Stuck With My First Love
Reluctant Courtship

When we were PMR juniors, during the inauguration of new members, it just happened that Vivi and I were one group. During the retirement event, I, who was sitting a bit behind Vivi, really enjoyed the event because I was able to see Vivi up close without being caught.  He who occasionally smiled and laughed with friends while singing along with others, became a sight that I did not want to miss.

At the retirement event, my friends wanted me to represent my group. But I refused, because there was no piano. The musical instrument that I use. At that time the musical instrument provided by the committee was only a guitar, while I could not play guitar.

Finally, Arsy volunteered to represent my group. There was a slight feeling of disappointment in my heart for already resisting the wishes of my friends. Because then Arsy was adored like a hero by friends. Vivi also looks very happy, when Arsy is willing to represent my group. Especially when performing, Arsy continues to look at Vivi. His eyes full of love. Makes me really dislike. Fortunately, Vivi's son was less sensitive, so Arsy's gaze did not mean anything to him.

During the evening jury preparation event, we juniors were asked to close our eyes and tie our PMR slayer bandana as blinders. We were led by senior brother circling around the school area. I know we were only bullied by senior brother, because my second brother was also a senior PMR at my High School. So I don't feel surprised at all.

And when someone grabbed the edge of my shirt so tightly that we were led to the school field, I knew that someone was Vivi from the senior brother chat that led us. He's holding the edge of my shirt very firmly. I was worried about Vivi when I heard someone was falling.

Arriving on the field, because I was very worried, I dared myself to ask her how she was. I was relieved when I heard, that someone who fell was not Vivi.

Vivi and Anti's behavior is sometimes too much in my opinion. Those who hugged as if they had been separated for a long time, made me and Dedi comment. And he who doesn't like to hear our comments, looks so adorable when he's pouting.

Because Anti-foot slightly abrasive, Vivi forced Dedi to guard Anti when jurit later tonight, because Anti and Dedi one group. Dedi of course balked at having to guard Anti. But Vivi kept pushing. Made Dedi whisper to me, then,

“See your girl's behavior.force very”

I just shook my head to see Vivi's behavior that forced her desire.

Dedi was my best friend since childhood. He knows what I am the most. I can tell Dedi anything. That's why Dedi calls Vivi “my girls” because Dedi knows I like Vivi.

Vivi and I went to the toilet together while waiting for the night shift. At first I thought Vivi was a brave child. Because he had previously rejected Arsy's offer that would look after him if he was scared.

Out of the toilet, I meant to take her back to the field. But apparently the sound of my door knocking scared Vivi. He hit my arm many times. He hit me with all his might, making my arm hurt. I also left him alone. Perhaps out of regret for hitting me, Vivi apologized to me with a heartfelt expression.

Finally it was our group's turn. We were directed to the bamboo garden. I walk the back because of my biggest posture. Vivi walked in front of me. I saw Vivi smiling a few times at the chatter of my group of friends.

Arriving at the bamboo garden, my group was broken into 3 small groups. Me and Vivi last group. While waiting for her turn, Arsy had asked to exchange positions with me because he wanted to keep Vivi. And once again, Vivi refused.

I know for a fact, Arsy actually has a heavy crush on Vivi. That's why he wants a group with Vivi. Luckily, Vivi refused. If Vivi had accepted Arsy's offer to take care of her, I would have been heartbroken.

I was thrilled, when Vivi suddenly grabbed my arm after hearing the voice of someone screaming in fear. Although it was due to Vivi's reflexes or spontaneity, because I was the closest position to her but the incident managed to make Arsy jealous and no longer insistent on moving the group position with me.

During the wait for my group and Vivi's turn, Vivi was actually engrossed in chatting with senior brother who apparently was a friend of her cousin's sister. I'm not considered at all. They both talk together. I was only able to notice him who was engrossed in chatting with senior brother. I saw him laughing and joking with senior brother, irritating my feelings.

At the jury event that night, we were required to take a PMR bet hidden between the gravestones. Yes, we are required to test our guts through night jurit activities.

The senior brothers tried to scare us into using very creepy pocong costumes. At first he did not seem afraid. He walked down the gravestones in the tomb bravely. I was amazed to see this girl's courage. But when the senior brother in a pocong costume appeared suddenly behind him, he screamed in shock. Seeing her scared, made me want to protect her.

He hid behind me while holding on to the end of my shirt. After finding the assigned PMR bet, the two of us immediately left the tomb. He immediately let go of the handle, as soon as he saw the exit of the tomb. Our very short time together, left a mark on my heart. He doesn't seem to remember that moment.

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Vivi's beauty is a beautiful sight I don't want to miss. I like to watch him from far away. If only I had more courage, I wanted to ask him to talk. Talk about a lot of things. Ask her what she likes and what she doesn't like. I would love to be close to him.

When her beautiful hair was blown by the wind, it really made my heart beat fast. Especially if we suddenly look at it. My heart wanted to jump out of its place. His smile was able to brighten my sometimes volatile mood. And his laughter was truly a symphony that had a beautiful sound in my ears.

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One day, on Valentine's Day, February 14. As usual, there are girls who give me chocolates. With a shy smile they gave me chocolate of various shapes and prices. Some even gave me chocolate imported from Belgium. I smiled and accepted all their gifts.

When I saw her, Vivi looked at me. And when I realized I was looking at him, he who was misbehaving immediately turned his face away. Basic Vivi!

I do not really like chocolate and sweet foods, so the chocolates even I distribute to friends. Including Vivi. He who received my chocolate even dumbfounded. Why does this girl like to be dumb?

“Hei Vi?”tanya Anti while nudging Vivi's body

“Hah.iya.maaf”answerks.

I just smiled looking at Vivi's adorable expression as I dumbstruck.

“Dikasih brown tuh same Coco”ucap Anti

“Kalo want another, tuh also still a lot”

“Hei Co..kok even you share to us anyway? Those girls are going to give you?”anti Tanya

“Did you not pity them? Are they having trouble buying you chocolate? Even divided into”kata Vivi

“I didn't ask. They themselves are loving. So it's up to me what” I answer

“Coco don't like chocolate. Ga likes the sweet-sweet”sahut Dedi

“But I like you so is Vi”sahut Arsy who then sits behind Vivi

“Apaan the hell Ar? Ga connect deh”ans Vivi sewot

“I like the sweet. Because you are sweet too. So I like”ucap Arsy

“Wwuuueeekkk”Anti and Vivi instead make expressions like people who want to vomit. Makes me smile at the silly behavior of both of them.

As I was about to return to my desk, suddenly there was the sound of a storm—ribut from outside. It makes me curious too.

“What the hell is it? Big storm outside?”bima asked as she walked outside the classroom

From outside the classroom, a man appeared, my upperclassman carrying a large bouquet of flowers accompanied by some of his friends, smiling broadly into my class. He confidently walked in and stood at Vivi and Anti's table. Vivi and Anti I was very surprised to see the presence of my upperclassman.

“Suitt..suittt”

“Hei.silence you all”

“De Vivi”

“Eh Yes sis..what is it?”vivi asked with a look of shock and fear mixed into one.

“De Vivi beautiful.on this loving day, let me present my love sign to me” said my sister Candra.

Sister Candra then handed the large bouquet of flowers to Vivi. Vivi looked dazed and timidly received the bouquet. My heart feels hot, seeing the girl I like receive a bouquet of flowers and a deadly seduction from sister Candra who is also a playboy at this school.

“Udah Dra.ga need long-time.shoot only now”.

“Iya.tobak Dra..hahahaha”

Say some friends of Candra's brother who are warming up. Apparently Candra's sister wants to shoot Vivi to be her boyfriend. I who initially wanted to go back to my desk was not even back. I was standing not far from Candra and Vivi.

“Quiet-quiet”ucap sis Candra trying to calm her friends.

Meanwhile, my classroom atmosphere became very excited with the presence of IPS class brothers who invaded my class. Classmates next door are also on peeking out from behind the window glass and from behind the door. Want to see the continuation of the story of upperclassmen who are like bridal pageants.

“De Vivi beautiful..would you be my girlfriend?”ask Candra with a smile

Vivi I saw it was very uncomfortable when she was the center of attention of many people.

“Udah accept aja”

“Receive aja Vi”

“Iya de Vivi.terima aja”

The voices of the upperclassmen who came to my class made me very upset.

“Sorry brother Candra.do not be offended yes brother.I can not accept brother.sorry yes”ucap Vivi slowly

“Yahhhh.

“Hushhh.you make a rambunctious aja.diem du”bolak kak Candra on his friends.

Then Candra looked at Vivi. Makes me feel like I want to just pop her eyes. How dare he shoot Viviku.

“But why de Vivi?”ask sister Candra in a soft voice to Vivi makes me very sick of this one playboy behavior.

“Sorry brother.but we don't know each other. Sorry kak”ucap Vivi is a little scared.

“Kan can acquaintance first, de”

“We are friends yes kak”

“Ya is it.kalo it's your decision. I'll take it. But you want to accept my gift, right?”ask Candra

This person has been rejected is still insistent. If I were Vivi, I would have thrown away the flower bouquet and the chocolate box. Just make me emotional..

After that brother Candra and her entourage returned to her class after successfully making a furore in my class. I heard before I went back to my desk, Vivi said to her friends,

“Kok not accepted anyway Vi? Sister Candra is an idol of class XII, sakep you know.you must match”ucap Nindi

“You've been there with Candra”

Nindi pouted hearing Vivi's words. The other friends laughed out loud at Vivi's reply to Nindi. While I was just holding my laugh.

“You don't want to date Candra Vi?”ask Bima

“Iya.lagian I also do not want to date until I pass SMA”ucap Vivi

“Emang why?”ask Arsy

“I want to focus on learning. Tar if already in college, then I want to date, hahaha”ucap Vivi on Anti Bima and Arsy

Apparently Vivi just wants to focus on learning. Makes my heart on one side happy, because that means she's not going to date anyone. But on the other hand, that applies to me as well. If I shoot him now, when I'm still in high school, then I'll also be lucky like Candra's sister.