My Heart Was Wounded Deep
Chapter 29's

As soon as Rey gets out of the study. Kikan gasped, "What are you doing here" he asked

Rey moved awkwardly, and rubbed her face with one hand. "Sorry I think you know. I came in a few hours ago to check on you, I talked to you and you said. I've been in and out and hammering this-that and so on ....."

Kikan doesn't remember anything. He just remembered himself falling into bed. "Tempo?" the remark caught his attention, as he did not expect Rey to say so. Why is Rey hammering at her house?

Rey shrugged her shoulders. "Maybe I want to make myself useful."

"By..."

"Do a little bit of repair while I'm here."

Does Rey really have to see how she lives? Hopefully Kikan did not ask for his help when he was half conscious earlier, of course he did not mean that. "How do you know where to start?" He asked, as if Kikan was being indifferent, despite realizing that he looked so pitiful in Rey's eyes.

"Removing the coating paper is the hard part" Rey said. "There's still a lot to do. But I'm not working quietly, that's why I don't think my presence will come as a surprise."

"I never thought I'd see you again." Kikan explained, "I mean, not today. I'm preparing a room for Jason, just in case you let him stay for the weekend here. I wanted you to come and check it out when I'm done, but the room isn't ready yet."

"That room over there?" Rey turned towards the end. "That's for Jason?"

"Only if you allow, of course. I wish he'd visit once in a while. That's it. nothing will upset you or threaten your relationship with Jason."

The way Rey watches him makes Kikan wonder if he should just keep quiet.

"Know no, I don't always think bad" Rey said.

Kikan. "I'm not accusing you. I just wanted to make it clear I mean so you could start believing in me."

"It seems you can also trust me more. By the way, I brought you some soup, can we keep talking while you're eating?."

A bowl of soup? when he got out of prison, Kikan had prepared himself to ignore Rey's demeanor, determined to repay even rudeness with kindness. It's the only way Kikan thinks he can use it to build a relationship with Jason, but Rey is much better than he thought, and he doesn't know how to deal with such kindness, "You don't have to, but I appreciate your attitude. I don't want you to think that I'm trying to get close to you anymore."

"Your worried-looking face has shown me that it's not made up"

Rey's slightly hoarse voice made Kikan wonder what exactly was raging in the man's mind. He did not sound relieved, as Kikan had expected. But it seems Rey does believe him, so Kikan doesn't bother him anymore. "Thank you for your understanding. I may have told you, but if I haven't, I have no intentions towards you, no feelings left or anything. You and everyone else in town must be wondering. But don't worry, you're completely safe."

"fully." Repeat Rey, imitating what Kikan said.

Kikan wasn't sure how to react. Isn't what he said good news? "Yes"

Rey's expression dimmed. "You won't sleep with me again even if I'm the last man on earth. Understood. Thank you for telling me."

There was something strange again in Rey's voice. Confusing Kikan, Kikan thought, he had said what Rey wanted to hear, which would make the man relieved despite allowing Kikan to return to life. Even if it is only for the sake of their son. But Rey looks more offended than relieved.

"It doesn't mean I don't think you're attractive or anything" Kikan said. "I didn't mean to offend you."

"Of course not. Any woman would feel lucky to be with me. Any woman but you. Right?"

Kikan. Somehow, this is wrong. "I think you're handsome, Rey."

"Oh my God, Kikan." Rey rubbed her hands in front. "Will you...? stop? Just tell me what you really think and feel? I'm not the monster you imagined."

Kikan. "OKAY. Of course it's fair, I think I'm just trying to be honest."

Rey scooped up and leaned against the wall. "All right, and you need to know. I'm not going to use Jason as a weapon against you, so stop being so wary around me. I don't like to see you think I'm a bad guy. I'm not your enemy."

Rey looked like Kikan's enemy in court. But Kikan didn't say it. It has been a long time since he decided that Rey has the right to end their relationship. Maybe Rey used to think she loved Kikan then realized that her feelings were wrong. For anyone who is seventeen and nineteen, sometimes a relationship can go on like that. Break up again, come back, I love you, I hate you. They used to be so young. Everyone has the right to break up with someone else. He should have let Rey go.

"Trims."

"Eat."

"I'll eat. That you.." Kikan pointed to the hallway "..... Let me through." Rey stood leaning down the hallway to the kitchen.

Rey snatches. "I'm not blocking your way" he said. "Please!"

While walking sideways, Kikan was able to pass Rey without coming into contact with her.

"Well now I'm also considered biting?" said Rey. The man clearly realized how carefully Kikan was acting by stepping away from him, but Kikan pretended as if he had not heard. Rey doesn't understand what the consequences were seventeen years ago. He did not want to finally do what was once his vow. Not craving Rey's touch.

Rey stood motionless for a few seconds. Trying to catch your breath. Right now her body wanted to hug Kikan, calm her anxiety, reassure her that everything would be fine. Maybe Rey's body betrayed her. In his subconscious he so missed the tiny body.

During this time Rey did not enjoy the romantic atmosphere much. As a single parent, it would be unwise to bring home just any woman who interests him. And Rey hasn't been in a serious relationship for a long time. There was no date she felt fit into Jason's stepmother. Especially if Rey is not sure about the relationship.

"Is this the soup?" Ask Kikan from the kitchen.

Rey took a deep breath before answering. "Yep, it's chicken, after you've panned add chips and fried onions in the white bag."

"Looks good. You want? There's quite a lot"

"No, that's for you." Rey doesn't know when Kikan will feel strong enough to shop in the City. What else will he eat?

"You really don't want to?"

"I'm not hungry." Not hungry food.