FIZAH (Female Kolong Garbage)
PART 204 "Pieces of Love"

*Tsaniya Tabriz

After reflecting on the words of the three guests who offended the household earlier, I also thought of my next life. Especially in a month. How many people will be happy and those who will regret their situation? If Mas Nizam turns out to break his promise, does he really want to get a sutra soon? The Koran that I hold I have not yet opened.

I heard Mas Nizam calling. The sneers reappeared when he called out to me. Or, when he approaches me like this. I can't say that I'm actually contemplating what Ms. Katmi, Ms. Marni, Ms. Situn said. My heart would definitely tighten by itself. My hair stands. This kind of feeling often happens after that second night. On this sixth night, I don't know what will happen.

Suddenly he stood in the middle of the door without saying a greeting. Nyut! Heart jumped. I reflexively say Istigfar Iirih. I was so scared when I was in a room with my husband. What's on my mind? I shifted my sitting position to the corner of the bed. It just so happens that the bed is not naked. This is also only a cotton mattress that is not too thick. He glanced at me while smiling. Then, sit cross-legged in front of me.

"Mass?"

He took my Quran before I gave it to him.

"Yes, Princess?"

"Can I have it?"

"Attent. Why are you so scared of me? You don't seem comfortable. Hmm?"

"Mas, I just want it."

"OK okay. Nopo, Ning?"

"Does Mas Nizam really want to have children soon?"

"Oh, that.emmm..." She smiles.

He placed my Koran on a pillow beside him. He took both my hands. Nyut! The vibe is great. I'm down immediately. I dare not look at him.

"It's okay, isn't it, I'm holding it like this. I will be wudu again. Just look at me!" He touched my chin. Slowly up.

"Ning, I'm sorry. But, if I can be honest, I'm always fascinated. What I said before to demean you, it all dawned on me. The reality is not like that."

"Then? That one, Mas?"

"Yes that's the reason. Because you're beautiful." He smiled clumsyly. Release my hand.

"So, not because Mas Nizam wants to quickly have a baby?"

"I'm up to you. But, I asked for help, yes. If next month is positive, you are not angry, right? Can legowo? Do I need to memorize too? Later we insyaallah college together. You're a student, I'm a lecturer. Ngurus children and the house together. If not, it means according to your expectations. We can still date too. There's also Mbak ndalem. No need to think heavy. Dibikin enjoy. Let's not get old."

The noise of my heart slowly swallowed. He managed to make me as calm as possible. Mas Nizam started to approach me. Stay in the corner so close to me. He just slashed it in my thigh.

"Start, Mom."

"Why?" He raised his head.

I'm straightening my legs.

"Oh." He went back to finding the most comfortable position. My back is my thigh.

But I can't move around. Confused to put both my hands where. He took my right hand. He stuck his ten fingers to my fingers. Placed on his chest. Kick him. The song is called nasamatu hawak.

نَسَماتُ هَواكَ لهَا أَرَجُ ... تحَيا وتعِيشُ بِها المُهَج

Perfume the breath of your love (Prophet Muhammad), awakening the heart and reviving the soul.

ما الناسُ سِوى قَومٍ عَرَفُوك ... وغَيرُهُمُ هَمَجٌ هَمَجُ

A group of people always remember you (Prophet Muhammad), some others despised for turning away from you.

God, God, O God

Man comes into the world in a state of poor people, as well as when he leaves the world also in a state of poor people.

"This is my favorite song. My mom sounds good. In jamaah yasin tahlil, Ibuk is always the bill."

"What good? It used to be a qori'ah like Mas Nizamkah?"

"Ooo no. Ibuk did not understand musabaqah. Ibuk's voice art skills are neglected. Understand that people do not know how to support children's talents. Knowing her son can najai and cook it is enough for girls."

"But, eventually the ability was sniffed at his son."

"Later to crush on our descendants as well."

I smiled bitterly. "Whatever the ugliness of the two of us may never leave our children later," I thought.

"You don't be afraid, yeah, same me. Oh yes, her face is not made beautiful ditu dong. How will I get smitten again?" He glanced up.

Nyut! My cheeks feel warm. "It's from the son, Mas."

"Because if you're beautiful continue to be..."

He sits. Approaching face. I want to close my eyes and turn my face. The cup! A sound that shook my whole body. He managed to grab my cheek. My body was helpless in an instant. I'll wake up soon. I still dare not return his gaze. I'm afraid I can't control myself.

"The cheeks are gini red?" He's laughing at me.

"No no. I won't do anything."

Early in the morning I had to get up to perform my duties before dawn prayers. It didn't feel like I was here two nights. Separate bathroom with room. I came out while walking around. Shame if you get caught by mother-in-law after bathing so early in a state of wet hair. It turns out that my mother-in-law is still reciting in the prayer room at the back. Straining with the bathroom, one place with the kitchen.

I took the time to say hello to my mother after the morning prayer with Mas Nizam. I wanted to help her, but my mother-in-law was not happy to hire me in a kitchen that was said to be dirty and messy. In fact, that was only the reason for my mother-in-law.

"It's hard to feel good, Nduk. You are the son of a man of honor. Better while here, you are diligent-diligent najai. Woh yes, Nduk, early in the morning like a nice walk to the market. Monggo if you want to go there with Nizam. Nizam would have to."

"Wow, I don't do that, Buk. I'm also his daughter-in-law's mother."

"Already, Nduk. Don't do any work. Here, you can only wash the dishes. The mild. Can't cook."

As soon as I saw the sink, there were no dirty dishes. The kitchen also looks clean.

"It's busy after the tahajudan and immediately clean the kitchen?"

My mother-in-law smiled. "It's common to live alone in Nizam, yes this is the life of Ibuk. Than idle. Mournfully. Mending cleaning the house."

"Sorry, Buk, because Abah Mas Nizam's request so must join the pesantren."

"Nizam's Destiny. Ibuk hope, hopefully his life will continue to be blessed because it is side by side with the scholars. With the righteous."

"Satur nuwun, ngggeh, Buk."

"Nggeh together, Nduk. Not here already. Later when the food is ripe I'll call you."

"The show's leftovers are over?"

"Much is given to the neighbors. There's still a basin left, but it's stale. Last night I forgot to warm."

I feel guilty. The little task that my mother-in-law had forgotten was my part. On the other hand, I am grateful to be met with a destiny like this. No one else did anything bad to me. There are those who want to do good to this contemptible me.

How's things? Stay healthy yes. Happy reading 2 newlywed eps. Also happy mother's day to all the mothers who are here. _____😊🙏