My Heart Was Wounded Deep
Chapter 74's

How could? The two of them lived in a small town, and that meant the past would always be a chasm between them.

"Kikans?" Rey urges.

Kikan closed his eyes, but when Rey mentioned his name, he took a deep breath and opened his eyes. "It's been over seventeen years that I've had no contact with men. You know you're the guy. I can't do anything. I don't even remember what a man's body looks like, let alone what to do with it."

Rey's voice was suffocating. "You just want to deny whatever I say. You think I just want s***"

"No, I thought you meant well." Kikan argued.

"But." asked Rey.

"You also meant well seventeen years ago. I'm willing to sleep with you tonight, when we escape from normal life, that's all I can offer. Tomorrow we're going to continue everything as if this never happened."

"Don't say that! I can defy everyone, stupid with them, that we'll be together as long as we want. I'd love to do that fight, for our sake. But I must have you by my side. I need to know I'm fighting for something I can win."

Kikan. "No good will come with me. I can't let you do that."

"Gosh my god." Rey starts swimming to pull over, but when Kikan doesn't follow her, she returns. "I can't leave you here. At least let me bring in and warm your body."

After all, Kikan was indeed unable to remain continuously in the water. He no longer felt his arms and legs. "I'll catch up."

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I'm willing to sleep with you tonight, when we escape from normal life, that's all I can offer.

Rey rejected the offer in principle. But it was easier to do when the two of them were shaking in the cold at the lake. As soon as they rushed to Kikan's room and the woman covered her wet chest, it was almost impossible for Rey to remember why she had to refuse.

Kikan was the one who advised them to spend the night together. Rey won't urge him to do anything that leads to a physical relationship, not before he can do something to prove himself and know that Kikan believes him. Rey has to be careful with him. For various reasons, Kikan was no ordinary woman. But...

The sudden bravery Kikan showed made him off guard. It seems that the woman acted with reckless recklessness, putting aside all vigilance as if Rey would take something she wanted and then accept any punishment or disappointment that would follow.

That's not the right frame of mind.

That's where Kikan is, however, dropping the last remaining body cover, as well as his defenses, challenging Rey in an entirely new way.

" You swallowed**g right in front of my eyes," his eyes fixed on a pair of parrots****.

Kikan. "Isn't that why you came here?"

" I'm sure I refused when we were at the lake" Rey said.

" But you don't have to come to my room. I can shower myself."

Thas right. In her denial, Rey wants to take care of Kikan, wanting to make sure her body is warm, dry, and safe before going to bed. But now when faced in that choice again, he also wanted to feel Kikan's legs curled up on his hips as the woman's hands carried him in. And when Kikan took off his wet br*, the scene became an incredible magnet.

Rey's muscles stiffen as she holds back the fast-flowing testosterone in her body. "Then tell me, what risk will I face?"

Kikan was still shivering. "Risk?"

Suddenly unsure, Kikan crossed both arms, leaving his dal*pants in place. Rey recognizes it as one of the frilly outfits she bought with Devan for Kikan and wonders if that is also what Kikan wears in the pool. But it's a memory he shouldn't remember, not if he still plans to sleep in his own bed. Recalling the memories of how kikan grabbed her waist as Rey explored the warmth in the woman's body made her desperately want to do that again.

" Kikan's? Tell me this is okay."

Kikan's voice sounded hoarse as he said, "It's okay. I didn't expect you to leave. I don't even want you to go."

The look on Kikan's face radiated the truth from his words.

In addition to the wet boxer pants, Rey has taken off her entire outfit. After coming out of the lake, they were too rushed to stop and get dressed. They only stopped for a moment to pick up clothes from the ground. "Aren't you afraid to let me make love to you after all these years?"

Kikan's gaze fell from his chest onto the evidence of Rey's apparent passion behind his boxer. "I don't think this is inevitable."

Kikan feels the situation is inevitable if Rey breaks off their relationship after tonight. But perhaps the easiest way to convince Kikan of the opposite is to prove him wrong.

Rey walks into the bathroom and turns on the tap. "Come here."

Seeming extremely nervous now that she had decided this, Kikan bit her lip while already in the bathroom.

" You're beautiful" Rey said, and purposely touched Kikan's face instead of payu****. You know that, right?"

When Kikan grimaced and started to shake his head as if he did not expect such plentiful praise, Rey pressed both hands to the woman's cheeks and made Kikan look at her. "That's right."

" I have too many scars" Kikan said.

" It doesn't cover your beauty." Rey touched the scar on Kikan's stomach. "What's going on here?"

One of the muscles in her cheek seemed to move. "I was hit with a stick."

Kikan's attitude showed as if he said 'Accept me for who I am, or leave' as when they play billiar. It's almost as if he's deliberately showing off everything he thought Rey wouldn't like, to prove that Rey couldn't really care about him.

But Kikan was wrong. The not-so-interesting aspects of his life and past don't scare Rey, unlike they used to. Kikan's shadow lay on the cement floor and covered in blood, angering Rey at herself. Why hasn't he done more to help Kikan during these seventeen years? To make the punishment period he lived in public institutions is not too heavy?

" Why and how were you attacked?" ask her gently.

" Don't talk about my scar. It's not nice to see."

Rey thought talking about such things could help, she wanted Kikan to know that she didn't need to feel scared or inferior. Rey understands who and what Kikan is like. And still want that woman. "For me it's not like that. That scar is just a part of you. I hope you don't have to go through any of that..."

" Once," said Kikan. "It is better not to bring up the past."

" Okay, but other than the regret I feel about your suffering, I don't mind this scar or anything else." Rey moves thumb in rubber pants dal**Kikan. "What if I take this off?"

" When Kikan nodded, Rey pulled down the pants and looked at Kikan.

" Nah?" Said the woman, clearly inferior to Rey's silent observation.

" It's gonna be fun." Rey took off her own pants, then she grabbed Kikan in her arms and lifted him into the hot water.