Stuck With My First Love
The Fire of Jealousy

Once upon a time, my relationship with Vivi was strained. It happened while I was at the math olympics. At that time, I was consumed by the words of Feli, my younger brother in class XI who also participated in the math Olympiad competition. She said that Vivi and Aldi, they had a relationship behind my back. Even Feli assured me, the news was already widely known to the younger siblings of the class. I didn't believe it at first, but over time I started eating

Feli's Words. Feli also showed me a selfie between Vivi and Aldi, making me believe.

At first I held my suspicions to myself. But as Vivi and Aldi got closer, as they were taking care of the PMR bazaar, I became even more angry. Every time Vivi and I talked, she would always talk about Aldi. Praising Aldi. That's why, when Vivi and Aldi are dating rumors, there's a side in my heart that's afraid of losing Vivi. Because I know, Vivi also ngefans Aldi.

My anger grew so much that, as I was preparing for the race in the physics lab, I saw Vivi and Aldi walking together. They look very familiar. Then when Vivi stumbled over a stone, I saw Aldi swiftly helping Vivi. They hold hands together. And Vivi seemed to smile happily at Aldi's help. Seeing that, it felt like my heart was burning with jealousy. I was angry, annoyed and very jealous at that time.

Until the end, I couldn't hold back my anger towards Vivi. I snapped him in front of friends. I also said rudely to him. Things I never did to her all this time.

Seeing the look on her face that was about to cry, made me sad.

But I was embarrassed in front of him. I humiliated him in front of my friends. I wanted to apologize but I was proud. Let alone seeing Aldi get into my class calling him to a bazaar meeting. My anger is becoming more and more.

During the race preparation, my emotions got more and more out of control. My annoying nature relapses. Preparing for the Olympic Games is falling apart. I get angry for no reason.

My best friends Dedi and Daniel always remind me to apologize to Vivi right away. But I refused. Anti also always urged me to improve my relationship with Vivi. But due to the approaching race schedule, I decided to postpone mending my relationship with Vivi. I can only ask Vivi's situation through Anti, although Anti has repeatedly said she doesn't want to help me before I apologize to Vivi.

Turns out I'm the 1st city-level Olympic champion. My plan to make up with Vivi, it finally has to be delayed again. My mistake continued to delay apologizing and mending my relationship with Vivi, making my relationship with her even further. Many people said we broke up.

At first I let Feli always be by my side, just to make Vivi jealous. Turns out I was wrong. It is precisely me who is increasingly jealous to see his closeness with Aldi. As the two of them walked both past the physics lab, where I was preparing for the race, I felt like running after him, pulling his hand and telling Aldi to stay away from Vivi, because she was mine.

Every time they walked together, it made me imagine the times in XI class, when he and I often walked together to the cafeteria or anywhere. I miss those days. Times where he was mine. She's the girl of my heart.

Every day I regret my farewell. I was confused how to apologize to her. Because I've made him hurt like that. I feel like he won't forgive me. All because of my unwarranted stupidity and jealousy.

I watched from day to day, his body getting thinner. I also rarely see him smile let alone laugh.

The change in him made me sad. I want to feel like I'm hugging him. Clasped his hand and said I regretted our separation.

Ever since my relationship with Vivi, I've seen her getting closer to Aldi. I even heard they were made. But Vivi denies it.

At that time, after the preparation of the Olympic race, my friends and I deliberately played to a cafe near the school to cool their heads for a moment after being busy with the preparation of the race that drained time and energy.

“Capek yes sis?”ask Sandra

“Clearly.where does the wave last longer.eh, how about if we ngadem in cafe Zigzag now.you want ga?”bring Dedi

“Males ah.mending home aja”my answer

“Eh..can also tuh.ayo, I'm coming..who else wants to come?”ask Daniel

“Bby also kak.itung-itung ngademin mind. Let the contents ga mulu numbers, hahaha” replied Richard

“Iya.iya.bby also”ucap Ema.

“Oya, I was horrified that Sisil was also a bazaar meeting there.All of you I samperin to there” replied Richard.

At first I didn't want to come. I just want to rest at home. But when Richard heard the children say

the PMR bazaar committee also gathered there, making me finally come to the cafe. Because I know Vivi must be there too.

“Yes, I'm also in”

“Why Co? Want to meet Vivi?”guess Daniel told me then he laughed

Of course I'll come. I miss Vivi a lot. I haven't seen him in days. Arriving at the cafe, I saw Vivi was alone with Aldi. The other committee is no longer there. It made me angry to see the closeness of the two of them. Because they both sit next to each other. Dedi and Daniel tease both of them.

I accidentally sat at the table next to Vivi. And I sat facing Vivi. So I could clearly see her face that I missed so much. Her beautiful face always fascinated me. Dedi who always invites Vivi to chat. And every time they chatted, I did deliberately set my eyes to stare at him. Makes Vivi sometimes misbehave.

Apparently Vivi and Aldi are waiting for the arrival of Aldi's sister who will come to the cafe. The little boy was very close to Vivi. I even heard the kid ask Vivi when she's going to play again at her house. Makes me immediately wonder, has Vivi been playing to Aldi's house often? Are they already made?

I was curious about the behavior of Aldi's sister who showed something on Aldi's laptop on Vivi. Because Vivi instantly showed a shocked facial expression. What is Aldi hiding? What did her sister show Vivi that much Vivi? I was really curious.

Aldi's little brother makes me really upset. She may introduce Vivi as Aldi's girlfriend in front of her friends. I choked on my drink as soon as I heard it. I looked at Vivi right then and there. Because I need an explanation of what Aldi's sister said.

His sister also acted again by saying Aldi likes Vivi. The words of Aldi's sister actually make friends curious and more interested in knowing the relationship between Aldi and Vivi. The two of them immediately clarified that they were just friends. Makes me a little relieved because it turns out they haven't been like the rumors that have been circulating.

And finally I can only look at the departure of Vivi and Aldi who came home first with a heavy heart. In my heart I was very angry, seeing the girl I liked was even chatting with another man. I kept staring at Vivi's departure until Vivi was out of sight. Makes me feel like I want to go home soon.

“Hei Co..where is the rush?”asked Dedi to look at me who was getting out of my seat.

“I'm tired.I want to go home”I reply.

Feli held my hand.

“Go back later aja Co.mau ya?”invite Feli

I clap his hands.

“Sorry Fel.I'm really tired. Want to rest at home aja”abutku

“I first ya”pamitku on all.

I'll be home on my bike soon. And drive my bike to Vivi's house. Yeah, I went there. Because I want to see it from far away. While in front of the gate, I saw Vivi and Aldi chatting on the porch of Vivi's house. I finally came home with sadness in my heart. Sad because I can't see the girl of my heart. Sad that I saw him with another man.