FIZAH (Female Kolong Garbage)
PART 187 "Together with Friends"

*Tsaniya Tabriz

"If I'm born, he's asking me to get out of here. He said I was healthy. I'm healthy, Zah. He told me to go home with my family. He wants to help me meet them. But, Zah, there's one thing that makes me think sometimes.."

"Does his parents really want his single, established, educated son to marry a woman like me?"

"I once thought you were rich, Ratna. But you better not humble yourself like this."

"Well, but the odds are still uncertain. I don't know if he's introduced me to his parents or not. He said he only had one parent, his mother."

"If he comes here again ask that. How far he is serious about you. I don't want you to get sick anymore, Ratna."

"I'm healthy, Fizah. I'm not sick."

"Are you really healthy?"

"I've never been sick, Zah."

I relented.

"By the way you remember who your family is?"

"No, Zah. Their memories kept drowning. As if I can't remember them anymore."

"I always pray that you get the best."

He smiled again. "Then, you, Zah. How are you doing? I haven't heard you say anything in a long time."

Yep. I've kept a lot of things from him. He doesn't know everything I've been through. My marriage to Mr. Nizam, the arrest of Mr. Su and the Judge, and who I really am.

"Loof."

"Ehh.." She's surprised. His hand accidentally pressed my arm.

"Why, Zah? You sick?"

"Yes my arm is hurt."

When I wanted to say Sumarjo's name, I was afraid. I can't let Ratna's spring today disappear when she hears Sumarjo's name. The name will forever remain in his memory.

"It's not just a little wound."

I want to tell you everything. But, I guess it will be a very long conversation. I didn't mean to keep it a secret. But, that's already over. My and Ratna's affair with Mr. Su ended that night. It's just my problem that I have to slowly deal with. Ratna knew enough that she was healthy, had a future husband, and she was going to have her baby. He doesn't need to know the past that will hurt him.

"I'm doing fine. You have to stay well, yeah. Mr. Iman may be the best replacement. But, don't expect too much, Ratna."

"I know, Zah. I'm sober."

"No. That's not what it means. You are now focusing on the same pregnancy until your baby is born safely. Ratna, I am also very much looking forward to you being a mother to the fullest."

His sight fell to the ground. Lips curved. "Zah, pray for me. You are sohah. He said that if he were with God, his prayers would quickly be granted."

"You are also good. We can be good women together. Njai, pray, fast the way, right?"

"Lumayan. All because of Yazeed. Yazeed is good."

"Preasure. Take care. If you're born, don't forget to be told yes."

"Yes, Fizah," he answered, looking up. Stare at me for a second. "By the way you look now is different. It's more fashionable. You're beautiful, Zah, put on a robe like this. Is your boarding school good?"

"I lost beautiful to you, Na. It's okay dong."

"You can do it, Zah. Expect you too. You're always cool when you look at it constantly."

"There's a fan."

We laughed together. We haven't laughed like this in a long time. In fact, it seems like this is still the first time Ratna and I have been together in joy. Thank you, O God.

When I wanted to leave, Yazeed appeared from the gate. He was quite surprised to see me here. She greeted me.

"healthy?"

"Yes. I'm healthy. Yeah, I said yes." I'll get up soon. I don't know why I was so clumsy to see him staring at me.

"What's okay? There's no driver in front."

"Self, Yaz," replied Ratna.

"Kang Toyo, Kang?" yazeed yells.

"Eh, no, Yaz. No need to drive."

He doesn't think of me. He called out again to Kang Toyo in a louder voice.

"Here, Kang!"

"Where have you been?"

Why does Yazeed look so fierce. His face was half irritated just because Kang Toyo did not immediately answer his call. In fact, it's just a trivial matter. Perhaps that was the true nature of Yazeed.

"Take him home!" The way to tell even more towards a rough tone. Because I used to see his firmness, not his rudeness.

I'm stunned.

"So, Ma'am!"

"Not delivered anything is also okay," I said carefully. Half looked at how Yazeed was currently expression.

"Don't go home alone!"

Yazeed's attitude changed.

"Yes, Kang. Come on."

I dare not look at Yazeed anymore. I don't know why his attitude is any different than what he's shown before. I let out a breath. It's none of my business anymore.

A cheerful Ufi Brother's face was floating in my mind. With a woman like her, Yazeed might become a softer man. I am not the right woman to be with him.

Arriving at Al-Furqan.

"Kang, suwun, yam. Sorry to bother."

"Is there a show you're out, Mommy?"

"Suddenly wanted to meet Ratna. Kangen."

"Ohh."

"Kang, sorry nanya. Yazeed why just now?"

"Why pripun, Ma'am?"

"Behavior."

"Gus Yazeed is, Ma'am. It used to be worse. Now he is more calm. Especially since I know Fizah."

"Rubber, Kang?"

"Yes, Mother e. I'm saying goodbye."

I welcome.

Ummik. I walked quickly towards him.

"Jektas ko ngendi?" (Where have you been?)

"Darul Amin, Mik. Meet Ratna."

"Mik, where's Mr Nizam going?"

"Sampek dinone until rabbi, Mas Nizam pampitan want neng omah ae. Lek enek need, sampeyan iso ngabari liwat hape, Nduk."

Translation: (Until the day you get married, Mas Nizam wants to stay home. If there is a need, you can notify via hape, Nduk)

I want to continue the conversation. Answer of the missing keris. I'm not comfortable talking on the phone. But, it seems like this is better. I didn't see him until the wedding day.

"Nduk, Ummik pesen. Sampeyan sing tenanan lek njogo. Temptation kui puke iso ko any direction."

Translated: (Nduk, Ummik message. You are the one who really care for the heart. Temptation can come from anywhere)

What Kang Toyo said earlier, could be just one of the temptations that are meant ummik. No matter how Yazeed is to me, Yazeed is not my match. I don't know whose heart is leaning toward whom.

"Mik, I'm into nggeh."

"Come on. Maemo kono lo." (Yes. Eat there lo)

"Snack, Mik."

Ummik. "Sampeyan ojo dolan dewe Nduk. Ummik. Sampeyan arepe wedding. Wingi koyo ngono. Ummik wis krungu ceritane ko Mas Nizam, Nduk."

Translation: (You don't dolan yourself, Nduk. Ummik. You want to get married. It happened like that yesterday. Ummik has heard the story from Mas Nizam, Nduk)

"Sir Nizam story how, Mik?"

Ummik did not answer, "The Wedoke boy Ummik ki mugo-mugo paring kebaureksane Gusti Allah."

Translation: (This Ummik's daughter may get God's protection) Ummik touched my head.

Alhamdulillahot. Good night everyone.. Thank you for your prayers. Time to read this story. God willing some more part of the wedding day Mr. Nizam and Tsaniya arrived. 🙏😊🌹🌹