My Heart Was Wounded Deep
Chapter 75's

Rey knelt in front of him. Kikan knew that a more confident woman, a woman like Cindy would probably clench her hands between the man's hair and pull them together to hold their lips together. He also wants to do that, wanting to kiss when Rey slams in.

But the experience taught him not to reveal what he felt, especially when it came to Rey.

He was motionless as Rey lifted him out of the water and smelled water droplets from the inside of his thigh. As her mouth moved up, the pleasure grew stronger until Kikan began to tremble, but she could not give Rey a boost by curling her body or groaning, or doing anything else. The memories of the grief, rejection, and humiliation that came after the enjoyment he had felt seventeen years ago were still too powerful, no matter how hard his efforts to get in the way.

"Didn't you like something like this?" muttering, his eyelids were heavy as he looked up at Kikan.

During that time Kikan closed his eyes, but when Rey spoke, he opened them. Rey asks why he didn't respond. He might enjoy this on his own. But Kikan couldn't even force himself to convince her that he really liked her. Very very. Maybe because he likes it too much. This isn't the crazy**** relationship he's ever imagined. Like a hit-and-run, but... It's slow and exciting. He broke all the rules he had set for himself before leaving prison, and those rules were the way to make sure he didn't get into trouble.

"Kicans? Did I not touch the right place?"

Rey knows what she's doing, but every woman is different. Not responding, Kikan realized Rey was astonished. But that's the problem, not Rey's. Although his heart was racing, Kikan felt... Frozen.

Rey is leaving now. You won't be able to... Living this through with him.

"I told you I suck," he said. "You don't have to stay here."

Rey squinted her eyes. "What are you talking about? I want to stay here."

"I'm too broken." Kikan goes to get out of the bathtub, but Rey holds him in place.

"I can't believe it" Rey said, then began to clench her lips again. The water flows around the bayu***Wikan when Rey's two hands hold the boko** it. Rey's tongue moved on her body. Kikan could barely breathe, but still tried to hold back. Somehow, diminishing the desire seems not as dangerous as letting the man how much he enjoys this. That must have been his mistake first. He shows too much need, is too eager, is too transparent, he cannot allow himself to be that weak again. They were only bodies, two bodies that moved due to instinct...

"Don't hold back anymore" Rey muttered.

"I can't."

"All you need to do is relax."

"I keep hearing my mom say I'm stupid."

"We've made you miserable. But you're trying to trust your mother again, " said Rey.

"You will reach *******. That's what's going to happen" Rey said, stretching Kikan's legs, lifting him out of the water again.

Kikan will do everything he can to hinder his own enjoyment. Rey has never been in contact with anyone trying to keep her distance. The woman rejects something she really wants, which leaves Rey confused at first. Even so, he did not need to linger to understand what was going on. Kikan plays physically, but not mentally. It seemed that he believed somehow that attitude would be able to protect him, keeping from being weak.

Tomorrow we will continue everything as if this never happened. Kikan was determined not to let this change anything.

But Rey has an equally strong determination to make the woman feel the intensity of their relationship, and see how she reacts.

Rey has never tried so hard to give pleasure to a woman, or felt so relieved when she heard Kikan scream.

Rey looks up at Kikan, triumphantly, and makes him realize that fighting this will only be futile and that tonight will change everything.

That was when he helped Kikan out of the bath and guided him to the bed. They did not even long ago dread the body. Rey has knocked down Kikan's entire defense, who is finally ready to make love to him in the way Rey wants. With passion and tenderness, and especially full of meaning.

Rey's gaze swept all over her body, looking at everything, as they did not turn off the lights. "I like to look at you." Rey lowered her lips to touch Kikan's lips and kissed him gently, sweetly. "And like your race." she breathed as her nose traced Kikan's neck and went down to payu. "And your scent."

Kikan did not dare to speak. He is too overwhelmed to express his feelings in words, terrified by what happens if he tries. What she needs the least is to tell Rey that no man has ever given her this much meaning. That whether they are together or separated, he will still love Rey to death. Whoever survives seventeen years, faces rejection and all the other afflictions, must do for the sake of a man and only one man. And for whatever reason, Rey is that guy.

Rey's hand catches payu***Kikan while sucking on it, and her other hand caresses Kikan's hair. Then Rey lifted her head and looked into Kikan's eyes as her fingers fumbled over a more intimate place.

"I've often imagined us together" he said. " In Dessero, in the pool, at night in my bed. But the truth is that I'm dealing with far more beautiful than all those shadows."

Kikan explores Rey's body. He thought this might be the only chance he could bring down the desire the man had aroused in him. Why not take what he wants too? Forget about vigilance and self-control and what might happen later. Add one more night to his little but precious collection of memories, this time with Rey as the man matures.

Rey looked rather surprised to feel Kikan getting more aggressive. So far, all Kikan has done is try to remind themselves that this might not lead them to something permanent. It was too much demand, and he had long learned from experience not to ask too much. But if you have to make love to Rey, maybe he will also enjoy the next few hours.

"Kikans?" Rey whispers. "What are you thinking?"

"I don't think. It's best not to waste time talking" she said, and felt Rey's body stiffen when touched.