FIZAH (Female Kolong Garbage)
PART 51 "Almost at Zero Point"

*Hafizah Palace

Since the conversation with Mr. Nizam after coming from the market yesterday, I thought hard how to offer that to Ratna. And, clearly Ratna must know first the actual condition is how. However Ratna experienced, but I also felt her shock later.

My mom yesterday afternoon took me and talked seriously in the back of the house. My mother repeated the offer Mr. Nizam made yesterday. Maybe Mr. Nizam deliberately told my mother that Ratna and I had little reason to refuse.

Tonight, when Ratna and my two brothers are asleep, my mother and I are still doing the kitchen work to prepare for tomorrow's sale. My mother cooks vegetables that are sold for tomorrow, while I wrap the fruit into plastic, sold per kilo.

"Zah, if you get a mate later, Ibuk really want to be accompanied by a sideyan, son."

"Clearly Ibuklah. Who else is it."

Mom smiled. "Your father used to be wise so that whatever happens, our land should not be sold. That's for your future, Eldest, and Bungsu."

"I haven't thought much about it, Buk."

"Son, Ibuk is not what he was. Sampeyan can now decide your own wishes. Ndak. Sampeyan wants rabbis (marital) or stay in school until college also Ibuk no problem. One thing I knew. There are people who just come to our families, offer us a lot of help without us asking, son. Think of yesterday's offer."

"I haven't talked to Ratna, Buk."

"Tomorrow morning talk to that Ratna."

"I'll try tomorrow."

To be honest I wanted to be honest with my mother, but somehow every time I tried to take out one opening word, her whole body was tapped with fear. If my mother is still tight-lipped, it's because she believes in me so much. I'm sure the news from Bara yesterday must have reached my mother's ears, but my mother didn't mind it.

Next day.

I approached Ratna who was still pensive in bed. He rubbed his stomach which already looked a little bulging.

"My stomach why does it feel like it's still gini, huh, Zah?"

"You want to get out of here, right?"

"Do you have a solution?"

"How about we go overboard."

"Living in the dorm?"

"Living in the pesantren."

Ratna was silent for a few seconds. Then, connect, "Where's the boarding school?"

"We just have to say yes to Mr. Nizam."

"You mean we're taking Mr Nizam's help?" The tone is a little high.

"sorry. But I'm not too happy either. I said I'd talk about this first with you, Ratna. We'll be safe there. We can also study religion. We are surrounded by good people. They won't know what our background is as long as we keep our mouths shut. Believe that!" I try to give steadiness with earnestness.

"I don't trust him anymore."

"You mean?"

Ratna mute.

"Mr Rubia? You don't like him?"

"After the debt collection, I no longer believe in Mr. Nizam. He's the same as the guy there. He's probably just like Mr. Su and Judge."

I frowned. "What's? I don't understand."

"Ratna, if you had known Mr. Nizam had sent the letter, you would have been angry with me. You'll find it hard to believe, "my inner self.

"I know he's a stranger. We cannot trust him completely. But, my mother's message, this opportunity won't come twice. Even if Mr. Nizam has bad intentions behind us, we should ignore them. But we can take advantage of the offer. It will also benefit us. I'm just like you, Ratna. I'm a shelter worker from my mother's turmoil. But I can't leave without you. We have to have one goal. Come with me out of the house!" I got up straight away. Clutching hand.

"Make what?" Ratna held back. Not to rise.

"For us to be brave enough to face people. I still dare to go out to the market. I want to go around the village. You're coming with me. Is it so horrible to meet them."

I groped Ratna's hand without her permission. I told Ratna to walk quietly by my side. But he remained reluctant and reluctant. His head did not dare to move much to the left right. If I don't hold back, I'm definitely like Ratna. However, Ratna just wanted to hold hands with me. I might have to be able to for someone else who needs me.

"Mongo, Mbah!" I greet.

"Fizah iki?" (This permission?)

"Enggeh."

"Casel, Nduk, lehmu kerjo?"

Translation: (Your job worked, Nduk?)

I'm just smiling.

The man behind me asked the same thing. One person behind him came closer, wanting to hear my answer.

"If it's a success for the news, Zah. I'm going to work in town too." As they pass.

Two more passed before us. But finally turning his head, asked, "You're not working with a Judge? How come you go home first? No gasps?"

"Hmm." I hesitated.

"How much is his salary? The judge said the salary of the Judge was a lot. Different rank? Are you a laborer?"

The other whispered, "We've heard the rumors. The judge doesn't really work."

"That's still he said," concluded the person who spoke earlier.

"Lha yo how? You already know, don't you, Wit?

"I'll excuse you, Mrs Wit."

"I was suspicious too. But, sometimes I think Fizah's figure also wants to work in a place not really." The whisper still sounded in my ear.

I keep moving forward.

"Why do they always ask that, Zah? We're not gonna be here, Zah. I'm going home again."

"No. Let's try to keep going. The judge is different from us. Bede. Catch that!" I was also terrified of being pursued by the accusations. The truth is true.

I just shut my mouth too. We had to get back as fast as we could before they found out about me and Ratna. We are speeding up the pace immediately.

"How could Mas Hakim and Pak Su be in this village? What are their needs? Don't let them see me, "my mind keeps moving.

"Zah, Zah, my stomach can't be yanked, Zah." Ratna held onto her stomach.

I held her body. I helped him walk faster and asked, "Where? You still don't want to accept Mr Nizam's offer? I did not pour Mas Hakim dare to go home and he also brought Mr. Su. It's weird, Ratna. I'm afraid they're deliberately here to look for us." I'm a little panting.

Ratna could still connect, "There's no way they're deliberately looking for you all the way here."

"Oh, Ratna, Mas Hakim the house is indeed here. It's only natural to go home. If he intended to go home, there was no way he could bring Mr. Su everything."