Stuck With My First Love
Back Warm

The provincial olympic race lasted for five days. Two days of group. Three days of the semi-finals and final. On the sidelines of the group stage, our team chose to go home. Not staying for five days.

After the provincial race, unlike usual, he wanted to talk to me. Although still very light. I also answered as much as I. At first glance, his eyes were as warm as before.

That time, after the first hour of rest, Coco and Dedi sat at my front desk. Discussing the group assignments given by our Biology teacher.

“You want to know when is the task of Biological project?”ask Dedi

“Besok saturday-week how?”anti Tanya

“Saturday-week? Yes, you can.kan if we qualify for the group stage, we must return to the city of XX in the semi-final” replied Dedi

“You sick Vi?”coco asked me suddenly.

Honestly, I was surprised because he told me to talk first.

“Ah.enggak”

“Why silence?”ask again

“Emang want to say what?”

“Turn to the topic of conversation, what is the project task?”anti Tanya

“Ya already.we just wait for the results of their race.kalo they pass the preliminary means right Saturday-Sunday we can not fuss. Yes udah.we retreat next week aja”my reply

Throughout the discussion, I chose to look at Dedi instead of looking at Coco sitting in front of me. I choose not to get too close. I was afraid that getting too close would be too glare, making me as weak and sick as I used to be. I'm not ready if I have to be hurt for the umpteenth time with Coco's cold words and attitude to me.

While studying English, Aldi came with a meeting permit. By Mr. John he was harassed to mention anyone's name in the letter. And must ask permission to use English.

The basis of the Aldi is already good at English, it is not a problem for him to ask permission in English. One by one the names in the license were called and they stepped out of class.

Nisa, Nia, When, Me and .. Coco?.

I was surprised because not usually all core PMR managers called. But then I remember, today was the final briefing before the bazaar.

I also left class. In front of me Nisa, Bila and Nia had already walked first, together with Aldi. Coco's behind me.

Along the way to the PMR room, we met with other core PMR managers from other classes. Sometimes I see my footsteps and Coco go hand in hand, then Aldi slows down his path to be next to me. Coco stays behind me with Arman and Arsy.

Arriving at the PMR room we sat in the available space.

Whether intentional or not, I sat next to Coco and Aldi. With me sitting in the middle, while the two of them sat to my left right.

I try not to bother, because I am indeed a secretary, sitting next to the chairman of the committee. There was only one seat beside me. Even Coco took it.

Before the meeting started, Dani, the chairman of PMR periodeku mocked the three of us.

“Wah...sitting us today is like trying the three of them ”while pointing at me, Coco and Aldi.

“Iya.ya.as judge one wife two husbands”ledek Nisa.

“Ya.please defendant 1, convey his essay” said Dani mimicked the voice of a judge

I just smiled a little at the conversation of my friends.

Meetings begin. Opened by Dani. Then Dani let Aldi convey the results of the meeting and the development of the preparation of the bazaar which will soon be implemented. Aldi also delivered in full. I added a little too. Everyone seemed satisfied with our presentation.

Then Coco gave a little advice and input that I thought was good. I saw again the figure of Coco that I like. Calm, smart, and innovative. Sometimes he throws jokes that make the atmosphere relaxed and warm.

After the meeting, Aldi asked me to negotiate again. Improving our concept with a little input from Coco earlier. Coco took me back to class.

I haven't been able to answer, Arman interrupted our conversation.

“Udah, do not need to be disturbed. You will have divorced” joked Arman who really likes to joke.

Coco just smiled. I didn't see any anger in his eyes, hearing Arman's joke. She went back to class. I just nodded slowly without a word.

During PMR training, in the afternoon, her tumben also appeared. Follow training. Even if you do nothing.

Me and Anti sat next to each other. Coco and Dedi sat behind me. Sometimes Dedi invites us to chat. The atmosphere was almost similar to what it used to be, only the difference was now that we were not sitting next to each other anymore like we used to do.

When I was about to pick up something in my bag that I put in the PMR room, I didn't see Coco following me from behind. Arriving at the PMR room, he suddenly wanted to talk to me in one eye.

“I want us to talk” the door

“You said what?”

“ About…. “

“ Dooorrrrrr.

It wasn't over she explained, Feli and Sandra came. Two kunyil bullies. Feli tried to surprise Coco from behind. He didn't see me in the room.

“Eh, it turns out there is Vivi.maaf yes kak” replied Feli.

“You are disturbing ah Fel, sister Vivi is the same Coco.You want to talk right? “thanya Sandra

“Ah, it's okay.we're done talking. I first yes..” I also went and left the three of them

I choose to go. Instead of lingering there and must see the affection of Coco and Feli in front of my eyes. I don't want to. Mending I'm the one who left instead of seeing the two of them showing off their affection. Not long ago, suddenly my hand was pulled from behind

“We're not done yet.” Coco said as she held my wrist

I'm shocked. Because Coco held my wrist. I saw his face was very serious too.

“Detach Co...” my door to him. The handle is very strong. I tried to let go but I couldn't.

“Release Co...see, all looking towards us” my door while looking around.

Some of the other PMR's younger siblings and seniors were looking at us, whispering. This time he let go of my hand, and I left him.

I sat down next to Anti. He asked me about what happened just now. I just answered briefly. Coco sat back behind me. Until the PMR exercise ended, we didn't talk to each other.

When he came home from training, he offered to take me home. But I refused because Aldi had offered first.

“Vi..want you take me home?”ask Coco.

“Sorry Co. I'm home with Aldi”

“Oh..gitu yes.oke..be careful ya”.

I nodded slowly. Then Aldi approached me.

“We go home now sister?”

“Iya”

Once there was a sense of disappointment in my heart, why should I refuse his offer. We haven't been home together for a long time. This is a rare moment that I have been waiting for a long time. But what to say. I have already accepted Aldi's invitation.

When I saw Coco coming home alone, I felt like crying. I feel sad for him. I'm sorry Co!!