continents. Have you ever thought about not being able to go to the Netherlands for real?"

"Hehe. Don't know million, Ma'am. That wish I almost buried deep."

"Wallahu a'lam too, anyway. Plans often don't match expectations."

"Message Gus Fakhar although I can not go to the Netherlands, but the ideals of memorization must be realized."