FIZAH (Female Kolong Garbage)
PART 141 "Kang Toyo's Custody"
*Hafizah Palace
Gus Fakhar asked me to bring the crackle bag he was holding. I refused, but his gaze was pushy. I was told to tell the truth if he was the one who bought it. Looks like I'll be the topic of the santri this week. Not even in the chaos this morning. After I got out of the cottage long enough with Gus Fakhar, I brought my groceries home. I sighed while leaving from his side. That big smile was just a thin smile. Yes already. Face it.
I thought I could sneak in safely as soon as I got back. It turns out tonight's activities are free. The santri were drenched in the hall like useless goods. They do just about anything, from the most beneficial to the unfortunate. Scrambling making rows while massages. The other row there are eight people brushing each other's hair front friend, nyari lice. Some also shouted that instant noodles were ready. Because of the mouth that wants to be gagged with food, but everything cooked by santri pickets is up. The noodles in the large basin were placed on the floor. Immediately welcomed with joy.
"I pok o yo want kilo." He urged the crowd.
Translation: (I also want to lo dong)
Others offer coconut biscuits that are wrapped in red. Also abon biscuits. Some new instant noodle chips directly grab a pack of biscuits abon. Opening the package while pointing at the expression of piquancy.
"Joooh iki lomboke sak bakul dikabehne opo piye? Pedese koyo - demet."
Translation: (Joooh this cabenya setoko put all what how? The spiciness of the rich demon)
I'm confronted. Madam Furi and the others are like security guards. I was barred from entering the room before I explained where. They must not know that I'm allowed. They know I'm truant or some kind of date. No wonder I was talked about. Where there's santri out till night. Bringing back clothes like swimming.
"Sir, I'm sleepy."
I forced to remove Mbak Furi's stretched right arm, blocking the door.
"Religion. What is that you brought?" ask Mama Furi.
"Where was that?"
"Santri-santri on talking you heee."
I'm trying to be sick. I'll show you my lunglaiku face.
"It." I just gave you a crackle bag with the name of the shirt shop.
Mba Furi cengengesan. I feel satisfied that I prefer to give up. I'm barging in. I want to roll out the blanket and then sleep. But, I remember not praying yet. I heard santri's rags say my name. My ears are comfortable at the same time also understand. I felt strange myself for acting like this morning. So resigned when Gus Fakhar pulled my hand. In fact, someone said, "Cie's just dating." I looked at him as he directly shut his mouth. He mocked.
Continue steps. Ignore them. Duh, I just want to turn around. My heart's beating. I passed by Ning Ulya's sour face. Cynic glance. My footsteps became a rage. Better to say hello or not. I slightly lowered my face, but I knew he kept looking at my face like I was hoping I would stop and explain something to him. But, I'll stutter if I talk right now. I'll look suspicious. And, there's no way she's gonna greet me first. Women will definitely be prestige to do it because it's obvious I'm the one who looks wrong.
No one in the bathroom talked to me. They are like mute men. My glance is unusual. Between ignorance and curiosity. They kept quiet, but the way he looked at me alternately translated a request. I feel like I'm being ostracized. There was no way Ning Ulya could talk about me with the other santri. Or, they directly accused me of taking a chance in a narrow. Again I feel the sense.
Precisely because of free activities, santri-santri is still joking. Half eleven nights. Laughter they kept the mood quiet. I want to think clearly. If the DNA test results show the truth, I have to behave. And, what do I want to say to Kiai Bahar and Nyai Ridhaa's Mom? What will I ask them too? Should I force my mother to stay in this boarding school without having to let my mother work hard every day? Because, here my mother will not be tired either.
I stopped melting eyes. I told you honestly what Gus Fakhar had asked for, though not entirely. But, I asked my roommate not to reveal it to the others. Even if it's on the manager. Especially in the other room. I can't guarantee they'll trust me and keep this a secret.
Early in the morning after dawn, I got a messenger to ndalem. It was Ufi who told. I thought I was asked for a massage or something. It turned out that someone was waiting for me in the front saung, said Gus Fakhar who told me not to be alone to meet him. It's so strange that guests come this early in the morning.
I arrived in front. Semantara, Mbak Ufi watched me from the front of the terrace. I know who that man is. Of course I'm surprised. My heart was angry that something bad had happened.
"Kang, what's the tumben?"
Kang Toyo is serious. He took out a piece of paper from his shirt pocket.
"What is this, Kang?"
"The deposit from Gus."
"He's conscious, Kang?"
"Yet, Ma'am. Please pray for it."
Kang Toyo is up. I'm postponing my question. He seemed to want to say goodbye soon.
"Go home, Ma'am."
I nodded and thanked him. I put the paper in my blouse pocket. It doesn't. I'm back in the saung. It's safer there. Ufi ma'am who I want to wave, chose not to be curious. He disappeared before I waved.
I openfill. The deg!
Zah, this is what Toyo said. I still have a hard time grinding my fingers. I had a dream last night. I saw two women standing in my direction. One of them I didn't see clearly. I'm going your way, Zah. After that I was sure I should have made up my mind. I'm ready to wait for you. If I'm cured, I'll help you figure out who you really are. I seriously. I never mess with my words. Prepare the answer, Zah!
The DNA test results will come out later. I'm riled. But, I was happy to imagine his enthusiasm wanted to make me happy. It was as if he understood what I had not said. The shadow of my future was fixed on his face. There's a little faith that's been planted, maybe he's my soul mate. Even though he was a widower, I seemed to want to ignore that status. But, briefly. I pushed my mind away from imagining it too far. Nothing is certain up ahead. I need to strengthen my heart and mind.
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